Ramblings of a mad, young nihilist who is up at 2am writing this crazy shit because I can't sleep from a shitty sleep schedule and heartburn most likely caused by drinking too much of my friend's mom's fireball and all of her spicy Tex trailmix.
This will be posted in 4 parts because I somehow managed to type 5000 words of insanity on my phone.
Why do people post here other for enjoyment? We have already lost. It doesn't matter what political party you are. It doesn't matter if you are a libtard or based and redpilled. It doesn't matter if you are an NPC. It doesn't matter if we live in an all white Utopia. It doesn't matter if we live in a race-mixed cesspool. Race is irrelevant. Someone is always pulling the strings. People here call them Jews, it's irrelevant what they are titled. There will always be problems that are unfixable. The media and the internet are the true downfalls of the world. You might be an educated voter, but does your vote matter against a population of idiots? The population decides, and the population is controlled by shit blasted on their tv, their computers, their radios, whoever they talk to. The media and the internet are all capitalized, how could we possibly destroy them now?
The downfall of humanity begun with agriculture. Without the constant need to hunt, without the constant feeling of hunger, we farther plunge into these stupid fucking problems. Shit like furries wouldn't exist if we had to spend all day finding food. Politics wouldn't exist. We would be too distracted with the basics of life, survival. (If we did devolve, would we be like Africa and kill each other over and over again? Well conflict hmm). If we were still like our ancestors, we wouldn't think like this, but is that necessary?
Put me in the screen cap
Our greatest limitations are ourselves. Our bodies, our minds. We play this game of Life. The problem is reality. Humans run off of conflict and fear. We are scared of the unknown. To become problem free we must accept the nothingness - the unknown. Life is our problems. Society was formed from fear. Humans are powerful, powerful creatures. Rules of religion keep us on this planet. Why don't more people commit suicide? Is everything really alright? We have surpassed our biological commands. We must devolve or transcend to a new reality. Self is our biggest enemies, our biggest conflict. We were cursed with depth, the gift of thinking.
I am done with this game. I am done living for materialistic things. I am done living for abusing drugs for escaping. I don't want to get married, I don't want to have kids. The future is irrelevant even though I keep waking up. I don't know anymore why I have friends, or bother talking to anyone. I believe something made us, but my relationship towards this figure is irrelevant. I have strangled my conscience. I have killed parts of myself. I am a husk of the past.
Humanity is a plague. The world is drenched in gasoline, and we light it on fire everyday. To make the Earth a better place, we must eradicate our species.
I don't know how depression is naturally caused. I don't know how millions live this happy life. All I know is that I am depressed. We have made non-organic substances to make us feel better but (well besides weed, but hopefully you get the point) the thing that ultimately keeps me going right now is being described antidepressants soon. If these don't work, I will keep trying to find options. If nothing works I will self-destruct at this rate. I no longer care about myself. I struggle to shower and brush my teeth. Fuck, I dislike video games now and play wayless than I ever use to. I am on a quicker than living path to death.
Bizarrely, part of me wants to live. It feels “good” thinking about that. I am scared of the unknown. Part of me likes this torture. Misanthropes hate humankind, but at the end of the day we secretly love it. Everything can be broken down into a dichotomy. We need to have “bad” for “good”. I must love to suffer, I was gifted with the ability to overthink, which really does no good.
I don't want to live in this society, I don't want to live in a homogeneous ethnostate. I don't want what the left wants. My political ideas are a combination of left and right. I touch my peepee to content created by the porn jew, ahhahahah cause it feels good and waste time. I don't belong here. I have never talked to someone who truly is like myself, an extension of me. The weak must die out and I am weak. Natural Selection. At Least there is time to change.
I like cars, but I crashed mine as my safety is irrelevant. Drugs are cool, but they only make being sober worse. I am oblivious and destructive. Yet how am I aware, I am finally listening to these thoughts. I am scared of death.
How can we place ourselves above others?
Okay that is all, weeeeew.
>this will be posted in 4 parts
>phone fag
Sage
nobody wants to read your essay, newfag
Didn't read your diary entry fag, saged in all fields
I plan on becoming famous and changing the world with automation. It sucks but if you can become supremely intelligent and start your own business, you’ll have some control over small things
*schlop schlop schlop*
kill yourself
Based and Redpilled
The Jews are dragging this down thread down. The master has read something it doesn't like.
If Jews do in fact pull the strings then they are way better and benevolent than the ruthless kings and dictators our ancestors had.
>no one wants to read my drunken blog post
>Jews
Sage
Whoever pulls the string understands the power of conflict and how to use it. If Jews are the ones who pull the string, good for them. They are able to manipulate the goy to live an elevated life style. I quite envy the power and knowledge whoever pulls the string possess. They have figured out how the world works and have learned to yield from it tremendously.
Unfortunately I am sober, but here is a (((you)))
tl;dr burn the faggots
There are different types of dystopias. Root for the one you prefer (help to bring it about if you have the inclination) and try to enjoy yourself.
People don't commit suicide because of irrevocable pleasures on earth, eg: sex alcohol drugs money consumer goods etc.
These are virtually opiates used to keep citizens of the West in line, not dissimilar to how the British profited off the Chinese in the 19th century by addicting them to opium.
Put simply, it's not worth killing yourself when you can go out and get drunk or high or laid or a new iphone and set off that dopamine in your brain.
I'm convinced many people in the West (ie not NPCs) actually know that this is the case, that through generational, sociocultural, and economic happenstance their lives are ultimately meaningless - as it's not that they can't achieve anything, it's just there is nothing left to achieve.
>t. Jean-Paul Sartre
Also, bump because this is actually a good thread.
wow such deep
>besides weed
You forgot about psilocybin mushrooms, user. The natural anti depressant. Find yourself some.
turn your phone off . and delete your social accounts.