I'm tired of life Jow Forumsbros. Ever since I turned 21 I've become an alcoholic. I hate being in college...

I got a pretty good girlfriend a year ago but I'm starting to get tired of her. Always needing attention, random mood swings. I'm tired of my college too (I'm 21) and I want to do nothing but get back to home to drink heavily and eat like my stomach is a black hole. Also smoke cigarettes like crazy.

The thing is I sort of know if I cleaned up at least my diet and started getting back into fitness I would probably feel better but god I feel like shit and just want to throw back liquor and junk food

Times like these are the most important. Never forget this feeling. Engrain it with your very being. In the future you will one day remember how you overcame the bottom and it will be your strength. In the meantime, you need to find your way or and remember that is always bleaker INSIDE looking OUT.

Bro just get outside, go for long walks, get some fresh air and sunlight. You’ll feel a lot better. Long walks by myself is how I meditate when I’m stressed out about shit. Also you might discover a cool part of town you’ve never seen before
Oh and lay off on the alcohol

I feel you man. I worked all summer and while I hated the job I atleast felt rewarded. It was nice seeing the money flow into my bank account. Now that I'm in college it all feels so pointless. & talking to women feels pointless too as it never goes any farther either than sex

I hope you're right. My family has a lot of hope in me. If I were to let them down I'd just kill myself. They always thought I'd be the one to be successful. It's so fucking tiring though.

At 21, you shouldn't even consider a single mom. Believe me, when you're in your 30s or 40s and divorced, you'll have to deal with them -- but not before then.

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If you have nothing to lose, then why not try to advance your race and nation through actions that people who have everything to lose can't do?

I stopped reading at >I've been talking to single mom.

Kill yourself.

And here I was thinking the CIA goes to bed at 11 pm.

Find a church girl and fuck her for white kids.

Bro you have to start exercising, ideally in the sun. Go running. The endorphins from exercise plus vitamin D from the sun will make you feel FUCKING AMAZING.

CIA

I've taken up hunting and fishing. Truth is I've lost interest in modern politics. For the most part there is no political solution

>I'm just so tired of it all.
We have to live to see the crash so we can be the ones who rebuild

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dunno what you are going to do, but remenber optic matter.

There's not much. like I said I couldn't kill myself. i have family who does care about me and expects a lot out of me. it just feels bad to feel so deeply. a level that that they don't understand

>Based frog starting his day by browsing Jow Forums at the crack of dawn

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Exam this morning, waking up early to revise, spend time on pol :).

Anyway you can try to improve yourself to feel better, dunno if my advice are the best advice when you use Jow Forums at 6 h in the morning.

So you've bee drinking for 2 weeks now?

>Marry in your early 20's
>Pay alimony in your 30's

Bon chance with your exam mon ami.

Self-improve, user. Visit /sig/ for advice. Be the man that will own the future. Become the best version of yourself.
The pain will end and the sun will rise again.

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If you hate being college why stay there? What do you enjoy doing? What do you care about? What are your hobbies, if any, or what would you like to be doing as hobbies? Have you considered religion? We’re all going through battles my friend, the sooner you can start being kind to yourself the sooner you can allow healing to take place.
I recommend to stop drinking to get drunk. Also never drink by yourself, that’s how depression spirals.
Read more, go outside more, even if it’s a simple walk around the block. No one person has the right solution to your issues, but we all have experiences that we can relate to.

Hey man just keep pushing through and seek some help. Just do your best

I got scholarships so I'm just in college because of them. I do hate it though. If I were to lose my scholarships I would seek alternatives.

I know many anons probably have faced harder hardships than me. I need to lay off the alcohol but it's hard to see a way out of this. I'm very blackpilled especially after the midterms. After the seeing my birthplace of Texas nearly go blue I've lost nearly all hope.

STOP DRINKING and STOP SMOKING.

Do everything you can to force yourself to do this.
If you are sick of school, decide what you really want to do and do that.

1) You aren't gonna stop your lazy behavior if you don't have something productive to do with your time.
2) Everything is connected and is a cycle. Your shitty diet. Your shitty love life. Your shitty school work. You need to get it ALL in order.
3) You must COMPLETELY REJECT all this shit. Don't listen to this guyThe big lie is that you can be a degenerate in moderation. "Oh I just smoke weed on the weekends." "I could never give up video games." BULLSHIT. THATS A LIE. All of it is destroying you.

Fuck this shit bro. You can do it. YOU CAN DO IT! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

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>I have family who cares about me

I wish I had your problems, you fucking baby

Yeah buddy, I feel just like you do. I’m 21 and I’m in college, I still hate it tho, feel like I’m going nowhere. Plus I lost a parent recently so life has turned into complete shit. I feel like people like us need to talk to each other more often. We all should go on fb, discord etc so that we could help each other out at least with advice

I don't know man. If i didn't have family with high expectations of me it would be a lot easier to just seppuku myself

my parents are divorced and i've never been super close to them. but i've always felt like i was obligated to do better than them and if i had any kids i was suppose to raise them better than they did me. and i don't hate my parents despite the weird relationship i have with them they knew how shitty they were and hoped i could do better

Absolute monarchy is the solution. There is no answer, I think, in democracies.

Seems to me like you need to find purpose and meaning. Get yourself a King James bible and start reading the new testament and go to a protestant church. You don't need to do anything, you just show up and sit in a pew when the service starts. You'll find caring people there, like your family, and more often then not wise advice from the priest there who's available to talk.

I'm off to bed. Hope this helps.

find a church, you'll find caring people there.

thank you leaf i am protestant and live in the south but haven't been to church in so long

I doubt that they have the same problems that many of us have, user. I feel like people on here are much closer to me than any of my friends, because I feel like I belong man, I’ve never experienced anything like this before. Such a pity that I found myself aligned with such a fucked up place tho

>Third year
You are like a little babby watch this.
t. fifth year undergrad with two more years

When i feel depressed i like to watch art and thing like this. Maybe it can help people in this thread to see the world less centered around them

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nah man i know it probably fucking sucks no idea how you've made it that far

Beautiful, who painted it?

>21

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Am in a kind of a similar situation and I recently picked up smoking (3 months ago) and I am already a pack a day smoker (marlboro reds). I am going to end my misery in a year if things don't get better.

Haven't read any of the other comments but listen up user: don't neck yourself, you are so young and many young men are in your shoes, believe it or not. It's all fleeting. I'm 22 now and up until this past year I was struggling with suicidal thoughts and loneliness. I'm doing much better now and it's entirely due to self-improvement. Start by ditching the single mother, force yourself to quit drugs and alcohol. Try to improve every day. Good luck

kek i've been an alcoholic since before i was able to buy my own alcohol but i cant imagine what its like for you non-zoomer guys. thats why i want tips from you

Ivan Kramskoi in the internet they said.

Stop being a faggot.
A) Start a regular exercise schedule
B) Stop drinking by yourself
C) Meet a good girl now while you can
C) Finish college dumbass
D) Get a job and start saving money
E) THEN come here and complain.

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i like it user

C and D are almost impossible to accomplish, hope you recognize that. We’re all on pol after all

Go live in the woods. Forget your shit life and live alone off the land.

Set logical goals for yourself that are not unreasonable or super long-term. Like "don't drink for 2 days" or "talk to 2 people in class" or whatever. The idea is to achieve goals and gradually build up your self-confidence to bigger sobriety goals, or to doing activities that aren't about drinking. Visit a therapist.

Also join the communist party or I will gulag you

this is a fantasy of mine

This basically happened to me in my final years of university. I'm now near 30 and still doing the same thing. It doesn't get better or easier. The only real advice I can give you is to seriously get a handle on the drinking. Drinking makes it so much worse and you will only become a sloppy drunk to everyone you know, further alienating yourselves.

I've started to slow down but my drinking years have ruined a lot of potential on all fronts of my life.

imagine taking advice from Jow Forums

You think things are bad now...

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walk away... from the right.
Feels good man

Join a National Socialist movement in your state and get interested in protecting the white race. Hail Victory Comrade

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Me too,user. /SIG/, gym, martial arts, nofap, healthy eating all helped for a while but the shit catches up with you eventually. I'm so weary and I can't think or process information like I used to. I just gave up trying.

God that is sad to see. I loved watching his movies as a kid. Terminator 2, Brainscan, Pet Semetary 2.... fuck Hollywood and what it does to kids.

If you're at this point, get in a program, or a rehab facility for a month or so to clean out and clean up.
I did about 8 years ago after being where you are, and things DID get better.
And fuck AA, it's just filled with angry fucks that are forced to be there for probation. I couldn't stand it, and never went back.
Just find some friends for support, and you'll be fine user.

WTF ever happened to/sig/?

god Akira Kurosawa was so fucking based

That's how they want you to feel
>youtube.com/watch?v=7TivZYFlbX8

Which c kek

They pop up periodically.

>C and D are almost impossible
Fuck off. At the very least get some certification/training for a trade. Literally any guy off the street can go to their community college and do that and start making ~$40k/year.

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not OP but this speaks to me
fuck.

I won't tell you to kill yourself, OP. That's up to you to decide to do on your own and for me to ask nicely.

PLEASE kill yourself. You know you're nothing but a burden on your family anyway

I got a stem degree from a good university and I can't find a job :(
been doing manual labour for the past year as it paid more than service jobs.

hehe not really though i am op

Reminder that excessive dieting/exercise will give you brain fog, which is likely the cause of your poor information processing.

Eat an excess of calories every now and then and do something outside of your regimen, just for pleasure. It helps, imo.

Would have been better off learning a trade and making more money, desu... But you live and learn.

Lmao your self-imrpovement doesn't mean shit if you don't have a lot of money to ride out the storm.

i have done manual labor in the past but it honestly feels more rewarding. i remember at times hating it but it kept me occupied and it felt rewarding coming home each day feeling like i actually done something

Iktf. Alcohol sent me down a bad path. A few years of not being able to handle my liquor did heavy damage to my reputation. Drinking is awesome but literally nothing good ever comes of it.

Listen to me OP.

Get medical help!

Most likely you have a chemical imbalance. Possibly genetic. Talk to psychiatrists not psychologists. Talk to medical doctors that specialize in alcoholism.

Seeking advice from here will help but you need to also work on this as a medical issue.

Majority of young girls have kids now. No escaping it.

Put the sauce down and finish these last two years boy. This is just a fraction of your life. Don't screw up now. Time to be a man and do what you gotta do.

>im talking to a single mother
man better have been killed off in the goyim oil wars or some shit
even then..
yikes

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Wow you boys have yet to begin to live. Go to a nursing home and talk to old people. They have the best advice. Plus most lived thru the great depression, they'll get you straight.

Lord Jesus is ALWAYS here.

Why you kids think death is the final solution? Stop trying to take the easy way out. You have to live and be miserable with the rest of us. You figure it out as you go along.

>Exam this morning, waking up early to revise, spend time on pol
Good luck brudder

zactly, karma is forever, you just reborn with worse karma, the job is to extinguish karma not amplify it

read Camus Myth of Sisyphus