/GIOYC/ - Adding numbers was silly

My shyness is stopping me. You know how it is waiting for someone to text you and almost texting them first but then going naa, would be rude to bother my buddy who is for sure busy with other people and stuff and doesn't want to hear from you at all
Thats my brain right now

I'm just miserable. Currently overloaded with school but graduating in a few week and have a job when I get out.
Don't particularly care for what I'm doing but it's not bad and pays well.

But anything I do I don't see myself as not being miserable. I don't have dreams or fantasies. Me at my best is just a miserable blob of shit that does a thing.

I fear them Jow Forums they will come for me, sooner or later they will find something to break me, be it my skin color or the fact i'm straight they will hound me day in and day out like flesh hungry beasts, doesn't matter if my parents are poc, or that i'm poor, i'll be hunted until i'm outta this accursed place.

Borderline Personality Disorder is ruining my life, it's like everything is in "intense mode"

Bleh

I Know user I don't know how I had one train of though and derailed into a completely different one the point I wanted to make the point that this place gives you an absolute information overload and you become numb to things to a point where my body doesn't know what to do when disgusted now and I found that quite horrifying.
and that's what I meant to post when saying this site has broken me but my mind clearly went to other places.
Wait so let me get this straight and I hope this doesn't come off as too harsh but...
>Chad leaves you
>Bangs his side chick
>Gets her pregnant
>You are Jealous? Angry?
>The best way to deal with this situation is not to move on and find a better more loyal chad but to KYS
user I have no words other than if you are this prone to suicide I'm not suprised he left.
That being said, you need to stop caring about his life and focus on YOU, otherwise you will become one of those embittered women that have nothing better to do other than patrol the lives of others which is an absolutely horrid fate.

Avoid that life and if you truly want revenge or to get back at Chad let me tell you how
move on, find someone (hopefully not while on the rebound) have a stable and happy relationship with a little spice throughout to avoid it going stale, settle down with them have a few kids of your own raise them well to where you enjoy being with them and that to me sounds far better than suicide user.
(((Who))) user?

user regardless of how busy a person is if they truly are a friend of yours they will be more than likely be happy to hear from you to me anyway and many people i've known it's always nice to know someone cares about you to where they would message you without prompt.
If they aren't happy about it and seem to be more bothered about it than not they tend not to be a good friend let me tell you now so you don't have to deal with oneitis(es?) and a few negligent gfs.

So Tl;Dr is give it a shot user just as long as you don't spam them I'm sure they'll be happy to hear from you. Talk about stuff with them, organise something etc.
I know this isn't advice user but could you tell me what it's like living in "Intense mode" user?

You don't give a fuck about me. You and everyone else are the same, I realise that now. If you did, surely you would have thought to show it, or at least say something - but if you don't and I go, if you don't say anything and end up alone, you can make excuses.

That's all you have now. Excuses. Every one of you chucklefucks. I gotta get away from you, away from them. It feels like everyone else has gone insane around me. Is this what the peak of insanity feels like? To feel like the only one who can see things for what they are? Are my delusions reality?

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>I know this isn't advice user but could you tell me what it's like living in "Intense mode" user?

It's called splitting, basically there is no in between, it's either all or nothing mode. Pic enclosed.

Looks like I might have knocked my gf up. She's on the pill, but her period is 5 days late already. Doing a pregnancy test tonight to confirm.

From what you see and read I'm supposed to completely freak out as the guy here but I'm pretty calm. More worried about the burdensome procedure my gf will have to go through.
I wonder why.

Not only that it's everyday interactions are either too intense and even the slightest bit of criticism or rejection can send my emotions ping pong balling all over the place and I struggle to manage it, oh well.

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I want to go home.

I don't believe any of the shit dreams you give me. I know they have absolutely no bearing on literally anything and they are all only just to fuck with me.

I don't get it at all. Why would you put so much effort into this, so many resources... so much technology.

I know it's all fake. If there will be a psychaitrist that talks to me, it'll be fake. If it's an agent, police, anything, it's all fake. If there is going to be any event, it'll be fake.

I hope beyond hope that you fucking cunts won't be cunts about this when it ends. That you won't try to make some big drama filled event that drags on for way too fucking long. I'm hoping that you guys are smart enough to realize that I'm just not going to play along with it at-fucking-all so even if you do try something fucking retarded it's going to be a massive train wreck. I just won't do anything. I'll break the fourth wall and sit there and do nothing even if the world is ending around me.

So surely you'll be smart enough to play this straight and non-retarded. You take me to prison "for a few days" or "a few months" and I'll make it as boring as possible. You make it a zombie movie I'll just let the zombies bite me. If you make it a terrorist attack, I'll just casually walk from point a to b. I'll no for a fact, no matter how real it might seem, it's just not. If you want me to have a threesome with a tranny or whatever, I just won't do it.

I'm not going to play your fucking game unless you play by my rules. You end this as straight as possible. Someone comes to the door, tells me that it's over, takes me to the hospital where they will fill me in while you fix all the fucked up shit you've done to me over the course of a life time.

V
Stop obsessing over him, can't you give me a chance? I'm here, he's just online and you will never meet. I love you and he treats you like dirt. 28 and still living with his parents. I'm younger and I have lived on my own for 5 years. I can give you what you need and he never will. Forget that idiot. I know you'll see this so please call me, little woman.

I want to live life. I've gotten so far to just stop.
>Cured my mental disorder
>Very rare to cure someone of this disorder
>My life has been around my family
>They are the only people I see and hang out with
>They are like talking to brick walls
Time to change
>Try to go to community college to make friends, learn, all that shit
>Every attempt at relationships fall flat everytime
>I talk to them, I have conversations, get numbers, everything
>Nothing comes out of it though
>It's nothing
>I know I'm cured but what could cause this?
>Try joining Discord servers to find someone I could bond with
>Find either Robots or vapid type of people
>I'm neither
>Go to therapy and I have a realization
>My family are horribly antisocial
>They don't like having friends despite being damn good at making them
>I'm like them because they are all I know but I want to have relationships
>I start to question what a "true conversation" and what a "relationship" is
My mind is scattered right now, sorry. I haven't seen a therapist in weeks.
In short, I want a way out of this hell.

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I'm a shitty person. A fundamentally, deeply shitty person. I'm unworthy of being loved by anyone, and I'm increasingly starting to wonder if I'm capable of really loving anyone else. I'm insanely lonely, it weighs me down like a dumbbell tied around my neck when I'm at home, but when I'm out, I want nothing more than to be alone. Every time, every single fucking time I find people I think I'm interested in - not romantically, just in fucking general, just people that I enjoy being around - and I start to slowly develop relationships with them, whether ones of friendship or flirting with women I'm attracted to, every time, every single fucking time, it crashes and burns. It's so easy for everyone else. They don't have to try. I have to try... and when I do, I fail. Everytime. I'm so tired. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't have the balls to kill myself, and if I REALLY wanted to, I would have by now. I just want this shittiness to end. But it won't, and I know it, the only way to get it to end is killing myself, which I can't do. There's no way out. I hate it so fucking much. There's no point to loneliness. It achieves nothing, it gives me nothing, why the fuck do we have to have it? I could be the most successful motherfucker in the world. I'm already pretty successful in some ways, I make good money, I'm good at my job, I'm hardworking. And it's dust in my mouth, because of this one, stupid, pointless joke ingrained into my biology. Why? What the fuck is the point of it? I hate it. I hate it so goddamn much. I don't want to do this shit anymore.

What is a friend? Is a friend just someone that tries to take advantage of you in one way or another? I just don't know if I'll ever find a friend that's genuine or reliable anymore. They all seem so fake and it's bothered me since I was younger.

Someone you do hobbies and activities with but nothing sexual.

Well, in your experience, have any of the friends that you have had lasted you long? I get that this shouldn't really matter. I just want to know if the temporary thing is almost ALWAYS true.

If you manage to think that 7.000.000 other individuals have the exact same difficulty as you (maybe sometimes at different levels but still present), you'll find out the reason of your relationships crushing down.

Now try to get out of the victim - aggressor - superhero triangle unconsciously stuck in your head

Stfu you sound like my ex who stabbed me in the heart again yesterday.

I have no idea who you are. Don't hold me responsible for the actions of someone else, or yourself.

I feel bad for having fucked an escort and don’t know if I can defeat the temptation to do it again while on cocaine

I’m so lonely, since I left she was the only good thing in my life, now when I try and think back to a better time or a good memory she is the only thing there. It’s killing me but the life I’ve chosen makes it almost impossible to get close to anyone

People do develop other Interests and slowly drift apart, so ya and others change for the better

I raped my friend, and I didn't even fucking notice until today when some mutual friends took me aside and had a very serious conversation about what happened.

I met this amazing woman, we click immediately
it feels amazing to have someone to love and she loves you the same way

In love with a girl who has a boyfriend. I know the best thing for me is to cut ties with her, suffer for a couple of weeks and get it over with but it's too painful so I stick around being her friend while dying every time she is with him.

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In the last thread another user did the same thing and I messaged them.

and I like to chat with them, but they must be busy doing other things or being with other people. I felt like i was a nuisance. I feel stupid.

A I feel stupid that I told you I can't be your friend. It's really killing me to be a ex-girlfriend and hear stories about you and all your coworkers who are women fawning over you all the time constantly. And now this new girl who you're 'madly inlove with...' I just don't know what else to do. so I deleted/blocked you cause I'm dumb sorry. -M

Honestly i feel that my life is fucked im 18 no friends famliy doesn't like me and im so unmotivated to get out of bed. Honestly getting afraid to leave bed because of the people i have to deal with daily.

I am not sure if I even like you anymore.

S, A, L, K, M, M, F and J,

I don't want any of this, I'm not a whore or your town mattress. It was fun as long as it lasted but I want something serious and maybe even move to the next level with a guy, a real relationship with depth.

A.

>8 names
>not the town whore

Good one!

April so far:
>family has no job so all household bills fall on my $1500 bimonthly college grant
>Old people who I don't know/not even related to me take my room after their sudden emergency, have to sleep on sisters floor
>Can't afford bus money
>20 miles away from school and grades dropping from missing classes
>Disgusting old homeless man stops me crossing a busy intersection to flash his dick while jerking off (first time I've seen a penis, great)
>security guard calls me aside in a dark part of store to ask why I'm so pretty
>Guy follows me in his car all the way from my home into starbucks, (he knows where I live) barista calls cops to drive me home. thankfully I don't have to bus back
> I literally dress in big baggy sweater and no makeup hair as plain as possible everyday
>wire all the $30 saved in my secret trading account and hopes I can get to class next week
>"That will be 5-10 business days ma'am"
God I just want to fucking go to fucking college. why is everything so shitty

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>live paycheck to paycheck
>cant afford to get my partner anything for her bday
>cant even get a chocolate bar from store
>realy fucking depressed
>want to get a better job and follow my career dreams
>cant afford to go to course to get career skills
>up to my eyes in debt from my younger years being a fool
>should i just kms?

Slowly coming to terms with the fact that I have a chubby fetish

I want to bury my face in my friends plump, sweaty belly

How do I get over my feelings for someone?

If it was unrequited these feelings would dissolve on their own but because my feelings are returned it's different. I can't exactly ask this person out and it's bad news for me to like this person for a myriad of reasons anyways. I really need to get over it quick but I don't know how. Send fucking help.

All I'm asking for, is that I come out hurting in this, and just me alone. Not you. Please. Get bored of me, tired, or cheat on me. Anything is preferable to hurting you.

sounds like you've already got your heart set on hurting them user

Do you really want them to go away? I mean, since they are returned...

Yes. It's for the better if they go away.

Well then all I can think is get aways as far as possible for that person and erase them from your existence. It may hurt for months or years knowing you could not do that if you choosed to but eventually you should get over them.

No way I could do that. I've been through too much shit with this person to just drop him like that.

It wasn't my intention. I don't want to hurt them. I don't want them to care about me. At all.

How's chilling in the city for a date idea? I realise it's kinda vague but I want it to be casual and can't think of anything better.

>fembot offers contact info after one of my posts where I complain about tfwnogf because I seem like nice person
>we chat for weeks, even flirting, everything going great
>finally ask if she wants to do something with me, the online equivalent of asking someone out
>she says no
>ask why
>she says because she doesn't like me
>mfw

Foiled again. Why do I even try.

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she just wanted someone to give her attention, I've had this happen to me a couple times.

it's your intention now though. getting involved with them was your intention at some point too. there a particular reason why you're averse to doing what you say you want to not do?

I HAVE HAD THE WORST RUN WITH WOMEN THIS YEAR HOLY SHIT

>Super hot Japanese girl I'd been trying to fuck for ages. Her last day in my country we hang out, go back to my place, finally get her into bed and she's on her period.

>Gorgeous older (22 vs 31) woman, went on a really nice date, go back to my place, got her into bed and she was on her period too. That's okay she says - next time. See her again few days later and she said she changed her mind I'm too young.

>Cute girl I met at a party, make out lots, swap numbers. Go on date few days later, I thought it went really well, make out lots again but we both have work early next day so no sex. "Yeah user let's hang out again soon for sure though!" Nope ghosted.

>Random tinder match messages me (I have the app but never use it anymore). We chat and she asks ME out for drinks. Meet up within hours of 1st message. Hard to see her in photos so was expecting fat or something but she's actually really cute! Date goes really well, she has uni early next day so I wait for her train with her and we make out. Too good to be true right? Yep ghosted again.

So sick of this. Why are women so difficult? Every time I go out I get hit on by dudes, seriously I'd be getting laid so much if I was gay!

Worst part is I legitimately have no idea what I'm doing wrong. Gonna sound like a wanker here but I promise everything you probably think I'm doing wrong I'm not. Not fat, not short, nothing wrong with my face, I go to the gym, dress well, not a NEET, plenty of hobbies, plenty of friends, know how to pick up on social cues blah blah blah. Just feeling very confused and frustrated ugh.

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20 y/o

Hello Mates, I'm having trouble getting over an ex, and have a hard time looking further and seeing myself with another person. What should I do to just move on and have the will to get other girls ?

Not being alpha and forceful enough desu. Women like men who take what they want.

What are you talking about dude. The first 2 I would have gotten laid if it wasn't just shit luck with the periods. The other 2 idk how I could've been more "alpha and forceful" beyond literally forcing sex.

I can't get over the fact that my ex doesn't love me anymore, I stayed distant for a month to see if she tried to reach me or something but she did nothing. yesterday I went to pick up my things and I felt her very distant. I didn't have a breakdown even if I wanted to.
I really want to see her caring about this(not sad about it just care), even if we don't end up together again, it really hurts me to see how she just doesn't care after all the time we shared.

Same here. Litteraly, I think we juste have to rule them out and just rule them out, since they probably just have no soul and therefore cannot be considered as being valid of our sadness

The guy my ex has started seeing better looking and taller than me, is a comedian, and overall seems to be just way more charismatic than myself.

We broke up 3 months ago because she moved overseas to pursue an acting career. I feel like I'm going to struggle to get closure on this situation.

Can't you go no contact or do you have to see them every day? Block them from social media. Why can't you be together?

I cheated on my gf over the weekend. This wasn't the first occasion, but after the last time it happened (which was almost 2 years ago) I promised myself that I would change, grow up, and instead of looking for other people to give me temporary happiness, I will focus on myself and my relationship with my loving gf. Now that I failed to live up to this task, I just simply don't know what to do. I don't want to tell her because I know it would break her, and if I could, I would gladly go back in time to undo this mess, but I can't, and I'm feeling empty and anxious at the same time.

I just wanna skip all this bullshit and take you on a date, to Disneyland or the beach. Just one date. I promise I'm not a catfish or a creep. Just really shy.

A

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I'm pissed off that my sister got so behind on her school loan payments (but was still able to afford vacations and splurges??) that she put my mom deeper into the bad credit zone and now the IRS takes her refund every year. However, I'm also pissed off that my mom never seems to set aside money for fucking taxes she KNOWS she'll owe back every year.

Grow the fuck up already.

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Might be a little autistic here, but I don't understand how anyone can be in a long distance relationship. Online friends that you play games with I could sort of understand, but how do you form a connection with someone when you do nothing but chat?

Have you tried watching cat videos?
I'd read once that they can cure cancer.
I'm not sure which cancer they were talking about though, so you may not want to rely on that fact.

be a decent person and leave her, you don't deserve her.

I'm tired, and it's like noon. Haven't slept. Tired. Exhausted. Don't want to sleep up, because when I wake up it'll be tomorrow, but it's already tomorrow, and if it's tomorrow then I have to do stuff, so I don't want to sleep so I don't have to do stuff because I'm tired.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

sounds really fucked up, damn where do you come from

I don't think that Are unable to be sad, I think that their perspective of the relationship is different for them and they get numbed by us, I don't justify it and I don't think it's fair at all but I don't think they are monsters.
I would have liked more attention from her and a lot more compromise, but is a little to late for that

I guess I was in the same situation once. I just stopped caring about both of them and stopped talking to them. Im happier now and I think that it really crippled me. I'd advice you to stop your connection with them. Ignore messages and stuff like that.

We were supposed to go to Portugal in the summer tho.

I think I might have anxiety, but I don't know if it's the case at all, or if I'm just jumping to conclusions cause I'm bored or something. I'm tired all the time (actually becoming a big problem, I usually get 8 hours of sleep, but I ALWAYS feel tired), can barely keep eye contact, I get the shakes when speaking publicly, I push people away if they actually show any romantic interest in me. Don't get me wrong, I have good friends, and it seems like people somewhat respect me, but I always feel emotionally drained and kinda sad.

LDR’s are a meme. Have been in a few and it always ended in either getting ghosted out of the blue, cheated on by some dude they met irl, or that thing people do where they suddenly act so shitty that you break it off so they don’t have to.

I feel myself relapsing in my eating disorder and I don't want to stop.

No man, you shouldn't. Keep going for it, not only for her but for you. Keep going as a big "fuck you" to what's against you.
You got a partner and that's something, you know what you want to do and that's something.
I've got neither and I'm trying to keep going just to spite whatever thoughts of failure I have. If I can do it, then you definitely can.
As for bday stuff, go do something like a walk in a park or something that doesn't cost anything. They'll understand you not having a gift, although it is a rough feeling not being able to give your partner something. Like I said: go for a walk in a park and talk to em.
I know this was sounded a little gay but fuck it. Keep on keeping on user

I lived most of my life without friends, the fact that I was always self conscious avout my appearence and my personality.
Recently though(Middle of last year) I moved to live in another state with an relative, and was doing fine, i ended up making friends, and really felt that maybe i could be a normal person if I tried.

I guess I was wrong as soon as the year ended, I didnt got to talk to my freinds a lot, which was expected but, some of them got angry at me for trying to find new friends, I even lost some friends because of that, I went sad for a while, nothing too major but still.
Then, I found a girl, she said she liked my personality, my "strangeness" and it made me feel really happy, i begun to like her as well, and to think i didnt need anything else if I was with her and she was happy with me.

It has been around a month she left me for a friend of mine, she just said she didnt deserve me and that I was too much for her.
Now I feel like shit again, even more shit than before, I definetly now have no friends, and no reason to leave my room.

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I own about 5 K dollars to my girlfriend. I had a lot of debts and she saved me but I'm a little mess. I study CS and have a hard time to find work because when I lost the previous job I got some "job searching" anxiety. Feel bad.

well that sucks. you don't talk to me for 4 months and expect me to stay around in the flat so you can still afford to live here. you throw negativity at my face but i try and make the move-out as seamless as possible, suggest a friend to move in with you in my place who you hang out with all the time and you still turn everything into a negative. i say let's talk about it tonight and come to an agreement that works for both of us and you don't want to. forget it. bye. sort your own shit out. but it really fucking upset me, your behaviour. which is exactly why im moving out. sorry.

Pretty sure my ex is a psychopath.

How do I motivate myself to do things that benefit my future when all I can think of is dying? All I can do is go to work because I know not showing will fuck other people over. Can't say the same about university. Have to fight urges to cut everyone off every day. Worried my ex will think it's his fault in spite of me telling him time and time again that this was going to happen with or without him whenever he brings it up. Worried my friends and family will blame themselves for not taking a more active role in my life even though I never let them do so in the first place. Don't know what to do. Don't know if I even want to do anything about it anymore. Tired of trying and improving only to slide back when this shit rears its head again.

My uncle is getting his leg amputated because of bad healthcare in his country. The family is fighting to get him normal surgical assistance but they don't know if he's going to make it. We're all very worried.

M, I think I found the blue house.

not who you replied to but thanks

I genuinely fucking hate you and the only reason I'm showing basic courtesy and respect to you is because we're part of the same community and I don't want to stir up shit or turn this into a case of picking sides.

I shouldn’t have said that.

I met my friend's girlfriend (of like, a month at the time) a couple of weeks ago (he brought her over to hang out with our friend group) and haven't been able to stop thinking about her since. I seriously haven't hit it off that well with a girl in a long time. We study the same thing, have the same interests in books/movies, and the same kind of attitude. We were talking to each other for at least an hour, while the three or four other people in the room were talking about other things. He clearly seemed a little uncomfortable when we were talking, like I have more in common with her than he does, and she asked for my number when he was out of the room. I would never try and get with her because this guy is a good friend, and I'm sure she was just being really friendly anyway, but the whole situation has me kinda bummed out. I hate that I'm the type of guy that's gonna think about a girl I barely know like this. I just wanna not think about her, really.

Damn no wonder women don’t like nice guys

Said what?

Well, pregnancy test was negative.

I didn't wave because looking at you for more than a second fills me with too many feelings at once. Part of me hates myself because I probably have a sick part of me that enjoys pretending to be a victim. Another is terrified of interacting with you, of seeing you with someone, of being hurt by you. Another wants to just smooth it all over and give in and get back together again, but the last part of me does hate you. Above all other things that would rationalize me not mending things, that is the biggest reason. I couldn't ignore that part of me feels disgusted and angry at you, knowing you don't really respect me. Yet I'm still so weak, I don't think I should see you ever again. I bet I will. Fuck.

Lol I feel sorry for you. It must suck so much to be you. Have you gambled lately? You're the most selfish pitiful person I've had the displeasure to know. I'm glad you're so awkward and boring, good luck finding someone new to put up with your bullshit.

No worries. I'm good. You just caught me in a moment of weakness.
Best of luck to you.

I’m stressed as fuck. I dropped out of uni over a year ago without paying two installments of my rent for my room in the student halls. I received an email on my university email address saying I needed to pay the rent, but since dropping out, have not been contacted in any way shape or form about it. I have suspended my place at the uni on health grounds, and they expect to contact me before the fall of this year to confirm whether I’ll be resuming my studies then (which I won’t), fwiw. Any chance someone just fucked up and forgot about it?

I'm a guy at 24 now. From age 10 to 15 I was borderline raped by my older stepbrother