I'm in a difficult situation now, Jow Forums.
Few days ago my girlfriend tried suicide by overdosing pills. Couldn't see that coming at all. When we were going to sleep, she started to be nauseos and weird. She went to throw up to the toilet. Still couldn't see that coming, I thought she is just sick. Eventually and fortunately she let me to know what was going on by pulling many empty medicine packs from the drawer. At this point I called an ambulance and they took her to hospital. She got out from the hospital and her moods have been like a rollercoaster after that, from being happy and loving to being completely apathetic.
Ok, few days forward to this day. This morning when we woke up, she started to be really cold and mean without any clear reason. She said many hurtful things, like how she hates me, she wants us to break up, that I don't really care about her and that I'm only helping her for my own conscience, and that I make her puke.
I tried to ask reason for her behavior and eventually she admitted, that she doesn't mean those things, just wants me to go away so she could kill herself peacefully and she wants me to hate her, so I couldn't feel so bad when she dies.
I'm feeling really contradictary feelings at the moment. I want to do everything to save her, but I really can't bear all those hurtful things she has said to me.
I can't just leave and let her die, or should I? What can I do? Call an ambulance? After that she will end up to a hospital and gets out quite fast. After that she has opportunity to kill herself again.
I'm the only close person she has around. She does everything for me to leave her, but I know that if I'm leaving now, she doesn't exist anymore in few days.
I know that many of you will judge for "putting my dick to a crazy", but it wasn't anything like that when we went together.
I'm lost. Sorry if I wrote confusingly.