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He's one of my best friends. I am a fucking animal. The only way to stop myself is to lite rally be physically away from her. But she keeps coming back to me. I know you can't understand, but I can't control my feelings like others do.

no, that's just your stupid excuse

you can't control your feelings, but you CAN control your actions, and if you're really willing to do that to a "friend"'s relationship then you're pretty immature and ridiculously selfish

Same here, stop overthinking my friend. If that might or not happened just let it go and do not do it relevant.

does anyone know how to find someone who doesn't want to be found?

I'm looking for my dad and I only have a phone number. I called it and right away directed me to a voicemail. I used this chance to leave him a message with my phone number. I'm looking for the bitch because he's been avoiding me for a couple of years and I need to talk to him about some important stuff.

I've tried whitepages but that didn't work. I've reaced out through social media and i've even stalked all of his FB pages including 'friends and family' cross referencing but that ended up with no results as well.

My last resort would be going to his last recent living place and folow the 'steps' he took. I've contacted some of his family members but i don't think they would have an idea of where he would be currently residing.

In the last resort plan I would need to travel through europe to find his traces and I'd rather avoid that because of costs and such, but I neeeeeeed to find him.

Does anyone have ideas on how to find someone or tips for me to try out?

Help would be amazingly appreciated!!

Kindest regards, S

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it didn't last for very long, but I miss it so much; I miss the sleep calls and late night talks and how every second was just loads of smiles. I shut down and acted cold and emotionless out of fear, but now it's all hitting me hard and I'm nauseous and feel like my insides are twisting up, I wish you would just talk to me, daily life feels impossible surrounded by these people and you were my relief.

What do you need him for?

I understand just fine. There's no shortage of sociopaths and selfish fake friends in this world. You're a cautionary tale on why it's important to watch who you surround yourself with. I'm sure he respects you too not even knowing who you really are

Answers about his perspective on life or rather why he did what he did and what his thought process was behind it.

It feels like I need this for some kind of closure. I need to hear him answer the question wether or not he'd like to keep contact consistently, instead of disappearing and reappearing every 4 years.

Nothing more than this.

i know that feel user

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Yeah ridiculously selfish is the key here, in those moments the world stops existkng for me and there's only the girl, nothing else.

He does know about my history, I've told him. I even spoke to him about his girl a couple of times. He knows that it's just a matter of time before they break up so he doesn't really give a fuck. But anyway I'm sure that no matter how cool he tries to play it, the whole thing will end up in a lot of pain for him.

I like her, I think she likes me too, we always end up talking together and we have fun whenever we meet up but every time I ask her out to do things with me/go places with me I get anxious as fuck and even if she agrees to go I still feel like she only agrees to be nice. I'm still anxious and semi depressed over this. Maybe I'm overthinking this but the fact she's only been out of her last relationship always sticks out and makes me think she still has left over feelings for him and thats what makes me anxious. If it wasn't for that life would be so much easier. I just don't want to play mind games anymore, when will the anxiety end? how hard is it to get a girl these days...seems like they all come with some baggage and none just like me as much as I like them because of it

>in those moments the world stops existkng for me and there's only the girl, nothing else.
Those moments only happen because you make them happen. Despite all the women in the world, you covet this man's gf. You're going to do what you want to do regardless, but I hope you understand it's a result of your choices, not any outside forces, not your "animal nature". This is 100% you

okay, and?

the girl being the only one "existing" for you still doesn't give you an excuse to be a piece of shit, if you're really going to convince yourself you can't control your own actions and play it off as "haha destiny dude" then get yourself neutered, god damn

I want to be the guy others like. The semester is over and everyone's gone back to their friends. No one wanted my number. No one wanted to stay in touch. That's because I'm not a person worth investing in.

So while I have this break from school, I'm going to become better than I once was. I'm going to become someone who's worth something.

I need to focus on losing weight. That's the second step. I will do that.

I need to focus on my speech. Slow it down and think about what I will say. That's the third step.

I need to learn how to cook. That's the fourth step.

I will find my way and become someone that others want to be around.

"And in that gaping abyss, We will find our redemption"

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You're psyching yourself out. Nothing in your post makes me believe she's just agreeing to hang out with you to be nice (who even does that?). Could it be possible that she actually enjoys spending time with you? Try to take life one day at a time and enjoy the time you spend together for what it is. If you try to think too far down the line, your anxiety will inevitably sour the relationship.

I think I'm falling in love with you. I wonder if you're falling for me. Is this what we've both been looking for?

Yeah he is definitely a piece of shit and seems kind of proud of it. It's just weird seeing the mental gymnastics he's playing to absolve himself of responsibility. Strong telltale signs of sociopathy

who the fuck is Ole Marius Eilertsen

I know she does enjoy my company but I can't get out of my head for some reason because of her ex. Every time I tell myself "just relax and see what happens" I instantly get crushed by the fact there's an odd chance I'm right about what I said and that tiny chance it might happen just kills it for me and I'm anxious again. I really don't want to fuck this up, I'm normal around her but the texts and waiting for actual day to go out with her just fills me with anxiety

Okay. She enjoys your company, but allow me to ask you something. Do you enjoy hers? Do you really enjoy spending time with her or do you need her to feel better about yourself?

I think you want me to give up hope so I will...

yeah seems a bit like he romanticizes his destructive behaviors, he could easily just NOT do things but wants to believe it's some animal instinct kicking in, what a SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE

Please stop asking me so much shit dad, you can't seem to spend 5 minutes without asking about some inane bullshit, I love you and I know you are asking because you care about me, but give me some fucking breathing room to take care of the shit I need to do.

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Initially I wasn't very interested because I saw one of my friends hit on her, but she grew on me once I found out how much in common we have and once we got comfortable around each other. I do like her company, not having her around would be upsetting. She's hanging out with a girl I used to have a crush on and the last time I saw the two together, I enjoyed the other girl's company more, not my crush's.

Your question got me thinking so I wasn't sure about a straight up "this or the other" answer.

i keep catching my boyfriend looking at transgender/trap/gay porn. as far as i'm aware, it started in january.
he looks at threads on /b/, lurks on gay dating websites, when craigslist and backpage were a thing he'd look for m4m and t4m.
he says he loves me and doesn't want to lose me, that i'm perfect and nobody else will love him. i believe him. he shows that he loves me often, takes me on nice dates and enjoys cooking for me. he says he'll quit, but then i catch him on our computer later looking at a trap thread on /b/.
it's really confusing. actions speak louder than words, but both actions are conflicting.
i talked to him about it before many times, if he wanted me to do anything for him in bed or if he wanted to explore his sexuality and leave me. he's said no, but i think he really just wants to keep me as a cover. it's hard to tell.

i need to pick better men.

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Hahahaha. Chatting up some chick while doing laundry and she’s dripping these hints as her frail bf looks more and more flustered the more we banter towards each other. Damn what a time to be an athlete.

I am.

I dunno what to do anymore. I try and I try and no one believes that I just have incredibly bad lucky except for my friend who basically left me because I had so much bad luck.

I see all these assholes driving around in their new cars and giant SUVs and I hate them all. I see kids on the street and I just want to run them over. Fuck all these assholes for having a good life and I can't.

Worked hard all my life and now I'm so over-educated McDonalds won't even take me. I just need a job, assholes fuck you. Fuck the school system. Fuck all those people for telling us we would be guaranteed jobs.

I've decided to wait for my parents to die to kill myself, but that's a long time and I can't take life anymore. I just want to lie in bed and drink all day.

How do you know for sure?

When someone has a mental illness (in my case the friend has Bipolar) and has complications because of it but thinks is nothing and delays or flat out won’t go to the doc, what can I do to force or give way more incentive to go? She’s about 10 hours away so I can’t just drive over. Has been on medication and it’s worked alright, still not sure if it’s actually the issue, but now she’s dealing with more complications. She’s had seizures (which have been listed as side effects of her meds), had vertigo, vision issues and more. Yet she still insist on driving to work even though she’s almost wrecked a couple times. It’s just so irresponsible but I can’t think of a thing to push her into bringing it up with her doc since I’m far away.

The only thing I can think of is pulling a no contact thing and telling her I won’t speak till she does and keeps me informed. Yet giving her the silent treatment is so damn immature usually.

Im a horribly incompetent human being that cant even remeber how to do the minor tasks my job needs me tod do. I cant just tell my boss is going to give me the shaft and throw me out the door when the yearly review happens. Its going to be third job ive lost in 4 years

My partner calls me the same pet name as he did with his previous partner
I know it's not a big deal but every time I get called pet names I can't help but be so 'meh' about it now

let her die and thank me later

I'm finally going full TRP, and nobody can stop me. I'm sick of being treated badly by them, sick of living on their terms and getting nothing for it. I tried being nice to you, being myself, and instead got ignored like I have been forever.

I'm coming back this summer a changed man. My job is physical and makes me sweat like I'm in a sauna. I have access to the company gym, and I'm packing my own lunch, chicken, rice, and fresh vegetables. I just want to fuck you. I hate you. I'm done trying for a relationship, since, in the end, it's not what you fucking want.

Is it right that women with kids can call out of work for childcare issues yet I call out for medical reasons and a doctors note and end up getting a write up? I am covered by Ada but was told if I submit paperwork I might not be a fit for the menial job I work and could be gotten rid of, wtf?

Oh well. He shouldn't have been such a cuck.

That’s edgy as fuck. Ah typical Jow Forums...

Lawyer up. Now.

I don't believe in bullshit rules like "you must wait x amount of days or hours before you respond to a text". We just met maybe 2 weeks ago. You sending me 5 long texts in a row in the middle of night is not ok. Sending another text in the morning acting sad that I didn't respond is not ok. Telling me you looked at my pictures and "they kept you company for the night" is really fucking not ok.
I kind of started to like you, but now I see that you're actually kind of crazy. I'm grateful I found out now and will just block you before this really gets out of hand.

I've been in love with this girl for a few months already. We're friends, and basically the only people in college we talk to, though I don't feel we're as close as we should be by now, I guess. Anyways...

Last night I dreamt about this girl. Neither sex or kisses, we were just hugging each other and fucking around. She was joking and being even warmer than usual --irl she's extremely sweet, but she's quiet introvert--. It seemed as we were going to be something, but it didn't. I felt so happy at the moment, and woke up to the depressing reality: I feel so lonely, and unhappy.

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Dear Girl,
fugg bitches get muney :DDDDDD x-DDDD

Hey R
We were the best thing that never happened.

i fell in love with my gay friend, and stayed that way for over a year. this was months ago and i'm in a relationship now and i'm so so happy but i don't think i'll ever fully be over him. i don't love him anymore but will i ever stop feeling things for him?

mandatory assisted suicide would've been edgy. letting her die is the best course of inaction.

I get anxious over nothing all the fucking time and even if I justify that I did nothing wrong in my head, it makes perfect sense but I still can't stop being anxious. I'm not sure if I want to take any medication because I've always felt side effects of various pills really dulled out my personality and overall decreased my quality of life, prefer anxiety over that but still, don't want to be so anxious all the time, any help?

Are we really friends? Does it mean that I meant nothing to you? Does it mean that you’re coldhearted, or that you’re too proud to admit that I broke your heart? I never meant to, but I get it if I did. Why didn’t you want to loose me? I don’t understand, but I hope you meant it when you told me you’ve moved on.

I can't speak for you but I've been in love with the same guy for 5 years now... it gets easier and sometimes you even forget about it but it comes back in waves.

This song helps me: youtube.com/watch?v=AE005nZeF-A

I don't but he makes me feel this way a lot. I think he has someone else.

I stole £1000 worth of fuel from my old boss. He knows as of today and wants the money back which is fair. I wish I had never done any of it, my partner is so mad at me for getting myself into that debt without telling her that she is having second thoughts on moving in with me and nobody will hire me so I have no idea what to do and he is going to go to the police if I don't pay him, so I'm putting some thought into killing myself tonight.

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Last night I found my dog had peacefully passed away in his sleep, I don't think he suffered as he was in his bed and there was no sign of blood or anything.
I spent the day in work like a zombie, I have not told anyone that I am so upset that I want to shoot myself.

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Clarification it wasn't like bulk theft, I'm incredibly poor and still had a fuel card from when he sacked me because I didn't go to work for 2 weeks during my parents initial separation because my dad was getting violent and I wasn't up to it, then it became habit. I got rid of it and swore to not use it a month and a half ago but he was bound to find out.

Turning 26 and have barely even touched a person of the opposite sex. I don't base my whole life around my virginity, but the feeling of never even being close of relationship is eating me up inside.
>dude, just talk to girls, lmao
I've been doing that recently quite a lot, but so far it hasn't been working. It probably doesn't help that I have literal autism and socializing is very difficult even if I manage to be smooth and funny.
>dude, just go to a prostitute, lmao
This is not about sex, not really, but about having great difficulties in participating in one of the most natural things in life that most people do naturally.
>dude, just lower your standards, lmao
I'm already aiming for girls on my league, but finding equally pathetic and lonely girls is very difficult if not impossible.
>dude, there's more in life than chicks, lmao
I know that, but the feeling of loneliness something that can't be filled with just anything.

Girls of my age are already in relationships, the ones who are single are more experienced than I am and will not tolerate some loser who will probably do all the rookie mistakes in dating that you were supposed to learn in your teenage years. The girls I grew up with are now married and/or in long time relationships. I look myself from the mirror and I see fit, tall, and cleanly dressed young man, but the image does not match what I feel. I'm not a neckbeard or someone you could single out from a group of people, so I know my problems are in my head.
There are days when I wish I was never born. My life is like a big joke, but I am not laughing.

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You could take yourself out of the equation and be honest with him about her. Better they break up and you remain friends because you made that a priority over fucking a lady. It's all about what you're putting first here.

Or, he could really love you and just have odd fetishes. A lot of people do and it takes then a while to open up about it if they feel insecure, especially if it's unusual or taboo...anyway understanding is the best you can do, it's not like there's anything wrong with him if that's turns him on

Hang on the user, I feel you

i'd be more accepting of his fetishes if he didn't go out his way to lurk through places where you can meet up with others to partake in them, or if he was just honest and told me his actual sexuality. he swears up and down that he's straight but looks through this stuff on a near daily basis.

I know that in five years, I'll either be dead or miserable. At this point, I'm not sure which is worse.

found on youtube some 30 minutes workout, did maybe 20 minutes of it, then got too tired. At least it's a start, tomorrow I will try to last longer.

I’ve always been attracted to guys that have a similar look.
Caucasian
Black hair almost to their shoulders.
Blond hair on guys is meh.
a voice slight cracked, calming and deep.
Eyes blue or green.
A high jaw-line, a more feminine face.
Fuller lips on the pinker side.
Needs metal glasses to complete the look.
Either olive-toned or pale skin. Body hair is gross.
Height doesn’t matter as much to me, but 6’1” is good. Uh wait I guess no manlets.
Small-boned and slender.
I have to see the knuckles clearly on each hand.
And the bone on the wrist.
I do like a toned body.
Not a big muscular one.
A smaller cock that when aroused jumps in size.
There’s been one person I met that was difficult to speak to...but I’ll never see them again because I saw them during a trip, and I’m too reserved to initiate anything myself.
Though I think I’m broken sexually. I’ve never been able to masturbate and feel anything. Well given what’s happened in the past it makes sense? I don’t know.

erica?

keep up the good work user

>mfw have 6 hour training session today

Thanks user

I don't know if we're going to make it to one year. I feel like I'm losing you. I feel like you're losing me.

My aunt married and had a kid with a gay man, it took him a long time to finally be comfortable with him self and move on.

i'm afraid of ending up like this. when he's not looking like gay shit hes the perfect man, we have similar values and are planning on moving to a new state with a good school district to have kids. our sex is great too, sometimes he has trouble keeping up with my libido but he doesnt lose his erection when hes with me.
i dont understand him at all. i dont want him to end up being gay after all this time.

I just took a Klonopin for the first time. My anxiety is just getting worse and worse... it wasn't your fault. This wasn't the first time you've cut me off, or rejected me, or broke up with me, I'm not even sure what the fuck to call it. But this time it cut me real deep. I don't know why. It felt different.

I haven't slept for almost 50 hours, this anxiety has to give me a fucking break any time soon.
Doubt I'm ever going to get rid of it, my body just automatically gets defensive and I start acting like everything is alright when talking to a psychologist while things just aren't fucking alright.

Doesn't help that their tests are fucking retarded and very childish, they're probably just trying to diagnose me with autism. I've been sad most of my life and act this was as a result, not because I'm actually autistic. But of course go ahead, give me more fucking blocks to play with.

Same thing, man. Turning 22 in the summer. I happen to like a girl every million years, but all of them already happen to be dating someone.

Anyways, have you tried Tinder yet? It might be easier for you. People are already looking for a date, so setting the mood and asking your matches out shouldn't be that hard.

i knew our relationship could never be salvaged the day you told me my suicidal thoughts were "annoying" to you

i know you think we're okay but i have absolutely no respect for you as a person anymore

you were supposed to be on my side at least once in my life, but you only ever make me feel guilty for being alive

why couldnt you for once in your life just hug me and tell me that i'm going to be okay? why couldn't you just give a shit about how fucking sad i am instead of ignoring it and pretending it's my own fault when you are dad are the ones who made me this way

you are not a good mom

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I fucking hate eating, like right now, I know I have to eat but I'm not hungry but later I'm gonna go excercise and if I don't forcefeed myself rightnow I'm gonna lose weight again.

Idk what to tell you but try to look at it from his point of view. He could just be bisexual.

i actually asked him this morning if he was perhaps bisexual, but he told me he wasn't
something isn't adding up and it's eating at me

We barely started seeing each other and now that the college year is ending and we'll both move back home I'm afraid the distance would ruin things and we'll lose the momentum. Fuck, its not like she agrees to seeing me long distance after such a short time, its only been 2 weeks...

Look into different kinds of diets I know there is a doctor who is on a meat heavy diet and he only eats once a day to every other day and he healthy.

The way he was brought up my be why he is uncomfortable about his sexuality. Does he know you know about the gay porn?

he knows, we use a computer together and you can see it in the history tabs or he'll leave it open by accident.
he said today he'll quit looking at hookup sites and that i could have asked him to stop anytime, but i know he won't. you can't make someone repress their desires.
he says the idea of people being desperate to fuck turns him on, which i can understand but we're clearly in a monogamous relationship so its rude to browse through those sites. go on exhentai or something, i dont know
we're too deep into the relationship to break up at this point. i'm not sure what to do anymore.

Isn't tinder for quick hookups? And wouldn't my age and inexperience just work against me?

why does everyone think tinder is grindr for straight people? it's just a dating app than you can use as the grindr for straight people if you so chose

Is it true that a woman playing with a bottle neck is a way of flirting because it looks somewhat like a cock? What if it's MY bottle? Which I've had in my mouth and will have in my mouth again?

I've sort of dealt with something similar; it was suggested that I go on meds but I don't really handle most meds well either so I declined

for me, it helped to have a schedule of things to do every day and a project to work on, so I have something to work towards and always have something to be doing so that I'm not just sitting around thinking too much

yes and yes

Either he's lying to you or he's uncomfortable about his own sexuality and lying to himself. If he just ignores the problem and pretends to be straight as an arrow you're not going to overcome this. The feelings are gonna bubble over some day and you'll come home to him fucking a stranger on the couch.

It's fine to long-term date a bi man (yeah he likes dick and you don't have one, but maybe your last bf liked blondes and you're a brunette. doens't mean he has to cheat on you with a blonde girl)
BUT he has to be comfortable with his sexuality and not trying to bottle it up or secretly fantasizing about m4m hookups.

Sweet. So I should try to put my benis in her?

I wonder how much of it is conscious and if she knew what she was doing.

Dear R,

I'm still pissed off, after all these years.

You initiated everything. Played with my heart. I was a fool to allow you to come back over and over with the same result. You were too much of a coward to admit how you felt and too face me. You finally got the courage to tell me you like me after months of flirting, then took it back the next day. I moved on, you reached out and said you missed me. I wanted an apology, a sorry, something else, because you knew that "I Miss You" would make me weak and I would forgo the apology. So i let you back into my life and you did it again.

You wasted my time and your time. You spent 2 years of your life pursuing me, only to never follow through with anything and I allowed it.

I'm a fool. I have to be, considering that I still some how you think you will come to your senses and apologize after all these years.

I am happy that I deleted you from my life, for good, but i'm still hurt.

You never gave me closure. You never gave me an apology. I hope it has eaten you alive.

I'm SO happy that I talked to you before saying anything elsewhere, I had no idea how close you were to ending this term in college and I was becoming extremely afraid that you were avoiding me. There's such a huge weight off my shoulders with that little information. All that's left is to deal with the anxiety of finally connecting with each other, but I'm confident it'll all be okay.

I'm frankly shocked at how important you seem to me, but nonetheless I want you badly.

>I wonder how much of it is conscious and if she knew what she was doing.

It's possible she was doing it sub-consciously but that doesn't change what the body language means

I can't decide which is better. It was a huge two litre bottle though, she's gonna be disappointed if I pull this off.

im starting to think its just him being uncomfortable about his sexuality, i wouldn't mind if he was bi if he was just honest.
also, the blonde and brunette arguement doesn't fit here since people can dye their hair
it takes too long and too much effort to get a dick

Maybe they are not cold hearted or too proud, but actually too hurt to admit you broke their heart (specially if they opened it to you and you didn’t).

SW

knock on my door. just one more time, if it has to be. please.

AM

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