I don't want any bullshit about why/how I shouldn't do that.
There is a guy I want so badly. I know he likes me too. However, what's getting in the way of even the possibility of dating is the fact that he is in a relationship. Apparently it's been going on for 2 years. I know she must not be very fond of me, because he used to always respond to me and like my replies back to him. He even used to openly flirt with me. I get the feeling she noticed, was pissed at him, and told him not to talk to me. Maybe even one of his dumbass friends opened their big fat mouth to say something about it. I don't care. I miss him giving me attention. Without it, I feel ignored. Even his friend ignores me now too.
I don't know what's so special about his girlfriend. Her voice is fucking annoying, she has mediocre talent at best, and I saw a photo of her yesterday. Oh my fucking god, does she look average, and dare I say it: even ugly.
Especially compared to me. I'm by far more beautiful in every way compared to her. I would worship him like a god. Instead, it seems like he has to do everything for her. She probably wouldn't even have friends if it wasn't for him.
See, unlike her, I don't *need* him. I *want* him.
Even his dumbass friend hit in her and he drunkingly admitted to having a crush on her to me. It broke my fucking heart, because at the time we were dating. But of course, I guess I'm not her, so I didn't matter.
I feel so used. Why the ever living fuck was I dragged into the taken guy's life when he already has it all?
I am beautiful. I have nice hair, I have a nicely shaped body, I can speak 4+ languages and am learning more. I'm knowledgable in a variety of topics, I have a degree, I'm open minded, I'm loyal, and I have plenty of talents. In the bedroom, I would do anything they wanted.
So why is it that some asshole toys with my feelings instead of making the right choice? He should choose me!
All I want is his kindness and affection. Why doesn't he choose me?