Why can't I come up with even one thing that I'm decent at?

Why can't I come up with even one thing that I'm decent at?
I'm bad at literally everything I can think of, here are some examples
>gaming, i get extremely competitive and easily angry, i learn slow, i don't perform well in any genre
>drawing, grew up with, decided that i'm never going to improve and garbage and i'll never try again
>boxing, or exercise/training/sports at all
>walking, i look fucking goofy
>math, i need a calculator for anything that would count as being good at math
>staying calm, mature
>having friends
>being social
>getting out of bed
>getting rested
>work/my job
>being interested, or pretending to be

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I think you're just depressed user. What's been going on lately? Have you felt this way for a long time, or do you remember feeling happy?

That is a very difficult subject for me to understand, user. I've been contemplaining the idea that I'm depressed for at least a decade, even been with psychologists and taken meds and all that jazz.
What I mean is, I don't know if I am or if it matters. Talking to professionals doesn't help because I'm too ignorant or stubborn or forgetful, it's been a huge money dump before and got me nowhere. Same thing with multitudes of different SSRIs over a 5-6 year period; I quit taking any a couple of months ago because they literally do nothing to my body or mind, and I didn't even feel a single change after I abruptly quit them. I feel the same today as when I was heavily medicated.

What's been going on is that I just perform badly at whatever I try to do. Like, say, games. I play with my brother or solo, pretty much never otherwise. He's incredibly good at almost every game he plays, for example in shooters he almost never goes below 4k/d, often higher. And while he doesn't seem to give even the ittiest shit about how badly I perform (in comparison, I range anywhere between 0.5k/d and about 2.5k/d every fifty matches or so when lucky), it still makes me thoroughly sick in my mind and stomache that I can't even compare with him. It makes it sufferingly boring for me because I expect it to be boring for him to always have to carry me.
But I rage at singleplayer games too. Like the latest God of War on PS4, I would mostly plow through the game, but there would be the occasional pack of enemies or a boss that would be completely garbage bullshit dickface scumfuck shitbitch and would enrage me so hard that I started punching myself for being a god damn unskilled loser. But eventually I did beat the game. This is just how I play some games nowaday I guess. Either they're too easy or too infuriating, and I rarely derive joy from playing.

hi, user.

>not all games are competitive, and there really is room for improvement. just because you learn slowly doesn't mean you don't learn. also, have you really tried ALL genres of vidya?
>i'm trying to learn how to draw currently, and it really takes practice. you will improve, if you decide to work it out for a while if you don't think you have the talent. start from basic things like spheres and shading and go up from there, i guess. there are lots of tutorials available on the web.
>i don't sports, but again, with time, you can be good at something. there's a study about how simply visualizing an action for a set amount of time will help you do the action irl just as well as actually practicing the aforementioned action.
>work on your posture if you like. i hunch my back because my manboobs show if i stand up straight fml
>again, practice. i suck at math, too, but you got internet, obviously. there is a myriad of tutorials all over the web that can help you solve faster with a pen and paper, or even just your mind.
>idk, i got temper issues so we on the same boat. or lake.
>you don't need a lot of friends. a handful of people you can count on is enough, imo, but shit's subjective as hell.
>too vague, how social do you want to be
>that too; if you think that something is hindering you from getting a good night's sleep or something, i think you should go see your doctor.
>not working yet so...
>just think about what the other person would think if you showed disinterest, and throw in some info you know about what he/she is talking about or doing if you have some

these are from my experience. being the introverted, untalented, and fat faggot i am, this is a lot of bullshit. hope this bullshit helps.

Holy fuck, are you me?
Standing by this thread for advice as well.

Lose some weight. Most of your problems are from depression. Most of the shit youre mad about doesn't fucking matter.

Some guys are just average at everything. It's not so bad. Try to relax.

>these are from my experience. being the introverted, untalented, and fat faggot i am, this is a lot of bullshit. hope this bullshit helps.

user, when you talk or write about yourself like that the real you is listening, paying attention, and believing every word of it.

I don't even feel average. I feel bad. I'm bad. I'm not good, I'm not average, I'm not even decent enough to not be made fun of. I'm just plain bad.

>the real you is listening, paying attention, and believing every word of it.

am i even real?