Short story
>18 yo
>know this girl for 4 years now
>have a crush on her
>didn't talk much but since last year she is kinda in my group of friends
>someone tells me she is dating my best friend
>she broke up with him like 4 times
>doesn't talk to him that much
>now they are again together
>he is teasing her all the time
>when he's not around she hangs out with me
>today she told me that she doesn't want to talk to any of us because most of us are idiots and act like kids
>she knows that I'm the most adequate person out of them (that's why we usually have these small conversations)
>says that she prefers spending her time around older guys/girls (these are her volleyball friends, most of them are in their early 20s)
HS graduation will take place at the end of the June. After hitting on some drinks I should have the balls to tell her that I love her. I'm pretty sure I'll get a rejection, but I just can't take it anymore.
At first I thought it was such a great idea, but what if I'll spoil the whole party mood for her? That would fucking suck, for both of us. I'd feel sad, because I didn't want to hurt her and she would feel sad aswell, because with that rejection she might feel guilty afterwards.
I really don't want to hurt her, anons.
What do I do, Jow Forums?