GIOYC

I get the feeling I'm gonna ditch my friends at several points when we go to a music festival soon. I know I haven't seen them in forever, and I'm sure we're gonna meet up with even more people, but the thing is no one else dances but me. And I feel like with all the dance meetups happening this is my chance to meet new people and possibly get some new opportunities to make some money. I just don't want to seem like a selfish jerk, but I've practicing so much, I don't want to waste it babysitting people fucked up on drugs or going to lame DJ's.

I suck with words so here's an image.

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i loved (love? i cant even tell anymore) you and you must know that, everyone else can tell. i knew it wasnt going to happen, i dont blame you for that.
now youre spoken for i feel like you just strung me along as a placeholder all along.
i feel like now you just humour me and pity me until your boyfriend gives you attention and you can run off to him.
i hate how my own attachment issues have warped our friendship at this point in my mind to the point where i cant tell if its just me being silly or if youve actually changed how you treat me.
i hate how i cant tell if i bought this anguish on myself or if you, in some small part, have some blame in it.
i dont like how i dont even know if we are really friends, but i hope so, because youve done more for me than youll ever know.

I have no purpose

I have nothing that I care about enough to go to grad school for

I hate my current job

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One of my few friends is a ducking complete loser, has no intention of improving themselves and is weighing us down with them. It’s killing me inside because in the rare instance when I’m motivated, he kills my motivation every time almost on the spot and he has no other friends so we feel bad for him.

My dad says I should feel bad for him and be his friend, but doesn’t listen when I say I shouldn’t have to like it.

I'm in an eerily similar situation, he thinks I have a bf but I don't. If there was a way to blurt out that I love him as much now as I ever have then I would. I'm just afraid to say anything and risk what's left.

My boyfriend's friend is starting to piss me off. He acts nice sometimes, but he is turning into a real jerk lately, saying things like " I dont know how Jeff(my bf) can handle you" or just generally just talking shit about me infront of me and him
I told him off today by saying,"Im leaving cause I can't deal with all the bullshit youre spouting" but my boyfriend tells me to calm down as he's just teasing me
Just why? I don't get it

Take the risk, or you’ll have to die with the regret instead. Regret can’t be changed but embarrassment is only temporary.

Take some risks, try financial risks or emotional risks like going to a bar and asking someone out or maybe start your own business doing something that you kinda like, doesn’t really matter what. It’s better to touch the fire and see how bad it is than assume it’ll instantly kill you.

Read and write a lot. Communication is important. And no, Jow Forums doesn't count as reading - read books.

If you know it's a bad idea, why the fuck are you doing it you stupid fuck? Why cant you just understand that I cant be around you all of the time and that our friendship is fucking fine the way it is. You dont have to force having a new 'best friend' just because we both have lives that are away from eachother.

sometimes I wonder if you said you're suddenly bi just so you can hint at being with me. I'm sorry if I've been a bad friend to you.

Lately I've been feeling extremely down. The only time I stepped out of my house was on the first Saturday of this month. I honestly don't look forward to anything anymore because I don't have a reason to.

This is how it feels to be lifeless?

Things are finally turning around for me, I'm getting promoted soon and I've been more social lately purely out of good mood. I can't help but feel like I'm stealing happiness from someone, but I just don't care. Hope everyone has a good week.

i jumped into a relationship with the first person that was nice to me but like now i think im a lesbian and im struggling with my sexual identity

Why do I keep making the same mistakes? The only girls who ever show any interest in me, ever, have boyfriends. So they're probably not even showing interest in me at all. But I fall for it, every time. The instant a woman pays any attention to me, I'm completely smitten. Fucking pathetic. And I know I'm doing it but I can't stop myself. Why do girls with boyfriends even agree to get coffee or lunch or dinner with a single guy, one-on-one? That's a fucking date. Or maybe they just think I'm completely harmless. Jesus Christ. People so rarely interest me and I so rarely interest other people, but every single time it seems to go both ways it's completely off the table anyway. Fuck me. My folks won't shut the fuck up about nieces and nephews and cousins and grandchildren. I'm expected to do something over which I have virtually no control. I can lead the horse to the water, can't make it drink. Making the horse drink is illegal. Just end me now.

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This annoying and very dense autist chick in my class seems to like me and wants to smash, but if i text her up and get her round to fuck i know exactly how fucking annoying she'd b and i cant bear the idea of it. That and fucking her would probably kill my chances with any of the other girls in the class.

Don't shit were you sleep

I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time hard
There is no solution, I'm supposed to lose, I deserve to lose but I don't want to lose.
"supposed", I was supposed to do a lot of things and now I'm running out of time.
Worst case scenario, I learn that I'm not invincible, which would absolutely destroy me.
A spoiled little kid that never lost a game out of sheer luck and has little to show for himself outside those few games he didn't lose, that's what I am.
I was given every chance to become a better person, yet I was afraid of that change and became an even worse person.

Do I die with my ego intact or do I continue down this path? Even if I get get out of this out of sheer luck, not a damn thing changes. I've already lost the war.
But what if I died right now, what would I leave behind? I'd only hurt my family, no one else would care. If I continue I'll only hurt myself, no one else would care. clearly that's the most ethical decision.

In any case, I lose. Death or disappointement, those are my options. A selfish, ungrateful prick such as I is not allowed a happy ending.

was it
"please leave me the fuck alone."?

???

No.
I thought you got the implication already.

Yes, Yes, No.
Might repeat a year and
I can't tell if oneitis loves me back or is just a very friendly person

Be honest with them about it, so you can be honest with yourself.

I'm so fucking lonely I can't stop fapping to fetish porn

I like you guys but the fact that you all get upset at the thought of someone liking or making porn or visiting any place that is super non-offensive is starting to grate on me hardcore.

People I don't like seem to be ok with me. People I do like don't like me.

That really fucks with my self-esteem.

>I'm so fucking lonely I can't stop fapping to fetish porn

Your brain is looking for stimulation dude. The regular internet stuff isn't enough. Try to get it some other way. Try watching sports. Yeah, I know that sounds stupid. But when you get into it, you get a charge out of seeing your team score. In other words, stimulation. Just try it. If you have nothing to do and you have to obsess over something and get stimulation why not have it be something normie that you won't be ashamed of? You can even talk to normies about sports. Alright. That's my pitch.

Just sucks that i have no idea how to talk to her about this, fuck me i barely have any idea how to talk to other humans at all.

I'm so fucking tired of all the stubborn goddamn liars in the world and I'm gonna start calling your asses out at every opportunity.

The truth shall rise motherfuckers.

I don't want to go on, living life the way I'm "destined" to. Schizophrenia runs in the family, and sadly, I just got my first bottle of antipsychotics. I don't take them, I feel like they were prescribed hastily, and I've heard bad things about them. I don't want to be poisoned or controlled. I know, it's unlikely, there are those fucking whispers that keep telling me it's not an offchace. I hate it so much. Those pills do nothing but make me confused and dazed. The only person I thought loved me just called me insane and stopped showing me any signs of warmth after I told her about this, my parents aren't the least bit empathetic of what's going on, saying I should "snap out of it", those are the fuckers who created me, and now claim it's my fault that I'm such a fuck up. I DIDNT DO THIS TO ME. Now my only source of comfort lies within hope of higher realms, and reincarnation into a better life, maybe as a cosmic eldtrich beast, yes, that'd be nice.

Offchance. Fuck.

That sounds like good advice and I wasn't expecting that reply, thanks!!

well i was doing fine. i was doing okay for a mentally ill loser with some physical issues as well. i had been going to college and i was only taking 2 classes but i had a's in both of them. i was running everyday. i was even doing krav maga. it was almost like i had friends. i got a job tutoring at my college as well. everything was going so well, so perfectly. i felt happy. about two months ago i had to have surgery for my ulcerative colitis... and recovery has been really fucking hard... i had to have another surgery a month right after... now i've had to quit my job and everything. my self esteem is at an all time low. i'm underweight and fatigued. my being feels drained. it's really hard to pick up the pieces.

S?, ah well. fuck it

I never had a choice. You should know that.

Why can't you understand why I feel this way about you? I know things got emotional last time, but I just want to talk. and to listen. I don't care about any labels and I shouldn't have brought it up. I'm sorry. I just want to talk about us.

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Does manga count?

even if i were, or
>again
for that matter ever had been, what fucking right would you have to be pissed off about it?

>do something about it
dunno what you have in mind but i can guarantee you would very quickly start caring very much if i 'did something about it'

Why won't you just get it over with? Just break my heart already.

fag like homosex or fag like hypocritical retard?

iktf

E,

I know I don't mean much to you but I've thought about you every day for the past 8 months. You're truly the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, both inside and outside. If only I told you how I that 8 months ago. I'm full of regret but I know I wasn't going to make you happy anyway, I can't even make myself happy. I hope you find someone that will make you happy and I hope that I won't ever find out.

I

How I felt*

what do you faggots plan on doing once you take my meds away? what the fuck do I have to do? You keep me a prisoner here for literally no fucking reason at all, you literally torture me, and you're making my life a living hell for no fucking reason.

Why? What the fuck did I do to any of you? All I want is my meds and to be left alone. I go to the doctors and they lie to me. I go to the psychiatrist and they lie to me. I am drugged against my will with medications that don't fucking work.

When I get out of here I am going to do every fuckign hard drug I can find. Before I just wanted my meds, now I'm going to do heroin, cocaine, crack, meth, literally anything I can get my hands on. You fuckers need to stop trying to control my life. You are literally killing me and I have no fucking idea why.

I still want to talk to you but I know you're tired of me, and I don't want to hurt anymore.

How do you know they're tired of you?

I just do

Met a girl tonight that is much nicer and much hotter than my wife and she also seems interested in me. I'm not one to cheat behind your back but the grass is so so much greener.

Ive finally fucked up in a way that I, nor my family can fix.
I've had a good live, put 48k down the drain, been in the military, had a major addiction every 6 months since I was 18.
Now sober and in ruins I am hurting my family in ways I can't understand. I can't feel emotions like normal. I can't emphasize with them. I want to die, but they cried for hours last time I came home from disappearing for a few days. They thought I was dead.
I don't understand why they would cry over me. I'm a terrible person and a waste of their emotions. I don't want to hurt them again though.

Why people care for others is beyond my grasps.
I've only cared for others well beings cause they we're my girlfriends who fullfied my lust, my drug dealers whom kept me supplied, or my one friend who helped me not to be completely antisocial. I don't understand the reasons people get emotional, at least not while sober, but drugs and alcohol are what landed me here, so they're off the table.

Fuck me.

Oh, I love you most when we're apart. Our love is sweet and pure within my countless daydreams but when we're together, back in reality, I remember how truly bitter and jaded both of our feelings are.

Initial?

A.

Fuck.

And, your initial?

W.

Then you're not my guy. Good.

Yeah, that it is.

It's too bad things couldn't just be like old times, huh. Life just got so complicated so quickly.

Fuck it. Im already hopeless and in debt. Trying out this fucking betterhelp site YouTube just played an advertisement for wont hurt. Also botnet is scary.

He is lying to me

He said he hadn’t done anything over the weekend, but I found out he did. When I asked him about it, he began stuttering and said he hung out with an old friend from high school. Turns out I have Facebook and saw that this guy is hundreds miles away in New Jersey.

I’m really done.

i miss you

Im trying to lose weight to join the AF but I literally cant stop enjoying food. I eat when I am bored and not hungry. I eat 3 meals to be normal when I dont need them. I keep telling myself its the last day. Every day. I don't have the willpower, but its all I have left.

I want and should get therapy for a bunch of shit, but at the same time I can't because of some of the shit I should be in therapy for. Also I can't afford it.

I’ve been doing good but when I think of you my heart hurts.

a family member recently approached me and asked if i was doing alright and wanted to get me seeing a therapist to get some help, and all i felt was disgust and contempt. someone who's constantly abused me throughout my childhood, asking if im alright and that they really do care about me. im not about to get help myself and i dont have anyone to talk to about my issues, and this is the one person who wants to help me. i feel nothing right now

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I really want to bang my half sister.. I didn't grow up with her, so it doesn't really feel like we're related. She is super attractive physically and emotionally. I'm a freak I guess..

I think if I go a few more days that the girl that likes me will forget about me entirely.

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I don't want it to end. but it's obvious you don't love me anymore. can we please just have this conversation and either come to an understanding on working to get back to how we were or you break my heart and I leave this godforsaken city forever?

I need us to talk so I can put a plan together on what I'm supposed to do. please. I can't take this purgatory anymore. fuck I love you, and I'm tired of hurting. please can we end it one way or another?

we can move together. you're tired of being here, I can't take it anymore. I've got job offers, good ones, in other cities. everything is fucked here and its life telling me its time to go for something better elsewhere, I just really want you there with me. please. please. I miss the old you so much. I miss you so fucking much and its killing me babe. men aren't supposed to cry, and I don't, not even when my grandpa and grandma passed, not even when my family fell apart... but the thought of us falling apart makes me weep babe. I know everything is tough right now, we're both in a tough spot, we're both so stressed, but we can either fall apart or come together as a team. please, I want us to be the team we used to be again. we both said that even though we met weird, and everything is fucked around us, and our pasts are fucked, our relationship was the good that came out of it. do we both still appreciate that the same? is it enough for us to work together to make the life we both want? do we have the same appreciation for each other? we absolutely have to talk, no distractions, no lies, no half truths, no half measures, we have a lot to sort out.

I love you with all my heart E, I don't want my next move to be without you. and I can't make my next move without us talking. we're at a split in the road and we have to come to a mutual decision on which way we're going. we can't put off the talk anymore, as stressful as it might be.

-M

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fuck I miss that sweet woman I fell in love with so hard E.

>both in same city
m8 go knock on her door

worse than that, we live together. she just keeps putting off talking cause there's a lot going on. believe it or not its hard to find like a few hours to sort through all this stuff and she's had some stuff happen that's left her mentally and emotionally drained so this conversation is kind of daunting.

I shaved my pubic hair and my pussy feels much more wet for some reason.

Really fucking hate myself when I can't pick a fight with random dude who shouting at me for nothing. I really hate it when I can't get off from my chair and punch him in his face.

Thanks to my naive, cucked up parents, friends, and gf who laways advocates me for solving problem with "muhh peace" rather than fighting like true alpha male, now I slowly become one of them. Also, I misteryously developing a multiple personality disorder, when my not true self is a cucked up pussy who always trying to stop me for fighting. This shit, is the reason why I can't be a true alpha. Fuck!

The hair helps moisture evaporate more easily.

ah gotcha. yeah i know how it goes. good luck man.

I can't stop thinking about the first of January. Sitting down on the couch with my girlfriend, watching black mirror.

I was happy then. I had the four greatest friends I could ever ask for, including my girlfriend. Everything was right in the world, for once in my life. After all the mental breakdowns, and anxiety, and bullshit. I was at peace. I had everything I thought I wanted.

Now its the middle of May, and I don't know where I am anymore. My closest friend and I have become distant. While we're still friends, we don't talk nearly as much as we used to. My oldest friend is in a terrible depression, and I can't help him as he's states away.

And no matter how hard I try, I can't get over my girlfriend, now ex. I just wanted to make her feel safe, to give my all. And she thought she wanted that too, I guess. But things changed, and now I can barely even look at her. I took her advice, I let myself be selfish for once, and she left me because of it. I've followed that advice though, even though it led to our break up, and it helped.

I finally beat my dependency problems, I thought. My friends have their troubles, but I have faith in them. I know I can't help them until I help myself. I finally thought i was better. But recently, I realized how much I'm still in love with my ex, and it hurts. I know she's moved on, but fuck man. FUCK. I just want to see her laugh and smile at me the way she used to.

We always wanted to find a library in the snow. It was a happy place for her when everything was wrong. I guess I'll never find it now, though.

Fuck immigrants. Fuck Justin Trudeau.

Fuck yourself.
Go shit up your ass.

Go shit up your mother’s ass.

Go fuck your uncle.

I'm in love with this girl I regularly have sex with. I want to get her pregnant just to force her to marry me. Idk why but she's so perfect and I want her to be just mine

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That's life and everything in it user. Or a callus.

Hey there! I'm a schizo too and you should pay those voices no mind. The medications imo are for those who have such severe conditions that they'd prefer the zombified state in place of say, overwhelming stimulation or malice from the voices. In my experiences our thoughts run fast and wild and we need to be aware of it and watch our mental impulses.

I'm tired of your games. I listen to recordings of our conversations. I see the angles you tried to work and didnt understand at the time, but oh I know. Hell exists, it's on earth, and you're leaving earth or going there now that I caught on. You were my best friend, and I always said you are your own worst enemy. To be N is to destroy all you love and turn those who wish to see you happy and living as good a life within your guaranteed means against you. You should watch what direction you fire off in because it could hit an ally and even if they forgive you time and time again pushing to the back of their head your little freudian slips, they'll be stuck with the memory and what it says about you. I told you I'd say goodbye and I'm most certain you can read this, this is goodbye and much more.

Go shit up your mother’s ass, then lie on your back while she squats over your face and shits it back into your mouth.

Go shit yourself in public. Justin Trudeau will use your nutsac as a speedbag, then cram your tight ass full of maple leafs, then get the RCMP to waterboard you with warm maple syrup.

This is something my best friend would say to me.

>I want to get her pregnant just to force her to marry me
nigga you're crazy. either she wants to marry you and have kids too or you're going to have literally the most unhappy life after you do that.

my girl said some off stuff about babies last night cause shes been hanging out with kids and she's getting into that age range where women start getting all "GIVE ME A CHILD" when they hang around kids. there is zero chance I want a child right now, no matter how much I love her, want a family as my main life goal, and think she'd make a great mother.

you do that, and you are going to be among a group of the least happy men on the face of the earth. I know I would if I did that shit. every day, she would remind me I ruined her life. every. damn. day. probably every hour desu.

also, here's a horrible thought. how'd you like to have her tell you one day after you knock her up that she just came back from the doctors, she's not pregnant anymore, and the child that you might have been real excited for is dead. your child that you never got to meet is dead. you never got to do all the things in your head, play ball, play hide n seek, teach them to work on cars, snowboard or whatever your sport of choice is with them, no family vacations, no watching them play in the waves on the beach, no fishing or camping or hiking with them, no nothing. no watching them grow up and get married. dead. d.e.a.d. dead. your kid is dead.

cause that's a likely option these days. you wanna try to live with that? it'd haunt you every day after. I've had two gfs tell me that's exactly what they'd do after we had pregnancy scares... or more like they had pregnancy scares cause their period ended up being like 3 days late. I've thought it over a lot, that would fucking break me as a man. it'd likely break you too.

don't be a dumbass, dumbass.

Yeah sure, and now you don't want to talk at all. Fuck it. Are you J?

I wanna fuck Richard Spencer and make white babies with him

What’s your best friend’s name?

I can't believe I'm considering jerking off to Nicole's pictures. The girl is the most powerful little butterface I've ever met.

>Hate yourself for being civilised.
You did the right thing, idiot.

I've been in your friends shoes. If you used to be around them all the time and then suddenly start acting extremely distant and refusing to even have honest conversations wit them anymore, then they will do that. That is called being afraid that you are about to be abandoned, and from my experience that fear turned out to be one-hundred percent justified.

I recently ended a 5 year relationship and I feel basically nothing. I’m happy and looking forward to meeting and sleeping with new women. I rarely think of her. I feel bad about this and I don’t why I feel the way I do. I would think after 5 years there would be some feelings of missing her, etc but nothing.

I have an exam tomorrow and I know nothing, even if I got a good grade Ill still fail the class.

Feeling frustrated and dissapointed in myself but I want to get a good nights sleep and brush up before I take it (6pm )