Escort is planning to come to my city

OP here, just realised there's no Ids on this board.

I think you're right.

I'm just way too emotionally invested, I respect her way too much and I love everything she does say too much. This infatuation is unhealthy and there's no way she could have genuine feelings for me. Why would I torture myself?

...it's complicated.

You can't pay her for sex, but she's part of a group you can pay to have dinner with and any sexual contact I have with her would be purely and exclusively if I impress her.

So not only would I have to pay, but I'd have to bring 10/10 game.

> then you shouldn't have a problem with asking out some of your female friends.
I don't have any friends outside of work, I defooed my last friend from childhood because he had addictions. I ditched all my other friends because the girls in that group were literally violent, and when white knights see a woman slap a guy they start laying into the guy, even if he didn't deserve it.

I don't want to date the girls from work, they're either married (will not homewreck) or really dumb.

>actually an author

Uh-huh.

No, she's a chantard and will kick my ass in some fairly surreal ways.

She is smart, she is a published author, I'm infatuated and I'm disgusting even to myself.

This situation feels like shit in every way for me.

Sex is never worth a massive amount of money or effort. Like some effort/money is okay, but huge investments of time or money when it's not a legit relationship, but rather you just trying to get off doesn't make it worth it.

You're an incel shut in, so you hold sex as like some kind of magical amazing life changing event. It's not, it feels great, you nut harder (and faster) than ever before, and then...that's it.

So as a fellow degenerate, think about the times you go amazingly out of your way to find that perfect porn to fap to. Maybe it's that video of lara croft being fucked by a horse? Maybe it's that one street blowjobs video where you spend hours downloading questionable torrents likely lain with viruses. Or maybe it's skyrim sex mods, where you spend a literal day getting your impregnation sexual immersion mod with the million animations installed, along with hours of getting all the mods to work without crashing the game, and then you fuck and npc, cum in 5 seconds, and then just feel horrible.

That's the feeling you're going to get, you're going to think "That felt super great, but jesus christ I'm down 750 bucks". You're not going to think "Wow, now my life begins!"

Don't do it, stupid.

No that's still paying for sex. Just a wordy roundabout so idiots can like you can justify it to yourself/anyone that tries to convince you not to waste 750.

Besides think about it thats even worse you're paying 750 for a chance to have sex with her.

>she's part of a group you can pay to have dinner with and any sexual contact I have with her would be purely and exclusively if I impress her.
So she's just a whore who gets to choose her clients and reject them if they are too disgusting.
Get tinder, you will find there willing sluts who are just that, not some glorified whores. And it will cost you less

>she is smart
Smart people don't whore themselves out, user. And being a published author in no way indicates her intelligence.

>So not only would I have to pay, but I'd have to bring 10/10 game.
kek for sure man, don't leave your 10/10 game at home you supreme gentleman

i suggest taking a couple of hits of lsd and going into an introspective nightmare for 8 hours or so, maybe that will straighten you out

I'm not a shut in, I have social skills but they're very synthetic. Like, I had to read books and watch videos, but everyone in the office either likes me or is jealous of me.

But yeah, the feeling is fleeting. I'll see her for one night, maybe give her a bed if I'm really lucky, and then she'll never talk to me again and we'll become strangers again.

It is.

I agree.

You don't understand though, she's perfect. Every other physically attractive woman is so fucking dumb, every fucking time. Unless she's fat or foreign and has something to prove, women in the west are always dumb and I hate it.

Sorry guys, I know women are like 30% of Jow Forums.. But this society makes you really dumb I can't do it.

See Tinder is so horrible for me. My profile is so horrible. My best chance at hot chicks is at the office, but they'll be either dumb or married.

I did LSD... And I saw her face. I have dreams and I see her, not sexual (believe it or not) but we're just friends.

Literally everyone online is asking for donations. It's too hard to get the connections to get paid purely for being smart.

You describe yourself as an incel, but then say you have social skills.

These are mutually exclusive things. If you have even minor social skills, it doesn't take 750 bucks to eat someone out.

My man, being smart means being resourceful in a way that doesn't require degrading oneself to establish connections, get a decent job and make honest money. Whores can be cunning, but they aren't smart, and your oneitis is an excellent example of that.

How does one actually meet girls? Again, no friends, tinder sucks and I'm not really interested in the girls at work. They're girls or divorced women at best.

Even if, women are a certain type of social skills. Appear too interested and they'll back out, guys are so easy in comparison because they don't have that sort of paranoia.

Yeah I got all that.

Thanks guys, I think I got what I need.

It's time to start a real life and quit this unhealthy infatuation, there's no way it could ever be genuine anyway when I have feelings like these, women don't work like that.

It's just sad, I'm so worried I'll marry the first girl I successfully date and she'll be really idiotic. I just can't do idiots, I hate low intelligence people so much.