please help , everyday its the same being alive is just the most drawn out torture the devil could imagine. no way out , absolutely no one is interested in helping in fact if the wrong people find out they will actively work to make things worse. no gun , nothing to hang a rope from , they dilute the helium with oxygen . starting to think life only exists to torment me , couldent take much more years ago
Fuck
Wow aren't you special. Everyone already knows life sucks, live your life or kill yourself already.
if you were me how would you go about ending yourself?
Go outside. If you have nothing to keep you around, walk the country. You may find a new perspective on life
>absolutely no one is interested in helping
more people that dont understand telling me to ignore my problems like thats even possible.
Been where you are bro. You have to find ways to help yourself. You're living in the greatest time to be alive. Take pride in that and do something with it. Get rid of that damning victim mentality. How? Fuck if I know. I took a shower one day and shit dawned on me. Take a shower.
>absolutely no one is interested in helping
more people telling me its not as bad as it seems , telling me to suffer more...... iv suffered enough just help me please
In what ways are you suffering
fear , paranoia , self hatred , hatred of others , mental anguish , i cant sleep , depression , intense anxiety around people , i have ED and paranoid PD , i have no friends and to top it all off if i ever talked to a doctor about how absolutely fucked i am in the head im incredibly likely to just be thrown in loony bin and be "medicated" extending my suffering considerably
I thought the same thing. I'm a bipolar-schizoaffective maniac. I'm holding down a job and walking free. You need to see a professional. And learn to meditate. Living is only pain if you make it that way. 7 billion people on earth, and much more than that before. You're not the only one who's going through this. Bout to drive home from work. Goodluck user.
>absolutely no one is interested in helping
suffer more user look we did it , suffer more , suffer more! this really is hell
>7 billion people on earth, and much more than that before
i dont understand
>You're not the only one who's going through this
may god have mercy on there souls
If your suffering was bad enough you'd already be dead, so you're probably too much of a coward to face your own death, or somewhere you realise you're being a bitch but don't have a way to get it under control.
Here's what you do; eat healthy, go running, try not to get bored (e.g: find a hobby). There's no guide, just do it.
If you're depressed, suffer through that first, and keep the healthy eating and exercise on your mind until you can do it, when the depression wanes.
>If your suffering was bad enough you'd already be dead
clearly im not suffering enough lol your right im the problem. tell me how to die you useless fuck
>so you're probably too much of a coward to face your own death
i may be a coward but im not scared of death
AND THEN THE REST IS TELLING ME TO SUFFER THOUGH IT
FUCK i dont want to anymore i want it to be over! please stop telling me to suffer more
actual torture
if only you knew how bad it really is
You're right, YOU are the problem, you are both the cause and solution to all your own problems.
There's nothing wrong with the world, because most people are perfectly happy living in it, you're one of the comparatively few people that find it hard to live in.
If you don't care enough to solve your own problems, for example by doing exactly what I said to do; then by all means drag a bag filled with helium over your head and breathe deep for a minute.
people always say "just stick around longer it will get better" or "just tough it out faggot" usually a mix of both
i see you staling tactics , there should be an easy way out and there isent people pretend like is easys or pretend like suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem but it isent. its the best solution to a life long problem , i long for the void.
THEY DILUTE THE HELIUM read before you respond
I would go out in a fuckin blast dude. If its the last day of your life, at least make it the best day of your life. Buy some blow and become a fucking animal at some club, go on a raping-spree or shoot up a school
obtaining firearms seems impossible , not very interested in drugs far more interested in solid methods of self elimination.
Then source a canister of pure helium, if you want to die bad enough you will find one eventually.
Or perhaps accept that you're not really suffering at all, and that your psychological disorders are creating those feelings artificially, and work to defeat the psychological disorders by seeking help.
There is an option to go into treatment without using medication, by simply showing up for the talks and showing improvement. Ask to try a purely talking based therapy first.
If you truly want to die and you can't find a source of helium, then jump off a tall building, if it's tall enough you may just die from a heart attack before you hit the ground, otherwise you will die when you hit the ground.
Go for something TALL, though, many jumpers misjudge how high the place they jump from needs to be, and end up alive, in a hospital, in a lot of pain.
>Or perhaps accept that you're not really suffering at all
actually go fuck yourself
>Ask to try a purely talking based therapy first
iv already been though a few therpists
> then jump off a tall building
i thought this was a bright idea at first as well , after days of checking it seems all tall buildings lock the roof and most have cameras for some reason
>Then source a canister of pure helium
do you know were i could possibly get 1 ? if bought online i might need tubing as well but hopefully money wont be a problem
What about the raping-spree? No but in all seriousness i'd probably lethaly overdose on some drug, probably some opiate. But cmon dude, you don't really want to kill yourself, at least you can keep living your life and see if something changes for the better, and if it doesn't, well then you tried and you'll be old and dead soon anyway.
>you don't really want to kill yourself
yes i do , i wish for death every minute of my life . i pray for god to strike me down with whatever he has daily
>probably some opiate
opiate and other vaugue drug overdoses are to risky i could easily be found out , i need something that will surely end me i dont want to wake up in an ER because then they will know
If you look up 'inert gas asphyxiation' on Wikipedia, you'll read that pure nitrogen can also be used, it should be easy to source, as it finds use in welding. Thus, you can probably walk into a store that sells welding supplies and get a bottle of nitrogen.
Pure nitrogen allows your body to get rid of CO2, meaning you don't feel like you're choking, and won't re-supply it with oxygen, meaning you still die.
> yes i do , i wish for death every minute of my life
then why the fuck aren't you dead already?
> opiate and other vaugue drug overdoses are to risky
Slam 5g's of heroin and i promise you that you will be found dead
im very aware of the inert gas method although i dident know nitrogen could be used.
i quickly googled it and couldent find a supplier online in Canada , would you order it online or try to buy it from a...... welding store? were do they sell this?
>then why the fuck aren't you dead already?
im fucking working on it cunt , your very welcome to help
If you really wanted to be dead, you'd be dead. I mean c'mon there are literally millions of ways to kill yourself just in your apartment alone. Use your fucking brain imbecile
It would be illegal for me to directly provide you a source of materials which could be used to commit suicide with, but a quick round of google has provided me with a list of stores that sell welding supplies.
It would be easy enough to call/shop around and ask for their prices for a bottle of nitrogen.
>c'mon there are literally millions of ways to kill yourself just in your apartment alone
name 4
Slit your throat with random sharp object
Drown yourself in the sink
Smash your head on the floor
Drink water until you die
2 possible options
1. you were trolling with your fist comment
2. you realized it isent as easy as you thought and ran out of ideas after 1 probably even realizing you would not have the willpower to do even 1 of these
im still looking , im in Canada and i cant find any to order. i think there is a few welding supply stores in my city though but transportation would be a problem , how heavy are these tanks?
>1. you were trolling with your fist comment
I don't remember leaving no comment about fists
> 2. you realized it isent as easy as you thought and ran out of ideas after 1 probably even realizing you would not have the willpower to do even 1 of these
What the actual fuck are you even trying to say? I named 4 like you requested and i didn't state that i had the willpower to do any of them because i don't want to kill myself since i'm not a retarded coward like yourself
There are tanks in sizes you can carry with you, it will still be a bit heavy, but you're desperate so you'll just have to bear the weight (30-40 pounds) for a bit.
If the store you go to only offers a tank filling service, you must first get an empty tank from somewhere, these are easy to find online, however. Make sure it's a nitrogen tank, as stores are very careful about putting high pressure gases in tanks.
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telling me ways of killing myself that i cant do dont help me and just make you looks stupid
1.Slit your throat with random sharp object
your only viable suggestion if i was quick and powerful enough this could work
Drown yourself in the sink
brain wont let you , drowning only works in deep water or if you are already unconscious
Smash your head on the floor
will pass out before death , will brain damage before death.
Drink water until you die.
you will vomit up the water and its also and extremely painful method.
30-40 is more then do able i think , depending on how far away it is. thank you for the info
and bad grammar makes me look stupid
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Okay so everything you just said is completely redardedly wrong.
> your only viable suggestion if i was quick and powerful enough this could work
Quick and powerfull enough? As long as you're not an infant you can absolutely slit your own throat. But maybe you are an infant? Based on the way you write and think i'd say it's plausible.
>brain wont let you , drowning only works in deep water or if you are already unconscious
So if i force my head to stay underwater in the sink i'll just start breathing underwater? That's cool.
> will pass out before death , will brain damage before death.
Yeah you'll pass out before you die, but you'll still die from bloodloss if you smash your head open. And if you don't die from bloodloss, just repeat when you wake and eventually you will die from head trauma.
> you will vomit up the water and its also and extremely painful method.
I know it's absolutely possible to die from drinking to much water because it happened to a girl that lived in my town.
You are so fucking stupid it's entertaining. I tried giving you legitimate advice on killing your pathetic whiny self and i tried to give you some advice on why you shouldn't kill yourself but at this point, i hope that you kill yourself.
>you can absolutely slit your own throat
spoken like someone whos never tried to self harm , you would be surprised how little control you have once your brain figures out what your up to.
>So if i force my head to stay underwater in the sink i'll just start breathing underwater?
no? you will resurface for air. you might as well say hold your breath till you die
>it's absolutely possible to die from drinking to much water because it happened to a girl that lived in my town
i dident say it wasent , in fact this response dident touch on a single thing i said about it. its like your responding to a completely different comment.
>Yeah you'll pass out before you die
if people hear me banging my head against the wall they going to call pigs , top priority is to not be found out buddy.
> spoken like someone whos never tried to self harm , you would be surprised how little control you have once your brain figures out what your up to.
I've cut myself several times, not hard at all, And if you're determined enough and just do it quick without even thinking about it you're brain can't do shit.
> no? you will resurface for air. you might as well say hold your breath till you die
Use your fucking brain. I'm sure there's several ways to keep your head underwater, a heavy object or tape are two ways i came up with in 1 second, i'm sure you can do better if you spend 1 minute on it.
> i dident say it wasent , in fact this response dident touch on a single thing i said about it. its like your responding to a completely different comment.
Okey so that part about vomiting was just completely unnecessary then?
> if people hear me banging my head against the wall they going to call pigs , top priority is to not be found out buddy.
Who the fuck said anything about a wall?
Just give up and stop embarrassing yourself already. We all know that you are just a pathetic little shit who feels sooo sorry for himself and feels the need to get some pity from strangers on the internet and we all know that you are too much of a pathetic coward to kill yourself too
Cringe way too strong, im outta here
what a loss......
lol