Storytime with a pointless question. You know the deal

Storytime with a pointless question. You know the deal.

So I've been dating a girl for a year. I had a suspicion she may have been a bit slutty prior to actually meeting her. I had known her since 2012 from /soc/ (I guess that tells you where this is going), and she seemed pretty cool, not like a retard. When I moved to the same city as her, we met up and hung out with 1-2 of her friends for ~2 months, before I started hanging out with her alone, and had sex with her.

A year later, I dig through her diaries. Hoooly shit. She had a rough transition leaving home, apparently watched a few too many movies glorifying a certain kind of behavior. Let's just tl;dr this part, she basically wanted to live out the movie Lilya 4-ever. She became an amateur prostitute, talks about how she had 'the best sex of her life' with some old married dude that fucked her ass. Constantly going on with the same mantra:
"Prostitution, money, fake tits, America." Essentially, those are the things she keeps going on about.

She was 18 at this point. Bulimic, fighting with her mom, doing heaps of psychedelic drugs, and apparently prostituting herself out.

Based on her diary, she has probably had sex with a dozen guys before me, in her twenties. LOL when we were talking about past relationships, I told her the truth that I had one past girlfriend, she said some vague shit about 'one boyfriend' for 4 years prior. Oh my goodness.

I have benign spots on my dick! What the fuck else could I have. Why did I have unprotected sex with this person who I THOUGHT I had a good notion of. I guess I'm a retarded cuck, but whatever.

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The QUESTION for you all, is this:
Am I retarded to continue to be in this relationship?

She has no idea I know any of this, and I keep rationalizing to myself saying "Well, she wants to have kids and get married, and it's so hard to find someone as smart as she is." I am in a pretty good position in life apart from this.

I keep thinking, "Those words aren't her as she is now, those words just correspond to past states of affairs from years ago, and she was kicked out her mum's house." Am I just a huge cuck coming to terms with the shock of this?

What the fuck are you asking

You should probably break up with her and get a 2d gf

Talk to her about it, bruh. It's no good to let half the facts fester in you, it'll inevitably lead to you breaking up with her too, as I feel it'd eat you up inside and you'd feel pressured with all the doubts you'd be having.

Just remember: once a ho, always a ho. She won't change her ways for anyone.

>she said some vague shit about 'one boyfriend' for 4 years prior

whoah.. just dump and RUN no need to tell a clearly psychotic person you read their diary.

Also for future advice, never believe a woman the first time she tells you her bodycount. Ask when she's drunk

>I had a suspicion she may have been a bit slutty prior to actually meeting her
Then you are the idiot but since you are shut up about this and continue to play like you know nothing. Talking to her will change nothing because you are going nowhere.

nobody is a cuck for dating a woman who had sex with other dudes previously

but her behavior and thinking is a bit weird. she did this when she was 18? some/most girls go through slutty phases. how old is she now? it's possible that she outgrew it.

i don't like how she's hiding her past from you. how long were you two dating when you asked her about prior boyfriends? also, who brought up marriage and kids? her or you?

>some/most girls go through slutty phases
>it's possible that she outgrew it

lmao, pic related

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You're retarded for being with someone you barely knew. Lmao do you even love each other?

Yeah, 18. Then found a sugardaddy and settled down for roughly 4 years, diary says she fucked other guys during. She's in her twenties now, by 5 years.

She brings up marriage and kids. In her diary, she kept saying guys she started flings with (around the time of this prostitution), that she was 'in love' with them.

She has diary entries saying she wants to marry me, and basically if it weren't for me asking to wait a little while longer, she would be pregnant. She's insistent.

Just don't really trust it like the other guys in this thread, but at the same time don't feel compelled to leave her.

>You're retarded for being with someone you barely knew.
I thought I knew her after speaking with her consistently online for 5 years. The slutty signs were: hiding her tits in a skype profile picture once, and telling me jokingly that she took up a guy's craigslist ad to get spanked for money and he pussied out. That's why I suspected she was a slut. She seemed exactly as I had known her online, when I met her in person, just slightly more upbeat.

Fucking yikes. If you had two brain cells to rub together I’d wrap my junk so no baby, never marry her, and have some fun with this white until you meet someone who wasn’t a literal WHORE, and lied about it lmao. You have to be a special kinda of stupid to get involved with that kind of life. You have every right to be angry if you confront her about this. If she gets defensive, dump her. If she apologizes with tears in her eyes then maybe give her a chance, but never give her your heart.

Thanks for the push.
I'm going to just disappear.

Read the last part, OP.
>You have every right to be angry if you confront her about this. If she gets defensive, dump her. If she apologizes with tears in her eyes then maybe give her a chance, but never give her your heart

Have you considered she didn't tell OP because she likes him and doesn't want to scare him off?

Do you think any girl who had a slutty past or was an actual prostitute doesn't deserve to settle down eventually with a guy she really likes? It doesn't make OP a cuck, it's not like she cheated on him. If she wanted to be a bit of a whore back then that's her choice. If it was a male prostitute and OP was a woman I doubt you'd give a shit and tell her to get over it.

OP, if you really like this girl, stay with her. But you will have to talk to her about her past, tell her you found her dairy and just felt hurt she didn't tell you the truth and that you were honest with her about yours. Don't throw away a potentially good relationship.

This.

>make her out as some kind of villian
Sounds like you made up your mind already.
That being said. If you had a diary into all girls lives and thoughts you'ld figure out most of em are fucked. Women are just stupid, especially in their late teens/early 20s. Just ignore it. Women can change a lot when a man they really like enters their life. Women are like clay, you gotta help mold them. When I got with my girl she was doing some crazy shit but it all stopped and now we've been together for 10+ years.

ITT
>insecure folks commiserate about how to not look like the passive aggressive, secretive, and judgy assholes but aren't like the girl their mad at.

Sure op. Just disappear. You're so much better than her and she is property that hasn't lived her entire life thinking about the moment you could take ownership. You're such a good guy. It's really disappointing how you end up single all the time while all the awesome girls just date dicks, amirite?

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Only valuable input

hmmm

to be honest i'm not sure about this one. there are too many unanswered questions for me to really pin her down.

for sure she wants marriage and kids, so if you're not ready to go through with those things, that's an incompatibility right off the bat.

girls that live with sugar daddies may or may not have an expectation of monogamy. if she was expected to be monogamous, then i would definitely leave her since she was cheating for a long period of time. but, if she wasn't expected to be monogamous, then it's less of an issue.

i'm also not sure why she was having sex with multiple men. if it was for money, that's actually more understandable than if it was because she wanted to be slutty.

i still don't like how she's been covering up her past though. how far into the relationship did she say she only had one boyfriend? if it was any later than, say, 3-6 months (or at any time *after* she brought up marriage), then I would leave because that's a clear breach of trust. I'm also a bit suspicious that she views men as means to an end, rather than as individuals to have relationships with, but I don't have a smoking gun on that.

is she stable? does she have a stable job and stuff? is she close to her family?

how is the relationship between you two?

>She's in her twenties now, by 5 years.
Why not just say 25 like a normal person?

Anyway. She had a shitty past and this lead to short relationships. How is she now?
I mean, you know her best, is she serious about settling down or is this just something she says to keep you around?
Is she mentally stable now?
Is she promiscuous now? (Flirting with other people, having eye contact with other people while you fuck in public or something like that?)
If she shows signs of these things, run.
Otherwise see what she is like now.
Growing up is hard and when your peers say it is fine to do stupid things, you are likely to do stupid things.
We are already in a timeline where men are judged for not being slutty.

1. You're a fucking sack of shit for reading through personal diaries/journals/notes
2. You're a retard for believing her lies

Nigga.I can tell your a white boi cuck. I hope more white bois like you marry these sorry ass hoes, side note your going to have a hotwife and I'm going to bring my homie Jamal so we can bang her.

This is Jow Forums, if you don't have any advice, get out.

Same for you "muh dik" fag.

>Do you think any girl who had a slutty past or was an actual prostitute doesn't deserve to settle down eventually with a guy she really likes?
Of course she does. But not by lying about something as significant as that. Nothing is worse that going after a “good” girl and finding out she was the opposite. She has to be honest with herself, own up to it and stop pretending to be something she isn’t. She’ll find plenty of guys who would love her and like her fucked up past, it’s the world we live in now.

>amateur prostitute
there is no such thing as an amateur prostitute. Either she fucked for money or she gave it away for free.