GIOYC

>18 year old virgin, never talked to girls
>bro stop worrying about it bro
>it will happen when it will happen bro
>numbers game bro plenty of fish bro
>just bro be bro yourself bro
>good things will come to those who wait bro

>now 26 year old virgin

What they forgot to tell me was that this only applies to you if you're not an autist.

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I might as well you know when ever I talk to anyone they start to use me or just completely ignore me after we're done talking I'm an complete idiot mostly everyone in my high school hates me so I'm just done with it.

you were supposed to put yourself out there
and you still can do that

I can admit that perhaps staring at girls I like in hopes to get them like me back wasn't such great plan. Nowadays I've been talking to plenty of girls, but my inexperience is biting me back, and the dating pool for guy in my age is very shallow because most of the girls of my age are already taken. Girls younger than me could be interested in me, but I don't think they would be ready for serious relationships. It's not the virginity that bothers me but the things that lead up to it.
I have tried talking to girls online and I like it much better than doing it face to face, we get to have that personal connection before physical, but so far all the girls have been ghosting me. The only girl who was seriously interested in me was in open relationship, and I rejected her because that's not what I'm into.

I wish my parents had arranged a marriage to me when I was a kid. I only need one girl to love me for the rest of my life and I would be happy.

I fucked up.

You will lose this contract and you will know, when it is too late to do anything about it, that I was the cause.

You deserve this.

Sex got even better when I started choking my wife. She basically is on the edge of orgasm while I'm squeezing her throat.

Once I realized that women are basically just immature and waiting for someone to give them boundaries and limits and not cave in to them, it became MUCH easier to interact with them and get what I wanted out of it. And at the same time, they also get what they wanted but are too proud to admit.

I hate summer.
It is always too hot.
There are too many pretty girls outside almost naked.
I can't go on the beach, or even in my yard, because of anxiety/social anxiety. Which fucking sucks, because I am stuck inside in a hot apartment.
People are just too happy.
Too many couples, kissing and shit. And I have never, and will probably never experience this.
I hate myself..........

I don't think I'll ever be a man.

Sometimes people treat me in ways I don’t understand. I was kind to you all, I made your drinks for you most of the evening. Up until they started making demands and not even saying please or thank you. “Make more of the last one, we’re running out of drinks!”

And, you know what? I didn’t even mind. It was the only time any of you would talk to me. I felt involved in the loneliest was possible.

You leeched from me. Using me as a bar tender and a personal cigarette dispenser.
Then you all laugh at me behind my back.
All I have ever been, is kind.

Then fix it

So that's it.

I told her how I couldn't continue talking to her. How these lingering feelings I have for her still bother me months after being rejected. As much as I wanted to preserve our contact I couldn't. It's weird. That constant sadness I felt is going away, but I hate it. I no longer feel the pain all that much, but I hate it. Is this really how things go? Do you really have to lose it all, friendship and everything, to get over it? I hate it. I hate that it works. I hate it so fucking much.

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I feel so low and insecure and lone right now, I want to hurt myself.
I don’t wanna be 2edgy4u but yeah..

I have a big family, none of them particularly care about me. I go out of my way to help them whenever they ask. No one bothers making small talk with me at family functions, unless they’re asking about “are you still single and unemployed?” Or “have you made a dentistis appontment yet?”.

I can’t afford to get my teeth fixed, and I don’t have a job because the 30+ applications I made last month haven’t even responded to reject me.

Then they all make plans, let’s go out for dinner or to the zoo, let’s have afternoon tea... do I get invited? Heh.
Why invite the weird girl that likes games to socialise with us, right? I have no money so my value to you is 0. We can’t post pics on Instagram of our frappé mocha skims with sprinkles or whatever the fuck you’re talking about.. I have no idea.

If I had money I’d get out of this town and leave my materialistic af family and bloom, rather than wilting around them.

>inb4 an hero. I know you’ll all play the “OMG we were so close she was such a happy girl, we didn’t see it coming” shit.

we have been friends for 6 months now and every day i cant stop thinking about how much i lover her ... never tried asking her out kuz im a total pussy , but hey , now its out there

If I hear from him again, I will.

The last time I saw my grandfather I hugged him. I never hugged my grandfather as I just didn't come from a very affectionate family but this time I did. I didn't "know" he was going to die, but I knew he was. When I looked at him, there was this feeling, "This is the last time I'm going to see this man alive". He was losing weight, in good spirits. I figured he would be with us for a few more years but that was just wishful thinking. His time had come. He knew it. I knew it. And I hugged him. After he died, I saw him in a dream. He was wearing a white robe and happier than I've ever seen him in this life. I hugged him again. I haven't had a dream like that sense. I miss you grandad and I know I'll see you again soon.

Each family is different. I do not approve of those families, as that family has decided to raise you. In which state you are now, is completely their fault. Their lack of attention and care towards their child. A big family is no excuse, as the parent always has the blame. Don't forget the way your family has treated you, and do not forgive, but most importantly, don't hold a grudge. It'll only bring more pain to both parties later on.

Your teeth. Not sure how bad they are, but I've bad teeth as well. That of course was my own fault for not taking proper care of them before. I know it's a choking feeling when you'd want to smile around people, but you're too ashamed for your teeth.
But do remember: bad teeth are nothing to be ashamed of. It might be just natural to you, or maybe something happened. Nowadays we live in a world where everyone thinks teeth must be shining white and perfect, which is completely untrue. Sure, it's more attractive visually, but it's not like you'll disgust anyone. People might find it curious at first, but a friend will never shame you for it. Besides... wearing braces sounds like a pain, but I guess I should get some too...

If you wish for family interaction, so far they do not sound like people you should mingle with. If you do not respect them, and nor do they respect you, I suggest not hanging out with them. You could be a sneaky little rat and try to get that free dinner -- which is completely reasonable -- but take into account what you think about them.
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yeah that post bout hugging your grand dad before he died reminded me , the last thing i said to my grand mother before she died was " See you at lunch " , we found her dead in the kitchen , she was pulling a roast chicken out of the oven , getting ready for lunch .

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Also, a big objection to you being weird. Gaming isn't a niche culture anymore, and the internet as well as Anime/Manga have become much more acceptable. It is simply foolish for someone to think playing games makes you into a weirdo. It is they who are stagnating the growth of our community, by slowing down the advance of new cultures and hobbies. They are in my eyes, no better than the NEETs who do not even try.

Still, I'm sure you have learnt that money isn't everything. Your family might appreciate money, but it's only a replacement for what people really seek from life. Try not to hurry with moving out, as life is never predictable, and you might end up in a perilous situation. Stay rational, and learn from the mistakes of your family.
Whew. MAN I feel good. Have I been of help? Probably not. Does help me raise my ego tho! Not that it'll last long as some douchebag will comment "y u care so much, fag?" anyways.

bjh

I am really sorry. What I said to you is how I really feel and I needed to get it out. I feel a little better now but I still have those negative feelings and thoughts. I just feel too guilty to go through with it but I don't feel truly alive most of the time.

I am almost positive I hurt you badly and caused problems now, I don't know what happened but I am too ashamed to even try to ask. I know it is healthier for me to keep a distance and be open if you contacted me again. But I can't live my life on the hope that it happens. I need more than hope at this point, I need someone to stay by my side, I need you to stay by my side.

I wonder if you are working to come back.. or not..

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I don't get it I just want things to go nicely but it seems like my awkwardness and self consciousness always shows itself.
I don't even know if it's a big deal but just last night the girl I just started dating after seeing each other for a bit was drunk with roommates that she just got back to. I sort of guessed this before she told me because we were texting and she was super forward, more than usual. But then I'm just lying in bed, drowsy enough to fall asleep any moment, and she tries facetiming me. I instantly got anxiety so fucking bad, let it ring a few times but had to decline. I don't want someone to see me through a phone camera, out of nowhere, while I lie in bed at a shitty angle. But she seemed kind of passive aggressive pissed where we left it off. I told her I was in bed and probably looked dumb but she said she was just drunk and wanted to see me, and that I'd look fine. But still the anxiety kills me. I mentioned that if she wanted to tomorrow (today) we could do it instead and she said she'd have more fun if she could tonight, but tomorrow sounds good. However it came off very passive aggressive with the exact wording and I felt like shit because I wouldn't just facetime her even though I actually did want to see her, just not have her see me looking shitty. I left it at that and went to bed because I know it can be difficult to reason with a drunk person too and didn't want to accidentally get her riled up or angry or something since you can't really predict how they'll react.
I don't know what to do about it now. Do I wait for her to say something today? Do I pretend it never happened and just text her as normal?
I thought about actually sort of apologizing but it sounds really dumb. Just to clarify to her that I did want to see her and felt bad about it but at the same time I don't want to seem like some double pushover.
Why is this stressing me out so much. I'm just usually an autistic planner so spontaneous shit kills me

>Never "be a man"
user, take this to heart: You define what a "Man" is (unless it's in gender politics, dick = guy, chick with dick is still a guy obviously.) Most of the time if not every time when someone says you're "Not a man", they're trying to use your ego to get you to do shit you probably won't wanna do. For example *"Friends" want you to do something stupid like run into a 7/11 at 2am with nothing but a chicken mask on as a "joke" would say "Come on, A REAL MAN can do it, are you sayin' you're not MAN ENOUGH?" Another example: *GF wants you to to fight her ex, because she's been talking a lot of shit to her (much bigger/stronger) Ex bf, She said shit like "My guy ain't afraid of you!" Now he's ready to beat your ass*, If you don't willingly get your ass beat, then she's screaming at you that you must "BE A MAN" and fight her ex, and if you do get your ass beat, she looses respect in you. for shits n giggles, here's another example: *You're trying to accomplish something your parents disagree with, Say going to college but they think you won't accomplish anything better than a cashier* If you're not working full time then they'll say you gotta "MAN UP" and take the shit job which prevents you from getting the degree and getting a better job.

TL;DR: People say shit like "Be a man, Take responsibility" (For X thing that isn't your responsibility) or "MAN UP!" because they want you to do something you probably shouldn't do.
Ignore any asshole that says you're not a man.

I hope you don't kill her.

Hard mode enabled... don't want to be boring

>chick with dick
No such thing as that, only guys with breasts.

In regards to my teeth, they used to be fine.. just a small stain on the front left one. I had an appointment to have it fixed last year, but then I found out I was pregnant so couldnt have it done. Then I had a miscarriage desu, and didn’t want to leave the house to have it done.. spent the last year trying to recover from A LOT of drama lol

Family were hardly there the whole time.. but they’re all I have. My old friends were too immature to handle it I guess, they wanted to go out drinking etc and I didn’t. They wanted to gossip about boys and irrelevant petty things. I didn’t.

So for the longest time I hid in my bedroom, playing games and watching anime lol. My family are the kind of people that would spend £35 on a sandwich and drink as long as it looks good enough to put on snapchat and write a Facebook status about it and post on Instagram etc etc. They think I’m some strange quiet sadgirl who’s too sad to comfort so they don’t try.

Instead of inviting me for a walk or to talk, I just get ignored.

I really want to get away from it. It’s taken me a little while to build the courage to get back into working but I got there. They don’t believe me when they ask me about my progress. I tell them I’ve been applying for jobs, they start questioning which one (not in an oooh tell me about it kinda way, in an attempt to find a plot hole). Then they’ll all discuss that between them. Compare stories and try to figure out if I’m being truthful.
It’s so disheartening to want something and be working for it.. yet people belittle you and make snide comments.

Thank you for replying. It does help.. when you feel like no one is listening, it’s nice to be heard.

I'm sorry, that was stupid of me to send that. I wanted to see if you cared at all. I've told you I love you so many times and get nothing from you. It hurts so much. You're the only one I'll ever love but I guess it doesn't matter. I think you'll never believe me or feel the same.

Who is this for?

the best person ever

I miss you

Fuck. I just don't trust you anymore. You left me broken hearted on my birthday and I just can't see myself pouring my heart in to you like I did before.
The point was you had known for months I had wanted to do something. The one time I wanted to celebrate it...
And now with me trying to get myself together and trying to break myself out of my neet ways... well, I think it's over. Our relationship needed more time and the distance is only making it harder for something to work.

I have an eating disorder and keep on overeating regularly. It's probably the main issue I have since it fucks up my health and my life in a myriad of ways.

This last week I at least managed to only overeat on somewhat healthy foods (mostly vegetables) and felt a lot better both physically and mentally, but this weekend I again succumbed to sugary sweets and bread.
This tends to happen when I visit my parents since there's a bunch of bread and candy in their house and whenever I come here I tend to give in to the temptation and gourge myself on whatever I can find (was planning on only visiting my parents for dinner on friday then go out afterwards, but I ate so much that I became lethargic and tired, decided to stay at the house and ended up staying the whole weekend browsing the internet and eating junkfood).

The consequences of this habit of overeating is causing problems in all aspects of my life, and yet I do very little to actually battle against it.
I understand that the underlying issue for this habit is a prevalent anxiety and fear towards growing up and taking true, conscious responsibility over myself, my actions and lifecourse and fall into eating food whenever I meet an opportunity to do something that needs to be done to improve my circumstances (even basic stuff like housecleaning, paying bills, meeting friends, studying, etc. are enough to trigger an impuls to escape to food and browsing the internet to dull my senses of my reality).

I know that if I just TRY to fight against the anxiety and TRY to steer myself to meet head on the things I out of habit tend to avoid (like the basic stuff mentioned) it will become easier to continue further on to face tougher things, but I've been stuck in this silly escapistic overeating pattern for a really long time now.

The responsibility I have towards myself is something I can't run away from forever, nor do I want to, but that's what I've been doing for as long as I nearly can remember

What happened on your birthday?

I'm tired of my friend's boyfriend. I used to drive her home after we hang out but now the guy shows up himself in his car to do it, I wonder if it means he fears me or something. I'm not trying to date her, I just wish she found someone better. I mean she's probably the best person I know and the guy took the liberty to break up with her and then get back together with her.

I need to get away from a toxic person but I have no means to do it and feel trapped.

Now both of you are making me feel worthless. I’m only the apple of your eye when nobody else is around. You expect me to pay for myself and you. You both undermine my self esteem in attempts to capture me. Neither of you respect my privacy.

Just treat me like someone you love. It’s not that hard.

I'm sorry

Clearly not, I'm right here.

same, not your person, same though.

Ian i am going to make E my gf soon maybe even today since she will be at my home

You gave it a try and she rejected you, i’ll be honest you probably like her more than i do but im gonna do it anyways i am getting tired of feeling lonely, and i need to get over P, i think E is my best option right now

In a world were P never had to go away, i would probably be helping you

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It feels now like to remain on Jow Forums is to live in the past. Each day I make the same jokes, post the same opinions, and slowly feel the life drain out of me week by week. Nothing will ever replicate the magic of your first year or so here, it's a fact, and we are almost like crack addicts spending our hours here simply because it is easy and it is familiar. Sure we all need a kind of dump for our free time, but we all know this site is more than that. Rather, it's more like a group of people who stick together to find solidarity in their discomfort, and chase this high of being 'linked in' and 'connected' to avoid the silence, the tough questions, the striving. Surely you remember when coming here was a novelty, right? I used to spend 100% of my computer time just playing games, and I was never happier. I might try that again.

Hell, I'm not saying I'll quit, but think about it. Would it really be so bad to take a break? To cut those ties? To feel alone?

I know long distance relationship's a meme but, I'd really like us to work. I love you.

I don't understand your motives or what you want from me. You started off telling me you loved me, even though you did nothing but try to hurt and humiliate me at every turn. Years later you became an awful and cruel person to me until I finally broke down and tried to find out why. Then you tell me we need to take a break and avoid me at all costs until I finally decided I don't want you around and began forgetting you. Now you conveniently come back and tell me you love me and when i decide to give it a chance you start ignoring me all over again.

What the fuck do you want from me?

Make it not long distance.

I just ate 3 donuts and a sandwich
Good donuts though and it's hard to find the motivation to stay slim, especially since being fat isn't noticeable to me until it starts sapping my vitality. But whoever said nothing tastes as good as being thin is absolutely full of shit. The vast majority of food I eat is a treasured moment, it literally, and I mean LITERALLY makes me feel like I'm in love. Nobody else fucking does that. All these cuntfucks mincing around and whining about fat people are so self centered they wouldn't give a rat's ass about you if you were slim anyway. Why would you make yourself suffer for people like these? Dating means taking part in yet another subculture of hypocrisy, where dinguses of all types bemoan your lack of responsibility before going off to engage in hooking up, random meaningless sex with all sorts of terrible consequences. Hey ass hats at least my donuts aren't going to turn around and accuse me of sexual harassment, or sue for child support, or give me herpes and ghost me. So I lop off the last and worst 20 years of my life enjoying whatever whenever and at a cheap price. Seems like less trouble than playing fiddle to a society that is virtually garbage and is rigged to make you more miserable the longer you play.

Fuck it.

I want to let go if this pain, this anxiety. It hurts so much. I want to love you and call you my own but you belong to someone else, and that KILLS ME. I never had a chance with you yet I foolishly feel I still do. WHY CAN'T I LET YOU GO!?

I keep telling myself not to think about it, but I always justify my reasoning in case its a bad idea to stop thinking about it, but the whole point is just to not go over it and let it go, but I just can't because it bothers me if I don't justify it. Does that make sense? I can't just turn my brain off and do things or just carry on without overthinking shit.

Another thing is things I've already done that I consider a mistake, its already done and there's no point thinking about it but I do anyway like its gonna change anything... I'm stuck in my head all the time and I can't get out

Related feels, sometimes life throws you into a path that is meant to help with your overall growth as a human being, the future never seems to have a set projectory.

I'm a white guy with a complicated far eastern name that my parents gave me because they wanted me to be "unique." I need a new first name, no one remembers or even cares about who I am because I have such a ridiculous and stupid name. Please give me a new first name, preferably one that is easy to remember and won't make me sound like a faggot.
>inb4 Faggot

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Sorry, but doughnuts are terrible. The amount of calories and fat they contain for what you get is a rip off. Texturally, they're soft, but you get a mouthful of grease, and the structure is still usually fairly grainy. They're always way too sweet, and just covered in fucking sugar frosting, or sprinkles which causes my stomach to get upset just thinking about the acid response to something like that.

Why not like a good sandwhich or something? A lot more satiating for the calories, it's actually healthy, and tastes fucking amazing.

Lately I've found a good way to prevent overeating is to have specific limits per day. Once you get into that debate of "Should I eat this or not?", you've pretty much already lost, since logic always bends to follow suit with temptation. However, if you say, "I have had three sugary snacks today, and I cannot possibly eat more", it's much easier to follow. I don't have a disorder, but I did grow up obese and still have issues with overindulgence, so hopefully this helps.
If you were truly content with your choice, user, you wouldn't have to respond with anger. There is no two set paths you must decide on, but rather an enormous variety of directions ready to be explored. For you, I would suggest looking into mindfulness, and learning more about willpower. Someone once said that a man never procrastinates once he understands how it works. The same applies to indulging in your desires - it will always, without fail, bring more suffering with it. Focus on the process of consumption closely, and you will see it clear as day. I'm not calling you weak, by the way. Everyone struggles with this.

But definitely do explore these topics. In order to extinguish lust, monks are conditioned to view the body as not some ideal of beauty, but a mix of blood, bile, pus, excrement, bone, marrow, nail, liver, and so on. If you're doing nofap and you still want to fuck everything with hips, you've got a long ways to go. Same applies to any object of desire. Eventually, you will overcome it. Good luck.

I am torn apart with wild ambitions on one side and my pathetic weakness and laziness on the other.

How do I overcome it?

Every time my depression kicks in I come here to whine some. This is one of those occasions. As usual, I hope I won't end myself.

There's nothing to pity about me. I have a good life. I just think that I'm a shitty, worthless, bad person. Well, not only think, I know I am. Sometimes it is just harder to coop with it than other times.

I'm glad, at least, that I've picked up running as a hobby. By the third mile I feel actual happiness flowing through my body, and all my worries are gone for at least two hours. Too bad it's a rest day…

I think it gets harder because I don't want to speak about it. I don't dare. I want to stay strong for other people. I can't let them down. And I don't want them to think I'm a crazy person. They would probably say that I just tell myself that I have depression and snap out of it, so there's no point to end my fake smile.

I don't know what to do with you. Things have gotten worse and I'm getting more and more depressed. I'm trying to leave you but it's the hardest thing ever since we've been together for so long. The happy times are fading away and I'm looking for something else. I'm so sorry and it hurts to see you this way but I've lost my patience and can't handle it anymore.

youtube.com/watch?v=5-sfG8BV8wU

Other than that, don't fight for ambitions. First and foremost beat yourself. Be better than the person who you were yesterday. Don't want to do it in one night, though. If you are really lazy, then start slowly. Half hour of effort a day for some time, then one hour, then two. Make the grow gradual so you won't burn out.

Reach out to him then.

>want to be really masculine both physically and emotionally
>also want to be the nice, wholesome understanding person that people feel they can rely on
Is it possible to be both without one side contradicting the other?
[spoiler]I'm probably none of these things to be honest

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What's it like talking to a girl that likes you? Its been awhile since I was sure a girl liked me.. nowadays it seems they barely want to interact with me.

It is possible.

I'm back at my parents' house for summer and I need to get distracted from the tension around here so I don't have to be anxious all the time.

Any hobbies I can get into to keep busy? I'm playing guitar, recording music, tried drawing/painting, I exercise, read and play video games. Anything else I can do at home? preferably something that will improve any skills/make me a better person

you're a horrible, horrible person.

Gonna ask here cause I dont think it deserves its own thread.

Do you ever fully get over exes? I've been split with her since new year, and I thought I was over it. I removed her from my life, I met new girls etc. I was getting on well, actually happy with how things were going. Somethings just happened to remind me of the whole situation with her and its all just came flooding back and I feel like absolute trash. Is this gonna be hanging over my head for the rest of my life? She was my 2nd ever serious relationship but really the first that ever... hit me, for lack of a better way to word it.

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You can be understanding, wholesome and reliable and still be masculine. "masculine" doesn't necessarily equate to being an asshole, user.

I have really strong feelings for my best friend but I'm not sure what to do about it

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Here, fix that image for you.

Cus now it's more like real life.

Fucking women.

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Do they know how you feel?

Few months ago I met the most perfect girl but I'm sure she bailed on me because of the things her friends told her about me. There used to be a rumor going around that apparently I spread about this girl, but because I didn't bother explaining myself to every fucking person in school everyone believed I started it and so did this girl. Years later turns out that this girl and the girl I met are close friends and she told her about the rumor and that I'm a shitty person.

The only opportunity I ever had to be with someone I actually liked and it was ruined for me by something some asshole said on my behalf 6 years ago

I think she's cutting me out of her life because I ddin't show the same level as interest as her. But the only reason I didn't is because she wouldn't let me. Now I'm going to lose a friend of 5 years and I'm kinda bummed about it. There's no way to address it without sounding like a needy little freak.

If you're going to lose her anyway, then why not just go for it? Explain yourself. If it goes poorly and you still lose her, nothing has changed. If it goes well, you keep her as a friend. You've nothing to lose and everything to gain.

Because I know her too well. She'll never admit it. She'll never admit that she's been avoiding me. She'll never admit that she's refusing to text me. She'll never admit she still has feelings for me. She'll never admit that she's afraid if we hang out, she'll fall for me again.

I already know how it goes. Next week we both find out if we graduated. She won't ask me how I did. She won't ask if I graduated. Two months ago she almost hugged me because we both passed a single shitty test. But now, she won't ask me if I've succeeded in the most important event of my life to date. I'll have to be the one to ask her. When I do, she'll keep it blunt as fuck. Curt. I'll ask her if she wants to get drinks to celebrate, she'll make up some excuse not to. I'll tell her there's something up with her and I wish she would tell me. She'll tell me she's fine. I'll not press because why bother when you know they won't tell you the truth? And then we won't talk at all until the graduation. She'll act normal during the graduation and then she'll go home early, despite begging me excitedly just a few months ago to promise that I'd go out drinking with her the night we graduate. Then we'll never talk again.

She knows I know her better than anyone she's ever met. She's acknowledged that I can "read her like a book". But it won't stop her from lying to me to protect herself from some imagined pain that I might inflict upon her.

You should still try. If she lies to you, she lies to you. You do nothing, you lose her. You do something and she lies and you lose her, so be it, you can say you tried. You will beat yourself up later if you just sit on your ass and let it happen. Better to go down swinging.

I keep getting weird dreams of me being high on LSD.

Please don't let this be for/about me

being popular in high school is not good. It means you're an idiot who cares more about fitting in rather than doing your own thing. Look at all successful adults, they were not the popular kids in hs. School is for learning and become a better person, not socializing. You have to find out what your interests are before you really make real friends. I'm 26 now and am popular. I was never popular before because I didn't know who I was.

I dunno. I'll text her about graduation or whatever next week but I don't know how to handle her blatantly curt response.

How the fuck do I say "I can tell you're avoiding me because you almost hugged me last time results came out but today you haven't even bothered to text and ask me how I did" without sounding needy as fuck?

I didn't do anything for college these last few weeks. I will fail this subject for the third time.

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I miss you all the time. I'm happy when I'm doing my own thing, don't get me wrong, I'm just way happier when I'm talking to you... like tomorrow hopefully.

I want to go home.

I want to go home right now.

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Is home a place or a person user? Or is it a state of mind?

He keeps teasing me about being effeminate and calling me cute or adorable and I am fucking dying inside because my manhood is fragile as shit. And I'll just look like even more of a sissy faggot if I complain about it so I can't even tell him to shut the fuck up. Next time he calls me cute I'm jumping out a window.

Didn't meet my nearly life long best friend till i was two years out of highschool

Bad things keep happening and I can't get a break.
> Mom has a heart attack, can't hold the apartment move out and sleep on friends couch for 3 months
> best friend of 12 years kills himself
> roommate tricks me into signing my own release from apartment, forced out of first apartment
> roommate pisses all over my stuff
> Car keeps breaking down, too dumb to fix it, dont trust car shops.
> tried to join army, they wont take me because they thibk I have asthma
> just tore the meniscus in my knee, now have to quit my job, move to my aunts.

I need life to stop shitting on me for two seconds so I can move forward and it's not happening.

I wonder if today is the day. The pain isn't really going away like it normally does.

>Do they know how you feel?

They do and are strangely okay with it.

i don't like the people i'm around

can't wait to ditch this whole social circle but i have to finish uni first

I keep talking to this girl I like on snapchat, but I'm always initiating the conversations. Is it a lost cause?

Same, user. But I don't have any place that feels like home anymore.

same here user

i belong nowhere

You have a decent job. You have a house to yourself, that you own.

But when you get down to it, it feels like you have no skills. Nothing interesting about you. It's why you fill yourself with silly gimmicks.

"I can solve a Rubicks Cube.", "I can flourish playing cards.", "I know a few math tricks that 'read your mind'.". But none of these things are anything but tiny things to impress people and hide the truth.

I'm not impressive, and I haven't got the drive in this depression to be impressive.

if it's any consolation hearing about successful people being this depressed comforts me

Ultimately, yeah it is. It depends how you broke up obviously, but it it wasnt mutual then it mostly destroys your chances of being friends. I tried being friends with an ex who I still loved and it is just an emotional ride that never ends. Even after a year of no contact it still didn't work. The situation you put yourself in when both parties know that there is or was unrequited feelings means that every time you start a conversation it sounds like you want something, and every time she starts one she feels like she could end up stringing you along. You can't use that as a foundation for friendship, no matter how chill that person is. It does sick, but it gets better.