I want advice about what kind of person I am, I guess? I can't rejoin my friends in playing WoW because I am going completely autistic over self insertion or something. Here are some thoughts.
>cant play warrior because i'm not strong >cant play mage because i'm not intelligent >cant play warlock because they've looked boring to play for several expacs >cant play priest because i'm not hyper religious or hyper nothing important >cant play monk, dk or dh because they won't be playable in WoWC >can't decide if hunter is a good enough class, survival is completely fucked and isn't getting be tter, totally wasted potential and killed off class? >haven't touched a shaman since WotLK, got sick of spamming totems back then >can't play a druid because i refuse to play an elf or furfag race >simply bored and tired of my rogue main, and i don't feel like being a thieving backstabber anymore
I'd pay large sums of money to have such problems in my life.
Lucas Myers
I'll elaborate.
I've been crippled in life with these kinds of thoughts for a decade. I can't make basic life decisions because I don't know if "I'm that kind of person".
Luke Edwards
>simply bored and tired of my rogue main, and i don't feel like being a thieving backstabber anymore Everything new becomes old No matter what you choose, once you get your gear and rotation down it's going to get to this point. If you're not RP'ing I don't see why "I'm not that kind of person" is even a factor and even then, isn't pretending to be something/someone you're not the point of roleplaying?
It's just a game, don't have a conniption.
Aaron Taylor
There is no such thing as "that kind of person". Only people who do what they want, and those who don't because they're afraid they might not be that kind of person.
Stop woorying so much, user. If you step back and take a look at you decision-making process, you'll probably realize it doesn't really matter all that much to you. And if it does matter enough, then you shouldn't consider this an issue with you, but rather just a hard choice.
Isaiah Peterson
>isn't pretending to be something/someone you're not the point of roleplaying? In all honesty over the years it's become more than roleplay to me. I self insert in the world, the avatars I make are supposed to represent my personality. I can spend hours upon hours deciding on the perfect race, class, spec, appearance and transmog combinations. Maybe I was bullied and made fun of or something I can't remember, and it scarred me. Who knows.
I guess I'm the latter. I used to have dozens of active friendships online, not just on WoW. I always had someone to talk to and have fun with. I have one friend left, and my brother who only bothers with me when it benefits him. I talk to literally nobody else outside of Jow Forums and (out of utmost necessity) coworkers nowaday. I don't remember how to make a friend, or how to be a friend, or what it means to be a friend. I automatically assume the worst of everyone around me as safety. And I expect them to judge every little idea I might give off. I've removed friendships that had lasted for years because I felt that what I said was cringy, which built inside myself repeatedly until I just found enough excuses (projections?) to remove them.
Shit I'm just rambling but I feel like I need to.
Evan Sanchez
Again, you care too much, user. I don't mean to sound like a careless dudebro or anything (hell, I'm kinda like you, to some extent), but there's a point when overthinking stuff changes from being a tool that gives you some extra control in life, to a weapon pointed at you and preventing you from making use of that control. The fact that you're big into MMOs might also indicate a somewhat obssesive/micromanaging mentality.
It's hard to suddenly change the way you are, but my best advice would be to force yourself into (friendly) situations where you and others have to interact with each other, be silly... to put it short: loosen up. Acting classes would be a very good example, I think. I'll confess that I would shit myself if I had to get on a stage and act. But it sounds like that's exactly what you need right now.
Nathaniel Bennett
Whatever direction your passion pushes you towards is what kind of person you are. If you have no passion pushing you towards anything, then you better start exploring different areas of life and find a niche that you can develop a level of competency in, ideally one that can make you money.
Elijah Martinez
Most cities have acting classes, for all ages, and often times for free, btw
Jace Perez
I don't think I have a passion for anything. I work, shitpost, play games and sleep. It's been my life for like two decades. For instance, I often get asked by higher-ups at work what I strive for, what I want to work with, what my goals are. Not once in 4 years have I been able to answer them because I genuinely do not know enough to care. "Whatever that pays my rent" is my attitude towards everything I work on. "Whatever doesn't bore me" is my attitude towards games.
I'm anxious enough about having to force myself to talk to people I can't stand listening to at work. I don't see what acting classes could help with. I act enough as it is at work. I have a COMPLETELY different mindset and personality at work, and I built it out of pure necessity. At work I am not me at all, it's a farce aking to a roleplay I put up with to not be disliked there. The moment my mind realizes that I get to go home from work, a switch in me goes and I'm back to myself, back to this.
Adrian Harris
Clearly you have to play a shadow priest.
Mason Butler
Yeah because I sound angsty right now, I get it.
Luis Roberts
No way. Shadow Priest is the best class. I've done it on multiple classic private servers. As a former rogue, you're likely a guy who PVP's. A priest in general is an easy target for most players but as soon as you get some decent stamina gear, you can start surprising those classes that target you. Unless you're running around with anethema, nobody will know you're shadow if you're out of form. It's great watching people fuck off and start running away from you after you drop their health in half and then heal yourself back up to full after a fear.
Also you have the option to heal and res. Shadow is the ultimate vanilla pick.
You say it's not the real you at work. And that fakebyou has no motivations. What's the real you like? What defines you?
(Also, acting is a good way to develop social skills, but most importantly, it's a way to break the loop you're in right now, and get you interested in something. Maybe not acting itself, maybe someone you meet there... You said you don't remember how to make friends, right? Well, the first and most important step is "to have something in common". That's why kids make friends so easily: they all go to school regularly, and they all like to play, so they eventually start playing together. Right now you seem a bit isolated, so you should try to put yourself in a friendly environment to help you. You don't have to give up MMOs, but try to add some variety to your life.)
Luis Watson
As much as I'm looking forward to WoWC, a class that can heal is very unlikely going to be touched ever for me again. Because if it has the ability to heal in vanilla, you're damned if you don't dedicate your soul to exclusively healing always. Healbitches were a thing.
And I healed enough. I healed for the majority of WoW through vanilla, TBC, LK and early Cata. Then I just snapped and decided that fuck this shit, it's too effortless, it's completely inappreciated, any retard can do it etc. This was some years back when I started to seek absolute skill over any other aspect in multiplayer. I still require my games to challenge me nowadays, but not quite as much as those years. I would simply refuse to even try a game if it gave me the notion that it was casual.
>what defines you? Kind of why I made the thread I think. >lazy >procrastinating >constantly break promises like getting healthier or working out >lonely but refuse to let anyone close because i automatically dislike a person if even one quirk annoys me nowadays, alternatively i start liking them and then i remember that i'm a horrible person so i drop all contact before it gets anywhere >below average ability in every. single. thing. >includes being mediocre at my very best with games, despite having played them all my life, my maximum potential is "average", this means i'm mediocre at the only thing i could ever imagine having any ability for before remembering that i don't >extremely self-loathing by habit, i casually talked about suicide when i was 5 or 6 >thought i was depressed last year, even got on meds, but absolutely nothing helps, i'm immune to medication and i am unable to hear the advice i listen to Despite these things I have such an EASY life. Without putting any real effort in I have my own place, a job that pays well, and I can pretty much do whatever any day I don't work. I can eat whatever I want, play whatever I want, I own every tool and toy I desire, etc
Caleb Sanders
Hey I found one in the wild, cool. You have the RPG player brain disease. I've noticed this among some of my friends and acquaintances. You were probably raised on a diet of schlocky fantasy games and movies and have mistaken the on-the-nose characterization present there for actual character. Managing personality traits and their corresponding combat roles like the sphere grid from FFX or some shit. The cure, imo, is to read real books about real characters. Try Dostoevsky and Jane Austen. You can go back to playing games like these one day but at that point you'll just be able to appreciate playing a cool character/a fun class rather than seeing it as some sort of personality test.
>overthinking every aspect of everything >i'm genuinely weak, i'm a WEAK male, i struggle to lift rather low weight objects and it embarrasses me at work because half of it IS carrying somewhat big objects around >fat and unlikable >wanted to find someone to live with again since i left my ex 4 years ago, oh and i still talk to this ex, i am literally in a discord conversation with her right now, i admit she's that one friend i still ever talk to because when i left her she made me promise to stay friends, we have a kind of weird double edged friendzone now and while we can have tons of fun just talking shit at a distance we both self deprecate and can't even begin to bother finding love again >i get loud and obnoxious if i even begin to get excited, which only in recent years i figured is why everyone i thought were friends stopped bothering with me, and as a result i ended up removing everyone to stop shaming myself I literally have 0 redeeming qualities. Any notion of me being friendly, helpful, calm, positive etc is a farce I use at work to survive. It's survival instincts to me, not emotions anymore.
Matthew Campbell
There's this Zizek quote I really like, "Our inner truth is the lie we construct to live with the misery of our actual lives." Basically, your search for identity is defensive navel-gazing to give meaning to what sounds like a boring and unfulfilling existence. Live externally, get out of your stupid head. There is roughly zero merit to the things you ruminate on and it will never effect change in your life.
>read books I'm a school dropout; I dropped out because reading huge walls of text only irritates my brain. Which is extremely ironic because over the years I've become adapt at creating gigantic walls of text like this thread. Speaking of personality test, myers-briggs tells me on an almost monthly basis (I re-check when I feel my lowest) that I am ISTP-T, if that's anything. At first I thought it was cool because ISTPs are some pretty cool dudes out there. But then I realized that not a single positive trait fits me. I'm an unhandy dumbass and unlike what apparently is typical of ISTPs, to love changing jobs and locations, I am most comfortable repeating the same shit day in and day out simply because it's easy.
Jackson Foster
Well, I share quite a few of those with you, but I don't have an "easy" job that pays me well enough to own my own place and everything else I want... Are you sure it's just that the job is easy? Are you not good at it? How did you manage to get it? Might it be related to your passion?
Nolan Smith
It's a very straight forward industry job at a flight service, like, we're the guys that pack all the snacks and baverages that sell on airplanes and whatever. I actually started last week. My job before it was at a cafeteria for 3 years where the only challenge was to act friendly towards customers, however in the last year it dwindled to nearly nothing any day of the week. I am completely ashamed that I didn't figure out- or learn the basics I learned last week in the first day or at most two days. Because it's so fucking dumb and easy, you just carry from A to B and do a little sorting, as well as move boxes around with small trucks. It took me a week to learn enough to start handling my own without fucking up on friday. I should have been decent at it by wednesday if I wasn't a fucking mental ape.
It's an easy job. It pays decently by sheer luck. I'm just lucky. I got into it by pretending to be hard working and friendly. I'm not that kind of person, I go out of my way to be lazy and selfish, that is the real me. As mentioned above this pretending is a survival instinct to me now, so at least that one basic thing still works in my system I guess. I have no passion. I want money, so that I can eat, pay rent and play more shitty games that bore me after far less hours playtime than dollars' value.
Henry Green
I just realized that I've been venting in this thread for two hours and I gotta get back to work in about 7 hours. The replies have been very thought provoking, it gets my mind going, but I don't know if it helps. I'm sorry. I probably just wasted your time. I really need to sleep.
If there are more replies I will absolutely be reading all of it, but the thread will be gone before I can reply again. Oh and as a final note, my libido still works perfectly fine. Sometimes I think I go on living just to experience another good fap, but when the good fap is done I go days without interest again. Nofap is a confirmed meme so don't even.
