Okay listen up, Im a good looking, smart...

Okay listen up, Im a good looking, smart, and self-respecting guy but I'm pretty fucked up from a lot of bad experiences in my life (both everyday bullying shit due to being >tfw to intelligent and serious stuff that put me in the hospital). Im pretty empathetic and outgoing and can make friends and get girls to like me pretty easily but I think my heavy personality and higher intelligence (not bragging its legitimate and causes fucking problems) ends up tiring them out and prevents me from enjoying simple normie shit and things fall apart pretty quickly. I try to keep the fucked up stuff to myself but I guess I can't hide it well enough.

I just finished my first year at uni and I had a lot of friends but either I got tired of them being fake and taking advantage of me or they got tired of me, maybe for being too clingy or something? I fucked a few girls and had a few I thought might become gfs but they just stopped responding pretty quickly even though I was trying to be lighthearted and fun. I still get fairly good grades but the stress from all this shit and memories from the past that keep popping up to haunt me sometimes make it hard for me to keep a level head and work hard.

I had a therapist back in high school and I liked having someone to talk to but he didn't help and I think ultimately made me just think too much about stuff I should be ignoring. Currently I cope by lifting, trying to find people and things to pass the time, and drinking moderately. Its enough to keep me happy most of the time but i still have serious problems and I dont know how to get over what I see as one bad thing after another for my whole fucking life.

Any advice about forgetting things and chilling out? Or living as a deep thinking faggot around normal people?

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>Or living as a deep thinking faggot around normal people?
you sound like delusional faggot with a superiority complex

I want you to prove me your superior intelligence, I've never talked to someone smarter than me and I'm curious.

>implying you talk to people

go /out/ smoke some pot, enjoy life , for a moment without other people, go fishing, hunting or just hiking, it helps to relax

I talk to you, don't I?

Lol yeah because no one is better at anything than anyone else
What do you want, a philophical rant? I don't have much to say right now and don't see any point in proving myself to Jow Forums but what I can tell you is that I'm the same way, I've never met a person I felt was smarter than me. This is probably not true because my IQ puts me at about 1 out of 1000 (the good way not the bad way lol) and Ive met more than 1000 people but I felt like only a few of them were able to think in the abstract and form their own opinions. The real evidence is that everyone has told me Im smart since I was a toddler, often as an insult lol.

Anyway that's not what I want to talk about, I know I'm intelligent, I'm asking for help because I'm fucked in the head from a lot of emotional trauma that I can't shake off and am having trouble living with normal people. My interests are fairly fucked up and I don't get much pleasure out of anything that doesn't involve violence or taboo somehow, like I can't really enjoy music or sports.

keep yourself busy in productive works or extra curricular stuffs that makes you feel good. Since you are smart, it won't be a problem finding out your interests.

This is good advice and I do try to follow it (i prefer booze over pot though) because what else can I do but I don't know if I want to always be coping, I'd like to put some shit behind me and be able to handle myself better with normies.

I'm pretty serious about finding fun shit to do but I just dont enjoy most interests that you'd see listed on a resume or dating profile, what I really like is learning and talking about fucked up stuff like crime, history, or philosophy (not in a stupid, superficial way). I also like analyzing people (by which i mean talking shit) but I know thats bad so I try to not do it.

Basically Im a huge fucking edgelord but I dont want attention for it, I still want some normie things.

I also analyze people all the time. Kinda judge everyone and take it to the level where I start hating them but they are still my friends, cuz I hide my temper and judgements to myself. But I always try to put their psychology in a pattern which feels good. I can read their motives. And get into interesting online discussions.

I really have trouble being positive, I feel like even if I enjoy something or someone (which I do) there's nothing to really say about it and if I try to I end up sounding stupid or autistic. Talking about shortcomings or things I hate is really easy and satisfying so of course I end up doing that more.

having been through therapy/ suicidal stages, addiction and having 'problems' myself. I've come to the conclusion that really there are no problems.. stop putting pressure on yourself and telling yourself something is wrong.

you'd be surprised how effective not giving a shit can be sometimes

I get the general idea but seriously all this old trauma just enters my mind and I can't shake it, it makes me feel helpless and horrible inside. It also makes any situation vaguely similar to past shit I've dealt with become a bigger deal for me that really upsets me and often makes me sperg out on whoever caused it.

this actually sounds more of a mature thing. There actually isn't much to talk about if those things enjoy are something like anime or series or something. Any experience with programming?

>tfw too smart to prove my intelligence

Im not into any of that kind of gay shit, im not into much of anything, I just sort of try to find exciting and edgy situations in real life and online. I do play video games and whatnot but not seriously. Okay here's an example: last year i had a group of friends i later ended up hating for various reasons (long fucking story) but when i was cool with them when it was my turn to fill the gap in the conversation id usually talk about funny fucked up shit id seen in my hometown, you know like hobos i met and edgelords from my hs who threatened to kill me with whatever illegal weapon that happened to have. There was also a weeb faggot in the group who would always talk about warhammer even though literally none of us played it and one day i made some mild remark about how i found it a little odd how he was always going on about warhammer even though we werent listening and some guy in the group said "well youre always talking about people who tried to kill you". Idk i guess normies just dont like excitement.

And nah im not into hard science stuff, i was really good at math when i was young but it makes me want to off myself. Im a business major.

Lol give me a really hard captcha to solve or something then m8y

Also its
>tfw to

do you have some sort of dad issues or something. You don't seem to be much experienced with socialization.
Also it's too not to. Read what user said again.

OP here, what?

the dad issue thing was just a question (missed the enter key)
the other stuffs were my opinion.

I can be your friend if you want
I'm funny sometimes
I'm not fake
I'm really honest
I'm very patient also

I dont really want any more male friends desu

Who said I had a penis?

I dont really want any more autistic ugly female friends desu

Oh my god you're such a dick
Don't judge people you don't know honey

You aren't intellectually superior, you're just an asshole.

Lol

lol

Cool thread OP. Sounds like you're unpleasant to be around. Ignoring your mental health issues or personality disorder or whatnot probably isn't a great idea but you seem pretty committed to it so carry on I guess.

You seem pretty full of yourself, calm your ego a little it won't hurt. You might be better than a few people but there are always going to be someone better than you.

Her/his comment was clearly bait bro

The OP or the sick burn?
Also idk man this is Jow Forums is any thread not bait?

What do you mean?

No the nonsense poem

What do you mean by ''bait''?

Pls reply to the comments you want to address

Sorry didn't know how to do it

But it was pretty obvious who I was talking to... just saying

You're lacking mastery in your life. Find a subject and master it. I'd suggest pool/billiards. It gives your mind something to do, and no matter how smart you are, there is always things to learn in pool. You could literally play your whole life and keep learning new things.

I honestly think you're more bored than anything. Smart people get bored easily and look for novel experiences, thus pool. It might help find friends, but honestly you need something to funnel your intelligence in rather than just friends. I'd imagine it can get pretty tiresome trying to keep your mind getting new experiences with the same group of friends.

Maybe get into some Jason Silva videos or some old timers like Timothy Leary, even if you don't believe what they say, it's still interesting to listen to someone talk about novel things.

What do you mean by bait?

Forgot to add, pool billiards can be a normie activity, but it goes way deeper than that if you put the effort in. There are so many different levels you can reach after you plateau for a while. Check the book "The Inner Game of Tennis" to also help master your issues (bonus it works well in pool too).

Pls leave

>This is good advice and I do try to follow it (i prefer booze over pot though)

Seriously, read "the inner game of tennis", it helps quiet your thoughts, similar to how alcohol or pot does. You can control your thoughts but like anything, it takes practice. I'm dead serious, try to master pool and once you're past the basic shit it's a wonderful tool for learning control over your inner life.

Yeah looks interesting but I'm really just asking for help unwinding from years of bad shit fucking me up, I get pretty bored with activities like that anyway

>Yeah looks interesting but I'm really just asking for help unwinding from years of bad shit fucking me up, I get pretty bored with activities like that anyway

Well, that's my go to activity for unwinding. I honestly have no idea what else to offer.

I go through times of getting super interested in new topics/activities, learn a shitload about them, get good at whatever it is, then get bored and stop said activity, never to revisit it again. I'll stop with the pool talk, but it's honestly the only thing I've ever found with enough facets to keep it interesting. Hell, even getting to the point you're good enough to read people and mess with them on the table is good fun. I've literally made a pro level player get pissed enough to throw his stick and leave the pool hall.

I'm not some "expert" and he was way better than me, but he's a runout type player. He wants to run all the balls and win. I played fucking DEVIOUS safety after safety. This poor guy came to the table about 25 times with no shot and it finally broke him. This is the type of guy that will win if he gets any opening. If he gets to the table more than once per game, you've lost. I guess what I'm getting at is, there is so many levels to the game, from studying people, pissing with them without them knowing you're doing it etc.

You can really help beginners and help their confidence (it carries over to life) or just fucking mentally punish some asshole with them never knowing you're doing it to them. They blame bad luck, bad rolls, etc, but it's a real trip knowing you're causing all the trouble they see. I'm not a pool shark and don't play for money, but I honestly enjoy fucking with certain types but not playing deviously with friends or others who are pleasant.

This is one aspect, it's everything from zen meditation to geometry to reading people, etc.

Good luck user, just know there are others with the same problem.

Where do you even play with strangers? When I went to a pool hall it looked like everyone played with the people they came with.

Can you please not post here anymore. I hate you by just reading your first lines.

No

Start drinking daily and take a bunch of Robotussin, should dumb you down a little. Then you'll be less like Rick and more relatable.

I already do drink daily and it definitely helps but not gonna go overboard with it lol

You'll never get anywhere in life if you're not willing to take risks.