Intimacy

I just woke up from a vivid dream where my ex gf from seven years ago was spooning me
when I woke up I have never felt more alone than this
I think I crave intimacy but my complete lack of personality stops me from even entertaining the idea that I would ever find someone again
the last pseudo relationship I had with a guy was over a year ago but only lasted three weeks because I dropped out of uni with no regard to how it would affect my personal life

now I have no friends, hobbies, interests to talk about, opinions to share, or even ideas besides blantant contrarianism
what the fuck do I do?
am I stuck in this void forever?
I just want someone to hold me and love me even though I'm an empty shell of a person
the last girl who came along who was interested in me I ended up ghosting because I didn't feel attracted or into her but now I feel the compete opposite and regret it

help

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>I have no friends, hobbies, interests to talk about, opinions to share, or even ideas besides blantant contrarianism
>I just want someone to hold me and love me even though I'm an empty shell of a person
Nobody will bother, there are far more interesting and active people out there

You want a date, OP? I'm free, I can be your date for tonight.

so do I just end it?
the worst part is that I used to be fully content with my own company and didn't ever experience loneliness for years of spending most of my time at home instead of being at school socialising
now it feels like 'my own company' doesn't exist and I'm living with someone in a coma

I would genuinely appreciate that very much but I doubt you live in the UK though

What is it with you niggers that you choose suicide as the default solution to the most trivial issue? Stop being such a weepy cunt and get your shit together. Try living instead of just barely existing.

You're closer than I thought, I expected you to be American.
No need for that, we could do a date simulacrum on discord or whatever.

>get your shit together
>try living
you couldn't be more vague if you tried
even suicide is a much more specific and doable solution
you haven't suggested anything more worthwhile so it will remain the default

>give me everything ready on a sliver plate!!!
Listen, you listed your issues in your first post. Maybe try addressing them, eh? Get some friends, interests, hobbies, opinions. Get some value.

sounds lovely, thank you
my discord is kelps #2009

but you're still not suggesting how I can attain any of these things
if I knew how to not be completely disinterested in everything why would I still be here?

>but you're still not suggesting how I can attain any of these things
I'm done here

>not suggesting how I can attain any of these things

Fuck mate really?

Woah shit dude give me a sec, I need to know where I'm getting into here. Age?

oh I'm 20

Gotcha, I'm 21. As I said, I'll hit you up tonight.
I'm going to be busy all day so please don't take it personally if it slips my mind or whatever, I'll try my best.

shit could it possibly be tomorrow if that's okay?
I'm going to a gig in nottingham and don't get back until five in the morning

Sure man, no prob. You have fun.
Remember that it's a simulacrum, okay?

yeah of course
thanks so much ~

You can get friends by joining clubs, these can usually be found at colleges/unis or large cities.

At these clubs or social gatherings practice your social skills, make connections. There might be people you're interested in for a relationship at these clubs/groups, if not friends you make might introduce you to someone eventually.

While you're at that take care of yourself, body and mind. Get good exercise, maybe lift weights, get some trendy clothes, groom yourself. Get some books or watch documentaries and get knowledgeable about something you're interested in.

Do all that and congrats, you're living an okay life and you're on the right track on finding someone to love you.

Won't you need to be a student there to join a club?

Yeah, but big deal?

I go to a cheapo community college, only taking one class this summer, $270.

If you're going to be paying to meet people might as well pay to get people with money that will benefit you later, and that ain't cheap.

That's a week and two day's wage for me as a part-timer. Unless you don't still live with your parents at 20, it's nothing.

Go to fabric. on a Friday and dress like a 90s kid.

Just talk about 90s American TV and you'll bag a stupid hewer in no time. All the men in the UK are turning gay so the girls are desperate.