I am 100% certain i am better off killing myself than living and i need advice on gathering the willpower to do it.
To make a long story short, i was bullied and a social reject in highschool, got a gf, would have sex with her every day stay at her place every day and she eventually lost interest and had sex with a guy i knew from school then dated another guy from school.
This was in my final year so i left the school and finished my university entrance exams somewhere else. I am now 21, graduating from uni soon but the memories of her and everything from highschool has traumatized me deeply.
I am balding so i will never be good looking enough to find someone better than her. Ever since the events of highschool it's like a dark cloud has settled over my life and everything that happens in it. I do not enjoy living and life will only get worse from here.
Please help me to overcome my instinct to survive and make the logical, correct move of killing myself.
But it's the right choice. There is nothing i can do to make life worth living.
Levi Johnson
I wish i had the willpower to do it like all the other people that did...
Josiah Taylor
Well good thing you don't. Killing yourself over a bitch. Take your degree, get a job, and find a trophy wife
Adrian Taylor
Don't kill yourself over a whore.
What the fuck user.
Alexander Hall
Don't kill yourself.
Logan Williams
Traintracks booze your go to feels music with good headphones you will wake up after you an hero into a different equally conscientious being. i cannot promise it will be better tho.
Carson Harris
I will never be with a girl more attractive than her because i am balding.
She was a virgin when we dated. I don't know how i fucked everything up... or was it inevitable? Was it because of her? If i had shown her more attention, or stayed more calm during arguments, or acted like i cared less, or never tried weed... but it doesn't matter now. It's too late. I have spend so many years trying to move on and forget her but it's impossible. I loved her too deeply. I have been with other girls but they were genuine sluts and i felt nothing for them.
I'm going to go with falling to my death. I don't want the train driver to have to deal with indirectly killing someone.
Nathaniel Allen
Honestly those are some really stupid reasons to die. You will most certainly be one of those 'regret it at the last second' people, because you actually have a lot to live for even if you don't realize it right now.
Learn to be more grateful for what you've been given, there are a lot of people on this board that have it worse than you.
Andrew Ramirez
Sooner or later someone is going to have to deal with your mangled corpse user be it washed up on some fishermans boat or scarping your brain off a cliff/the cement road.
Angel Baker
By your logic no one should ever complain about anything because there is always a nigger child in afrika who dies at the age of 2 from malaria. get rekt.
Adrian Johnson
>sexual abuse as kid >never been in a relationship >nearly 30 year old virgin >a few past hookups, always left for someone "better" after falling deeply in love >hit by car in mid 20s >small settlement gone in one year >suffered brain damage from 3 concussions >only graduated high school >grew up poor and in poverty >NEET >just tip of iceberg for my bullshit existence >still fucking alive
Lmfao you are such a pathetic piece of shit wanting to kill yourself for something as fucking stupid, childish, and retarded as a whore ex and a bald head. God you suck.
Gabriel Harris
I've thought about this and I'm certain i won't regret it. I will peacefully fall backwards into my death. I have spent the last five years trying to convince myself i can move on and find reasons to live, and if not happiness, then contentment with life. I have reached the point where i realize, those events in my life will stay with me forever. I will never be free from them. There is only a single path to achieve freedom from my demons.
They will have to deal with the gory mess of my corpse but they won't get ptsd like some train drivers do after aiding a suicide. Or so I've read.
I would rather have been a virgin that never had any romantic experience with any woman. I was happier before i met her, when i was a virgin. I could watch romantic movies without getting reminded of her. I could listen to music without being reminded of her. I could sleep without dreaming of her. I could appreciate the small things in life, and i had accepted a loveless life.
That being said, I can't deny that overall your experiences are worse than mine. Life really is suffering for some unlucky people...
Mason Harris
Don’t do it. Only faggots kill them selves. You are better then that OP. You can be whatever you want to be. Don’t fucking do it. Make whoever hurt you envy you, use that to push your will to be successful. Don’t be a faggot and kill yourself. Don’t. You are better then that.
Owen Campbell
Yo user I feel the exact same way, but keep on chugging man. One day you'll get to the other side of this
I appreciate your kind words, and i have tried to do this (make her envy you, be successful) but sadly my ex has already beaten me. She is doing the same degree as me, probably just to 1up me, and she is a girl in a tech field so she will almost definitely do better than me in terms of employment and salary.
Also the fact that i am balding makes me less attractive than her. I did lift for a few months on and off, and i have an okay body, a lot better than when i was with her, but she is still better looking than me.
Honestly... some days i think about getting revenge through violence, before i kill myself, so she can't be happy and enjoying life after ruining mine. But deep down i know it's not her fault I couldn't move on from the relationship.
Connor Jenkins
At what point can we say it won't get better, though? I thought surely by now I'd have moved on.
Think of all the things you will miss! Good music, good food, movies! Awesome bingeable tv shows! Experiencing life is what makes it awesome!
Aaron Thompson
Reincarnation is real, but not with all that karma stuff. You won’t return to nothingness forever; you were in nothingness before, and you managed to be born again. You can either improve your life to have a better conscious experience or you can try to improve the world so that your future selves can live in a decent world.
Jeremiah Perez
I don't believe therapy or drugs will help me. They don't change a situation, only help to cope with it, and that's not what I need.
Music and movies just make me think about her and feel depressed. I used to enjoy movies and tv shows but now they're just reminders and i can't enjoy them.
I am an extremely negative and pessimistic person because of the way i have been treated for most of my life and all my negative experiences. Giving back to a world that has been cruel to me is the last thing i want to do.
Henry Stewart
If the world remains cruel you’ll suffer for eternity. Advocate for genetic engineering and population control; maybe one day you’ll be a perfect human. If you don’t really care, kill some low-lifes before they reproduce in the off-chance that you’ll assume the conscious identity of a poor inbred who’s just conscious enough to realize the state of his condition
