No reason to live

Are academics the only thing to living? Maybe that's just not your lot in life. Everyone has different skills and intelligence levels, freedom is being able to figure out who you are and what you're good at, while cutting away the things dragging you down.

The whole point of conquering depression is to face the emotions and traumas you've repressed. Without all that weight, who cares if you're not particularly good at what you're doing now. Find something you're good at and take a chance because you've just over come your demons.
Once you lighten your spirit and build your confidence, things will fall into place. But as long as you're being held down by things you won't let go of, it will make any curve ball way harder to deal with.

I didn't give any advice. I just called him stupid.

This. When academia failed for me I stopped putting myself through the cycle of failure, fear, anxiety, depression, failure, ad nauseam.
Instead I did anything I could to build skills. Even just talking to someone who knows a skill, and listening about it.

What's important is to realize life is a meal and you're the only one who can plate your own. Just because that guy or this guy has it like X, Y and Z, doesn't mean you're immediately forced to.
I don't know what your situation is but my cats help immensely with mine. It's not like they fix it but sometimes twenty minutes of silence alone with a kitty, broken only by happy purrs can help to regain focus and approach things with less gravity.
Above all, remember the truth about depression: it's almost always far worse in your head than it is in reality. Try to remember that.
As an addendum, don't forget about it's bedfellow anxiety and try to keep your diet square and away from high sugar and caffeine counts. These tend to exacerbate the bad.

Sorry, let me summarize more.
Negative emotions cause more negative emotions.
But negative emotions are caused by things eating away at your psyche.
You need to learn to let go, because you've already been to the depths of low, if you can let go of the things that give you all these negative emotions, you'll feel lighter and break the cycle. Positive emotions tend to breed more positive emotions. The more things that weigh on your mind that you can make peace with, the better a chance of rising up again and regaining your life and self.

huh.
thanks user.

That alone should reflect pretty clearly on how valid your stance is, considering the kind of person it would take to stop what they're doing and do that on Jow Forums
But hey. Never gotta admit to the pile of shit you've become on the internet. Hide, hide away, come to project another day.

how to experience ego death?

It just sometimes really hard to believe that it's not as bad as it is in my head. Everything that everyone always told me I was gonna do is very probably not going to happen anymore. I built my whole life around my prdicted future; everyone who knws me or my family is just gonna see me as a dissapointment. Especially compared to my other family members.
I could deal with this slightly in the past when I had a person who really cared about me. But now I have no one, and the situation has only gotten worse

sorry if i'm overly asking you to explain stuff. I really appreciate your words aha..
How can I breed positive emotions? It's hard to take positive emotions out of things nowadays. I feel like a giant cloud of shit is following me around all the time, and if i look at it I'll have to face my bad grades, or family, or deteriorating social life. When something good happens, I don't know why but I always think about that stuff and it just fills my stomach with dread. It's like I can't enjoy things that would otherwise be enjoyable because happiness reminds me of everything else.

I can point out two big areas that cause insecurity for you.
Failed relationships with family
Failed relationships with women

You need to make peace with what happened.
Your actions, your reactions and the series of events of other peoples actions that caused these failed relationships.
Learn from your mistakes, and learn from the things you don't like.
Once you accept blame where blame is due, and realize that other peoples actions and reactions are out of your control, you'll feel much more at peace with how those events transpired.
You may also feel better about the strengths you bring to relationships, and you'll be able to better attract people who compliment you and your personality.
But you need to learn to see things for the way they are, and be able to accept when you have done wrong. You also need to see that sometimes things will fall apart. But that's a good thing, because when things fall apart, we can build something new and fresh.
Suicide is not seeing the potential to create better from the remains of what stood there before.

brb fellas

~op

That's essentially where I'm going with my explanation. I think ego death is an important tool to learning about yourself and creating your own confidence.
Doing it consciously VS being thrown into it are different as hell though
Getting so low that you experience ego death is terrifying and hard to go through. And may cause heavy neuroticism in the future. But willingly confronting your own shadow and minimizing what you fear can be very liberating.

Cognitive behavioral therapy could be a good start.
Once you overcome the feeling of despair from your past experiences, learning to replace those feelings by catching yourself in your negative loops can make a huge difference.
Learn to replace bad thoughts with good thoughts.
Whenever you think "I'm not enough for a woman" replace that with "I will find a woman who appreciates my efforts" or "I'll never be successful" with "I'll find success and meaning on my own terms"
It makes the future way less stressful, and takes the pressure off of you NEEDING to succeed ASAP; by reassuring yourself that you will find fulfillment when you're ready.

I don't have friends anymore because everybody got out of my life, my family don't fucking care about me, I'm alone, I've never had a gf, I'm a complete failure as human there is no reason to live for me, I cried many times but I just can't give up and die like So I decided to be strong , I'll never be helped by God or something like that I need to be more and more perfect if I make some mistake I need to learn with it because I can't just sit down and wait for luck, the truth is people can not help you because they don't know how to do that we just need to forgive them. You are strong, but you need to be Stronger, if you are ashamed of yourself and feel weak, take these feeling s and become stronger than you are now

sorry for my bad english bro I'm

Can someone explain the origin of this kid meme? I see it everywhere and it cracks me up because I knew so many kids in elementary school who looked like that.