Get it off your chest
Last one hit bump limit
It's not just Jow Forums, every website sucks
Fuck twitter, Fuck Youtube, fuck reddit, The problem with every fucking website is that the have fucking people on them, and people suck once you get enough of them in the same space. Circlejerks, circlejerks and more circlejerks.
Lies are easier to shallow than truth.
Fuck humans.
I am God and all of you can go to fuck yourselves or suck my enormous 7 inches dick.
how do i get over the crippling fear of rejection?
its LDR and she never seems happy with me. we tend to argue a lot. i trust shes loyal and she knows iam too but she also comes off as very immature at times and difficult to discuss feelings with (ha sounds like IM the woman, right?). ive gone through hoops of fire to be with her and make a future for ourselves and she says she appreciates but doesnt really truly understand what it means. at the same time, i truly believe i cant get any better than her. she has a low sexual partner count, isn't a degenerate, isn't corrupted by feminism or typical behaviors of modern western women yet we just dont get a long very well. lots of anger for both of us. even a few times we were together i felt a sense of loneliness...like there was a disconnect. all she ever wanted to do was sit in her bed and watch cartoons or movies. we never even cuddled after sex, she was always very keen and in a rush to go clean herself then back to watching things. ive even brought this up with her and she says she'll make good on that stuff but never does.
my first gf was actually a complete slut but funnily enough i actually felt a sense closeness with her. maybe my gf is just really dumb? idk...i know that sounds terrible and makes me look like an asshole but i feel like shes not that bright...at least on an interpersonal level (am i using the right word?). she cannot seem to handle disagreements very well at all, she resorts to raging very quickly and it always ends up with me being the bad guy or the guilty sad jerk and having to apologize for "disturbing our peace".
>inb4 dumb frogposter
iam not very experienced in relationships so maybe some advice from older gents here could shed some light on the situation.
i went on bit of a tangent...i just dont think i could do any better. iam told iam a good looking guy and i do get looks from girls very often but at the same time iam a pretty abnormal person (not a freak, i just deviate from whats considered normal in an obvious way). this will sound terrible but i think shes one of the very few girls on this planet that would accept someone like me. i have very mild pdd-nos (atypical autism) that i wad diagnosed with around 4 or 5 years old and i was diagnosed with a personality disorder at age 23. i feel like she uses the personality disorder diagnosis against me some times, as a way to shut down my feelings or view points...like anything i say negative must just be a form of delusional or paranoia..ive told her its invaliding but shes a bit immature and is quick to rage and if i try to meet her point of view with my own (force?).
anyway cant see the point living if we cant get it to work. all my many months of crafting the perfect diet and shaping my body into something athletic and getting a well paying job just seem utterly pointless. whats the best i can do? hop in my car and go excessively fast every night just to feel a slinge twinge of Adrenalin? spend a thousand dollars a month on a hooker? seems like a pretty empty existence to me. could go back to just being obese, a drug addict and playing vidya forever but i cant even enjoy that.
"I love myself." Who are trying to convince, me or you? If you truly loved yourself, you wouldn't feel the need to put others down and project all your insecurities on them. I thought that if I loved you enough or the right way, things might change but they only got worse. You need to learn that by being selfish and guarded you are only hurting yourself. I don't regret anything, I'll always love you.
What scares you about rejection exactly?
I've masturbated 5 times today. I wonder if I'm at my lowest point, emotionally.
I was actually somewhat eager to go get help and talk to people about my issues going on, but then I remembered the hard way that this is the United States and we don't care about mental health and the resources are limited/have waitlists.
A waitlist to get your mental health figured out? Its really no wonder that this state has an insane suicide rate.
How many times have you said you're coming over to hang out only to not text me all day and hit me with a "something came up" in the evening. Fuck, I work too; I know what it's like to come home and not want to do anything else despite having made plans but we're grown men! At least give me a heads up so I don't waste an evening waiting to see if your ass is still going to come hang out. You invited me to come to your little grilling thing you and your buddy do every week but going to hang out with your buddies who both still live with their parents at their parent's house doesn't really scream "FUN!" to a 25 year old. If I wanted to revisit what it was like dicking around in your parent's basement I'd just look through a photo album and skip the actually ever talking to your parents again bullshit.
Ya'll never had the drive to leave your parent's houses in the 7 years you've been out of high school despite your mountains of purely disposable income; why am I surprised that only see each other every few months because I ask?
Why do normies say Jow Forums is disgusting when they post way more disgusting tryhard/edgy gore in their normie websites?
If you don't like her you don't like her.
How do I stop being addicted to advice? I keep posting threads, watching tutorials/motivational videos and I never do anything concrete.
it's the constant god damn stream of genitals here that is honestly really offputting. Just, dicks dicks and more dicks. And then way too close crop-ins of vajayjays. It's really disgusting.
I don't know what your fags obsession is with cock. It's really fucking bizarre. And all the people posting the cuck shit. Seriously, what is with that? if they are serious about it they really are pathetic. Like, a bunch of black posters thinking their dick size is their only asset. Or people that do it ironically thinking it's funny but really it's just super fucking gay and annoying.
If they are doing it to annoy me then whatever, I automatically filter that shit out. And if that is the case, they realize that they are looking at those dicks far more than I am by having to save them all and upload them. That's super gay.
I just don't get it. I wouldn't come here if I had literally ANYTHING else to do in my time. If you guys want to get me off of these boards then you need to give me something to do.
I want to get out of here
I want to quit
I want a hug
I want peace
Lauren is so god damn dreamy
~swoon~
:3
I was so sure he liked me, and now nothing. I wouldn't have even been infatuated with him if he hadn't sent me what I thought were clear signals of interest. Teasing me, winking at me, he even described me as hot... Maybe he found someone else and that's that. On to the next one I guess, I'm getting tired of this.
>meet 10/10 girl at university
> she ghosts me for some reason, move on
>drop out of uni, don't want to pursue that career, clinical depression even worse than before
Fast forward 3 years
>make a decent living at 23 on 60k
>at bar drinking and laughing with friends
>10/10 girl approaches me "user did you go to x uni"
>talk all night, find out Chad told her I was in relationship and that's why I got ghosted.
>she asks if I finished my degree, lie and say yes but don't like profession
>we date, get into relationship.
>travel the world
>see myself wanting to marry her and she wants to marry me
>talk about our future
>fight occasionally but I love her
Fast forward 3 more years
>80k job in hospital, did something without degree
>laying in bed after waking up just now
>back on Jow Forums after 3 years.
>had a big fight with 10/10 because throughout our relationship I told small lies to make her like me better
>confessed about lies, she forgave me but I couldn't forgive myself
>don't tell her the one lie that led to me ending the relationship that I never graduated
>too ashamed despite her saying she would forgive any lies because I owned up to them and am getting counselling and she wants to marry me because she loves me
>I end relationship with 10/10 girl
I'm moving out this weekend. psych says that I lie to make myself look better in others eyes because I was sexually abused for years as a child and was physically abused. It's something that I do everyday, I lie about not having depression, I hide my abusive past, I lie so people like me cause no one could ever like someone who was raped and beaten as a kid.
For the first time I genuinely dont feel anything, I've never contemplated suicide and still don't think I would do it. I'm just kind of numb. deep down I don't feel anything anymore and haven't for months. Ive just accepted that someone who was abused is fucked for life and not worth anything, that no one can love the real me because I don't even love myself.
Blegh I hate Fridays.
Hi M, I miss talking with you
Yours truly, K
She clearly loves you and forgives you for those lies. Why are you being a dumbass? If she's truly a 10/10 you can't let go of her, let the girl love you
Look, my only defense has been hiding my emotions from you guys. If I seem to happy or too sad for too long you just get fucking greedy, and EVERY TIME attempt to exploit it. EVERY FUCKING TIME. I want to trust you guys but I can't bear it. I just want to be left alone. And you would be okay with it if it weren't for your fragile fucking egos.
Just came back from the dentist. Two teeth pulled because I can't afford the cost of a root canal. I thought they were going to be further back, but you can see it when I talk. My heart sank when i looked in the mirror.
I used to feel so beautiful.
I will be looking at the ground when I talk from now on. No one will ever take me seriously profesionally if I look like this. I don't even do drugs. This isn't fair.
Save up, fundraiser for dental implants. That sucks, user
I'm never gonna see him again. I even have new crushes. Still think about him every day.
I've shaken my GF's 1 year old baby because he always seems to know what hes fcking doing even tho he IS a baby, and his disgusting father (gf's ex) always finds a way to stress/bother her.
Later research about it and discovered the Baby Shaking Syndrome. He is perfectly fine tho. He doesn't cry as much as he used to and obeys me even more than his mother.
I only told her that I've put my hand on his mouth in order for him to stfu.
my bf broke up with me and im trying to do no contact but i was on my computer and was still logged into one of his accounts (we've shared computers sometimes) and it sent some weird log in notification email and had to text him to apologize in case he thought i was snooping
now im probably going to have to extend it some more because he'll get more annoyed with me
It's weird how child abusers naturally gravitate towards single mothers. I can't tell if it's predatory in nature or only someone dumb enough to think shaking a baby is a good idea would date a single mom.
I don't really know what I did to make you so spiteful and angry towards me. You broke up with me and led me on for almost two months after the fact and now I'm the asshole because I had to step away and worry about myself for once. I told you once I loved you and wanted you because you were the only "real" person I'd ever been with and now after it's all over you've made me realize you're not different or special at all. You've just proved to me you are in fact like all those other girls so frankly I don't feel like I'm missing much with you. Goodbye S
I hate what I'm doing with my life, was always a great student but last year of highschool and this first year of uni I've fucked up big time, pretty much need to redo first year of uni.
Started drinking more, smoking, both tobacco and weed, pretty much entering depression, overall I feel I know where the problems lie (procrastination, no will to get shit done, hiding my anger inside) but I don't know how to start recovering from this.
Summer is gonna be another pain in the ass, my parents provide whatever I need, I love them (even if my father is an egotistical maniac sometimes and makes my mother feel like shit), but right now I need time to think about stuff, start getting my shit together so that next semester I actually do stuff but I need to help them in my hometown, my father the most with his restaurant... pretty much 60 hours of work every week, slowly killing me every summer, hate to deal with people who think too highly of themselves and that's pretty much the type I've to deal with in this kind of restaurant.
At least I'll be able to see my sister, must be the one person I care the most in this earth, she has been helping me the best she can however she lives 400 km away from me.
I've been waiting to die since I was old enough to understand the concept of suicide and rationalized the damage it would cause to the ones that love me as an iron clad reason not to go through with it.
I've been molding my mind since then with nihilism and I'm to the point where I don't really feel anything anymore.
All I do is fantasize about a suicide that will never happen and chomping at the bit for my eventual death.
I work in an extremely dangerous field and have steadily chipped away at my body hoping for it to give out and fall to my death.
That still hasn't happened, but boy I can't wait until it does. I have a 500k life insurance policy.
My two best friends will get a half and half split.
They have babies on the way so hopefully its soon.
They deserve it for loving me. Hell, they deserve 10x that.
She ghosted me. She was the best thing going on my life and I ruined it with my alcohol addiction. She always said it hurts when people drop her from their lives, and she did it to me. I just know it.
Seeing the doctor first time next Friday in over...shit I’m not sure I ever saw a primary care doc for a checkup ever. I mean I did a couple times for an eye infection and upper respiratory infection but that was it.
But I’ve been depressed/fatigues/horrible sleep and extremely irritable and I’m noticing it’s getting worse ever so slightly.
I mean I know I was depressed before, I’ve been facing it for quite a few years, but this is the first time I’m doing something about it. And I’m actually rather scared thinking about it. What if they find it’s something like hypothyroidism? Sent to a shrink and it’s clinical depression and anxiety? What if I have to take medication?
Sheesh, the medication is what’s killing me. Antidepressants are for the most part so horrible. MAOIs, tricyclic ones, and he earlier ones are so awful. SSRI and SNRIs got a bit better but I still worry about taking them. Friend takes cymbalta and works well for her, but it’s so different person to person.
And it seems most medication can cause mania in those that are predisposed to bipolar. I’ve never had mania symptoms even on the levels of Cyclothymia, but my family does have issues with mental health.
I’m probably fretting and overthinking right now, but hell I can’t reallt stop.
I've been averaging about 5 a day for going on 2 months now.
Killing myself looks more attractive every day.
gay and mad
It's not a problem, but I'm confused as to why I'm so good with kids, I work retail so a lot of families are around, and so many kids gravitate towards me, linger around, ask me questions etc. Babby's too.
Why though, I don't get it.
Why is everyone such a degenerate these days. Fuck the so called "sexual revolution". Ruined fucking everything. What's the point of saying the vows, anymore?
M,
Things will never be the same with us after what you did. I still love you, and I still want to make it work. But I know it wont and you will just destroy me emotionally again. But I am going to let you believe there is a chance for us to be together again and of course have sex again if I can look past what you did. I will keep this game up with you until I find someone else. Once I find someone else, I am just going to drop you and the future that you see with me, because that is what you did to me this week. You ruined the life I thought I had with you.
This may not be the right thing to do, but in the state I am in, I really don't know what to do anymore. For some reason I still see you in my far future, and I hope that goes away soon, because you don't deserve someone like me.
-T
I miss you. You are neither my boyfriend or my friend, I know. But if I could pause my life for a minute and do whatever I want, I would like to just chill with you for a bit before having to come back. You have beautiful eyes, do you know that?
After saying all of this, there’s a part of myself that tells me to pull away. Because you can really hurt me and I want you to love me.
ok so you joke around about how I never invite you to smoke with me but everytime i do you say no? and say yes to hangin out then flaking. then you continue to stare at me intensly while we talk irl and your facing me directly. I can tell you don't want to leave my presence because you keep going back and forth from the door to me and you act all weird cuz you have no idea what to say next, fidgeting with your clothes or fingers...but also smiling and giggling at every syllable I utter. dude I get it if you don't see me romantically like that but then just leave me be. I literally have no problem with you ignoring me. why act like you want to be with me? im sorry but I got plenty of friends and im pretty damn good at making more. I want something more than just a friend.....
Here I go.I recently ended a 5 year relationship.I know it was the right thing because I wasn't in love with her and I couldn't see myself marrying or having kids with her. A couple months on and I still don't regret it or miss her or anything.
But at the same time I feel depressed. I feel depressed because I really, really don't like the idea of having to date again. Everything that people like about new relationships I hate; the butterflies, the mystery of the other person, newness of sex, etc.
I hate it all. And I hate that I have to go through this all over again, the dating, meeting friends and family, trying to building trust and getting to know them, the learning how they are in bed.
I want to skip all of it. I just want to instantly get to the part where I know I can trust them, they trust me, we vibe and have compatible sex. I really wish there was a way to skip the bullshit and it drives me crazy that I can't.
I'm actually glad to say all of that. I know it's probably weird and that I'm a super minority that feels that way, but I do.
My boyfriend is basing our relationship on sex. I want something deeper.
tell him to fuck off. come chill with me.
I lied to close friends about not being a virgin and I feel bad now
how do i make it through no contact? not being able to talk to him everyday like we used to feels like shit. hes sick of me. he was so cold to me when he broke up with me. i want the warm you back, ray.
please don't get mad at me. i want you to love me again so we can talk.
the loss of a close friend and pride
That's definitely going to be my goal, although I might save up for a partial denture to get by in the meantime. Thanks for the (you). I feel a little better knowing that someone out there "listened". I don't open up to people I know IRL.
The warm version you covet will probably never come back. To get through the no contact you can't think about the other person. Think about you and work your way through it
Knowing I saved you from killing yourself by being a kind boyfriend doesn’t feel nice. Knowing you left me fills me with terror I can’t help you nearly as easily now.
I know this feeling all too well user.
theres some dumb part of me that keeps thinking i can still have a chance but with all the stuff he said while dumping me i doubt it.
its hard to work on myself after years of devoting myself to him. trying to get his attention, become his friend, asking him out, then trying to be the best girlfriend i can be while also trying to work on being the best wife i could have been.
a lot of things i did for him and now i'm stripped of purpose.
I know you're trying to contact me.
I know you're thinking about me again, because I saw you retweet someone with my last name. I know what you're thinking, and I hope you know I can't do that anymore for you.
You ruined my life for a good solid 6 months. Every lie you told broke more and more of my trust for you, and when I finally put it all together, it was far too late for me.
Maverick is stupid, and we both know he wouldn't question you coming back and you paying rent to him just makes it that much better.
I warned you. I told you this was going to happen, but you didn't listen to me. You're going to regret signing your life to him and Cocaine, and as much as it kills me, I can't stick up for you this time.
I can't, and that's why I'm writing this here. I can't talk about you because I have a life beyond you, and every bullshit thing you did to me. I can't be reminded of the time we had together because for even just that second can lead me to talk to you, and see you for more than the shit you are, blinding me from the fact that you destroyed me, and benefited from it.
Don't take me unblocking you as some sort of sign that this is over, or that we're destined to be again later, because it isn't. Unblocking you means that I don't have to think about hating you anymore. I don't have to stress myself with the thought of seeing you.
You said whatever you needed to so you could use me, just like you're using Maverick.
You can't even comprehend what strain you put on ms, not that'd you'd even care.
Don't even try it, M.
J
I'm starting to think my mom has a thing against me. She certainly doesn't like my father or his habits, and for everything I do she seem to refer to me in the same vein in quite the facetious, antagonistic, and passive aggressive manor. She's nice when she's docile but she flicks too off and on to the point where she seems quite verbally and emotionally abusive. I want to leave but every place is taking too long to respond and I can't seem to get a job in my profession of study.
I feel if I stay here much longer then I will feel the need to retaliate physically or she to me. She's been doing this since I was a lad and I'm 20 now. She's probably the worst person I've ever had the displeasure of meeting were she not my mother.
I cant tell if i hate or love myself. I feel above everyone else except my SO and my animals, yet I starve myself for days when Im mad at someone because I always feel like everything bad that happens is my fault, and I get mad when I cant fix it. I feel like a terrible person because I cant play MOBAs with my SO without lashing out when I lose, and I feel s9 awful for doing that to him. Honestly I feel like a self loathing version of Happy Gilmore who takes bouts of narcissism for some reason. I dont know how to cope with anything, so why bother sustaining myself?
I prayyou didn't take any summer classes. Your quarter ends Wednesday. I just want to see you again.
I really really want to some on some chick's tits. It's been awhile. I miss boobs.
Initials to and from user?
Touch your butt, that will help.
Naw boobs are much much softer. I've touched from B to D so I know how they feel.
Just a suggestion.
Keep lying. It’s so much fun to watch.
Initials user
I get so tired, and all I want to be is free.
The hardest pill to swallow is that society doesn’t actually want to help you get back in groove with it. It’s that it would honestly prefer you died. That to the rest of the world you’re expendable and you are only ever going to matter if you kill and rape your way into notoriety. You can’t be somebody until you hurt everybody. So I’m going to hurt everybody somedsy and live forever.
No one will ever forget Eric Harris.
No one will ever forget Adolf Hitler.
And someday I’ll have the tools and power to make you all remember me.
I want people to fear me, to scream for mercy, to pay attention and try to change my mind. And then i want to kill them. I hate you all. I’m smarter I’m more polite I followed the law and still I’m supposed to die for the world’s benefit. No fuck you you die to me. The world is shit to me. I will burn into your brain, and you’re so fucking stupid you will blame everything but the obvious answer to why. Oh it was guns videogames jesus and jazz, it’s that there’s no ficking place for me and my existence. So I will make it in bloodshed. Someday I’ll kill and kill and then I’ll leave no fucking note, because figure it out assholes FIGUURE IT OUT USE YOUR STUPID BRAINS FOR ONCE
>oh he needed to get laid
WHORES ARE LIKE PEOPLE WITH HAMMERS IN THAT THEY THINK EVERYTHING CAN BE SOLVED ONE FUCKING WAY
AS IF YOUR STUPID FUCKING LEGS OPEN MEAN SHIT
I GOT MY DICK WETVI POPPED THE CHERRY AND YOU KNOW WHAT
NOTHING I FELT NOTHING FLABBY SKIN NUMB COCK AND A WASTE OF GAS MONEY AND TIME
SEX IS WORTHLESS AS THE CUNTS THAT GIVE IT
SO FUCK YOU DIE HARDER FOR YOUR ASININE TRASH ADVICE
Go ahead call cops what are they gonna do tell me to talk to some fucking shrink jew kike full of no answers and just sec on the shekel brain you have nosolutions you have nothing to foffeer me friendship love affection are GARBAGE NO ONE NEEDS
KILL OR BE KILLLEDD
KILL OR BE KILLED
KILL OF BE KILLD
>wow so edgy
eatba dick
Just lost my virginity
I'm sorry but this site is full of absolutely retarded fucking people. If you even try to give any genuine advice they won't even understand it, if they reply at all, and they won't listen to it.
But it's great for venting
I don't care about what other people think.
how do you do it?
>great for venting
It really is...
Met up with you again before I left work. You vented to me about what's going on in your life. I love your fiery attitude. You walked me to the staircase and I researched kissing a bit more. You told me I am doing better and we will continue to work on it. The dreaded weekend is here and I won't see you again until Monday. I'll be thinking of you of course. It'll feel good to run in the morning while I think about your smile. Can't wait to see you Monday.
I get angry and keep getting angrier.
Go scream some place, get a punching stand punch it.
i wish i lived somewhere outside the city where i could take a break and figure life out
I had a close relationship with my mentor from my college days. Besides simply working together a lot (we did so less and less over time, to the point where it's near zero now) we used to confide things in one another. That meant the most to me since it was a sign that we trusted each other. We ended up working for the same company when our project morphed into one. The company is failing for a variety of reasons, the root cause of which is bad leadership (she was not involved in this). There's also the fact that I majorly fucked up 3 months ago and treated her horribly due to excessive anxiety. Since that time, she had obviously become more distant from me, and I don't blame her since it's my fault and she's also been extremely busy. However, I want to believe there might still be a little of our old friendship still salvageable.
I just got a job offer at our old university today. She was happy for me, and said that it's good that I can expand my professional network. I told her leaving was going to be bittersweet since I will not be seeing her daily anymore and that I am still regretful about my major fuckup and what I did to her. She told me that she was not upset at me about that anymore and that I shouldn't let excessive sentimentality get in the way of an opportunity. She also assured me that we will stay in touch, and that we will continue to work on projects together at the university.
I can't seem to accept that it might be over between both of us. I also want to tell her how much her friendship means to me in long form, and I've probably rehearsed it 9001 times in my mind to the point where I can likely convince myself that I said it to her although in reality I never have. However, I can't find the right time to tell her due to our schedules, and I don't know if she would even be willing to listen. I want nothing more than for everything to go back to the way it was before the mess of a company, when it was just the 2 of us in our office.
I waited too long to make a move and now my chance is gone and I'm going to lose a good friend too.
Initials user
Why do you have to lose a friend?
I will never be able to see the only person I ever made any sort of real human connection with again, and I am worried they are going to die. I tried to fix the other areas of my life but somehow made all those catastrophic. I am not going to do anything to myself, but I hope I don't wake up tomorrow. I have nothing left and I don't have any direction or stability anymore.
Being alone is comfy. It's nice and quiet. I can drink water and eat vegetables and chill out.
-Z
Yes you do. Sleep well user.
MM
Because this has happened before. She tried to move on, even got back with her ex, only to find that the first day we hung out together again that she wasn't at all over me and it made her break up with her ex again. I'm too much of a risk to be friends with and most likely too much if a risk to attempt to date again. Thus, I'll be ghosted.
I wish this were true, I really do.
just kys user
I have tried that a few times and failed quite miserably doing so; quality advice. Information on how does one go about finding meaning and recovering when every aspect of their life is in shambles would be more useful.
if you failed you really didn't wanted to do so
You have no clue what you are talking about. Failed attempts are more common then successful ones.
but I do, if someone really want to end his life, he thinks how not to fail, I had have several cases of suicidal people (I'm a therapist) that finds they really used wanted attention and did that attempt by a call for help rather than wanting to end their lives
fuck you bitch
just because you can't find exactly the apartment you want with your very particular conditions in 6 weeks doesn't make you fucking special
stop crying like a little bitch, if the "rejection" from this is making you stressed out how do you think guys feel when they are rejected by 90% of the women they approach?
also just fucking chill, this is not a real problem or a reason to be depressed, try having a terminal disease and almost dying twice in the past year bitch, then see how you feel
but of course I'm not going to say any of this because you already think I'm an asshole
I check this thread multiple times a day because it's the closest thing to human interaction I get anymore. My ex used to talk to me daily and I finally pushed her away for my own sanity and now I'm just slowly going insane in my own head. Thank you guys for existing I might've killed myself already if there wasn't a thread for me to vent and whine in
I'm in the same boat you are but eventually you just have to accept it for what it is. My ex has zero interest in me anymore despite her telling me things like she'd love me forever and we would be together forever. But I still have accepted that her part in my life is over and it's time to give it up and move on. Good luck to you I hope you do well
Lately, I can't help but feel that there's something missing in my life, there's something that needs to be filled but I don't know what it is.
When I take a look at my current life, I can't see much things to complain about. Work is going well, and while I don't have as much free time as before, it's not like there's too much work that prevent me from enjoying my hobbies, it's just that commuting wastes too much time, and compared to my co-workers, I'm having it easy with work. Relationship problem? I don't think I have any problem with that either and I don't talk much to begin with anyway, the co-workers and my roommates treat me pretty well as far as I'm concerned.
So just exactly what am I missing in my life?
What color are they. What color are yours
You're seriously fucking useless. I don't know how I ever developed feelings for you, I wish I could kill them off.
people literally always assume i'm the eldest of my sisters even though i'm not. it makes me feel so fucking ugly and awful. i don't know what's making me look like this and why they literally always assume it. i never in my life use makeup or tan or anything that could make people assume that. it's why i hate going outside with my family or having my sisters around at any time.
as if being the least intelligent and the most socially retarded isn't enough. i hate this so fucking much.
>as if being the least intelligent and the most socially retarded isn't enough
Read and write a lot. Jow Forums doesn't count.
i tried. but some things are just given to people by birth. i can't even form my own opinions or know how to carry conversations because i'm so dumb and i have the dullest most boring and detestful personality.
kinda becoming a bit disillusioned by it all. The good guys are just as bad as the bad guys. They do the exact same shit as one another. Secret Service, FBI, CIA, they all peddle child pornography themselves. They use it to set people up, to make people they don't like suffer or "go away". They kidnap children for "their own good.". They drug people against their will and then try to act like the good guys by arresting drug traffickers. They run experiments on their own people, some of them absolutely horrifying. They have large sex worker rings and sex clubs within their ranks. They murder people.
None of this is conspiracy. All of this has been caught at least once and I know for a fact every single one of those things happens daily for them. This is wide spread corruption and no one does a god damn thing about it. No one is every punished. No one is ever held responsible. They always get away with it.
They always get away with it.
Stop browsing Jow Forums.
I'm really, REALLY hoping that our machine overlords give me superpowers so I can reign some good ol testament justice down on the world.
what do i get then? it's the only place i can talk to people, knowing they'll never know who i am or what i look like. i don't even have any social media. and it doesn't matter. because i wouldn't know how to make friends just like i can't in real life.
i know how whiny i sound and im sorry but this is a gioyc thread.
I thought I was over her.