I really fucking hate people. I look around and I don't identify with pretty much everyone I look at. They all seem like vapid idiotic opportunistic disloyal pathetic excuses of human beings.
I look at myself and I know I am far from where I want to be but when I look at the rest of the world I think "what is the point of trying to be somebody in this shit heap?" It feels like striving to win the special Olympics or something.
I've read up on my issue and the basic answer is "you really hate yourself" but okay say I did, what is the answer then? Say I admit I hate myself, where do I go from there, what grand thing is going to happen that will help me change my life?
I'm also angry all the fucking time and I don't have any friends to talk to regularly but I get really annoyed just talking to some retard after 5 mins. I've tried chatting up randoms on /soc/, they just dissapoint me and I feel like I just want to be alone but being alone sucks because I get bored.
Your hatred for people has nothing to do with them and everything to do with you. All you're doing is projecting the incredible hatred you have for yourself onto them. You turn your rage outwards because if you kept it all inside you'd explode. Additionally, you specifically hate people that remind you of what you hate about yourself. You hate successful people because they remind you that you aren't successful. You hate happy people because they remind you that you aren't happy. You hate people with good relationships because they remind you that you don't have any. Its easier to convince yourself that they're all vapid and idiotic and opportunistic because if you didn't live with those generalizations you'd have to accept the reality that deep down you're just incredibly jealous of anybody who isn't cursed to living in anger and misery like you are. Is anything I'm saying ringing any bells?
What you need is therapy. A lot of intensive, cognitive behavioral therapy to retrain these horrible thinking patterns you've grown so accustomed to.
Jaxson Gray
They are all vapid and idiotic and opportunistic though. You know it's true and it's nothing to be jealous of so miss me with that shit lol
I do think I'm making excuses though, just because they're dumb as fuck doesn't mean I should stop trying to live my life happily and healthily. I know I'm not perfect and I probably do hate myself a little, but it's more frustration than anything because I know I can be so much more.
I just feel like isn't part of living life interacting with people? I don't care to interact or impress these retards though, so I guess I need to figure something else out or just meet cool people.
Ryder Williams
I honestly don't care if you decide to continue the rest of your life pretending like other people have anything to do with your misery. The longer you sit here and complain about other people and their lives and decisions is just another wasted minute you could of used to actually become a decent person worthy of meeting and connecting with other decent people. Your anger is toxic. People smell that shit from a mile off and avoid it at all costs because even in the context of actual idiocy no one that negative and bitter is worth being around.. Do whatever you want, dude. I don't care. Just know that you're not fooling anyone. Sitting around and pretending like you don't have a choice is the weakest, most selfish thing you can do to yourself and should you decide to continue the rest of your life hurling your projections at other people instead of facing your demons head on then the responsibility of your wasted life is on your shoulders and yours alone. Good luck.
Oliver Evans
>I honestly don't care >proceeds to write a paragraph anyway
Okay bye thanks for the shitty advice and I never said it was anyone else responsibility but good job projecting retard you sound like a total fucking faggot by the way good riddance.
Asher Ward
Whatever, man. Take the advice or don't. I still wish you luck. It sounds like you're in a real dark place. Hope you figure your shit out.
Evan Reed
>retard >total fucking faggot
yeah you sound like quite the scholar man must be hard to find people to talk to on your intellectual level
Xavier Cook
Whatever makes you feel better. Again, thanks for the non-advice loser. Enjoy the rest of your vapid idiotic life opportunist-kun.
You're bored unless you talk to people? Get a hobby. Find one thing in life that you enjoy and do it for yourself and only yourself. It gives you meaning and something to focus on instead of other people.
Know oneself.
Dominic Roberts
Shoot them all and after yourself
Jordan Powell
No, not all the time. There is just a lot going on in my head all the time and sometimes I just want to let it all out and it feels like the easiest way to express that is to have a conversation with someone else. It feels too masturbatory though because I just want to vent and talk about me or whatever it is I'm thinking about and so I don't think I'd make a good conversation partner because I'd just be talking AT people. I mean obviously when you first meet someone they just want to talk about the most basic shit and I don't care for that it's so fucking boring and dumb but I understand you have to get to know someone first and not overshare. Then again, someone has to give me a good vibe immediately or I just write them off. I'm really picky and if someone seems dumb as fuck I just turn my brain off until it's over.
I do read and write and am going to learn the piano soon and I like the outdoors. I just always feel like I should be doing MORE and I'm always wasting my time. I do have anxiety so maybe that's it.
Kayden James
heh you wish faggot. Thanks for stopping by though.
I guess you right though. I just need to love myself and I think my sense of self is very weak since I seem to be basing my happiness on the world around me. I just thought that is the point of living but maybe it's really just about perspective.
John Butler
Sounds similar to me. I like to write in a journal and write songs to clear it out. And having one good friend to say everything to helps. If you feel you arent doing enough you can try new things and also keep a list of what you need to do and check things off and after you see what you've accomplished you can feel better and relax.
I never stop learning things and it helps keep my spirits up and mind busy. And when I unwind I go to a nice quiet nature place and enjoy being on my own.
Andrew Collins
Do acid
Julian Carter
Everything.
I talk to my family everyday but they aren't like friends where we share the same interests. I talk to my brother about video games and movies sometimes but that's it. I think about life and ideology a lot. I think about the state of the world, world issues like the planet dying and then less serious things like what types of movies I like and how I never thought acting was actually a way to express yourself and was simply someone pretending to be someone else.
I want to start journaling, but I'm super paranoid and it just feels kind of lonely or pointless if no one is going to read my thoughts. I also like to bounce my thoughts off of other people because when I do happen to have a good conversation it opens my minds to thing and gives me a different perspective on things sometimes. Something I felt a certain way about seems so different after talking about it with someone else and I think that's so fascinating. I do think it would be nice to have that one friend that I can talk to about anything, but I don't have anyone like that and it kinda sucks.
I love learning new shit and it really does make me feel good so even if I don't have a really specific reason for wanting to learn something (helping me reach a long-term goal or something) just learning something new feels lit.
I guess I'm just really stressed and my brain is overstimulated constantly processing so much information and it's like I need constant outlet but I don't have that. I even talk to myself sometimes like I'm having a conversation with someone but contributed to my paranoia because now I feel like I always have an audience and have to police my thoughts and I'm trying to get over that by reminding myself that I'm alone and no one can actually hear me.
Thomas Edwards
>something something something
Jesus Christ, I'm on a roll tonight.
Nathaniel White
too scary
Jose King
you might have cerebral allergies to certain fabrics used in your clothing or certain soaps or other chemicals. or maybe you have pyroluria
Jackson Brooks
Wow really it sounds just like me. Personal journal is to manage your feelings and an idea to share it is have an online journal. It is anonymous but others could read it and comment on it. I've used a few and these days I use a language journal so I'm writing in a language I'm learning and people fix it and make comments too. I think without that I would have lost my mind. It gave me perspective.
Jaxson Walker
>pyroluria
Never heard of it, but sounds interesting maybe I should get tested. I'm pretty sure it was mainly environmental factors paired with bad habits and poor health that contributed to my mental health issues and I am in a much better place now than a year ago and that probably has something to do with actually taking care of my health. Bad habits still need to be unlearned or replaced with good habits though, it's an uphill battle but I knew it would be but it couldn't hurt to get tested I guess. I was actually thinking maybe I have brain damage or something lol
That's really cool that you relate to my posts so much. Makes me feel less crazy which is always nice.
I have thought about making an online journal, but I'm paranoid. It's not so much about being judged that I care about, but that I can't be 100% candid because then some freak is going to doxx me and find me and stab me to death or something. I have trust issues too but I guess that's part of the paranoia. Like I want someone to share everything with but I also don't think it's smart to trust anyone with all that either. I go back and forth with it and convince myself never to be completely open with anything in case someone reads it. I know it's dumb but shit happens and I just don't want it to happen to me.
That's good that you are doing it though, I only wish I were that free. That's a really cool idea with the language journal and people correcting it, I've always wanted to learn many new languages.
Landon Richardson
Clear as day, you need a therapist
Julian James
Been there, done that.
I think I'm just lonely. Oh well, someday I'll open up to people IRL.
Are you me? I'd like to chat with you if you have any social media?
John Brown
try not to take life so seriously user. you're damned if you do and you're damned if you dont.
Dominic Hughes
You say people are dumb and whatnot. So why do you value interactions so much? If you were as smart as you say you would have found an alternative by now. You're nothing more than every young person out there that's having an existential crisis, it's common nowadays. It's a good thing because you'll find to people to relate to eventually.
John Flores
Yes, humans are semi advanced monkeys and we live in a post renaissance era where everyone will be braindead by the time Automation fully takes over.
Regardless of that... I would understand boredom not anger. Perhaps you are angry that no "grand thing" happened to you yet. Well, it won't happen.
Camden Adams
This. Not everyone is vapid and materialistic. Really, 7 billion people except you are shit? You’re just unhappy with yourself and the way your life is going. Seriously - ask yourself: “am I happy?”
And don’t lie to yourself either. Don’t get defensive, like you did in this post. Just be honest. And like he said, get therapy.
Oliver Rivera
LOL >everyone is dumb except me.
Do you realize how cringe and objectively incorrect that is? Bet you’re an incel too. Go join a white nationalist movement; be amongst your brethren
Jose Cooper
If people are so worthless, why don’t you KYS rather than live among your inferiors. is This a troll thread?
Charles Gomez
Dude what? Not him, but there’s no way you’re an intellectual if that’s you’re response. You’re obv in denial - just look how defensive you’re getting lmao. An intellectual would have the self awareness to see how wrong you are. >inb4 thanks for the non-advice. You’re wrong faggot. Everyone sucks except me, despite how noninteresting and unsuccessful I am.
