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My parents shouldn't have married. They were two people trying to get away from their families, and I guess they found refuge in each other. But that's not a good foundation to build on. And guess what? All four of their children have moved far away to try to get away from them. This is how the cycle perpetuates itself.

It pisses me off that I spent a year and a half with you constantly reassuring you and building you up and making you feel good about yourself. And then the second you finally feel good about your life you left me to date other guys because you suddenly got it in your head that you're better than you really are. You used me after I stupidly made the mistake of going after someone for their personality instead of their looks because honestly you're the least attractive person I've ever been with so honestly I should thank you for removing yourself from my life. I can't wait to watch you date other guys over and over until you wind up as the crazy 35 year old cat lady who can't get men to marry her. Fuck you for wasting my time and fuck you for pretending to care about me after you turned into a heartless bitch

I know someone who takes Zoloft and it really helped his social anxiety.

Her mom is trying to hook you two up and your worrying about stupid shit. You dumbass it's obvious she likes you just suck it up

I live in Seattle and went up to visit there, and I thought it was just downtown that all the people seemed kinda snobby.

thanks mate. i’ll keep it in mind and evaluate my options.

don't blame me. you never told me how you felt after i practically spilled my heart out for you. oh well. you'll probably find someone more suitable for you.

also, i'm starting to think "oneitis" is a sickness. you can start a relationship with any type of girl, regardless of compatibility. every girl has their own charm and their own insecurities.

I want someone I can dump all my baggage on and just coddle and complain at, but I know that just drives people away (obviously it's fucking annoying) so I keep it inside. This means that while I do have friendships and shit because I know how to play it cool, in my mind they're nowhere near satisfying and I feel very alone in this world regardless. I think in what people would call self-pity a lot, and I don't like it but also don't know how to stop it. I have a loving family but in my mind I feel as though I'm not loved at all, or don't even know what love feels like. I beat myself up over these thoughts, but at least I keep them to myself and the occasional thread. It's very annoying to recognize that a thought is irrational and stupid, but still feel it all the same.

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Maybe get a therapist

I know this feel user. I have so much stuff I want to bitch and complain about but I keep it inside because I know that no one really gives a fuck and people are only concerned with their own problems.

if you love me, really, you'll come and get me. i can't do the chasing. sorry.

I feel like I'm the type of person who would get far too emotionally attached to a therapist when to them it's just a job, so I'm staying away from that. That is good advice though.

Maybe it's the binding key that brings us all to this miserable website: to bitch into the void.

Let me know it's you and I will.

K you stupid mother fucker. I adore you. I think every little nuance, even the things that are bad or a hindrance on your personality, are endearing.

I think about you constantly. Everyday. Probably every second of the day. But. You'll never like me back and that's a fucking shame. I'm gorgeous, fierce thing of a woman and I wanted to share that with you.

I'm trying to get over you but I want to adore you even more.

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I can't wait for your call C. I am always thinking of you. I hope you're truthful when you say the same. I wish we were together. Talk to you soon.

R

What can i do to show you i am sorry and for you not to hate me anymore? Time doesn't heal anything it seems.

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My anxiety makes my face become red too. I hate it so much.

If you're a girl it's cute.

Moron.

I still have feelings for you, but have nothing good to say about you. Nothing but bitterness. You're not the one.

I think I might have a crush on my cousin. I spent the last week with her after having not seen her in a while and we've really connected in a way I haven't with a woman in a long time. It's a really bizarre feeling and it has me all kinds of confused. I'm obviously not going to do anything about it. It's not like anything could ever happen.

I'm worried that deep down I'm just an idiot who can't relate to any attractive woman because I'l just fall in love with her... even if she's family.

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I just want an answer. Even if its no, I can't move on with the chance it could be yes. fuck, Id except no if it meant you'd be happy, just fucking answer me. I'd wait till my fucking deathbed if it meant an answer.... but I can't move on with hope in my heart. shatter it, at the very least. itd be better than this endless waiting...

I barely know my cousin but she’s cute as fuck. I’d smash drunkenly in a heartbeat. I mean this completely unironicaly.
You know she probably has those same feels about you too right? But neither of you will ever talk about it and it’ll be internalized forever.

i have to work like non-stop other than 1 day a week and im even busy that day on non-work things. that's just to make enough money to survive basically, with nothing really extra. dont think i could get financial aid to go to school and how would i go to school if 24/7 is sleep, eat, work just to survive?

I know we couldn't do long distance because you are too insecure and have trust issues. You're last relationship damaged you, possible other factors add to that. We have 8 days left together, and I want to enjoy them, but they hurt. I don't know if this is the end for us or if eventually we'll meet up again. It hurts knowing that you couldn't trust me after being together for that long. I can't help but to be bitter, and wonder what it's all meant to you. We had great times together. Does it mean it wasn't real if we can't work out long distance?

To who is this for user and from?

>24 years old
>look just like this

Don't sit in front of a computer all day, kids.

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To M, from Ty

I know my mind is sick but I still fall for it every time. And I never know when it will happen next and it's exhausting to fight through it.

>You know she probably has those same feels about you too right?
Part of me really thinks so or at least wants to. But she's so sweet and innocent I doubt the idea has even crossed her conscious mind, if it's in there at all. There's been little things as the week progressed, more and more excuses for small meaningless physical contact, like high fives and quick hugs. More accidental brushes against each other. More long periods of silent eye contact. Doing chores together that definitely don't need two people. At one point today I worried that someone else in the family might notice.

But, as always, I'm pretty sure it's all in my head.

I wish I could be with you without thinking about any context. If relationships didn't have a definition we could just kiss each other without thinking anything into it. Just pure love, only in the present. Then we could both go on our way.

I feel like I'm just a random person you don't even know that well, even though we were together for a whole year.
I hate that you don't miss me. I hope you just don't express it. I can't let you go this easily. I hope you will want to come back to me after a while, but I don't want to hang into this idea for too much longer, because it's exhausting.

I lost my only friend a week ago over some stupid argument and now it's fucking me up. I head off to college in 2 months and I'm nervous as hell since I already fucked my high school years and i don't want to mess this up, I don't even know if its worth finding new friends here since I'll have to leave them in a few months.

I don't think you want to be around me at all

You just don't have anyone better, not yet, not right now. You want to be acknowledged, get attention. I used to think about living with you, looking after you. I felt urges to look after you, do whatever you wanted.

Then a bunch of shit happened that I will never tell you about, not in detail. You continuously tried to guilt trip me and tell me how terrible you had it as if it was all because we broke up without knowing (or caring) about what was going on with me. I can't juggle a suicidal fickle teenage girlfriend, my suicidal ideation riddled self, an abused sister, her abuser, two mentally ill manchildren, a sick mother, an angry father, people springing up from my fucked up childhood and a broken leg from fucking up at my stupid shitty training. Surely some people have it in them, maybe even most, but not me.

I made a friend who cares about me a lot. I think we might even get together. She's not you, and I miss you, but I don't think you care about me. You care about what I can or will do for you. You care about what idealized concepts I can represent and not who I really am.

I'm still hurting, I still fantasize about dying and getting mortally wounded, but mostly in regards to you I'm confused. I'm the one who doesn't know what you want. If you don't want to be friends, don't.

I've got no money, no family near me whatsoever and i'm couchsurfing at a friends. I'm kinda scared to go out and start looking for work but I really need to start making money. I can only stay for a little longer but I don't know how long that'll last.

Do everything you can to find a job, any job; ask friends. Figure out what you want to do with your life after you manage that, so you don't become homeless and in a worse position.

Look into a temp agency. If the job sucks you're not stuck there.

I play Tekken 7 and I signed up for a big tournament called CEO in Daytona Florida with the help of my girlfriend. I'm decent when it comes to the game and I would go as far as to say I'm one of the top 3 players in Tampa which is one of the bigger locals other than Jacksonville and Orlando. I haven't been doing too well in my online games and in my last local I got 4th. One of my biggest fears right now is showing up to CEO and going 0-2 and just disappointing everyone especially my girlfriend who helped me pay for this $85 ticket.

Im in a healthy relationship with a girl who really cares about me and is a good person, shes gorgeous, and i just got a full time job that I love.

Im miserable though, because i was in a relationship for 5 years before the one im in now, my ex lost her mind, ended up in an institution, tried to kill herself, threatened me and my family. shes back in the real world now, but shes with some guy she met on tinder, and shes apparently really happy and moved on from me, despite her abuse towards me during our horrible relationship.

I got zero closure. it was just "im fucking somebody else now". it fucked up my head, and made it really hard to be intimate with my current gf. i wish i could talk to her but her mind is so fucked up that it wouldnt help. i can't ever really talk to the girl that i was with because shes so different and crazy now. i just wanted a real goodbye.

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Why do you need closure at all? Your ex obviously doesn't, and she has managed to move on just fine.

There is nothing that your ex could say that would magically fix everything, and whatever she does say will likely open up even further questions. I think what you're actually looking for is a sincere apology, which she is unlikely to give you because she is mentally ill.

You would be much better working towards the fact that you escaped from a very unhealthy relationship and found somebody who is better for you. I should add that your girlfriend has almost definitely noticed how detached you are, and this will affect your current relationship over time.

People often search for closure, but it very rarely provides what you're looking for. The situation you were in will still be shit, the feelings you have will still be negative and the relationship you're trying to get over will still have happened.

Yeah, youre right in that searching for an apology wont magically make me feel better. Her BPD really messed me up, i never thought id be in a situation like that.

My current gf knew all about my previous relationship so shes really understanding about it, we are still a pretty new couple, and the breakup was only months ago. But i want to feel better right now, i want to stop feeling shitty and enjoy my life but it haunts me.

youre also right in that it would just make things worse, turn into an argument, or worse.

Yeah, when people start learning that BPD is literally a relationship destroying illness and not to waste their time, there will be happier people in the world.

I would say to leave it. You left a lot of details out of your first post. If the break up was just a few months ago, you're actually going through the standard grief period you go through after most long term relationships. It sounds like perhaps you've rebounded into this new relationship, which is probably why you're getting these conflicting thoughts and struggling to commit to her intimately.

>been texting this girl for 6 months on and off
>just started off as a internet friend then she began flirting with me heavily and I thought she liked me
>turns out she's a huge slut and she's having a bf and she's cheating on him constantly
>try to break contact with her but she won't stop texting me
>planning to meet her soon
I'm a virgin, should I have sex with this woman? she doesn't like me at all probably but she's kinda hot but agreed to try a few things with me. I'm also getting emotionally attached to her. she's very interesting and smart she doesn't even have to be a dumb slut I don't get what the deal is.

haha yeah, i am being somewhat impatient with myself, healing takes time. I hate demonizing people that suffer from mental illness, I have a sibling with debilitating anxiety, and my dad has PTSD from vietnam, so i always try to be sensitive.

but BPD, from what ive learned, experienced, and been told by my therapist and other health care professionals is that it is really like, depressed cheating cunt disease which makes it really hard to feel compassion for.

It's actually a meme diagnosis for people who have horrible personality traits but don't fall into any of the more debilitating mental disorders.

Are you me?
Even the pic. Wow

I just want less clutter in my fucking head. There's way too much stimulation and too many distractions. I feel like I'm drowning and don't have any direction.

I'm tired of swimming sometimes. It'd be so easy to give up and die, but I have loved ones. My family and my girlfriend, I love them all..

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Want and desire of something great requires more action rather than someday I will get there or if I won the lotto I will become rich.

I have the perfect life... so why do I insist on fucking it up?

I’m human trash and maybe I don’t deserve you anymore.

You need some time bro. Take a vacation alone. You need to hit the bed one night knowing you have nowhere to be tomorrow. I did this for 1.5 years

i love her soooo much

feels like i'm going crazy

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Apologize?

I love you more than anything in my life, but I really don't deserve the shit you are putting me through. You have my heart, my time, my help, my support - why won't you put in a minimal amount of effort and at least try not to let all my help go to waste? I've put my dreams on hold for your bullshit and you won't even respect that.

I was really hurt the other morning when I was trying to comfort you and you nicely told me to fuck off. Why are you pushing me away? Why are you running away? Am I doing something wrong? Please tell me. I just want you happy. I thought I made you happy but judging from your actions the past couple months, I don't. That kills me. I wish you would talk to me instead of hiding behind walls. Pretending like there is no time for us. If I could stop time I would I for you.

Sorry

I'm 22 year old loser who's struggling to get a part time job. Have a year of voluntary work experience, but never had a paying job.
The only thing I have going for me is that I'm attending a good University.

She's cheating on her boyfriend
Don't give this stupid thot any attention

I'm so tired of the shitshow that comes for not removing the hair on my legs even if it's just new hairs poking out

and shit like dragging me into some politics rhetoric.
It's either tumblrina leddit sjws screaming YOU GO HONEY WOMAN POWER FIGHT THE PATRIARCHY MISOGYNY or people in general ranting how it's wrong and women are degrading and the world is going to end like fuck man leave me alone, i wash and groom myself, it's not like i have fleas crawling on it, and the hairs on my legs are probably ten times weaker than some sweaty faggot's armpit hair, the latter being acceptable despite smelling ten times worse

not even talking about work ethics and formal events or anything, i'm talking about just casually going out

but i can't lift a finger against all this shit again without being dragged into labeled politics and views

Quite the sticky situation

Is that really how you want things to happen?

Hello fellow BC person, I know that all too well.

What do you do when you're falling in love with someone and you know for sure it would ruin everything if you acted on the feelings?

You confirm if it really would ruin everything before thinking it will, and then decide if you are willing to risk it by telling them.

Why is being white demonized?

Need people be reminded of the fact that Whites advanced 50% of human civilisation? The other 50% being joint between Asians and Arabs?

>Black athletes and movie stars complain about not getting parts
Without whites and asians you would not have -CINEMA- or anything related to it. Not the cameras, the microphones, none of the technology nor the fucking concept. You also wouldn't have the fucking sports industry. Nor the music industry.

Whinging about oppression while only being relevant because of the tools your "former masters" have created for you. Slavery was fucking awful, never will say otherwise, but remember that others BLACKS sold you into slavery and WHITES freed you, while giving you the tools to pretty much take over the sports and music industries.

t. Brown guy off the coast of North Africa.

I have to trust my girlfriend, that's all there is to it. After years of being a stereotypical Jow Forums virgin I've got all these insecurities kicking around, and I need to deal with them. Literally all I can do is trust that she does love me and that she'll be faithful, and simply reassess if I ever get reason to believe otherwise.

This gf thing is hard, man. I'm regretting ingesting so much of this site's rhetoric for so long, I'm having the hardest fucking time believing my girl will stay as loyal to me as I am to her. I never let these fears show, I'm confident to her and I think that's part of what's kept her this long. But I need to really figure my shit out so that confidence can come from a genuine place, and not just be a front.

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i take zoloft, can confirm it helped with my social anxiety. helped with all my shit desu, 10/10 would recommend

pls pls PLS be my bf

Why the fuck don't we do ANYTHING in class related to our graded work? No really, when we go over the digestive system 7 fucking times but the test has to do with calculating protein percent age, how is showing up to class helping us at all. I HAVE A BETTER IDEA, don't grade attendance and just let us spend the 2 fucking hours reading the text book. It's unironically more useful than you are as a professor.

I feel far too shitty to even get out of bed, I've just been lying here playing games on my phone.
Can't even find any good games either.

lm deeply worried about the future. I'm in college to be a teacher and I'm really afraid of sucking at it when I eventually get a job.

J Dude you a trip. You a fucking trip. I really did dream about you. What da fuck? I know I got kinda rapey last night but seeing you for real was so nice.

I'll always wish the best for you.

I wanna jerk off so bad AAAHHH

I can't pick up on verbal communication when a girl is interested. I've been in relationships where the woman makes the first move and I need to change that. Been single for 4 years.

Don't let the depression menace get to you. Once you fall it can be hard getting back up. Just for now, go brush your teeth and tell yourself "it's ok, I'll be back in bed soon". Small things can really help.

I appreciate the sentiment user, sadly it's not just depression but illness as well. I'll be getting surgery in a few weeks and I should start to feel better a bit after that, though I don't even want to start thinking about how I'm going to pay the medical bills.

My family are having fun without me ;_;
I wanna go home asap

Is J still a minimeme up in this bitch? Cos I started that one. Just for the record. Love...

I don't think I know how to enjoy life.
I'm not a person that would travel around, meet other people, experience different cultures and all that, I'm too much of a pussy to talk to random people, let alone getting to know them. I'm always anxious so travelling makes me feel nervous.
I'm struggling with enjoying the small things in life, like when I listen to new music I just can't get into it sometimes even though life isn't going that badly.
Even meeting my friends isn't always fun, sometimes I need to be left alone because socializing is mentally exhausting, I don't know what to say to people.
I do try and better myself at what I can but I know I'll never be able to say "yes" to everything and just go with the flow, experience everything in life. I know its better to be able to do that, for you, but I just don't think I can do it all. I don't think I'll ever be able to fully relax and just take life as it comes

Anybody - young thug
Key to the streets - Lucci
King wizard - cudi
Power - yeezie
Cut it - o t genasis

>have autism and crippling social anxiety
>zero social life, zero friends, no ways to meet girls in real life, I have to use the internet for that
>not "settling down" with whatever the internet has to offer, but actually praising the heavens for this wonderful gateway to a world where I can actually talk to girls
>get in contact with a girl
>lots of common interests as expected from someone who uses the same video game forums as me
>regular back and forth messaging for few days, things are pretty good and we always find something to say
>after few days her messages turn shorter
>then there starts to be delays between her replies
>the few hour delays turn to days, and then she just disappears
>she's online, but she doesn't message back
>pretty sad about the situation, but decide to try again
>get in contact with a new girl
>lots of topics to talk about etc. etc. things go fine
>after few days - weeks she just disappears and never comes back
>repeat the whole thing for few times in a row, start to really blame myself for being such a shitty boring person
>obsessively read through my messages to see where I went wrong, but I can't see anything that would warrant that kind of disappearance, and that makes me even more miserable
>tfw starting to lose hope but I can't give up because if I give up then the game will truly be over

Does anyone else go through these things? I always remember to make it clear in my posts that I'm a lonely autistic nerd looking for a lonely nerd girl just to make sure anyone contacting me knows what's up. I understand just dropping the contact is much easier than blatant rejection, but goddamn it really makes my feels hurt. The worst really is when I get my hopes up when I chat with someone who I think really understands me, and then she just disappears, and I get my hopes smashed.
I just don't understand what is wrong with me. I know I'm not the dream man, but I know I'm not the worst either. I'm so sad and lonely and miserable.

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>listening to nigger music to fully relax
Low IQ brainlet detected

I hope ur okay user, sendin good vibes

when it comes to online, don't get your hopes up when you message a girl thinking you are going to be in a relationship with her.

That's why I state that I'm specifically looking for a a girlfriend, a girl who is just as lonely as me. I know there has to be girls like that out there. I'm real, so there absolutely has to be a real girl out there who has the same problems as me and is looking for someone like me.

It's really hard not to blame myself, I know my social skills are not top tier and my hobbies not something you would bring up in dinner table conversation, but c'mon there has to be someone out there for me. Sometimes when I'm in really bitter mood I start to think that maybe the girls contacting me are actually not as lonely, and that I'm a guy #13616242 on their friend list. That might be true more or less, I have lots of girls on my friend lists, but usually from my other attempts to form something special.
I'm not even the kind of guy who is willing to settle down with just anyone. I have in fact rejected few girls for legitimate non-superficial reasons, such as girl who was already in open relationship, so I know I'm not 100% repulsive and boring.

I wonder if there is a dating forum specifically for autistic loners. Honestly, I don't think any "normie" could understand this situation. I wish I could give up because this is very tiresome and bad for my mental health, but I have to keep going and trying.

I think they had good time chatting but maybe they felt youre looking for gf not a friend so maybe they got turnd off? They can smell despiration. Maybe they didnt find you as attractive.

Dude sound like a fat 50's fuck who won't let his kids watch Elvis on Sullivan.

Bitter incel detected. 4 chan, missed ya bitches!

First step to relationships with females: get da fuck offa Jow Forums

>mfw people are LARPing as me in hopes of sabotaging (potential) relationships

Don't believe everything you read. It's like fake news took over Jow Forums

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The Young Thug song is really great though.

Posts on adv
Not willing to settle with "just anyone"

You may not want to blame yourself, but you should.

Explain what you mean? I am confused, why can't users just use their initials like they sometimes used to. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Hmm, yes, that sounds viable. My social skills are awkward in a way that I can't really channel myself so that I have those different "modes" for different people. I talk to everyone the same way. Obviously I will try to subtly sway things into more romantic direction when talking with a girl online, but overall I'm talking to them the same way I would talk to the nerd friends I had in school years ago.
I try not to be clingy, I don't spam messages and "pls respond" type of messages. I may ask if they're okay if I haven't heard of them in a week or two, but that's about it.
>Maybe they didnt find you as attractive.
That's another thing, because many of the girls I have talked to have been surprised that despite my described life situation I'm not a greasy neckbeard. They have even described me handsome which always boosts my confidence. But if it's not my looks, it must be my personality. Sure, maybe one or two of the girls have been not-so-nice when I think about it in hindsight, but most of them have been absolute sweethearts, so I can't put all blame on the girls. It could also be that because nerdy shy girls are in such high demands, I might not be their only choice.
This is a good advice, but it will also nuke my "dating life" to almost zero.
By not settling with just anyone I mean I'm not going to settle with single moms, girls in open relationships etc. stuff that would do me psychological or financial harm. I'm not superficial, I don't care about weight or anything like that as long as the girl is nice and we share hobbies.

Do I really have to start doing some cold approach shit in real life? Will girls think I'm a creep if I approach them in book store?

You're one of those rare girls that's both cute and hot. Yeah maybe your ass is kinda flat and you don't have big tits, but holy shit those eyes.