How do you talk yourself into giving up impossible dreams without getting depressed about the fact that you gave up in...

Where else can you be the centre of attention without having to know or be able to produce anything of value?

Anyone can lie, and theatre is nothing but lying.

by putting possible dreams on the table. you're not giving up on life, you are simply making a new plan. that being said, this better not be one of those 'OH I AM NEVER GOING TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIT ITS IMPOSSIBLE FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME D;' bullshit things

It’s not. And it wouldn’t be for me, if I was only willing to settle for a relationship that’d make both of us deeply unhappy.

The problem is I’m never going to be adored and famous.

giving up on fame isn't giving up on life, its a vapid dream anyway.

Well, it would still be giving up on the only dream I’ve ever had. There is literally absolutely nothing I’d want to do with a nameless existence. Might as well be a prison sentence, it’s only an utter worthless waste of time.

Suicide by vodka is, of course, the traditional way to go, but I’ve seen it and it’s slow and painful in the end.

I achieved goals that seemed impossible and was still depressed. Sure, initially there's a sense of achievement but you get used to it and slide back into depression after a month.

So no matter what I achieve I'll still be where I am now mentally

I’d still rather have some concrete evidence that my existence and work is objectively valued and valuable.

okay well no one cares goodbye.

Did typing that make you feel cool? How useless are you, having to look up utter scum to bully because you have no other way to find anyone who’s beneath yourself?

Think about why you wanted those dreams that you did.

There usually was some root reason or core motivation that inspired them. Just because the dream you had then might not be possible now doesn’t mean that reason or motivation is gone. Your goals may change, but you’ll be able to come back from failure knowing clearly. what you wanted all along

I want to be admired.

That's not a dream. That's not a satisfactory way to achieve happiness. You're a pathetic attention whore and your desire will lead you to nothing but misery
You might as well have said "I want someone to like me because I don't like myself"

Then what? What do you want me to do?

Ignore
As that is a bitter person who’s suffering greatly, and is trying to spread misery around to make themself feel better.

Being admired is an age-old goal, and is a natural desire. Your next step is figuring out what kinds of things you’d want to be admired for doing, because admiration comes from doing, or even trying to do something, that others respect.

What would you like to be admired for doing?

Being intelligent and insightful.

This is an attainable dream.

I encourage you to pick a domain you actually want to be smart in (you cannot and will not be universally smart) and study as hard as you can. People respect a person who is consistently improving themself.

Perhaps you’d even consider getting a PhD, which implies that a board of professors believes you have studied and written about a field deeply enough that your research has made an insightful impact on the field.

Best of luck, user.

niga that's enturrly too many pickels

The only how to satisfy those terms is to toss the ego. Try meditation practice. It is a vehicle towards a state where consciousness is at rest.

That would require me to actually *be* smart, which I’m not.