I went through child abuse and I don't know if that's the reason but I have always been into twisted stuff, horror movies and I just want to dominate a man, humiliate him, make him feel pain. I don't think BDSM is right for me because I'm supposed to care about the guy and I wouldn't really give a fuck about him. I just get a weird feeling in my chest like I'm sick for wanting to make someone suffer. Any advice?
Female sadist
Well, I'm going to assume someone who's into it will defeat the purpose for you. The situation you'll have to accept is that the only way you'll get away with sadism is illegally. If you're still willing, I hope someone eventually stabs you in the face.
I would want someone who is into it... but I would rather experiment with an open minded regular man.
no way to sugarcoat this, sweetheart. you should go to therapy before you hurt someone.
or pull a Dexter. hurt those who deserve it.
well that makes it simpler. just ask.
>Any advice?
Stop being so edgy and see a specialist to treat your mental illness.
Regular men would not end up in a situation where they've agreed to be prodded by a self-professed sadist.
You'll have to find a freak.
Find a Domme to show you the ropes, eventually set yourself up as a Domme that specializes in that shit.
I'm not interested in BDSM as it seems fake and I'm not personally interested in the submissive's feelings.
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Look for people as deranged as you, I'm sure some guys were diddled by their uncles or something and now want to have their balls crushed