God, have mercy upon us

So, I'm going to the straight to the point with my story here. I'm jealous of my boyfriend's first ex-wife and I hate the fact that their love child is a product of them. The kid is a living time capsule and I'm just 6 years older than him, I'll be more of his big sister/young mom. Anyways, lemme just green text the following.

>they met in college, he was 18 and she was 16 I guess
>they did soft drugs and she got interested in his spiritual beliefs
>his twin brother got mad at him because they didn't do anything like kissing, they started dating
>the three of them met a senior and officially initiated person of what they spiritually follow (by the way, I talked to her online and I never got the chance to meet her in person because she passed away, it's just not the same)
>the three of them traveled around the US
>yes, the two of them got married
>that fucking slut and him slept together and had a kid
>they lived happily at a temple
>they got a divorce because she didn't believe in God anymore, she kept the stupid kid and he was alone, but still kept contact with them
>he got married again, his new wife left him after 2 years and right now she has a restraining order on his ass (long story)
>now it's just me and him

I'm not sure if this matters, but he's 38, I'm 18. Maybe I'm too naive. I just wish she never existed. I wish so many bad things to her, I don't care if they come back to me because bad things happen to me regardless. Or maybe I need mental help. I just need to some advice, please help me and don't judge me.

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>he's 38, I'm 18
No way this will work out long-term

>I'm not sure if this matters, but he's 38, I'm 18.
Find someone closer to your own age. They can even be in their mid twenties, just not 20 years older than you jfc
You know this to be true, and that's why you're going to get a lot of responses telling you what you don't want to hear.

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My parents are 10 years apart, they worked out to be fine.

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Was your father an ex cult member? Did your mom marry a guy who has kids from other marriage whom she hates and upon whom she wishes ill?

yeah that's not 20 years dingus also this

Obviously not if you were the product.

No, they're conservative Catholics from Spain.

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That literally has nothing to do with it.

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I've thought about it. The thing is is that I'm the only one he has around, I'm the spine of his health and happiness, and I'm one of thn reasons why he hasn't done anything he will regret.

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where is your father and what the fuck is your life

He passed away 2 months ago, so I guess he's in heaven. My mom is back in Spain.

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Look, I just want advice and some guidance.

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>he's 38, I'm 18
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I gotta hand it to you dude, I've been on Jow Forums a long time and this is some of the juiciest bait I've seen. Good work.

There is really nothing to say. You are a daddy issues girl with mentality of a child. He is a guy with some stinky past who could be your father age-wise. You are clearly not mature enough to be in a relationship, especially with a guy who was once married and has children almost your age. It's just a sad trainwreck, it sucks that your dad passed away, sometimes children need some parental guidance even if they are legally adults.

This is serious, if you don't want to believe me, fine.

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That is obvious, of course. I just don't know what to do, I'm not mature yet regardless of my age. I'm pretty much alone as well. I just know that I'll get out of this at some point.

op stop being a selfish bitch.
those were his decisions to make not yours. if you want to be with him that badly then you’ll grow a pair and get the fuck over it.
if you’re going to be petty over a human being then leave him. what is so fucking hard about that.

ah. my condolences then. sorry to hear that. go back home to mum. find a man closer to your age. much closer. i'm talking 25 tops and do not get involved with a guy who already has children. being a mother is great. being a stepmother is shit. this guy's son will always always ALWAYS come first before you. and frankly that's how it should be. as for him, he will be fine. i promise. he made it 38 years doing just fine without you, he will manage. i don't mean to sound crass but you are at best a sort of toy for him, and at worst you are a pawn in the family dynamic he failed to keep together. you're 18. you're young, you're beautiful, your life is just budding, and he's on the brink of middle age. you tie yourself to him and you'll end up widowed young as fuck after butting heads with his kid and ex wife for decades. this is the only life you've got. live it wisely.

You're just literally a child. Anyone who would wish bad things on literally a child who didn't ask to be born to these parents and is a priority over you forever because it's his kid, honestly it would be fucked up if she wasn't, is just a fucking idiot.

38 year old dating an 18 year old with the mind and wisdom of a child is never going to work out. You're honestly clocking in at about the maturity of a 12 year old's whos daddy got remarried or something.

You are some 18 year old he is sleeping with. He will be fine without you.

If you want this to work out you need to mature. Obviously a 38 year old is going to have a past. Hating his CHILD is hating one of the most important parts of him so you're fucking up at the most basic part of the relationship.

t. stepmother

Crazy things happening to crazy people. Checks out.

>she has a restraining order on his ass (long story)
You posted here a few weeks ago and we told you to leave him.