How do I know if I'm a narcissist

Well the reason that question works is narcissists can recognize their narcissism as well as a test can but don't see it as a flaw so they presumably don't see a problem with say "hell yeah I'm a narcissist"

I honestly got that from a quick Google search and various Jow Forums threads on the subject. Some common symptoms from the internet and Jow Forums seem to be threats of suicide to keep their partner from leaving, self harm, and going from idealizing someone to extreme disappointment/anger and back again repeatedly.

Reason I ask is I am getting a psychologist test or something for my adhd diagnosis, he told me "this test is not for positive personality traits but not so positive traits." It makes me worried honestly. I don't believe I have any PD though.
I just feel like I will fail it.

Tests like that are pretty standard, I did one too. Speaks for your psychs thoroughness.
Though I'm a bit put off by his wording - test like that essentially check how strong some aspects of your personality are.
These aspects can make you problems or if they are accentuated very strong - A PD is basically just one of these traits being accentuated to an extreme level.
But in and of themselves none of these traits are bad , if that makes any sense.

>Well the reason that question works is narcissists can recognize their narcissism as well as a test can but don't see it as a flaw

That is, until you explain to them that being a narc is bad and an illness; then they will downplay it and finally explain that they don't have anything at all and it is you who should seek therapy instead.

>But in and of themselves none of these traits are bad , if that makes any sense.
it does but I am afraid they'll true to use it against me or ill end with me being taken off my meds

Look man, I don't know what to tell you. That's a published study but I don't think either of us have the qualifications to really judge it beyond that.

>threats of suicide to keep their partner from leaving

this is misrepresentative. people with bpd don't threaten suicide as a means of manipulation, they genuinely feel that their loved ones are better off if they're dead in the midst of a breakdown. this obviously makes no sense to someone without bpd, so the assumption is that this is intentional behavior meant to elicit a desired response but it's not, it's just how your brain works when you have bpd. people with bpd struggle with a sort of emotional form of object impermanence and think in black and white terms. so if someone is mad at you, you think you're a waste of space and the only way to fix the situation is to literally kill yourself. you can't functionally understand that people can still love you and would be sad if you were gone when they aren't actively reassuring you (and sometimes even when they are).

You're right that was unfair of me to say. I just try to avoid the attitude that bpd people aren't responsible for their actions and wanted to leave no room for doubt.

So BPD people are idiots, got it.

emotionally, yes. (usually) due to severe childhood trauma, they never learned how to deal with their emotions in a healthy way, how to form healthy attachments, or good interpersonal skills.

That doesn't change the fact that people with untreated bpd will make you dependant on them, and also turn your life into a living hell if you let them.

If you have anything to do with a bpd who doesn't take their meds or is in therapy, you're best advised to run as fast as you can and never look back

>be borderline
>open adv because I'm feeling unstable and need to get distracted
>first thread is about borderline

My life is a bit spooky sometimes

Lol, this board is the last place to go to if you're not feeling happy as fuck.
Seriously, get on one of the hobby boards, that always cheers me up

okay? thanks for sharing, i guess

Thanks, that's actually good advice

Look up Sam Vaknin on youtube, OP.