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You've pushed me away so many times that I'm numb. I guess that's what you wanted. I hate the way things have turned out. I wanted you to love me but I'm unlovable. I'm gonna kill myself. You won't see this and I won't message you to tell you. I love you.

let them love you dummy.

No. I'm fucking toxic and nothing but bad vibes. Nobody benefits from even being my friend. I wish I could see whatever the fuck she sees in me in myself, because believing that somebody like her loved me almost makes me want to treat myself better, but that's honestly just another selfish and ugly thought. There'd be no mistake if people could see in.

I had the most disappointing sex with my step-sister

>believing that somebody like her loved me almost makes me want to treat myself better, but that's honestly just another selfish and ugly thought.
jesus christ you are fucking dense. be selfish for your own fucking sake, buddy.

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I'm starting to get depressed about sex. I gotta find someone to sleep with or else I lose it again.

I don't know why I get so insecure, so needy... I guess I'm so used to being ignored and then eventually becoming the 2nd choice (if that) that it's sort of an embedded flaw that damages any relationship I manage to be in.

But with you... You are so calm, so patient with me... sometimes I wonder if you're even real.

I truly feel that I do not deserve you.

Thank you, Phil.
I love you.

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I'm more at peace when all thoughts are muted and silenced. The switch is flipped and any inkling of you is temporarily dismantled. I know what I am. I justify my actions as a means to pause the madness. I'd rather be suspended in a metaphorical float then the never-ending purgatory inflicted on my being. I'm a coward in my own right.

She said she loved me. But I didn't satisfy her sexually, so she left.

I'm reminded why I don't talk with people, don't think i'll bother to talk much with people anymore.

I love you. Now love me back of you dont want to hurt me
t. Girl you love

Holy shit, talking to someone for four months and then abruptly ghosting them is not fucking okay. And your last text to me? Responding to me complaining about some annoying children in my office by saying "God. Kill em"??? That's really how you wanted to leave things? I'm so upset with myself for believing in the things that you said, like how you promised we could meet and how you'd tell me if you wanted to stop talking.

Even worse, when my hairdresser tried to catfish you by calling you, just so we could hear your voice, you actually responded! You texted her back so quickly! She's texting you, pretending to be a fictional person, and you're over here sending fake pictures of yourself (???) to a girl you've never met and who doesn't exist, and you're talking game about wanting to fly across the country to visit her? What on earth is your problem? and why can't I get you out of my head?

If that was really you last night;
I am sorry. I fucking suck. I love you man. I dont care what you believe, i always have and always will. I dont care if youre broken or even mean to me. I love you.

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I am just fucking sick and tired of people looking over me. My fucking school look over me when they were deciding to give a scholarship, and they chose some fucking thot over me/.

I have worked hard for 6 years, I have helped in society, I have reached out to people in need and volunteer in an autistic children centre. All without any favour.

Now, I need a favour to be done for me, which is just for a measly scholarship, so I can feel like all my hard work have been paid off, you just gave it to some thot, who have never helped out society nor have any achievements in her life. Just for what, so you guys can look good on paper and say you guys are helping the less privileged students. Fuck that, those students have never done beneficial in their lives. I have worked so hard in my 6 years, always collecting awards always proving myself, and I now have this school that prefers attractive people rather than people who have worked hard like me.

I just now I feel like no matter how hard I work in society, attractive people will always somehow get it.

I'm actively driving my boyfriend away because I'm a fucking dumb cunt who has no self control, anger issues, and likes to blame everything on Asperger's syndrome because I can't understand how he feels through the medium of a fucking steam chat and I'm an easily jealous fucking idiot who will get mad when he's ignored every single weekend when we all watch anime together and he talks with people he's known a lot longer than I have even though he's his own person. I feel like I have to fight every second for attention, and that's what drove him away from me last year. I'm such a

Too many women with issues these days. So many of them keep fucking up everything.
This generation sucks!

after a week, his words still remain.
"you already know that I'd never date you, even if I was single".
hurts. I tried to brush it off. maybe I should have told him it hurt.

>I don't want to call you a liar, but I just can't believe you for even one fucking second if you make a claim like that.
You are calling them a liar. Even if you refuse to believe you are. Try trusting them. if you really love them, if you think that lowly of yourself, then use them as the motivation you need to be the best person you can be for them. You owe it to you and them.

AARGH IT BURNS

It helps somehow, but it would be more effective if we could say it out loud verbally. You guys agree?

What helps to say out loud? Context?

I want to explode, I want to yell, I want to break things. I'm just full of anger and regret over the waste of 5 years on a relationship I tried SO hard to make work. Even though the breakup was back in January it still puts me in the dumps each and every day because I loved that bitch, and it just feels like she never loved me.
I don't know what to do or how to move on. I thought I would marry that girl. And now, at 30 and still trying to shake off the damage from this, I just don't know if I'll ever actually be loved. I'm tired of it all.

Just quit a decent paying part time ACT tutoring job just one day after getting the first day of “training”. The test itself is relatively easy if you’re an adult, but teaching it seemed to be way out of my league. The place is in a really nice area with like high profile clients and shit. I just didn’t feel confident in the environment at all. It was giving me fucking panic attacks, like waking up at like 2am just thinking like how am I supposed to pretend to know how to explain why a particular grammatical error is wrong; all the rules and stuff are ridiculous.

I already have a comfy high school job teaching history, in a really small school. I think it’s made me get super comfortable with not doing anything challenging.
I’m 23 but i still struggle with being anxious in new environments. It has gotten a lot better, I’m a lot more communicative and charismatic with new people, it doesn’t make me nervous anymore. the problem I’m having is just the feeling like I’m under qualified, not good enough to work in a new environment, and especially not feeling confident with myself.

I’ve spent the last two years smoking weed basically everyday, I think it’s why I feel so anxious with new jobs, and doing new things. I’ve stopped before so it’s not a big deal, but with summer basically being a 3 month unemployment, it’s so easy to get back into it... any smokers deal with anxiety? Is it better to quit right, and fucking grow up? I feel like such a man child...

Relationship wise things have been good. Ever since I quit watching porn a year ago, I’ve been able to talk to girls even started dating this qt French girl. I’m pretty sure I was one of those people with a bad addiction.

I don’t know if anyone can relate, but the advice I’m asking for boils down to growing up, becoming a man, being confident.

Sorry for the blog post people,Any advice is appreciated

I’m sorry, seems like a cunt

I’m done with your bullshit. You’ve always taken me for granted.

Sure I agree. Whatever you say user.

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I’m thinking maybe I misinterpreted you a lot.

This is just a friendship, I swear I’ll try to keep that unless you don’t want me to anymore.

I’m sorry for catching feelings :(

My wife and I were finally able to tell my parents that we're not going to have kids. They seemed to be disappointed a bit, but it wasn't as bad as we thought it would be and in the end they said they'd support whatever decision we made. Now we have to tell her parents and I'm nervous about that.

okay. so you changed. you really did. you're not the same as you used to be. you used to be a lot more fun.
everytime you and your new boyfriend shut me out of your life for who knows what reason, i always idealize you, i always imagine you're the old you again, the fun, loose, open-minded you, but i'm always proven wrong.
and hey, maybe this is the real you. maybe this is who you always wanted to be. maybe the you i used to know was just a compromise. you seem happy. you really do. but you won't talk to me seriously anymore, you don't want to know me like that anymore. I'm just entertainment to you, or I'm free press for your boyfriend's band.

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Your boyfriend's band sucks by the way. They're boring as fuck. The whole Brooklyn scene he's a part of sucks. It's going nowhere. All that shitty music is going nowhere. It's a reflection of himself, honestly. You found a really boring dude, he's awkward and I know he gets all quiet whenever I'm around and it feels like a little more than a coincidence that I'm always excluded whenever he's hanging out with you guys.
I used to think i'm being the bitter, rejected lesbian here but I honestly think I'm right. And I also would really delight in telling him how many times we fucked right after you guys started dating but I'm nice.
And I can't say the same for you. You've been a bitter cunt to me for the past 2 years and I knew there was a reason I couldn't just brush it off and drop you, I couldn't just accept that that's "who you are" because I know that's not who you are. You have empathy and love in your heart but it's clear you have this vendetta against me

and it's sticking no matter how much you say you're "so totally over me". You're choosing this. You chose to be boring, to shut out everything that doesn't fit into your new, safe and very approved-of life and whatever like I won't stop you. I hope you're happy. At least I can make peace with the fact that it's not really my fault that you just suck now.

I started MechEng last week
subjets are easy
But it feels like it's not my thing, I don't feel happy doing it and don't think thats going to change
Should I drop?
Take a vocational test?

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She grew out of a phase butch dyke. Maybe a life of lesbian sex wasnt as exciting or have the longevity you thought it would. You sound really immature.

Its also not surprising. Lesbians use toys to stimulate dick. Every time. Gays dont pull out the fleshlight when they have sex, because all they need or a mouth and an asshole, something everyone has. But not everyone has a cock, so lesbians are constantly getting fucked by fake cock and its no wonder they move onto real cock eventually. You were never a proper lesbian if you get off on cock, hoe. Youre a dick slave through and through.

missed my angels a lot this past week. gadammit.

you know your daddy loves you both so very much. sorry for being a complete idiot. i took a vacation just to see my beautiful girls but i just got the feeling you didn't want to see me at the time. so i spent my vacation (and bday) home alone, missing my babies.

just remember, when you watch the sun rise, i'll be there...

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>And I also would really delight in telling him how many times we fucked right after you guys started dating but I'm nice.
>implying being a culprit of cheating doesnt make you garbage automatically
You're not nice. You're full of yourself. You are arrogant and not humble to boot. Your ex is garbage for cheating too, but it actually seems like she is moving past you unlike you with her. They exclude you because you're a fucking drag to the mood, a drama ticking time bomb, if you will, and you should just leave your ex's life for good especially if you have nothing but resentment for her life choices that exclude you. You're garbage.

Heroin? Teach me your secret of how to switch off? I need it.

They always want to see you.

I crush on every girl that shows me any kind of positive attention and every time end up getting my heart crushed instead. This happens both in real life and online. I want to believe that this is nothing personal and my feelings have been just misdirected, the girls have always been nice to me even after rejection, but I just can't shake off this feeling of worthlessness. I don't know how many times I can go through this same thing before I lose my mind, this constant failing is already making me want to kill myself.

I'm starting to feel like I'm entitled to have a girlfriend. I mean most guys I know have girlfriends without any effort and without being good people or even interesting people. It's just random. Why am I denied this "right"?

I have the same problem. There's no other advice than what my friends told me: DO NOT FUCKING FALL IN LOVE. I remind myself of this every day and it sort of works. Also something I read on Jow Forums:
>just because she treats you like a human being doesnt mean she likes you
Although I honestly interpret that like
>nobody fucking likes you
which for me is quite accurate. It's depressing but realistic. Always hope for the best but expect the worst.

Should I get a degree in a major that I'm interested in (history or psych) or go into a college program that's a guarantee job with decent pay?

One that guarantees a job. If you're interested in history just read a book my dude, buy it with the money you'll be getting from your job.

I'm gonna ghost pretty much every one of my online friends soon. Maybe it's a dick move but it's not like they need a piece of shit like me who doesn't know how to treat his friends well around anyways.

My girlfriend will be leaving in three weeks. She gets back in April and I don’t know if I’ve felt the way I feel about her before. I can tell she’s emotionally attached as well, and I think this’ll be rough for both of us. Do you think it’d be an insane idea to try and pick things back up when she comes back? Then again she’ll be leaving again in September.

Went to dinner with a coworker/ friend last night.
During conversation she brings up the topic of her bf possibly cheating on her after he was caught posting a sketch video that other coworkers saw.
I simply told her to confront him if it's bothering her so much.

A few hours later I get a message from the bf, name calling and telling me to mind my business or we'll fight; high school shit.

In truth I probably should've stayed out if it, but never did I imagine that she'd throw me under the bus like that.
I was going to tell her off as well, but figured she'd only go running to him again and it'd just be a circle of drama. But I'm still super pissed thinking about it

You're doing the right thing.

Sounds like you might not last as a long term couple.
Im not saying it's impossible, but it'll be a lot of work and take a lot of maturity and patience. Most couples don't survive long distances because of it.

Try it out. But if you start feeling like it's not working out , discuss it.

I don’t think we’re going to try for distance. However is it possible for us to pick things up wherever we leave off?

Good.

I guess I’m afraid she will have moved on by that point. No one matters more to me and I can’t imagine life without her,

Your friend is correct in that. Just because she's nice doesn't mean she's into you.
But at the same time you shouldn't overthink it. The key is to not give a fuck. Seriously. Don't second guess every little thing.
This even counts towards flirting. When you overthink it, your game will fall flat. But if guy treat it as harmless fun, it's win win. Either she'll reciprocate the flirting, or she won't but you won't get hurt because you don't care.

just saw the profile of a cute girl who gave me her number and who i am going to meet soon...
damn, that girl is awesome.

this is literally me some years ago
this is me maybe a year ago

now, i really really would like to get that girl i mentioned. one thing is different for me compared to both of you guys: while the girl seems to be awesome, i think i am, too. there are so many great people out there. why don't we count ourselves among them? who says we shouldn't be? getting into a relationship with her should be as much a success for me as it should be for her. another thing is: i'm not expecting the worst. i expect to win, because i know i can. if the worst comes, so be it, but expecting it would ruin the fun completely- the risk thrills me.
hell, years ago i'd imagine my future with her and how great she is. that is gone. last year i'd imagine how great it would be to finally get a relationship. that is gone, too. now i look forward to the opportunity to meet her and have fun. and if it doesn't work, there will be another one.

I wish that people treating me nicely was something way more common so that I wouldn't assume that the girl is into me in the rare occasion when they are nice to me.

How old are you two?
Sounds more like you're taking a break then while she's gone?
If that's the case, that'll make it harder. what's to stop her from meeting someone who's right there with her? Or you meeting someone else?

I really share your mindset but when I do I get rejected anyway. Yes I also thought I was the best possible match for a bunch of girls but it didn't work, they dated some no-personality, passion-less borefest. I know I'm not supposed to judge others like that but we all judge and this is Jow Forums so that's what I think.
Oh well, it's all just a matter of luck imo.

what do you do when your enemy won't compromise, won't stop, and will never change.

The right thing is to not hurt anyone, but these people hurt innocents. If they aren't stopped innocent people will suffer.

So the right thing is to kill them, kill them all. They have shown they won't stop, they won't compromise. They have shown they are without mercy, they are rage.

But we, we will be worse.

We’re 18, both just graduated high school in May. She’s going to another country so she might get a temporary relationship but I’m not worried about her finding someone permanent. I might try to as well, but no other relationship has felt so fulfilling.

The only thing I would say if you see her st work is to (calmly) tell her to never ask you for advice again. Because what she did was really underhanded and stupid.
While you're at it, don't even hang with her outside of work.

You're nineteen girl, you don't need a boyfriend.

You're only nineteen for god's sake.

Im gonna be blunt, you sound extremely naive. But at least it's because you're still fresh from high school so it's to be expected.

The best advice I can give you is to do what you're intending: take a break from each other. Date other people. Live your individual lives. But DON'T hang on to a childish hope that you'll one day fall back into each other's arms. Because doing so WILL cause you pain when it doesn't turn out like that.

Are you honest with yourself? What's the difference between the no-personality, passion-less borefest and yourself? There are three options:
1) You are actually more boring that the other guys
2) You misjudged the other guys
3) Your choice of girls wasn't good because what you wrote is true and the girls were not relationship material.

Thank you for the response.

I will see her at work at some point this week, so I'll follow your advice. I'm too old to deal with childish drama.

I know it’s far-fetched, hence why I asked if this is a possibility.

PLEASE SOMEONE OUT THERE FUCK ME

I NEED IT

Asl?

Sometimes I wish I didnt have friends or parents so that I could date chubby girls without feeling judged. I know thats really selfish, but its just something thats bothered me about myself for awhile. I know Id be happier if Id stayed with my slighlty chubby ex.

I needed a grade A certificate for what I wanted and for that you needed 200-210 points on the fucking exam.
I got 199 fucking points on the damn exam and now I'm stuck on a grade B certificate for 1 fucking point I'm seething

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1) I'm horny as fuck but my dickbrain is too tired to figure out where to point for the end of summer
2)my ex blocked me because I chose to spend time tripping on the dancefloor then to bang her in her tent (not even worth it, shitty party)
3) I'm banging a butterface professor that has the coolest personality ever but literally no face and that is eating my soul away

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>world that prefers attractive people rather than people who have worked hard like me

fixed it for you
you need to befriend a hot person

>C

I know that feel. Do you feel disgusted only after you cum?

I just wanna fuck a much older woman like 60 or even 70 y/o but I don't know how to even look for one

>I know Id be happier if Id stayed with my slighlty chubby ex.
Same here.
Sure, she was clingy, but I could have dated other girls also while keeping her. Now she hates me and I've been alone for 2 years.

I asked a random person: How did you realize that you should move together with your gf? and he said: You just feel it. You don't force it.

I'm the gf

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You can always help a fatty put the fork down. The thing about fat people is that they dont HAVE to be fat.

pix pls
i can rate how stupid you were for dumping her

unless she is tall and chubby.

Yrah I realize that now. She wasnt even that bad looking back on it, I just found out that I am an incredibly shallow person.
And to the other user, I too have been single for 2+ years

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dude that feeling is important
maybe yes!!
do you know what feels wrong.

can you explain it
try to find a person to help you sort your thoughts out.

for example, It took me 10 years to realize
that I finished the wrong shit
civilain marine captain.
now I'm racing time to collect courage to apply for military

Everyday I wake up and every night I go to bed I have the same thought, "I wish I was born with cat ears and a tail", it scares me just how often I have this thought and how much happier I would be if that was the case, if it were possible to surgically alter my appearance in such a way I would do it regardless of the ethical consequences or being judged as a person on the same level as one who cuts off/sews a dick onto themselves.

Did I overdose on anime, or am I just mentally ill?

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get into a body modification society
unless you are fat you will not get shunned
protip: you are fat

There is a certain feeling I feel that I can't name. Does someone know this or have a word for it? I'm trying to describe it:
It's like a rush of energy, like a runner's high, but weaker and lasting much longer, for days even. Like, you know exactly that what you are about to do will push you forward in life and this energy gets you through it. I feel like I could work 14 hours everyday. I'm so fucking motivated, confident and ready.
I only get it very, very rarely. It's like a subconscious telling from my body that I'm doing the right thing. I've never felt it until I was 23. What is it?

I just don't know, at this point. I can't concentrate on anything, with her always on my mind. She's given me so many signals - all her little touches, giggles, a drunken peck that she says she'd rather forget - but they're always followed by being totally avoidant. I'm consumed by doubts. Maybe she just has bad days, and I see her reactions as caused by my own presence. Maybe my own sometimes-shy reactions make her feel the same way. I've tried to more subtly suggest we grab lunch or something, but she shot those sly suggestions down without taking them too seriously. Maybe she's just busy. Maybe she's self-conscious; she's not some innocent girl, she's edgy, rebellious, punk (and I love these things about her). She sees me - on the rare occasions we do see each other, star-crossed in different departments, only a few minutes at a time together at best, often just passing by - as like Jim (in her own words), and while she's not exactly the Pam type, how can I see that as anything but a suggestion of interest? It's just so hard to ask her out directly with the constant hot-and-cold attitude, and the sudden, random and hard-to-spot opportunities. I don't want to do it over text, I know that much, but I wish I had a better sense for this kind of shit. If I'm just wasting her time, I'd rather get it over with, already.

Well then. I think i hate myself kek
I fucked up by not talking to him when i had the chance. And now there is no reverse or going back. I let my shyness blind me to the man who needed me, the one who was infront of me. I let it control me to the point i could hardly speak to him. I am eating my utter lack of words. And i did it because i was and still am selfish. So very selfish. Why did i hurt you with my silence? Why did i not think to speak even a hello or a good bye the last time I saw you? I am FUCKED up dude. I am a stupid girl. A very stupid selfish girl.

i hate that i feel like i have to have a good fuck in order to get over my last relationship, cause im certainly not lined up for any fuckin rn and probably won't be for a while

Mania?

So like, I can't remember what you said. That she had been making porn since 2001 or 2011... and if it was 2001 that means she was 7 years old (which might actually be the case, she just didn't know it then.)

They had nice boxes though... and there was a looottttttttt of them. It would explain all the "Aunt" comments, like the whole "Aunt Sasha" shit.

Is that why she moved to moscow?

So when I end up getting on the real internet all of that shit would just be right there and obvious. Why though? Why would you spend so much effort trying to do shit you know I have absolutely no fucking interest in? It would explain why these girls were so eager to take their clothes off. (especially if it was being broadcasted)

I'm not going to make your sex tape. Ya'll can go fuck yourselves.

Reach out to him?

I enjoy feeling numb and confused because I’ve been this way for so long. I hate being this way but there’s some sick satisfaction in hating myself. Life is too fucking complicated and I don’t want to be a part of it. I just want time to stop.

Cant. Sorry user, i wish there was hope. I have to live with my mistakes sadly. Well, there may be one hope, but i will have to wait several months to get even an chance to see him. And i gotta be honest, it would be so fucking awkward. I think i would just be bothering him after all this time i never made a proper move.