>I feel like a ghost. I’m a 35-year-old woman, and I have nothing to show for it. My 20s and early 30s have been a twisting crisscross of moves all over the West Coast, a couple of brief stints abroad, multiple jobs in a mediocre role with no real upward track. I was also the poster child for serial monogamy. My most hopeful and longest lasting relationship (three and a half years, whoopee) ended two years ago. We moved to a new town (my fourth new city), created a home together, and then nose-dived into a traumatic breakup that launched me to my fifth and current city and who-knows-what-number job.
>For all these years of quick changes and rash decisions, which I once rationalized as adventurous, exploratory, and living an “original life,” I have nothing to show for it. I have no wealth, and I’m now saddled with enough debt from all of my moves, poor decisions, and lack of career drive that I may never be able to retire. I have no career milestones and don’t care for my line of work all that much anyway, but now it’s my lifeline, as I only have enough savings to buy a hotel room for two nights. I have no family nearby, no long-term relationship built on years of mutual growth and shared experiences, no children. I’ve left most of my friends behind in each city I’ve moved from while they’ve continued to grow deep roots: marriages, homes, career growth, community, families, children. Most of my nights are spent alone with my cat.
>I can barely remember to buy dish soap let alone contemplate humanity or be inspired by Anaïs Nin’s diaries. I used to think I was the one who had it all figured out. Adventurous life in the city! Traveling the world! Making memories! Now I feel incredibly hollow. And foolish. How can I make a future for myself that I can get excited about out of these wasted years? What reserves or identity can I draw from when I feel like I’ve accrued nothing up to this point with my life choices?
It's never too late. You could be a "late bloomer". Center/find yourself, before going for a long term relationship. gl
Oliver Garcia
Join the Church
Alexander Myers
Men can be late bloomers. Women, not so much.
Grayson Gonzalez
t.future lonely woman
Xavier Reyes
tl;dr, but the cats are cute. Why she is holding one with a cone on is perplexing, it means the cat probably had surgery and you should be picking it up like that.
American cities are death traps for white ovaries. Men don't want to marry, they just want sex.
Wyatt Thompson
Kind of reminds me of this roastie om my kikebook who's hitting the wall at top speed at 33 years of age. Broken up so I'm not sure how the greentext will be, but here it is:
No bullshit, I legitimately want to die. There's nothing anyone can really say or do that can change my mind on that. It's in my brain, it's been there for years, I just always keep trying to pretend it isn't and that I'm normal. I never asked to be here. I never asked for the things that happened to me early on that made my brain sick to happen. But I'm still forced to go on day after day, carrying scars of other people's actions, many of which affected by their own scars caused by other people. It's cyclical. And it's agonizing. But I'll still be here tomorrow, and the next day, and the next even though I really don't want to be. I don't matter. I've never really felt like I mattered, and even if anyone ever tried I'm too damaged to accept it. I only feel as worthwhile to people as my utility to them.
This comes and goes. I'm okay when I forget that there are other people out there that are having friendships and social lives and being loved in ways that I'm too broken and stunted and scarred to be worthy of.
Matthew Sullivan
>Also, within the past year I’ve had a breast-cancer scare and required surgery on my uterus due to a fertility issue. On top of that, I’m 35 and every gyno and women’s-health website this side of the Mississippi is telling me my fertility is dropping faster than a piano falling out of the sky. Now I’m looking into freezing my eggs, adding to my never-ending financial burden, in hopes of possibly making something of this haunted house and having a family someday with a no-named man.
>I feel like a ghost hmm that's how men feel every day.
Jack Allen
>My most hopeful and longest lasting relationship (three and a half years, Yeah shes a toasty roasty
Brody Green
She's 100% a roastie:
>And with men I date, I feel pressure to make something of the relationship too soon (move in, get married, “I have to have kids in a couple of years”; fun times!). All the while still trying to be the sexpot 25-year-old I thought I was until what seemed like a moment ago.
Ryder Bennett
>Men don't want to marry, they just want sex.
Oh how wrong you are. The women don't want to marry (and especially don't want to have kids), until they're 35 and it's way too late.
most of you sat in your rooms or will continue to sit in your room's so you can't really gloat
most of your memory's are from a level in a video game or playing a game no-one else plays anymore
she probably remembers getting dicked on a hot summers night, most of you remember playing blood gultch or some shit then make posts on why is time moving so fast
Pro tip: A flower that doesn’t get pollinated shrivels and dies without fulfilling its life purpose. She’s starting to droop low and the leaves and petals are getting dry and brittle. No amount of water will save her now. I’ll add this dying flower to my potpourri compilation.
This bitch writes walls of text not too infrequently. Of course you have whitekinghts coming out of the woodwork. Heres another one:
I have successfully isolated myself. I spent all of the Christmas holiday alone and will probably spend my birthday (new years) the same. This isn't a cry for help or a pity party, this is more a comment on how frustrated I am with my brain for it's faulty wiring. I have become increasingly insecure about the fact that I have such trouble relating to and connecting with other people. It's like there's synapses missing that would allow me to feel empathy and sympathy (likely trauma related) and I have trouble thinking beyond my own feelings. I miss social cues, often lack tact and decorum, and I'm prone to social faux pas that on occasion have been hard to live down. I too old to be so socioemotionally stunted. It's embarrassing. Among other reasons, this is a big part of I've just taken to isolation.
Camden Sanders
What should we do about the cool wine aunt problem?
Camden Fisher
Stormy?
James Taylor
Another victim of Cultural Marxism. She was not the first and will not be the last, not by a long shot.
Alexander Davis
Men don’t want to marry unskilled whores that don’t have family money. Leeches need not apply. Finding a wholesome woman without a mountain of debt in the city is impossible.
Elijah Kelly
Reciprocity
Joseph Long
At least Blood Gulch won't give you STDs.
Ryan Hill
Gotta say tho if you're in your young 20's and just looking to fuck, these crazy over-the-hill cougars are a better time than any young woman.
Chase Taylor
have a few beers around a camp fire, skys clear airs fresh, dusk hits exciting vibe in the air hook up with someone
better memory than that summer you spent all day inside, turning on the xbox memory is not going to be a comfort in your later years
It's my natural instinct to sympathize with her, but then I remember all the fucking resistance I got as teen and young adult growing up pushing for a traditional lifestyle, so fuck em. You didn't have the sense or spine to stand out then, so you pay now.
I wouldn't count on it. I have a acquaintance, pretty bright girl, not bad looking either. She waited till her 30s for her prince charming and had to settle for some balding manlet. But hey, she has a happy family now, so it's all good. But I imagine, most girls who wait that long won't drop their standards, so they're future is being alone.
Ryder Evans
>archive.is/gAFsO can anyone open this link? I am in uk and archive.is hasnt been working for months
I used to do shit like this all the time and it just made me feel empty. I did some soul searching and realized these ideals were (((placed))) into my mind through media and the school system. I am now a Jow Forums paleocon and I am getting Jow Forums while finishing school so I can get a wife.
Connor Myers
Bro I've fucked lots of girls. How do you think I know how terrible they are? Having worthless sex with some roastie is not something to be proud of.
Chase Wilson
a.fucking.cat.sweater no less what the fuck
Carson Allen
Yea all those hookups and shit sure are fond memories for the woman op quoted now arent they? Both are meaningless and empty and man have the kikes done a number on us.
Kayden Miller
Yup. It's fascinating how white women are so susceptible to this brainwashing. They knew exactly how to tap into their narcissism.
so women develop autism after 25 years on the cock carousel?
Kevin Sanchez
shit, that's dark. But I wouldn't blame the guy there.
Xavier Campbell
not what i'm getting at, If you had a family in your early 20's and settled you would hate it and wondered how it would be if you went travailing
Isaac Morgan
Yeah, well, let yourself be an example of the downside of using contraceptives.
Ethan Adams
of course she does have a happy family. He put a kid in her fast and she's happy. If the guy has a stable job and isn't a jackass, all a thinking woman need is a stable solid partner.
Jacob Ramirez
35 is not that old. Sorry you didn't heed the warnings, but there's nothing to be done about that, now. There's a guy out there that would love to be with you, and build a life with you. But you can't be some kind of "feminist" new-ager, or nobody's interested.
Lifelong relationships are always give and take. Maybe learn to give some shit up, shit that was never going to make you happy in the first place, and accept some traditional roles for the sake of someone else.
Or, you can live with cats the rest of your life. Cats are nice, my wife and I have 2 of them...two dogs, too.
And three kids.
Jason Ramirez
Yeah I'm currently sitting in (one of) my room(s). That I own, not rent from some (((landlord))). Make more money than most families. Own land as well. Will retire at 40 at this rate.
Yeah I think I'm much better off than Mrs tard there.
Benjamin Stewart
As much as I dislike advice columns and the retarded advice industry, I actually think there's a good bit of insight in this line. I think it makes more sense for men than it does for women.
>When you carry around a suspicion that there’s something sort of embarrassing or pathetic about you, you find ways to project that shame onto completely innocuous things. You find ways to tell yourself that everyone is laughing at you behind your back somewhere
A 35 year old childless woman who squandered her youth running around and not preparing for the future should feel shame. Especially now that she can see the error of her ways. She's back at the starting point well after her prime years, and she's only now just discovered the real objective - to be married, have kids, and have a home to care for. I recently lost a job, and I'm feeling pretty fucking bummed about it. I'm just starting the interview process again and I feel like a total fucking loser, and it's jacking up my self-confidence a lot. At least I have a wife and kid, though. I couldn't imagine being at this point without having something to show for myself.
Andrew Johnson
The problem is modern women are useless for everything but sex
Justin Hall
Tedt
Aaron Allen
Bring back the convent, I.M.O., user.
Leo Barnes
>Now I feel incredibly hollow. And foolish.
I just love all of these white women and these beta male christcucks self-destructing...I have a beautiful asian wife and three attractive children and a great career already. The kids are strong and fit and tough because I kept them away from the cancer that is semitic religions and taught them about their old gods and their history. My line will continue forever while European christfags and their trashy white women will turn to ash.
Happiest couple I know met in highschool and "explored" and had adventures together, then had kids. I think people like that are lucky as hell, that they had so much in their partner they don't feel like they were missing out. I have met exactly one woman in my life where I felt like I could settle with, but eventually found out she was a lying roastie whore. feels batman
Hudson Wood
No, but people humored her while she was still hot
Zachary Watson
>[roast beef sounds]
Christian Williams
oh fuck off i'm tired of all this black pill. The girl in question wanted to become a nun at some point. She's a really good girl and you're just jaded motherfucker.
Lucas Fisher
>black white cat Srsly what's up with those type of cats? I see them everywhere.
Christian Gonzalez
Race-mixing is race mixing. Your children will hate you and work to destroy our white race. Kalergi was half Jap half Euro and has caused the most suffering among Whites in a millennia.
You’re a faggot and a fool Even worse than the fattest, most slovenly and pathetic christcuck
>people who started a family in their 20s wish they had explored more to see whats out there You literally have your entire life to do that. My grandmother has seen more of the world after 65 than I have.
Have your kids young, when you have tons of energy and are on the upswing. Then your kids will be grown and self sufficient while you are middle-aged or just at retirement age.
Then you have 15-40 years to just do whatever the fuck you want with your life and be an active, exciting grandparent.
Levi Cox
This
Men don't peak until their 50's, woman peak arguably at 25, 30 is pushing it. Any young guys reading this, time is generous for you to get your shit together, it's never too late.
Adam Williams
lmao look at this pussy whipped homo. you kiss tyrone too after he rims your wife faggot?
I had an ex like this. >we both have good jobs in early 20's >its not good enough for her. >wants to move to California >she seems to think it's literally paradise and shes going to make millions >she thinks she landed her dream job in the fashion industry >I try to talk her out of making a poor decision >she knows better than me >user I want you to come with me but if not, I will not let you ruin my dreams >k. Bye. >6 months later she tries getting back with me >the dream job ended up being having to get important people pumpkin spice lattes that care so little about her they can't even be bothered to learn her name >I've moved on Anonette >she cries >I hang up >fast forward years later >i bump into her at a cafe >I'm with my wife and 1 year old boy >she was super fit and quite attractive when we were together >now shes 31 and still somewhat attractive but starting to get pudgy and you can see it wont be long before she hits the wall completely >wife offers to let us talk alone as she sees ex visibly upset. >she takes my giggling son and heads to the car and I see her smiling and tickling him as she puts him in the car seat and they're both laughing and giggling >feelsgoodman.jpg >ask anonette how things are going >I can see shes trying not to cry. >she says she can't seem to find her place and can't seem to find a decent man >shes used to Chad's now she has to settle for Brad >she can't seem to understand what went wrong in her life and why she isn't in my spot (married with kids) >I tell her that I tried explaining this to her when she left. >still can't seem to understand >I wish her good luck and tell her my wife is waiting for me >she starts wiping tears away from her eyes
It kind of pissed me off that she tried to unload that on me because she knew damn well I was upset about her choosing a job over me and the conversation was all around how her life is fucked and didnt even bother to acknowledge all the shit she put me through.
Ryan Perry
I kind of agree with this guy. I’ve been with and had a lot of married women think that I’m just going to swoop in and rescue them from their dull boring life because the got married and had a family early.
Brayden Rogers
That only applies to those that have fallen prey to jewish media. A normal mind without degenerate influence doesnt idolize pointless travel and fucking any disgusting hole that will have you.
Ethan Scott
My sister(36) was banging 20 somethings for years She has herpes GL
Lincoln Walker
veal is tasty
Ryder Morris
If you're having random sex and not wrapping it up I don't know what to tell you.
They still fuck like literal cougars though and will do the shit you thought was only in your Japanese cartoons.
Jaxson Howard
i feel bad for cat ladies and cool wine aunts past their prime, i really do. but their immense debt, jaded mind and fading looks leave nothing to be redeemed
Dylan Thompson
This. Get out and make some children faggots. Don't just laugh. Make the roasty even more envious and suicidal by procreation. Niggers do it all the time, it's not hard.
Levi Sanchez
As a man, you don't feel the same pressure women do. Men can be total fuck-ups into their fifties and turn it around in two years. Women have a short span of time to make something of themselves but very few grasp how quickly their prime is over.
Gavin Allen
>Srsly what's up with those type of cats? I see them everywhere. Uh, huh? They've been around since forever. I have one, my daughter brought him home from a local farm.
I remember an article where a bunch of nogs beat a black and white cat nearly to death, caved in half its head and popped one of its eyes, so it had to be removed, just because its coloring gave it the appearance of having a Hitler mustache.
William Wood
tldr
Juan Johnson
Yeah, semi good looking women can bang young guys while being way into their 40s. But having a relationship with a decent guy is something completely different. And it's weird so many women do that. I could understand some lone wolf, who doesn't need no one and just wants to bang (tho the life awaiting him will become pretty sad too at some point), but women, who are seemingly less sex oriented and usually find their purpose in raising kids - I don't get it why would they waste their time on cock carousel instead of building a family.
Thomas Phillips
Roastie hate bread.
Luke Edwards
>Get out and make some children
NOT UNTIL LEFTISTS ARE DEAD OR GONE.
Adrian Morgan
Oy vay!!
Carter Parker
>i feel bad for cat ladies and cool wine aunts past their prime
You really shouldn't. They treated men like shit while they were younger. Life has a way of balancing everything out.
She doesn't mention the 20+ decent guys that wanted to marry her but she turned them down for not being Chad. Never feel sorry for the eternal roastie that ends up alone >well yeah the first 25 years of my life were spent being surrounded by suitors but none of them were Chad so I unfortunately had to turn them down >wow I just can't find anyone, life is so lonely...
