Zero motivation after losing everything

My business crumbled and I lost all my money. I only have $200 left. I stay inside all day. Eat candy. Watch entertainment online. I'm in debt up to my eyeballs. Calls every day from creditors that want their money. Its been like this for months. I feel like I hit rock bottom. I can't work anymore. I have to set an timer for 1 hour to try to get things done, I can't even work for more than 1 hour and that drains the energy out of me. I've tried every discipline and motivational technique I could think of. Nothing works. I legitimately cannot work anymore. I try to sit down and get work done but I just get anxious and start freaking out. Half of me wants to keep going and the other half just don't care anymore about anything, about losing anymore money, about filing bankruptcy, about wasting more time. I stopped caring about self improvement and challenging myself and instead just want to be comfortable and sit in my room all day. I feel like I might be depressed, I don't know though. I say things to myself like I'm a bad entrepreneur. I wake up in the middle of the night anxious about the money I owe. I feel embarrassed about getting to this point. I feel disappointed in myself and I feel like a disappointment to my family. I don't feel like myself anymore. I wasn't like this before. The old me would have said to toughen up. But I've changed, I just don't care anymore. I just want to get back to the old me, the person who could get work done and build a business and was motivated and disciplined. What do I do? How do I get my motivation and discipline back. Please give me advice.

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I'm sorry this happened to you user. You are not the first failed business, certainly not the last. You tried however, which is very commendable. Besides, lots of people have many failures before a resounding success. I get that some of these people have money to fall back on, and you do not.

I think you know the answers to your questions. Right now you are venting, and from the sound of it, wallowing in your despair, but you know that this won't help you. Time to accept the reality of the situation and do what must be done.

There is no reason to feel disappointed or embarrassed. After all, you can treat this like a learning situation, and move forward smarter and stronger. Get your head straight, and get a job to help you deal with the stress and feedback loop of sitting around doing nothing, and also obviously get money to deal with the financial issues.

Best of luck dude.

I was where you're at about three years ago. Have you ever been described or diagnosed as bipolar?

The worst thing holding me back is the feedback loop like you mentioned. I don't know how to stop.

I haven't, what makes you say I might be bipolar?

Wasn't a statement, more of a probative question. What you described, (setting out to create a business from scratch, feeling inspired, blowing it, spinning wheels, crumbling under the stress, sitting on ass twitching with fear and trying to distract from it with garbage food and entertainment), exactly describes the manic episode and subsequent depression that I experienced three years ago.

For me, I had to fail completely, move back in with family at 27, commit bankruptcy, and go back to a 9-5 job. I won't say there's no shame in it, but the healing starts when you embrace it, as faggy as that sounds.

Interested, I didn't know that. I believe I have OCD but never was officially diagnosed so I'd say it is possible I'm bipolar.

How do I embrace the failure?

You stop the feedback loop by doing something differently. Anything. Start with small things, and work your way up. Small successes lead to bigger successes.

Keep moving forward.

I mean, personally, I had to create a series of litanies to shatter any vestiges of self-esteem that remained to me and spend about 3 months sleeping 16 hours a day on my Grandma's couch and sucking down 5k calories/day of cereal and other trash. After my absolute contempt for myself was fully solidified, they made me go see a psych doctor, so I had to apply for Medicaid. Medicaid made me apply for unemployment, (which I got), then unemployment made me apply for work, (which I got in spite of not trying to).

I still hate myself, but I shed about 35k in consumer debt via bankruptcy and have become financially and psychologically stable.

so see an occupational therapist and start building a support network

What successes do you owe to your self-improvement? Would your younger self (before self improvement) have been able to deal with this situation as long as you did?
A risk is what is it - you can fail. You failed, but you failed honorably. You didn't commit a crime, there is no shame in what you did.
What you need to do now is to convince yourself that you can handle this situation, step by step. Other people cannot do this for you.
Imagine you can solve this situation and get your life back on track - do you believe you can do it? What would the past, motivated 'you' say to you now?
You are still you. If you had that motivation once, it can come back. If you really want it and if you believe it and if you are honest with yourself, it WILL come back. The longest journey starts with a single step, to climb a mountain you have to start at the bottom.
I've been in that situation myself, what helped me was to identify the root of the problem and tackle it. Fixing this meant suffering for me and it will mean suffering for you. However, there lies a great chance in that suffering - growth.
Real self improvement is not about the fights we choose to fight, it's about the fights we don't want to fight but win anyway.

Opportunities are brilliantly disguised as impossible situations. I read that on the internet, but from my own experience this is absolutely true.