Be me

>be me
>18 year old baby faced autistic bartender
>nightclub that I work at has 3 floors
>walking from top to middle floor with people’s coats because we’re closing and we need to close the place up
> 40 year old drunk guy shoves past people swearing and pushes past me (this guy does mma)
>grab him at the middle of the stairs and tell him he needs to get out and treat people with respect
>guy grabs me and says he’ll knock me out and spits in my face
>he’s drunk, there’s 9 wet stairs below him and a solid wooden floor and concrete wall
>adrenaline pumping and fists clench, wanted to kill him, I’ve always wanted to hurt someone like this
>see a bouncer up the stairs and 6 people below me, too many witnesses
>tap him in the face and call him a degenerate
>bouncer grabs him and kicks him out
>go upstairs and tell bros/work mates
>all gang up and run outside to find guy because we’re all about to kill someone
>mate whispers in the degenerate’s ear and threatens him if he doesn’t apologise
>go to him, he apologises and says I grabbed him too agressively and keeps on apologising, says he’s made an idiot of him self.
>Could have gained street cred if knocked him out and killed him
>people do shit like this to me all the time and I try and avoid conflict but would love to murder them
>People saying I should have thrown him down the stairs
>Conflicted thoughts on whether to be in Zen mode or to accept violence

What shoud I have done? Why do I feel like I should have hurt him? Was I right to keep calm? How much trouble would I have been in if I hurt him? I wanted to use excessive force, do I need help?

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Just think if you had thrown him down the stairs, you could possibly be facing a manslaughter charge and time in jail. Would you feel your choice was justified? Killing someone because of some verbal slight against your person is not an appropriate response.

If you feel this way often, you probably need to talk to a professional about it. Maybe don't mention the desire to murder people, just anger management.

You did the right thing by going to the bouncer

that is his job to tell him to leave

you’re right the punishment doesn’t fit the crime, all the bouncers and mates were telling me he’s a scumbag.

All my mates were saying i should have done something or I should do something. Just to fuck with his life just a little bit would be nice desu, not get caught doing it and that’d be even better.

Yeah, kinda sucks though because people think I’m a pussy for not doing anything. The problem is I don’t think I have anything to stop me from hurting someone but thinking about consequences. I don’t know whether I feel guilt, i don’t know and I want to find out but i also don’t want to be on the system as a sociopath or autistic

>18 year old baby faced autistic bartender

Your tip must be rather low then

Now, what your mates meant (probably jockingly) was to ''beat his ass and show him a lesson'', which you didn't and it was actually your smartest choice. Don't get influenced by other peoples actions you dumbass, you're gonna get fired, or worst, end up in jail. Ignore whatever insult they throw at you, you did the right thing there

If your really desperate to beat someone's ass hit the gym and look for MMA training classes. Good luck fitting that into your working/studying squechdule

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We get a lot of scum bags with low income because of the music we play and tipping isn’t done here like in the US or other places but if they’re relatively wealthy then tips are common but most people are in debt, just assholes or scrounging for change.

I don’t want to beat someone’s ass, I honestly want to end their lives, I have no empathy for their lives or who they might be or what family they have. fighting clubs are too tame and it’s I’ve been thinking about joining the army but I’m in awkward situation. I sound like an edgy twat but honestly I fucking hate a lot of people.

I don’t study and I only work 3-4 days, 12 hour shifts a week so it’d be possible to do something like that I guess. I dropped out of school and left my family at 16 because I couldn’t stand them. I got a job and moved in where I work and now I’m just messing about with my life because I honestly don’t care what I do with it just as long as I can do what I enjoy. It’s just it’s making me hate specific people and taking them out of this world would be thoroughly enjoyable.

Just put cyanide into the drinks of one of these low life gangsters, if you know one of them owes money or is in some other serious shit then you can pretty much guarantee that no one is going to expect the fucking pussy ass teenage bartender of murder. If you're actually a sociopath then lying to the police upon questioning shouldn't be hard anyways.

accept violence.
survival of the fittest is still carved in our dna, so go with it if you can get away with it, it'll make you feel better than ever in your life.

Based

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that would be incredibly satisfying but I don’t know how to make it and murder is a very difficult crime to commit if you’re not rich or connected here, it’s an island (oof the hints to my identity)

Although child fucking, child pornography and rape is completely achievable and under the radar of the police here, well i’m just assuming because I’ve seen a small glimpse of the shit that goes down in this place and the crime rate is low on paper and in the view of the public but it just doesn’t seem right

omg

>_>

tell me the place

now

if I could have gotten away with it, I would have but all these types of encounters involve witnesses and cctv

We don’t know each other do we?

Dont get too caught up with the criminals you hang around. You sound like a hypocrite legit contemplating murder and calling others degenerates.

we’re all hypocrites and we’re all degenerates, he thought he was above me so I had to tell him the truth

no

i mean you are talking about a different country right?

We're Live

you’re not wrong, I am getting caught up and worrying about other people’s shit, idk man, I’m so conflicted atm and so lost.

I was joking but yeah I’m talking about an Island off the coast of France but owned by her majesty the queen of england

Thanks anons, I needed to blow off some steam and rant stupid shit even if it was cringey and me being an attention seeking whore.

Cyanide and Ricin are very easy to make , I thinks they're both included in the Anarchists cookbook which you can find a PDF of floating around.

thanks haha used to have it on a usb drive, the ac 2000 or something but that got stolen at school... Had all kinds of weird shit on it like from minecraft to terrorist propaganda

You did the right thing, pushing down the stairs would have been a cowards move. Keeping your cool would have give you street cred, however murdering someone absolutely not.

>18 year old bartender
>sells a product he can't legally buy

What the hell?

Dude do not put your hands on people, drunk or not unless you are prepared for it to escalate and you are capable (experienced, trained) of controlling the outcome.

If you are in a professional situation such as working somewhere, you are responsible for the safety of the 'guests'. He was drunk, yeah so fucking what? You've an onus of responsibility as the person who doesn't have a diminished capacity in that situation.

Like if you are security, door staff, whatever you've sometimes got to put people on the floor, restrain them, remove them, whatever. But you do it knowing that you've the experience and ability to safely deal with a situation that might escalate where you have the sober uncompromised judgement.

You shouldn't work somewhere where you feel you can hurt drunk people because they are physically or mentally incapacitated. These people come to these places to have fun, to get drunk, to maybe get a little loose and wild and the staff have to look after them. Even if that means getting physical from time to time that needs to be done in a safe and respectful manner by people who understand the drunk people have impaired judgement. That is just how it goes.

It sounds like you've got a lot of insecurity and feel that by 'besting' drunk older people you'll somehow gain reputation and value. Whatever man, you sound insecure. Do you know what I'd value? Somebody who is reliable, keeps their cool, doesn't let their insecurities spill out and hurt others, somebody who doesn't invite legal problems, drama, lawsuits. But if and when they need to put hands on somebody, have the physical ability, experience and training to be able to resolve is calmly, safely and professionally.

18 is legal in UK you dense bastard

They don't think you're a pussy for not doing it - if they were in the same position they wouldn't do it either.
Some people just like dinner and a show. They love the drama or any reason to pull out the cell phone and record.
Fuck them

I live and work in the same place so technically it’s my home too, someone comes to my house, my work and I serve them drinks, give them music and they can’t keep their cool when they’re drunk and just have a good time like the rest of them? The guy’s an asshole, he’s done so much shit to all our staff in the past according to the bouncers. He should be bbbanned and treated like how he treats others.

I was prepared, I saw a bouncer to my right and if things escalted then the bouncer could deal with him, usually well mannered people don’t spit in other people’s faces. I grabbed him on the shoulder and asked what he was doing. I don’t wanna hurt people who don’t deserve it or just because they’re drunk. You think people drinking and becoming violent is acceptable? For them “letting loose” on other people and having to be restrained? I did keep my cool, I said I wanted to push him down the stairs for being an asshole.

understood

shoulda got down on your knees and give him the succ. it's probably what you did and then you came up with this story to recover your broken ego. is allright man, you'll be fine.

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I did get turned on when he spat in my face, wish I did give him the succ desu

The hard man from Leicestershire

If you're going to kill someone make sure you aren't out to murder a drunk person of all people, user. If they drunkly confesd to you about having raped a women or some truly degenerate shit like that. Murder the fuck out of them. You'll be praised as a hero.

You should not of grabbed him. It is frustrating but you just tell the bouncer and let him deal with it. You could of gotten in a lot of trouble no matter how much that drunk bastard deserved to be layed out.