GIOYC / Get It Off Your Chest

Happy or sad I don't know yet.

It does feel New though I can dig it

Please, keep your gf, don't risk anything.

What the FUCK

This really sucks, and I actually cried reading that. I'd say I hope you're okay, but I know you're not. I hope your luck turns for the better.

Now That's fucked up. Stay strong.

sorry to turn this into some shallow political thing but I feel like I'm actually doing something important by saying this, because people don't seem to know.

disabled people are overwhelmingly more likely to be in domestic violence or abuse situations. disabled men it's like the same rate as abledbodied women, disabled women it's like...4-5x more? we're often easy to beat on, don't have our own money, people get resentful, and it's hard for us to escape

I have an ex-gf from 10 years ago, who seems to have recently divorced. Should I see her or stay away?

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and thank you.

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I have tears in my eyes I'm so sorry

Lol that's awesome.

I told a girl on Thursday that I love her and then we met up on Friday again to have a good time. But then I got a message from her where she asked If I was just joking on Thursday(obviously no). I feel really shit right now.

I'm sorry. I'm a DV survivor myself and have some health issues I'm still dealing with because of it but aside from that I'm healthy thankfully.
I have a young special needs child from the relationship that I'm raising on my own and he's probably the reason I'm doing so well now. He helps get me out of any depression I was going through with it I think.
Hang in there please. I know it can be difficult. I couldn't imagine with the added health concerns though but I want to say look into a really good probiotic because they are finding that gut health has a direction connection with mental health and it can help with healing from PTSD.
I've been on some really good ones myself and it's only been this year since I left my abuser. I cansleep peacefully at night, which I couldn't do before and the anxiety is gone!
Try meditating or prayer also. Spirituality has helped me out as well. Believing that there is more to life than being a clump of cells living on a rock spinning in space can be beneficial too.
Take care life warrior. Sending hugs and light and love.

I'm not going back on the shelf.
I don't care what it costs me. I don't ever want to experience regret from hesitation again.

It's crystal clear that you want him, not me.

I don't know why I keep loving you.

Why did you give me your bfs number instead of yours? Especially after you told me you get jealous of other women? That was kinda awkward. I just want to be your friend, I dont want no trouble.

I have shitty self-esteem and I think I'm a loser.

My boyfriend lives across the country for a job and I’m stuck at home being abused by my parents non stop. I’m stuck in school getting my masters and I’m applying for phd in the same school and i don’t know if i should drop out for my safety and move in with my boyfriend and every day i ugly cry about it

do it

plz

let there be a happy ending here- for once

Fuck you why didn't you just tell me that you dick. Infatuation gone.

How can you just let me go so easily? Now that I've cleaned up my life and have made some major changes, you want nothing to do with me. Do you now how much it hurts a girl to know that she was given up on? Granted it took you awhile to completely quit talking to me, you let us go a long time ago. I've accepted that you won't ever give me another chance but I can't comprehend how you could just cut me off like I wasn't important in your life. You and I had a special bond that is indescribable, how does one just ignore those feelings? I would do anything just to have you in my life even as an acquaintance. I miss you and him. I often think about you 2 and it brings me to tears. You are still the last person I've had sex with, I just can't move on with anyone else. I don't want too either...it gives me an ugly feeling in my tummy. You still have my heart and I just wish you'd give it back. I can't help but think I'm not good enough and that kills me on the inside. No one knows how much I'm hurting and if no one cares either. I miss the days you cared.

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interactions and attachment are two different things. you can have as many interactions as you want, you’ll still feel lonely as long as you don’t create bonds. a bond is not getting together to smoke and watch youtube videos, or sending memes occasionally. that’s the social equivalent of mcdonalds. if you want to feel less lonely, you’ll have to create actual bonds and attachments.

>Probably gonna an hero in a year
Well, just try to find God in the meantime I guess. He does forgive you for these things btw

I feel you become colder. I’m so sad but I knew it was coming. I was too happy, it couldn’t last. I wish you’d talk to me about things. I hope you’re okay, I’m worried that you’re got through something.

Idk if I should stop going to church or not. I have nowhere else to go but I think church people are very toxic. I'm afraid of being alone but I feel like I don't fit in any other group of people in real life.

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What about a local new age shop? It's spiritual but not religious and they have meditation circles and groups and stuff. Idk? Give it a try

That would be neat but I doubt we have something like that in my area. I'm not quite sure how to look for something like that either.

"Spiritual but not religious" hippy types can be just as toxic and unforgivingly conformist as ultra-Christians.

I've met people like that and known people who have gone on that path, and it's almost inevitable they'll become judgy about anyone who disagrees with them on anything having a bad aura, bad vibes, etc.

A lot of people like that are also very into drugs, beyond soft stuff like weed. Might sound easy to resist but the peer pressure is pretty heavy in those circles, which leads to a lot of people thrown on a trip they aren't ready for.

This is true. Extremists on any side are toxic.

I was raised in almost a cult type environment of a religion. Left it in my teens. Didn't believe in anything.

Couple extreme life events happened and BAM. I was faced with an inner turmoil. What did I believe? If anything?

I searched a lot. Other religions. Studied science. Spoke with a lot of people. Went to different churches. Tried different practices.

Ironically I ended up back where I started from, but I have a collection of personal beliefs that work for me.

I can only speak from experience and my truth. I don't look to force anyone else to believe it because that's silly. When you have true faith, you don't need anyone to agree with you. If you aren't certain, then you tend to fight others about what is "right" or "wrong".

You can try meet up dot com. It lists group interests in your area.

Hopefully you can meet with others who can help.

After being fat in middle school and most oh high school, getting fit and eating better was one of the best choices I made. But it still sucks that you think i'm too skinny and date literal fat guys.

I finally get with a girl at uni, only to find out that a) she’s my mate’s ex, b) said mate was standing right next to us at the time, and c) she’s apparently a complete psycho who was only doing it to get back at him.

Also, when am I gonna find a girl that isn’t way out of my league, ‘seeing someone’ (god I hate that phrase), or a dyke?

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I just want to say I hate niggers so fucking much more than I thought

Am I a bad person for being happy that I'm single? Everytime I think about the pros and cons of getting hitched, I realize that it's much easier and more fun to live alone.
No one to think about, no children to raise, no need to support anyone besides yourself.

Yep, who says you can't live the bachelor life for life?

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Not really a bad person, but the need for attachments is a real psychological need. Like, if someone said they didn’t feel hungry and didn’t plan on eating, that’s their choice to eat or not but they’ll probably eventually feel hungry. Eventually, once the rest of your more immediate needs are fulfilled, you’ll start feeling the need for attachment - aka that deep loneliness. If you only start worrying about that need too late, then you’ll have a hard time. It’s perfectly valid to disregard this, but eventually you’ll feel hungry. So it doesn’t make you evil, but it does seem like more immediate concerns are setting you up for failure. Maybe explore why aren’t you feeling that need? It’s usually due to traumatic experiences or depression.

Basically, you are just being your own person, without any entitlement or expectations that you need to conform to what society wants.

There are people who will judge you as selfish for that but they are assholes.

I understand that logic. Only thing is, I'd rather cater to my immediate needs than have to put in the effort needed to live with someone else or get a relationship. Basically, I'm lazy and I find it would be much easier to live for myself than to live for others.

Perhaps one day though that craving you talk about will outweigh my laziness. Maybe.

I wish every woman in my life didn't seem to worship me taking shits and possibly my actual shit. I can't take a shit without my gf insisting on a) being nearby, b) talking to me/trying to have a conversation, c) rushing into the bathroom seemingly for no reason after I'm done. My current gf does this and my previous 2 did as well. Women at work do this too. I work at a firm that is involved in markets so I basically take a shit before the opening bell. That is EXACTLY the time I'm suddenly needed for something important. It's like these chicks are trying to "catch" me taking a shit, like the contents of my ass are some sort of conspiracy. I've taken to calling my current gf toilet inspector.

This is true but rejection hurts worse than loneliness in any type of relationship. Some choose not to make the effort even though they would like to.

Better to know this now about urself before having a kid and then deciding it, like my ex.

enjoy fucking a girl that's been pregnant 8 fucking times because i'm sure as fuck not.

>have autism
>literal autism, mild, but it's official diagnosis
>try to do something good such as asking if something is wrong and offering my help when I see familiar girl sad
>end up wording myself oddly or just otherwise acting like an autist
>she gets upset and accuses me of prying into her private life that's none of my business
>I get really scared and confused
>scared because she got angry, confused because I thought I was doing right but her reaction says other
>walk back home holding tears
>never talk to her again because I'm too scared and ashamed of existing, and we used to chitchat or at least greet every single day
>years later still feel bad about it and I still don't understand what I did was wrong
>feel like subhuman scum for attempting to do something I've seen regular people do
>haven't talked to girls ever since because I'm afraid

What can I do to clean my conscience?

A couple of years ago, when I was 23/24, I posted some negative comments on another Jow Forums board about two young writers who were somewhat popular at the time. I accept that I did this partly out of envy and frustration with my circumstances at the time (working long hours in a job I hated etc). About the debut book of one writer I posted that it was "extremely mediocre" and I also, along with other anons, posted hurtful things about another writer.

Since there is an archive of all posts on that board, some of which appear on google, I am afraid that they have each seen my negative posts and been hurt by them. The second writer is doing pretty well as far as I can tell, with two new books out which appear to be selling very well. But I don't know how the other guy is doing, and I'm just beating myself up daily over the fact that I may have contributed to any negativity in his life (writers don't typically earn a lot, etc).

I have bought their books on Amazon as a small way of supporting them, and also sent an email via an alternative email account to the second writer saying I enjoy his books and hope he keeps writing. The only way of removing the posts from the archive itself as far as I can tell is by paying the DMCA company which is linked to it, but they seem pretty shady and want over $100 to remove them.

Any advice? Every day I am racked with guilt over these negative comments, and I refuse to allow myself any pleasure or to "move forward" in my life without properly addressing and attempting to make up for my behaviour.

Is it wrong to stop hanging out with certain people (friends-ish) because they talk too often about political and social ideas I disagree with? I know I'm supposed to be open minded and respectful but is there a limit to how much you should tolerate before you decide to cut contact?

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Why are you trying to find a group? Groups lead to labels and labels lead to perpetual conflict. It's the subtle religious/spiritual oneupmanship that pervades every belief system which makes it necessary to take what you need from that belief system and not get stuck on the revolving rat-wheel of it or ascribe to their label. You're going about your discovery of the world and its functions the right way.

Your gentle demeanor, ability to remain open to input and your intuitive nature of letting things be instead of forcing them are signs of a well developed mind. If you're looking to join a group of people like yourself you won't find it. You may find pieces or parts of what you're looking for but you won't find a group like that because people who operate like you know, consciously or subconsciously, that rigid, top-down, hierarchical group structures are antagonistic to the natural way of things and will not partake in them for this reason.

Stay on the path user, I don't know your personal belief system but I'm sure you're building a genuine foundation that will eventually lead you to a point where you will no longer feel the need to find a group or label for yourself.

I have a friend that is a total commie degenerate but I'm still friends with him because we keep politics and social ideas to a minimum.
If they're not respecting that though, it might be best just to ask them to stop.

Almost there.

I should've waited until you divorced her completely to be with you. You put her first every single time she's around and I feel like your side piece. I know you have to be there for now but the words you tell me and your actions just don't match up. I'm so in love with you but I hate this situation and what it's doing to me.

My heart knows the truth & you're all on your own now. Stay away or I will bring the authorities into this. You have been warned.

Stupid fucking niggers!!!

Nah that's totally fine. It's not bad or good it's just one of the things that makes you the way you are. Just because it runs counter to what most people do doesn't make your preference any less valid

urgh, at least the time away means it's not as bad as it was, but god i still like him. I'm utterly fucked.

All I can do is smile when I'm around you. You render me useless. Just let me hold you

Let me make this clear - I will never have feelings for you again. EVER. Now fuck off.

Ive gained 100 pounds in 2 years, not worked the entire time, and am worthless now. I was much MUCH better off on heroin.

You really have no idea how much you've fucked up yet. You're going to get burned.

Stay away from my husband you pathetic cock bearded STD factory. You are a side piece.

thanks B

I've been dissociating when things get bad for the past year now. I can manage my workload for about a week before the stress becomes too much and I 'shut down'. I don't feel real and I used a lighter to burn part of my leg last night to see how it would feel. I only did it for a second so it wouldn't set off the smoke alarm but it felt kind of nice. I think I need help.

>19

ayyy

The conspiracy part of it is what makes it SEEM true. There would be a reason to cover it up.

And I swear to god if it turns out I could have looked like her my entire life I will fucking kill every single fucking one of you for taking that from me.

Feel like a normie having a crush on a girl after like 8 years. But I have to push down my feelings for her and hope it goes away.

been saying that for years now.

I hate all of you, I really really do. I can't believe how many of you completely overlooked the crimes your little group of people have committed.

You are the bad guys. You really are. How the fuck do any of you live with yourselves?

My fiance get her nipples pierced and now every time I look at her tits I get massively turned off

Get in line.

I don't blame you bruh

I don't miss you, I miss being in love.

I'm not looking for a group friend. I was replying to OP who was looking and I suggested new age spirituality as opposed to religion. Then you commented on how that's not the best idea and then I replied.

I just returned to my roots this year because I needed the support in what I'm going through and have a young son that I want to give a foundation to.

My ex made me super insecure about my vagina.

Insisted to go down on me on my period when I asked him not to but he begged, and after that he made fun of my vagina for smelling and tasting funky (no fucking shit I was on my period and asked you not to). I asked him to stop talking about it, but he mentioned it frequently, and he probably didn't go down on me more than 5 times in our relationship.

Always talking about something relating my pussy when he went down on me anyways, like my shaved pubes being prickly against his skin, or that my vagina is darker than the rest of my body.

Like boy I suck dick all the time, I don't comment on your dick unless it's actually fucking dirty. Guess I'll never get to enjoy the favor being returned now though so that's cool.

I took Ayahuasca and covered myself in poop. I smeared it on the walls, All over my body (face, chest, hair, mouth), ground it into the carpet, and rolled around on the bed. I was alone so I guess I just went full insane, I remember thinking how it felt warm and good to play with, and that the bad smells were from everything else except the poop. My wife came home as my trip was coming to an end and she gathered some clothes, and left. That was over a year ago, she still won't talk to me. I still have a closet full of her clothes.

I'm afraid that meeting you in person might disappoint me.

I was in a relationship with a girl for three years who emotionally manipulated and physically assault me on a regular basis, taking herself off to the local train station and literally getting on the tracks just because we argued and would cut herself if I were to see my friends, all of which i were seeing were male may I add. This being the girl I lost my virginity to I stayed with her, through everything even when she turned my own mother against me while she scratched and hit me behind closed doors, now sure these actions aren't devastating or that bad but explaining cuts on your face and being on the receiving end on a daily basis was tiring. Then one day while I was at work providing for us both since she didn't work she accused me of not giving her a kiss before leaving in the morning. From that little thing she then left the house while I was at work, went to her sisters, then ended the three year shitshow over the phone hours later before then going on to string me along for months after. Since I left for work that morning I never saw her again, ever. Its nearly 3 year since she left now and my trust for people is forever questioned. Ive definitely moved on since this but regardless of all this I still want to know why. The question eats me away most days.

Imagine someone painting a sunset over a window.
You're getting ready to peel that paint away. Don't discount what you see, just because it has a cloud formation that differs from what was in the picture.

I'm gonna fly today to meet my long distance boyfriend for the first time of my life and I'm smuggling drugs in my vagina through security. Also I paid for the flight with a stolen credit card and I've committed tax fraud and earlier today got a message from an unknown number saying they reported me to the cops for it. I'm both happy and scared.
What the fuck is my life.

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whats drugs and how much?

Mental illness, she's not in control of her nasty hurtful behaviour

Are you a cop?
Please don't take those two xtc pills out of my coochie, I need to cuddle with my bf while rolling.

Oh dear.

My girl used to hold all the heroin in her pussy, so I feel that. If you're flying, dont wrap that shit up noticeably, they can easy see that shit through the X-rays

Your parents aren't even in town, right? Why are you taking so long at their place?

I wish I could fully trust you. All I can think of is that you're getting dicked by someone you met on a dating app. I'm sure you still use them in secrecy.

Then beat that bitch. Last time my wife TOLD me I didn't need to pick her up from work (she got a DUI so i have to drive her everywhere) because she was gona go to her friends first then come home, I literally beat her unconscious. I told her she doesn't tell me anything, she ASK me, and the answer was no. It probably was a girl's house she was going to, but then again maybe not. No matter how belovolant the shit sounds, you gotta keep them in check. Or have them get dicked down like a cuck, your call bro.

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I've been friends with a girl for about a year slowly building up the courage to ask her out when suddenly she came out as ftm and wants to be a boy but im still attracted to "her". What the fuck do I even do?

Been through this fucking shit myself, bro. Honestly do yourself a huge favour and leave her, move on, before your mental health gets fucked up.

if you are my girl then i am cool with that

I am working all week though 72 hours for some international 'nice boat'

I can sneak you in if you want and we can make a game out of it

I am broke af right now until my paycheck too so we living with the senpai

Cool with me if cool with you

I need cuddles and I'd love for my first molly experience to be with u

if they mention this further I will put a hammer in the kids head.

i'm being literally tortured by everyone I have ever known and trusted.

All things considered, I could be a lot more hurtful and be completely valid.

I was confident, overly confident till about age 20. My relatives got diagnosed with autism, my mother talked to me about it and I recognized a lot in my self. I became obsessed with psychology and noticed so many flaws in myself.
I crushed my confidence. I second guess everything and constantly think of all the implications, trying to make the best communication possible without making mistakes.

It still leads to conflicts, and it keeps me up at night. I rather just go back to being overly confident and an asshole since a healthy middleground does not seem possible.

How do I break out of this

I'm so angry I wasted a 4 day weekend traveling three hours to a bed and breakfast to celebrate a 4 year anniversary with the wife that neither one of us seemed to care too much about. We are fighting constantly and it feels like I can do nothing right. Sex is boring and feels "scheduled" once a week on the weekend. With her being pregnant and her libido at an all time low, thats slowing down to sex every two weeks. There's no more passion in our relationship and she's not fun to hang around anymore. All she does is complain. Deep down I love her, but at the moment I wish I was single. I'm terrified this is going to be the permanete state of our marriage.

well time to clean up a bit I guess

even though this is probably 99% a LARP

worth using it as an excuse to leave this place til I get real work done.

Good Luck Guys!

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