How do I move on after finding out I was the side girl all along?
>nerdy ex from last year hits me up this summer
>like an idiot, I respond
>we start dating again, fall in love
>start talking about moving in since we're poor uni kids
>he holds my hand and tells me he loves me, wants to be with me until he dies
>turns out he's been dating another girl for the last two years
>yesterday, after our coffee date where he played with my hands and repeatedly said he loved me, and put his head on my shoulder so I can stroke his hair, he went straight to her place
>tfw I was made a side girl twice by the same guy
It hurts so much, you guys. I haven't eaten, slept, or gotten out of bed in two days. All I do is cry and sleep. I always had a fear of commitment, and it took me a long time to finally trust someone enough to date them. Now, I'm worse than when I started
I only dated him because I thought he was safe. He was a short, scrawny weeb kid studying CS, who's hobby was making video games. He was an awkward robot, just like me.
So why do something so manipulative and cruel? Why tell someone you love them, and then lie to their face right after?