GIOYC / Get It Off Your Chest

>tfw catching feelings for my practice bf

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I'm 90% sure I saw one of me highschool friends on the bus stop today. Something I was hoping for to happen for quite some time. The moment I did, I had all the possible scenarios of our conversation run in me head, to the point of successful restarting our friendship and whatnot.
The thing is, I didn't even leave the bus.
I want off this shit ride.

I have an obnoxious head cold but I'm expexted to show up for breakfast in 3 hours. Can't reschedule cause they will no longer be in town after. Time to act like an adult I suppose.

This is harder than I anticipated. I'm too old to still be browsing the chans.

how old are you senpai

idk man, i wish i don't have issues that makes me extremely unapproachable and shitty to everyone else. people kept telling me i'm not as bad as i thought, i called bs on them, ad infinitum.
being a good person is so scary, it's more than a compliment. it's a responsibility to uphold for your life and i just can't do that.
feels like being dead would solve all of those issues, but i still have family and friends to look after.

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I feel like a sociopath.
I used to be so empathetic but lately I've been hating people over their smallest flaws and I enjoy abusing them. I feel so irritable, people irritates me so much that I often fantasize about violently attacking them or murder them, like an compulsive thought. I hope it's a phase, it feels so bad being like this.
I can't be at rest.

This isn't a phase and unless you seek professional help it won't go away.
Get help now while you have enough self awareness to want to stop it.

I still hate work.
If this is what life is like then is it even worth it?

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Stay away from those two girls. They're crazy. They will control your life if you don't keep a good distance from them. You already live 5 hours away from them. Cut off your communication with them. I care about you so much and I haven't told you this, but, I love you. I wanted to see you bad but I guess I'll just wait for time to do something about it. Just stop hanging out with those girls, and be a man. They're a total red flag, they check your phone and invade your privacy. They always want to what they want to do with you and they don't try to walk in your shoes. Please, please I beg. Stop being their friends. They're not friends if they don't understand what's going on.

My closest friends are still the exact same socially retarded autists they were in high school, and it's really starting to piss me off. They're grown adults who still live with their parents, play over 50 hours of Steam games alone per week and post on political subreddits. Any attempt to talk with them is met with completely silence, until they ignore it and send me some shitty meme they found.

It's really dumb, but the heartbreak over you runs surprisingly intense considering that you only occupied a few months of my life. Embarrassingly enough, I fell really hard really fast. I want to be angry that you didn't tell me that you didn't want the same thing that I did at any point because it feels unfair, but I know what a weird place you're at in life right now and I can't really fault you for anything. I try to keep my thoughts off of you, but I think about you every second of the day. I don't even know the real reason why I'm so intensely drawn to you.I feel this weird sense of destiny with you that I've never felt before with anyone else even though we don't really seem to "get" one another...but ultimately, I'm probably just delusional lol. I wish I wouldn't have blown the one chance I had with you when I was with you before.

It's okay. I forgive you and I love you too. I'm still in a strange place and someday we will meet again.

It's actually good to be seen as the nice guy. When I do some real nigga shit and get caught, no one would believe it anyway.

I knew you in past lives. I'm certain of that.

I had the worst nightmare of my life. This guy had me held hostage, was kidnapping and burning kids then eating them. I saw them burn but had to pretend it was perfectly normal or I'd be killed. I attempted to call the police but was so scared the killer would burn me. It was so real. Hold me. :(

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I want to dump my stupid fat girlfriend but dont want to be alone

Early this morning I got a call that literally is changing my life. It's what I've hoped for and now it's here.
It's just been a couple of hours but the relief and the joy and the GRATITUDE that accompanies this feels very healing.
I don't think you should every allow one person or one circumstance or one event to be the key to your happiness. But when you start to put things together in your life and struggle and work so damn hard and then that game changer happens?! WOW :D
I thought I would have to set the date for new years and promise myself to stop bitching on Jow Forums about my ex, and the horrible things he's done to our son and myself. I thought this almost addictive activity of venting on here would have to be consciously STOPPED with effort and restraint....then this morning happened.
I am so thankful and joyful, I gayly feel like there just isn't room for resentment towards him or his mother at the same time.
I have to release all that garbage so I can embrace this new path. I have to forgive them. I have to take ownership of my part.
I think I'm ready. Ha it sounds so goddam gay but it's like a Christmas miracle. I'm sadden because no matter how good of place I am at, that will not change them. The animosity, rage and resentment will still permeate from their lives.
My freedom is that I no longer have to take that on, be responsible for it and I can wish them well.
Thanks Jow Forums for giving me the space I needed during a dark time. :)
Sending love out to all. Ha I'm moving on baby!!

>game changer
God, I hate that term.

I hate getting in stupid fucking internet arguments where the person is basically just pissed at me for not arguing with their assumptions about what they THINK I implied. I reply with something trying to end the argument, saying I mean what I say and their assumptions aren't my beliefs and they call me a liar and try to make a case that I actually DO think this thing they conjured up and I'm just sitting here like what the fuck am I doing with my existence, what if I died at my computer right now arguing with this dumb bitch, I'm a dumber bitch for engaging because of my stupid need to have the last word and be understood when people point-blank don't give a fuck about understanding, they just want to be right, even if she believes me it doesn't fucking matter because I can't influence people or control what they think of me, all I can do is say my piece and walk away but I have a hard time doing that because I'm a faggot

Don't try to change the subject, user.

This is my first post in the thread

Good for you user. It was getting to be too much with your daily bitch. Glad to see you made it thru.

That's no excuse.

What happened, user? What was the fight about?

Because I put a slash between hysterectomies and tubal ligations, they thought I was implying that a tubal ligation was an organ removal and that I didn't know the difference. Someone else already corrected me and said they are two different types of surgeries, I replied and said yeah I know the difference I should've used "or", then that chucklefuck responded with "achshtually I think you're lying, you didn't know, otherwise you wouldn't have even mentioned it" and then proceeded to reply to like 3 attempts to explain myself. They just replied to me again because they had to get the last word, pic related, pissed me off, I know it's my fault for arguing with reddit feminists I'm a fucking masochist

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Everyday my damn bra feels so suffocating and when I get home I just have to get it off my chest.

Feels good.

Hot.

It is. I'm pretty hot and get to ogle myself as I get comfortable.

I have literally nothing to write in these threads anymore.

>"actually..."
>"As a...."
I hate those terms. It's like the banshee cry of a fucktard.

Lol that's not a bad thing

every day is just the same. feels like i'm stuck in a loop.

also i'm getting fatter and fatter

I'M SO HAPPY:D:D:D

>tfw kind of shy guy with crush on shy girl

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Hey K,
I realized that I love you. I guess I always knew it, but I put it far away from the beginning because we are friends, and because our friendship means everything to me. Because you are married, because you have a child with her, and because I know you're building your life this way.
She doesn't know you sleep at my house every month. Why would she? We do nothing bad. We do not touch each others. We just talk all night long like brother and sister, you sleep on the couch in the living room. Nothing bad. No physical contact, ever. We just talk about philosophy, religion, politic, and our so fucked up childoods. We spend two days toghethers, seeing your friends, my friends, always ending up the night at my house. But yet she doesn't know. We find each others physically attractive and we admited it, but we do not touch each others. And it's been two years like that. And I know you know.
I will never do something to change the situation, it would be incredibly vulgar.

I'm sad and happy at the same time. Happy that I met you, happy that you are this person who accepts me with everything I hate about myself. You like me unconditionnaly, and I know it. I don't know if it's love. I don't really want to know.

I will do all my possible to keep it this way. Friendship, friendship, friendship. But I'm scared one day I'll tell the truth. I hope I'll meet someone like you one day. Someone exactly like you. Just not married.

I love you K. I love you with all my heart. I'm sorry.

NO FUCKING REFUNDS.

Especially for the people that were taking bets on my life. Do they SERIOUSLY want their money back? Are these people that fucking disgusting that they would take bets on someone's suicide and then fucking get butthurt when they didn't die? Are you fucking kidding me?

Consider this to be an asshole tax. The more you gambled, the bigger the tax. You were BETTING ON SOMEONE'S FUCKING LIFE. You saw someone miserable, depressed, suicidal and instead of going "Wow, we should get together and help this person." you dumb pieces of shit thought "Wow, let's take bets when he finally kills himself and watch him do it!"

You should be ashamed of yourselves is what you fucking should be. NONE of you are getting that money back. It's fucking mine now. I didn't die assholes, therefore I get the lottery. I was betting on myself the entire time.

What’s the context behind this?

Jesus Christ I'm so confused, anons. A year and a half ago I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. I got a new therapist and she thought that wasn't an accurate diagnosis, and eventually she diagnosed me with high function autism.
Lately I've been following some forum posts pretty obsessively (my new weird special interest) though of a few different girls, one with autism, one with bpd, and I relate so heavy to both and it's SO confusing. Maybe I'm both? I'm an absolute nutcase. Fuck. I'm extremely happy I've erased myself from a tangible internet presence because I was probably being extremely cringey and lacked the self awareness to notice.

We're all suicidal motherfucker! Why do you think we are so bitter with your bullshit? We're all sour in the head! Learn to take a ball buster!

Like all I have these days are these anonymous threads, and I know at least two people who could figure out it's me Who's posting in them and show the world that I'm an absolute psycho. They could compile all of my shit and put it up for the world to cackle at.
But, that being said, I'm probably not important enough for anyone to do that. Probably. And I'm almost completely tapered off from alcohol. Last night was my first night in a year that I was 100 percent sober, so, I'm probably just having dumb withdrawal anxiety.

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T.
There is so much I want to say to you but i'm scared. I don't want to ruin our friendship but right now i don't know if being just friends can cut it for me. You're fucking amazing, and every second I spend with you is wonderful, and every new thing i learn about you gives me butterflies big time. You're everything I've ever wanted and it hurts so bad to know you don't feel the same. Our date went so, so well, and you were looking forward to a second date. I still don't really know what happened. I'm sorry if it's the religion thing. I guess idk what I would do about that. I'm sorry. I can't get over the fact that you're the only person I've ever met who knew about the music i listen to and the same major as i am. It's like we were a match made in heaven, though humorously it very well be my doubt of heavens literal existence that drew you away from me. I have no idea and i'm too afraid to ask, so here I sit typing away on this wretched board.
I want so badly to just relax and listen to some TTNG, delta sleep, or Covet with you. Just in the moment, your head on my chest, drifting away into our own little world of music. A world nobody else I know understands but you. Then we could talk about language and linguistics, something once again that only you of the people i know would appreciate.

I'm a mess, anons. Truly a mess.
I'll never meet another woman like her. It kills me.

Good for you! Fuck them

No dude. Not op but fuck that. If I found out my family or friends were running a betting pool on when I'd kill myself...just Fuck that

My personality is so trash but so is everything else about me. I just want to improve.

I may actually fail this class. :(
Whether I fail or not I need to pull my socks all the way up.

I'm feeling a really particularly kind of a suicidal today

Do it, you will find someone much better sooner than you think.

Please don't kill yourself. There's a lot more to life than whatever's got you down. You can live, it'll be fine.

I'll build a facility for them. Just a blank room with sound proofing and a chair. They will be hooked up into machines to keep them alive. Food and water directly into their stomachs, and waste removal. They will have 4 hours of sleep and twenty hours of 100% office lighting.

Complete isolation, they won't even be able to move. They will just sit there thinking about how much they fucked up. Maybe I'll put a picture of myself hanging on the wall.

For a year. Two years. Five years. Ten. Twenty. Every day will be exactly the same. They will sit there tied up unable to do anything but think. Until they die. That will be their punishment.

Maybe I'll put a webcam behind them and stream it. Just a guy sitting there, doing nothing, being tortured until he fucking dies.

Exactly what you fuckers are doing to me.

That "usps" fucker is dead. The psychiatrists too. Hunnigan. His two little butt fuck interns. This is what they get to look forward to.

I told them, I tried to warn them. I really did.

thanks user. I probably won't, I just can't stop thinking about it. something is really seriously off today.

That's a hard problem, I wish I could help.

>actual name
Is anyone cataloging these? We might be able to get some closure on this, find out hes an 11B that got too close to an IED or something and got his head knocked.

like, trying to cater to the "Free will" thing doesn't work either. In the "that's exactly how everyone else has ever reacted!" or "That's exactly what they want!" so that I'll do the "FUCK YOU NO ONE TELLS ME WHAT TO DO" and just do the opposite.

because no one tells me what to do. I'm going to do whatever I want, whenever I want, all the time no matter what... even if it is something you want me to do.

I hate you people. I hate you people so incredibly much. Nothing you can do or say will change this. They can call me a monster all they want but they are the ones that keep slaves and illegally experiment on people. They torture INNOCENT people. They KILL innocent people.

You keep saying "You don't know what's going on." but I do. I know that those things are exactly what you are doing to me. So... you have some justification for torturing, experimenting, and killing innocent people? People you kept as slaves? You have justification for slavery do ya?

If I'm naive, if I don't "Know what's going on." then why the fuck don't you try me. I'm all ears fuckers.

that's ok.

>needs to have a little spaz on Jow Forums
>thinks they have a leg to stand on
>doesn't realize their naivete is rooted in their inability to rationalize between the individual and the group
buddy_please_dont.exe

Dont. He LITERALLY thinks hes a fucking test tube baby cyborg. Hes not some Jow Forums fuckup hes a veteran on a psychotic break. Either ignore his posts or datamine them but don't bother responding to him because he will never respond to you.

That is the saddest thing I've read. :(

This is epic. Tell me more

I know she secretly took shrooms that night. There is no way in fucking hell that was just weed. People had to have been making fun of her too because she was tripping absolute balls.

Why though? What the fuck is wrong with her? She fucking lied about literally EVERYTHING. It's like it's impossible for that girl to tell the truth. Every little thing was a lie. if she went to the store, she would lie. If she did anything it was a lie.

But why? I told her that I wanted to try them too. Why would she hide it from me? Why the lies?

And if that was a vibrator or dildo, why lie about that? Fuck, we went shopping for some toys together.

still think she was fucking someone off camera. That's what my gut says. I know there was another person in the room. I fucking saw her looking at them. The computer as well didn't make sense if it were her roommates. Why would her roommate put her computer on a tiny fucking desk in the living room?

I know I saw him in the shower that time. She's a lying disgusting piece of shit and there were multiple times she did shit like that.

Don't give me that "he trapped me with his money." bullshit. All you had to do was break up with me. That's all you had to do. I never tried to guilt trip her. NEVER. I told her so many times "Look, if you don't love me then just be honest and say you don't love me. I don't want to be with someone that is just pretending."

I told her I wouldn't hurt myself. but no, instead she made me promise that I would never give up on her and that if she tried to break up with me that she wasn't thinking clearly and would always apologize after.

And when I KNEW she cheated on me... all I wanted was closure. I just wanted the fucking truth. You people are not seeing this the way I am at-fucking-all. You aren't seeing how absolutely batshit insane the entire situation was and how badly I just needed someone to tell me what was going on.

All the little posts she would make online that were ridiculous little mind games about two lovers and other shit like that.

Then there were all the Hino paintings about a girl that looked exactly like her cheating on her partner and a bunch of other shit including a white guy that looked exactly like me with poems and shit.

The blogs of people making content based on us, that looked like us, talked like us, and had the same symbols that represented us. Multiple people would message me that were involved in her life with things like "Hey I need to talk to you." and then when I ask them about what they say "Oh... uh... nothing." Other artists I knew would do the same shit. Jon going all "SUMMONING J" and when I ask about what he says... nothing...

They all did shit together during those artist cons. They all knew and they were all hiding it from me.

There were countless posts on here that were INCREDIBLY specific about how your new (I guess old) GF wasn't being exactly loyal but I'm no homewrecker so I won't tell you. (which is fucked beyond belief you dumb cunt, if your friend's GF is cheating on them YOU FUCKING TELL THEM.) and even my own family was doing this shit to me.

You say I acted out like a child but you don't take into consideration that THERE WAS A FUCKING CONSPIRACY. You say "Just walk." or "just let it go." but there was so much more going on that was driving me insane. She wasn't just "cheating" she was doing so much more and everyone knew, everyone was in on it.

You dumb fucks call me stupid or oblivious but you all know for a fact it takes BILLIONS of dollars, untold man hours, and insane technology to keep me in the dark.

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>but you all know for a fact it takes BILLIONS of dollars, untold man hours, and insane technology to keep me in the dark.
You might be a schizo.

Not saying any of this didn't happen, but you have this delusion that the world revolves around which is bothersome

Those paintings had a whole lot of fucking implications assholes. They meant that people were watching our skype chats. That she was streaming them and she KNEW they were being streamed. Which meant she KNEW people were seeing sexual acts by her and more importantly by me. Which is a sex crime, what they did was a felony.

So many god damn lies and I'm the asshole because I want to know what the fuck the girl I loved was doing and how everyone in my entire life knew something was going wrong. How no one was doing anything.

(not to mention she had a very strange relationship with her brother. Like, I caught them being a little "too close." to one another a couple times and the comments she would make sometimes were incredibly bizarre. Not to mention how jealous she was of her brothers girlfriend. Purely conjecture but it's still fucking bizarre.)

around you*

I swear you have to be a bot. You know it doesn't work, you know it has no effect, it's just like the default response.

I don't know, if you get called a schizo a lot that isn't a good sign.

I'm sorry that you see that it's a massive conspiracy, but if you think the world revolves around you, that is, factually speaking, a symptom of schizophrenia

I wish we had been able to talk more. We have a couple more days but I know it's probably too late now. Now I'm going to always wonder what could've happened. Oh well.

recently a very close friend of mine decided to tell me about a fetish of his. I guess he just felt like getting if off his chest and as good friend I said it's fine and I don't mind, however later as a joke(?) he showed me some actual pics and I've been sick ever since
it's not illegal just extremely disgusting (the.. kind of it he preperfs) and honestly he is best friend of mine and we go back years but this has been weighing me down for days now and it's hard to see him the same way
but I want to be a good bro and don't want it to tarnish the friendship
I wish I never knew

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Is it anal vore?

no but somewhat close. It's actually so spefici and niche I won't state what it is exactly just in case he peeks on here

Like you once said, you had to coax me out of my shell via seduction. You were never aware that I played you, you fucking lunatics. It's hilarious what you went through. I call it the game. You can tell all your whores they were fun but you lost.

Tell him what u feel, the same way he did. BTW whats the fetish

They will always be ten steps ahead of you because they see it all & have warned me. You're so dumb.

Not that user, but it's not likely to happen.
>dump fat gf
>date 2 different girls which didn't work out
>be alone for 3 years with no female contact
>still a virgin

Why would he? Under the assumption you do ask him about it, this thread will be long dead and inacessable. Just tell us

J,

Get your fucking life together. Stop spending your money on shit you don't need and move out of your mom's basement. The reason why girls won't go out with you is because you don't have any future goals, you live with your psycho bitch of a mom, you STILL haven't fixed your car, and you haven't taken your goddamn pills in months and you're an insufferable asshole without them. It's not because you're short. It's because you're a lazy douchebag.

-E

Fuck you, M. Can't you at least message me back, you edgy dumbass?

Listen man, it sounds shitty what happened to you and it sounds like it fucked you up, but the worst thing you can do is give her this power you're giving over your mind. This devotion and hatred, it isn't worth spilling all of this. You need to realize it's over and so are your feelings for her. You need to do something productive, get a hobby, something man.
Something

Accepting that I'm not your first love would be easier if you weren't mine,

and if Hollywood would stop hyperbolizing about how your first anything scars you for life.

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gee I wonder if a group of people known to be liars, manipulators, and horrible fucking cunts that have been spying on their entire population... are lying. I wonder why the people that have been committing crimes against humanity are telling everyone to "be the bigger person" by not looking back in anger or wanting to get revenge.

You know it's called the forbidden experiment for a fucking reason.

It's WE THE PEOPLE not WE THE GOVERNMENT you pieces of shit.

Seriously, do you cunts really think that is going to work? Do you really think you are going to be able to lie yourselves out of this one? That you will be able to convince people to not get justice?

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I don't really know how to handle this person. She's really friendly with me, yet she still feels closed off all the time. Sometimes I feel like I'm the highlight of the day, yet others feel like I'm a bother.
Maybe I'm just overthinking this and you are just keeping me as a distant friend.
Sometimes I start to think you're manipulating me and just using me to help you with your homework.

you assholes had every opportunity. You could have given me my medications, you could have told me the fucking truth, you could have NOT obeyed their every command no matter what... even if you knew it would hurt me or fuck with me. Like putting those fucking spiders in my fucking bed, putting shit in my food, poisoning me, sending me to the ER, drugging me with adrenaline, caffeine, LSD, benozs, ketamine, methadone, cocaine, THC, bentyl, steroids, hormones, subutex, and fucking more. You took me to the hospital just so you could psychologically abuse me. So you could torture me.

You guys did all of that shit with no regard to my health, safety, or well being. You guys just don't give a fuck about me and why should I give a fuck about any of you?

Brit sat there in front of me as I cried and suffered and she did fucking nothing. Allie saw what they were doing to me and did nothing. They could have easily have ended it. All they had to do was tell me "JACE THEY ARE FUCKING WITH YOU ITS ALL A LIE." but they fucking didn't. They did nothing. They could have ended my suffering years ago with a few simple fucking words.

God knows I would have ended it for you. Because it's not right. None of this is right.

Then there are the people that do this shit because they fucking enjoy it. Bree enjoyed it. Lucia enjoyed it. God damn trannies enjoyed it. Fuck these fucking people. They all enjoyed doing this shit, they all did it because they didn't think I was going to make it, that I was going to live.

But I did.

And now you should all be afraid of me.

You don't know what justice is let alone how to navigate your own mind.

Your form of justice is torturing people.

That's not sane

There's hardly a thing I can do or anyone when you're convinced the world is in a conspiracy against you because you have an excuse for everything. People may lie to you, but not everyone is liar, and not everyone is seeking to do immoral shit. Your heart is in the right place but your reasons are all fucked.

I wish my parents didn’t hate me

I wish I could reconnect with a guy that I had to cut off a year ago. I'm not sure how to go about it considering the situation that happened between us. It feels like a pipe dream that I'd ever get to speak to him again.

I don't care. As long as you know I'm after you, that's enough for me.

Lol my grandpa told me that I need to be in a relationship before I'm 35. I got less than five years and I don't even know where to start. I don't think I can use my job as an excuse for much longer lol. I'd try but I'm just so fucking tired after a day's work, plus I'm poor as hell despite the hours I work, and each time I hear my aunt and mom talk about girls I should talk to, I physically cringe. I appreciate their want to help, but Im hardly interested in some lady who I wouldn't be able to relate with

My off-topic thread got deleted, so I'm back here I suppose. I don't even know what to write about. I just feel bad.

>It's because you're a lazy douchebag.
You have to know that I can't earn any money because they control my life, right? You think it's a bit odd how I can inspire dozens of artists to paint exactly like me orr influence major movie studies but I can't get any donations or supporters?

You think maybe the torture has something to do with it?

Either you're a fucking asshole or you're incredibly stupid.

For the people that think that I can't take care of myself... I lived on my own for a decade and I did incredibly well for myself. Even while being tortured. You guys think I'm clingy to my mother but... again, I lived on my own that entire time and really only called home a few times. I think I can manage.

You're judging someone based on an incredibly twister, fucked up version of them. Again, it was the entire world, infinite resources, professional psychiatrists and torturers... vs just some guy. And that guy won.

Yet that's still not good enough. I did shit that none of you ever could.

>tfw these threads are now just for LARPing
Maybe we should just pull the plug on Jow Forums. It's no longer helping people, it's just become an echo chamber for unwell people. They need help, not validation.

Jow Forums should go, I think. It is no longer productive.