21F Addicted to Porn/Masturbating, but also kissless virgin

Agreed, don't worry about it OP. Just don't talk about it all the time like a weirdo. It's kind of hot actually.

oh jesus,

Literally no one knows, at all. Like they probably think I'm just making jokes, but I'm self-conscious about it. The only person who kind of knows is my best friend, but i think she's kind of addicted to porn, too, so...

I was here first take it back! Im alpha male not you!

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u can share

Haha man I'm just giving myself a hard on by telling her I wanna fuck her throat and cum all over her dumb tits.

Yeah, don't worry about the addiction. It's only bad if it's affecting your daily function, etc. Once you actually start having sex porn becomes fairly boring. If it's good sex porn will never satisfy you again, so it becomes obsolete unless you just need a quick release. You will still be hungry for the good sex afterwards, though.

When I fly up to see my girlfriend (or I fly her down to stay with me) I don't even touch porn. Same for her. When we're apart we both watch it. Her a lot more than me since I find the acting in porn to be atrocious.

>I don't think I'm overtly creepy
Some people don't realize how creepy they are about sexual things. There was a bombshell co-worker I had at my last job. ~19 years old. Cute stoner girl. But she very clearly was a pervert. Always asked me about my relationship and questions about sex. She tried to be coy about it, but her facial expressions made it clear what was going on between her ears. Made me extremely uncomfortable to be around her. Considering I'm very committed to my queen I didn't have any interest in the girl, but she didn't get the ticket.

I've had other women on campus try to be coy with me, but again it's fairly obvious what most people are after when they're ~18-22 years old. Young people are easy AF to read.

FUCK!

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ugh fuck

I'm kind of aware of that. I know sometimes I slip up and I'll joke about something thats a little too specific (Some BDSM joke or Daddy Kink thing that I forget isn't normal to joke about) and then I spend the rest of the conversation trying to play it off. It's annoying that I have to be on my guard to not come off as a pervert, and it makes socializing kind of hard.

Touch your wet little cunt for me sweetheart

already touching myself

How would anyone know? Are you some kind of fat hot topic shopper who spouts out dumb quirk shit and tries too hard to be liked? I'm picturing short, chubby and you probably spout stuff to lessen tension but only make it worse.

In which case, your perversion is irrelevant. It's how you convey yourself, what you let define you. I look at porn every other day but no one has any clue because I don't convey it. If you're the type who is somewhat insecure in their sexuality or understanding of it, it can reveal itself in your social cues. I knew a few girls who made it too obvious they were the FA or Tumblr visiting type.

Good girl

Bad bitch

I don't think I let it define me... although I'm pretty proud of the smut I draw and write, so its annoying I can't talk about it because it's porn :(

Also chill w/ the condescending tone lmao.

Post some of your work darlin

...

I would find someone you can practice talking with. Make dialogues in your head, perhaps? The goal being working towards conversations that aren't awkward. I think this is an issue of maturity as well, OP. And that is fine, you're young.

Nothing wrong with that being your hobby. Just work on knowing your audience. Eventually you will meet people who are down to read and criticize your writing. Patiently wait until you meet them. Most people will want to distance themselves from you the second you bring that up too early. I certainly would.

you probably wouldn't like it, it's all gay :\

End it

I don't think I'm immature desu. I don't have awkward conversations, honestly. I have decent platonic and professional relationships. It's just my romantic/sexual interactions/relationships that are a fucking mess.

And no one knows about my hobby. If people ask what my hobbies are, I say drawing and writing and if they ask to see some, i show them the couple of works i have that aren't smutty. And then I seem very dull because I have nothing else to say to them because everything else I do is literally porn.

Not trying to be but I've known two girls that were either into or drew smut and they both fit that bill. I must have hit the mark. Your-shrug-it off response is how they'd probably react too.

That aside, you say it doesn't define you, but you have the urge to talk about it and share it with people irl. I've dabbled in it myself, but it is never something I would tell someone else about. Why would you want to share it with people? That's why I eventually fell out with the girl I knew that did it. You aren't supposed to tell people this stuff.

r u telling me to kill myself bc im touching my pussy? u mad bc u can't touch my pussy?

Post pictures of your little pussy baby, I wanna see how wet it is

Again with the condescending tone, user. The "shrug-it-off" tone is me not out here to fight anyone.

I want to tell people, not bc its porn, but bc its what i do all the time. It's basically my hobby. I have opinions about it. I draw it and write it. Its an outlet for me. I don't have the urge to share porn with people IRL; I want to talk to people about things that interest me. There's a huge difference here.

not into sharing pics, sorry babe

Make a garbage email account so we can discuss smut, I love it and talking to a girl about it while she rubs her cunt as i stroke my cock would be nice.

been down that road, its usually more work than its worth...
what state are you from?

Nothing else interests you though? There's not a more conventional topic you could bond with someone over?

Your original question was if the porn addiction was offputting to men, right. I'm trying to get a feeling of how you come off, as previously stated, no one will know at a glance...unless you fit that mold I mentioned, and even then only certain people would recognize that for what it is.

So if you wanted to drop the h bomb, how would you do it? At what point would you think the other person would want to know about your hobby?

Georgia, blonde hair and hazel eyes ;)

I think the other person would want to know about my hobby when they ask about my hobbies. Honestly, I think you've got it in your head that I don't talk to people IRL and I do, and the usual chitchat is "whats your major" "what else are you into." etc.

And I know the person you're describing, the Tumblr fetishist who talks too loud and says shit about porn in front of the whole break room while you're trying to eat your PB&J. I've had it happen to me, and it's spooky. I'm not that girl. I'm just addicted to porn and masturbation.

Ah. Okay. Just wanted to make sure we weren't in the same state. I might've been interested, for the hell of it.

forgot to answer your first question: I have other hobbies, they're just boring. I like linguistics. And (certain kinds of) history. Art history, going to museums. It's all boring shit.

I had to shoot a load, I'm trying to watch a movie and thinking or making some smut drawing girl from the internet deep throat me was turning me on so I couldn't focus on the film.

What sites do you typically visit?

i'm... embarrassed to say v///v

Hey if it makes you feel better I(M) have spent literal hours edging to erotic text-adventure monstergirl porn and BDSM websites.

Nah you'd be surprised. Chick I knew was a total social butterfly. When I ask 'what point' I mean how long would you need to know them? Anybody can ask what you do on the weekends but you wouldn't just lay it on them when it's been a week or something.

My prior friend dropped it on me out of nowhere. I knew her for a few months, went to hang out one day and she showed me smut on her computer under the guise of 'lol isn't that stupid? I hate how they draw that.' There was no comfortable way to 'share' that hobby when I was sitting there trying to stop from going full chub and just nod in agreement waiting for her to change the topic. Not to mention it was a totally plutonic relationship and I wasn't comfortable sharing my knowledge of it.[spoiler] I had actually seen some of what she showed me before lol[/spoiler]

But point being it wasn't something I felt comfortably sharing with a strict friend. My friend wasn't what I'd call 'addicted' though.

You sound Asian, are you Asian?
Anyway, it's gonna make long-term prospects tough unless you know how to properly moderate yourself. Guys are going to immediately see the behavior as provocative and assume you extend that provocative grace to any guy you meet.

Proper moderation will help you maintain more confidence overall.
My personal experiences tell me these ones tuck into roleplaying communities.

I generally... nose around Jow Forums and Twitter for my fix. I follow a ton of artists (2D is best, but I've got a few "real" porn accounts) but its basically all... like degradation/humiliation. If someone's crying, I'm wet.

Oh, I gotcha. The only people who've ever known about my "hobby" are my best friend, and that took several years of slowly disclosing, and a guy friend I was friends with for a few years before I told him about some of it. (That I was doing NSFW commissions, basically. He didn't really see a lot of it until a few months after I told him about it.) Other than that, I haven't really mentioned it to anyone.

Also that situation sounds really comfy. I wouldn't want to do that. It'd be embarrassing and stupid.

>like degradation/humiliation
[spoiler]It's actually really hot and comforting to hear that someone from the opposite gender is into that. It makes me feel less guilty for liking it. [/spoiler]

I'm not Asian, I'm Irish/English. And yeah, I know longterm is a problem. Which is bad. I actually really want to settle down and have a family. It probably doesn't sound like it, because I'm on here saying I'm addicted to masturbating, but I'm really great with kids and I genuinely believe it'd be an honor to raise a family.

so yeah... moderation would probably do me some good :(

I know quite a few egirls who are into it, you're not alone user, they're out there

>I follow a ton of artists (2D is best)
Do you have any recs? I'm running out of artists to check

Condescending user here. It was a weird situation. I didn't know how to handle it at the time. Sweet girl but I bailed because it seemed like a red flag. Was worried how much further it would go, if I could trust her with information she obviously trusted me with. Was probably about your age at the time actually. I believe I worried a bit about your issue too. A lot more than then I do now.

Anyway, short answer to your original question, not necessarily. Men can't be appalled by what they don't know. You might have a libido issue though if you do it anywhere anytime though.

unless you're into men... you probably wouldn't like the recs :l

I would call that a red flag lol. Seemed really premeditated, like she'd thought about it??

I definitely have a libido problem. I think I started too young and do it too often for it now to be an actual problem.

Gotta stop doing it out of habit. I do the same thing and it's not healthy. Gonna try kicking it this year. Try doing something recereational, obviously walks/ workouts. Besides it gets better if you give it time. You better cut it out now while you're younger. You'll be loose af and it'll be too late for that family you want. Same thing with guys, do it too much and early erectile disfunction.

Moderation, OP.

Actually, I don't really penetrate very often. It's all clit stimulation. So I'm still tight (like... really tight, part of the reason I don't penetrate very often).

But yeah, I have a plan for this year, trying to work out more, eat healthier, all that jazz. Maybe I'll add "kick the masturbation habit." Or at least lessen it.

You sound cute, join my discord

Don't listen to user you don't lose tightness from masturbation, vagina is a muscle, now if you shove garden hoses in your ass it might do harm but the vagina is self healing.

Why not try out tinder?

Actually im a guy

Same, but I was this way since 5 yo. Don't know whats wrong with me how I can become such horny kiddo. Guess because I heard how my parents fuck and those adult film after midnight

Okay so i'm a guy but let me give you ny expereince. I was anporn addict and jacked off at most once a day and at my least once every 4 days. Despite getting laid with 7 different pussies from.16.to my current age 27, NEVER once could I cum from a bj or sex no matter how hard I went or how.good it felt, even one time after a full hour straight. I would always end up losing these relayionships be ause they though i was cheating on them or felt.so shitty bout themselves they cheated on me, ect. I met a new.girl recently and decided it would not be what fucked it up this time.
Quit porn and jacking off all together for 22 days and fucked her a few times during this month. After 22 days, and 5 20 minute sessions I finally camenfor the fiest time in my life. Now im down to a pretty normal rate of about 20 minutes with her ontop( the position that feels best to me).
Idk if for a girl its different but theres my hope shot.

no thx :*

lmao @ garden hose comment

I actually did, and swapped some pics with a few locals, then I went on a date but he was retarded and he tried to kiss me upon meeting and I said no and we ended up playing Halo in his basement and I beat him at Halo and then left. And that was my first and only date I've ever been on, no lie.

* came from sex for first time in my life.

I knew a girl like this once, years ago. I fucked her, lol. Everyone fucked her. Sex was her everything.

See, I'm not trying to be the community bicycle. I masturbate, but I'm not, like, a slut or anything. Like I've never fucked. :\

congrats, dude. thx for sharing.

mfw I'll never have a QT halo gf to disappoint sexually.

i want to widen you up with my bbc

:( id let u sexually disappoint me user

You had one bad date. Try again. Everyone has to meet several people before meeting someone they click with.

There are sites where you can auction your virginity at a high price. Think about it, two birds with one stone.

i'll give about 3 fiddy

Yeah, I know :\ I talked a good number of different guys on Tinder before I even settled on meeting one. It was exhausting and time consuming. That one date was really discouraging.

That is definitely something to consider. If I weren't, like, planning on trying to get a guy chained to me via marriage. Don't think a prospective guy would be very happy with me being the mom of his kids if I'd sold my virginity to some rando.

Then join my discord senpai

>planning on trying to get a guy chained to me via marriage
hot

>Actually im a guy
are you trying to give me tiktok flashbacks?

hmmm... that sounds like work... like social interactions... which im not good at :I

;*

Nobody cares if you are not a virgin before marriage except angry basement dwelling incels. It's not like you have to disclose it. Get your first lesson in sexual contact and get paid big bucks for it too.

So what attracted you to that guy and not the others? What are your pros, cons in a guy?

be my neet wife who doesn't work but stays at home all day playing vidya, makes me pay for everything and won't even suck my dick when I get home after a 12 hour shift to support your lazy ass.

Getting people out of their shells is my specialty. What's your ideal partner?

He seemed smart over the phone. Like he read books and knew a thing or two about politics, which is a pretty low bar for "smart" but he was the smartest guy I'd talked to. He could hold a conversation and it didn't feel like I was the only one keeping it going. I really actually thought the date was going to be good but he was, to be frank, a dick as soon as I met him in person and I realized he was really condescending and pretentious and he really had no right to be because he was actually kind of retarded. So, yeah. That was basically it.

I don't think I could fuck someone that I didn't find attractive. If I sold my virginity, I'd just be having bad sex/getting raped? basically? Not good experience probably.

You got me all toasty thinking about ur dad bod and receding hairline. Our kids would be disasters because I'd be too overbearing and you wouldn't really be a presence in their life because you're worked so ragged. Our son would end up a trap dealing drugs and sucking dick out of the highschool parking lot. Our daughter would be pregnant by 17. It'll be a glorious All-American Life.

Ideal partner? Smart, funny, and mature, i guess. I can basically deal with anything else. (The guy I went on a date with was shorter than me and a little chubby, and I thought it was cute. It was genuinely just his shitty attitude that ruined it.)

>Smart, funny, and mature, i guess. I can basically deal with anything else
Honey, what you'll settle for is not an ideal. Now please describe your ideal partner.

How is it physically possible to be a girl and not get a boyfriend?

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>You got me all toasty thinking about ur dad bod and receding hairline.
I'm working on it already ;) Come and help me complete the picture

The same as being a guy not being able to get a girlfriend.

Sounds like you need to date older guys. Go for guys in their 30s.

Okay... uh... an ideal partner is sexually adventurous but goes to Mass with me on Sundays? He's emotionally intelligent... He likes to read, but he doesn't read shitty books. He'll watch anime with me and not make fun of me. He's cuddly but not clingy. If I had to choose looks, he's taller than me, and... actually I prefer chubby lmao, and he has curly hair. That's specific but fuck I love curly hair. And I think that about covers it.

I've asked myself that for years. I don't know. I just can't find anyone I want to date and the ones I want to date are unavailable. So I'm lonely.

hell yeah ;)

I would actually very literally prefer an older man. I fucking love older guys. Upper twenties through lower forties. Wow.

>goes to Mass with me on Sundays
Ever thought this is a biggie? If you want to find a practicing Catholic it's way harder to find. Are you okay with another type of Christian? Non-practicing? Agnostic/atheist?

>same as a guy bot being able to

There it is. Won't settle for anyone that isn't 6'5" and handsome? Then you wonder why you are so "lonely".

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Yeah, I know it's a biggie. But we're talking ideals. I'm fine with less than practicing Catholic. But yeah. I mean... I gotta be honest... and I don't know if this is stupid to say... But, I was... kind of describing a guy I grew up with... and like... bleh. I haven't seen him in a while and I don't think he'll ever be interested in me, but he has all the aspects of a guy I'd like, including being Catholic, and he's single right now and he's been having a hard time and I tried to reach out to him and he kind of brushed me off and. Yikes.

Anyway, yeah, i'd settle for less, I guess.

Probably cause you're a fat fat fatty :(

We're talking ideals, buckaroo. I described my "ideal" partner. And I didn't say handsome lmao. I said chubby with curly hair. And taller than me wouldn't even have to be 6'

yeah probably :( and he saw me go through my shitty liberal phase and it wasn't pretty.

Idiot incel detected. There is not "can't get a gf". It's all excuses made by incels for not trying and deflecting the blame of their own failures on others.