Woke up earlier than usual after having a large McDonalds binge yesterday and not going to the gym

>woke up earlier than usual after having a large McDonalds binge yesterday and not going to the gym
>drink coffee, browse internet
>google "LinkedIn SpaceX engineer" and feel demoralised while looking at profiles of people with high paid jobs they love
>read around 70 pages yesterday and tell myself I'll read a lot in the coming days for pseud cred and inspiration but the idea fails to inspire me at all because reading is a consumercuck activity
>go outside to feel sad about life
>walk for a while on a warm but uninspiring day
>listen to a podcast that has a politician who had an easy life and who is now successful
>feel demoralised as I get back in my car from my walk, but then feel more motivated for some reason
>plan to have one last binge today: I think simply considering this Pavloved me in to a better mood
>plan to go on another walk, read, go to the gym in the evening, and start my real life tomorrow

I was invited for a job interview for a full time retailcuck job that would let me save more money than I need within 2 months but I was struck with terror as I imagined being indoors on a day like this: uninspired as fuck.

I don't know how the fuck I can wake up tomorrow and feel like I can do anything productive in my free time. It's easy to say I will, but I said that on many previous days.

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Based Londonfrog

thanks for updating your blog, user

>McDonald's binge
No wonder you feel like shit, I wouldn't feed that to my dog

I know faggot, life sucks when you're ugly. Cope the best way you can, shitty food, writing blog posts on chans, whatever. Its not going to gey better.

Hey if it makes you feel better, I have a PhD in computer science, am an entrepreneur, have a beautiful wife who loves me, 2 great kids, and I'm drinking a 26 of vodka in my car and, as usual, I'm parked looking at the tree I'm going to hang myself from shortly.

Last week I bought rope and found a nice sturdy branch.

There is no reason for me to lie anonymously, so fuck you and fuck off, I'll be out of here shortly

bye friend

Hope you don't kill yourself bro

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Why the fuck did you write all that

Good, faggot. You have what everyone wants but it’s still not enough for you. I hope the rope snaps and you survive and get fed through a fucking straw for the next 50 years, cunt.

Hey nigel. Start prepping bulls for their impregnation of white women. U prolly get a meal for each bbc u slobber and u might get to see real bobs and Vagner even if it is just the thick veiny bbc filling her up

>There is no reason for me to lie anonymously
(You)
Canadian begging for attention as usual

What you need is a change of perception, try microdosing LSD.

Sounds like you're going out of your way to look at people doing better than you so you can feel miserable. Just look at what you're actually accomplishing each day. Isn't that the only thing you have over any control over anyway? Stop falling for the social media jew.

it's almost as if you're so painfully average you should probably die in a war or something.

Try microdosing LSD, the problem with you is you are so stuck in your thinking patterns, in your perception of self, that you literally can't see reality no more.

You feel like you are stuck in your life and that nomatter what you do you will always be stuck there uninspired, wasting your time and ultimately your life.

Good riddance, faggot. Stream it

Bud I ate LSD for years

What people want is not what they need, but don't listen to me wtf do I know

Suicide isn't worth it. You are going to die anyway. If you stay alive the possibility of "satisfaction" is greater than 0.

Death is the end, friendo.

Look so I'm not gonna post again because I'm getting past the point of coherent thought here, but I want to make a point of sorts to you user

I got everything except money. The PhD, the incredible wife (beautiful, successful, smart, great mom, incredible cook, slightly weird looking in just the way I like)

But I never got rich. I got to the point where I have a house, cars, vacations, but I never really made money.

I'm a devout Christian too if anyone gives a fuck

And I'm killing myself. But I never did make any money so honestly that's probably the problem amirite

Not full blown trips, but microdosing.

Sounds like you lived someone elses life. Or at least lived to the expectations of others. Neglecting your desires and wishes.

Next time there's a day that nice you'll be in the ground. I dunno, you work so you can appreciate some days instead of none.