Why am I such an ungrateful, uncaring, short-tempered, rude, disrespectful asshole to my mom...

Why am I such an ungrateful, uncaring, short-tempered, rude, disrespectful asshole to my mom? She is literally the only person I'm like this with one I really dislike the way I act towards her.

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She probay deserves it

No, she's really sweet and nice to me. She was a cunt when I was in middle school but that was a decade ago and she doesn't act like that anymore. I feel like an entirely different, awful person around her and I act completely unlike myself. Why am I such a fucking dick?

Pasta trauma, not your fault. Seek therapy if you really want to change it

>not your fault
Isn't it, though? I can choose to act nicer to her, but I don't.

You don't choose your feelings

>t. woman

Just make an effort OP. Your feelings will follow.

You are subconsciously sexuallly attracted to her and want to feel her from the inside. You want her so much that your desire turns to hatred as a way to cope with the flood of dopamine.

A lot of men with good lives are like this. Don't worry

Last time I checked I still had a penis

Not too sound cliche or anything but you should probably examine your line of thought when interacting with your mom. Maybe next time you talk with her, try thinking before you act? Like, really hold yourself back before doing anything maybe?

This is probably the person you really are you're just not comfortable being this same person around others. Why? I dunno, but the people we reveal ourselves to be around family are usually our true selves.

I don't know, I don't feel comfortable around her at all.

Might it be that you are still stuck in the puberty phase, where you have conflict with your mom because she wants to protect and nurture you, while sth in you wants to break free?

No, but you do choose how and whether or not you act on them.

>t. woman

You take her for granted. Try harder. Tell her your sorry, too...

It's ok, OP. She'll be dead very soon and you'll never have to deal with her again. Perfect, right?
You'll never have to listen to her try to connect with you again. You'll never have to thank her for not aborting you. You'll never have to think again about how much time money and self sacrifice she gave up to raise you to be the ungrateful self-serving little shit you grew up to be. She'll be worms in no time and you'll never ever have to feel bad about hating her ever again.

PS - God doesn't exist. Heaven isn't real. You won't see her in the afterlife or ever again. Luck you, right?

she probably did something bad

this. she'll be dead and gone and won't fucking care because she doesn't exist anymore. your time is limited with her now so make sure to show her how much you hate her so that she goes to her grave feeling sad and depressed and unloved by her beloved child. this is a great way to go. she totally deserves this.

oh jeez rick

honestly, its because you want to see a reaction that shows *someone* cares about your existence. and shes the only one who does, probably.

Sorry, I'm just a 29 year old way too old for this board (first day) who recognizes this behavior

Dude I feel you, I am like this with my brother. It's like im over 30 but when I visit I fucking regress into being a shitty middle school bully. It was our dynamic for so long. I'm more mature now but it's just when I'm around him. I hate being like that too. Good luck and try to change your behavior if you can, do some introspection is all I can offer

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>t. Freud

t. single mother raised basedboy
Your reflecting on it is a sign of your effeminacy.

you are probably just a shitty person

If you really struggle, seek therapy. Could be true that the trauma was left. After all, things get imprinted when you're young. Could also be other things. Are you not reaching your potential and feel you're not deserving of her affection so you antagonize her to keep her away? Sounds strange, but people do shit all the time in other ways. Substance abuse, self harm. Could also be that you just need to remind yourself of her point of view so you have more empathy. You'll be less likely to treat her bad. Or just force yourself to react differently when you know you should even if you don't feel like it. Or talk with her more about other shit. You'll feel closer and less likely to snap. Lots of things you can try to improve

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>Alabama time

unironically me


t. 20 yr old collegefag trying to redeem himself

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It's because you believe you dont deserve love or affection, either from her or anyone so you lash out at her at an attempt of self-validation.

I am surprised she just takes it, maybe you should think of how she allows you to act that way because she feels guilt and shame for what she was when you were in middle school and there is no way to make up for it. If you see it as that maybe you can feel compassion more and more when you interact with her. However I dont know what she does that makes you burst out like that.