So I'm a 23 year old female who has been sexually abused for years as a child. I developed serious binding issues and ptsd from it and my abuser completely got away with it. Even tho my life seems to be going well now after years of heavy mental health problems (I'm almost graduating from college) I can't stop having thoughts about going after my abuser and harm him, I even have fantasies about killing him in very violent ways. It's been occupying my mind a lot lately.. What should I do? I feel like hurting him will be the only way I'll get closure from my past.
How to deal with murder thoughts
Jaxson Hughes
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Robert Barnes
Sorry to hear that user. Can you damage their reputation without murder? That seems more apt and no risk of jail for the rest of your life
David Cook
Kill him.
Jaxson Morales
My wife went through the exact situation you are struggling with.She is in mid 40s and still has night terrors from the abuse. What makes it worse it was a family member. My wife confronted her brothers and then told them she forgave em for the years of sexual abuse. Now she can atleast go to family events and not isolate herself.
Ryan Morales
controversial opinion but you SHOULD kill him. just make sure to get away with it. murders have a 80%+ rate of going unsolved. get a gun and don't be a retard about it.
Justin Richardson
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Channel that energy into something, desu. Steel mind and body, work on your own integrity.
I know this is a cartoon and stuff, but the vengeance motif pictured there is comparable to yours.
Luke Davis
You should do it. Use your pussy, seduce him, then have him drink daterape and inject him with a dissolved penny inside vinegar or something
Or melt up a handful of crushed cigarettes in a frying pan and apply the black paste to a bullet, freeze it and when you shoot someone the pure nicotine will go straight to the brain and end them
Elijah Davis
cant afford therapy, no?
Ryder Campbell
what happened exactly?
Owen Cruz
Try to focus all those feelings towards something else that's related to violence , sports, hunting
Jayden Perry
Finding a new person to love can work if they aren't a ship heap themselves and can handle the baggage
Jordan Thompson
>I want to kill someone who didn't kill anyone
You need to go to a therapist or else its prison for you
Leo Turner
Faggots, women that kill over sex stuff should hang
Nolan Young
harm him as least as much as he harmed you
get out incel
Carson Campbell
get out murderer
Austin Peterson
If you're willing to deal with the consequences...
He'd deserve it and much worse, since your physical limitations narrow your options. But whatever you do, it would be a shame if you got caught and thrown in jail yourself--and honestly, if you do get thrown in prison, you might end up even more miserable over the obvious injustice of your punishment than whatever he did to deserve your retribution anyway. I know it wouldn't help me get closure if something comparable happened; it'd just make me hate society on top of hating whoever wronged me to begin with. I wouldn't call that closure.
Rapists and abusers, especially those targeting kids, should meet a fate far more painful than simple death. It's pathetic and spineless to refuse retribution out of some conceited notion of 'forgiveness', and such a mindset only ever serves to embolden the predators of the world.
Josiah Young
>don't kill a guy who deserves to be killed, that's bad
>so kill defenseless animals for fun instead
One deer's life is worth more than the sum of all rapists who have ever existed and ever will exist.
Joshua Price
Fine then let me rape your ass
Owen Watson
Therapy. You won't feel better sitting in a cell doing life.
Leo Jackson
not therapy because confidentiality wont apply if the therapist senses a possible danger
Lucas Campbell
OP here, sorry for the late response I fell asleep
As for therapy, I'm in therapy for 2 years now and the only thing it has done is make me want justice for what happened. It made me realise he completely destroyed my life from a young age and he deserves the same.
pedos shoud hang
Levi Williams
Theres no easy answer. My dad did the same thing to my sisters and miss treated me in other ways (i'm a guy) He spend many years in jail.
Do you feel there something that would improve your life a lot?
or is your life already good? If you count out that bad stuff that happened you
James Thomas
It depends on what you want and if you're ready to face the inevitable consequences if you decide to do something illegal.
Sometimes it is worth living what life you have left, but if you truly have nothing in your life, I would imagine revenge not being a bad idea.
Maybe it would make me a cuck, but I think you should focus on yourself and live life. Your abuser may or may not be dealt by justice, but you still have a chance to live a fulfilling life. Sometimes acceptance of this reality is all you can get.
fuck, idk there really is not easy answer to this.
It's your call. I don't know you, but I would want for you to live past your horrible past because I admire struggling in life and achieving some sort of 'truth' and possible satisfaction.
just my two cents.
Luke Martin
Yeah killing or violently brutalizing someone is one of the relatively small number of things that would have a soothing effect on that type of anguish. Unfortunately for people the state is a bitch and penalizes us for attempting to self alleviate.
If you had the strength to physically beat the perpetrator to a bloody mess it would be another option.
Watch some decapitation and gore videos on liveleak, reblop, heavy, and the sort to get a sense for it and see if that's what your truly up for.
Well they could have used pic related as a state fuckhole for the time she had been incarcerated and it might have settled the score.
Adam Nguyen
Give up, there is nothing you can do, if you kill him you will go to prison
I will violently protect me who have people coming after them over sex stuff, and if I was a lawyer or politician or had some kind of legal power I would charge any person with as much shit as possible and give them as much time as possible if they did it and were convicted
I'm glad the founding fathers predicted you people's bullshit and made the 8th amendment, and basically all countries on Earth don't allow the death penalty for rape, no matter how much you pricks demand it
Protip: If you legalized prostitution, and funded the development of sexbots then rape would go way down
>rape is about power
Its really not
Landon Young
*men
David Cruz
Gas yourself, incel
James Reed
>implying
Michael Robinson
>protecting degenerates that rape defenseless children
Levi Kelly
Move on
Cut all contact with the person if its someone close to you (family)
If he doesnt leave you alone tell people what the person did
Who was it anyway? If a family does it to you it can affect you much more
Josiah Hill
Idk guy at least it helped me when i did it
Jose Myers
I know how you feel OP. I came incredibly close to killing my abuser, but had to pull out at the last second because they changed up their routine out of the blue. Even though I think people like them deserve death, the consequences of murder will live with you for the rest of your life whether you get away with it or not. Get therapy, or at the very least get someone to talk to. You can move past this without having to use violence.
Jaxson Cook
I see what you're saying and I'm glad my life is better right now but I feel like it will never be fulfilling. I can't form meaningful relationships and have to cope with ptsd for the rest of my life. I'm not even sure I'll be able to have children.. And all of this because some filthy degenerate couldn't control his urges.. I feel like the only way to make him regret what he has done is by seriously harming him
Jason Lee
I can relate to the story, and understand your urges.
Watch some movies: Josie, Lilya 4 ever, freeway 1 and 2, hard candy, out of the blue.
These will help you.
Do not kill him, see it as a scar or as something powerful deep inside you that you developed yourself. A power you can use for other things. Hate can be a good drive.