It's goddamn Vitre's drunk friday nights

Haha, memes amirite?

I guess my issue tonight is I'm just still struggling to get rid of my dependence on validation from other people. I want my pleasures to come from fulfilling the purpose I've set out for my life, not wasting my time trying to please a variety of assholes.

Problem is, I wont be able to accomplish my goals alone, and a large part of doing it involves making stuff that can appeal to people anyway, by necessity.

I'll see if I can think my way through that one tonight instead of actually sitting down and doing my fucking work I guess. Also, I'm gonna get drunk.

You're reading the ramblings of a drunkard. Don't take the namefag serious.

He asked the drunkard a question in a thread the drunkard made. Would you rather that Vitre roam around Jow Forums and just randomly shit on people in their threads instead? You already have me out there shitting it up with bad advice and bad political stances.
You want him out there too?

>Getting drunk.
I'm sobering off already, but do post your drink of choice.
I'm doing a double trouble here. A real good brew of beer from here in Brazil called Eisenbahn and some Jack Daniels.

Alcohol aside, my advice would be to discover your happiness in any kind of scenery. You can be happy in any kind of enviroment, you just have an easier time finding it from people.
I relate to that, I'm almost dependant on people to feel happiness through empathy, that's why I like giving good advice actually.

Just be sure to find happiness within yourself. It will happy you lots in the long run.

You'd be hard pressed to find me doing that kind of thing even on drugs.

Fuck sorry.
>Help you in the long run.

Just mixing some Kahlua and Bailey's together, I think that's 2/3rds of a mudslide. I'd be taking straight shots honestly, but I ran out of tequila and my friend stole my fucking rum.

Anyway, yeah. I think you get what I'm saying, but I imagine it's not even that unique of an issue. Plenty of people find happiness in the happiness of others, and when a lot of what's right or correct is decided by how people are you or in general feel about them, you may doubt yourself when your own feelings don't line up with that.

I recognize it as weakness to think something's wrong with me for not being quite the same as other people I see or know, or for those people's worlds basically not revolving around me. It's just a thing that crops back up every now and then. I do find happiness in the stuff I wanna do with my life, it's just that things like this become a distraction.

Probably also worth mentioning, but this time my mind is probably a little off right now because of a girl-related thing, like probably 90% of this fucking board on any given day. Also my bad for the long post if you get through all that, I think I just started typing and lost track.

No prob dude, I'm starting to think from your post that we have the same kind of energy.
We both have really high feminine energies, considering we are men. That means that you feel better at home by welcoming people and absorving their energy rather than throwing yours at them.

The best thing you can do is recenter yourself. Do something that puts things on their correct places so you can clear your path. If you manage that I'm confident you can find outt what to do.
If you don't know what I'm even talking about or how to do it, just let life be life and think of thinks above all of it.

My goddamn grammar is shit today, sorry.

That sounds incredibly spot-on, actually, in regard to the bit about energies. In terms of re-centering, though, yeah, cant say I know what the fuck to do to manage that. Gym's one thing that's helping a bit, but not quite enough, apparently.

Do appreciate the advice though, I think it's been legitimately helpful. I am curious though, if you deal with similar kinds of things, what you do specifically to manage through it, if anything.

It's a really personal thing, so what works for me won't work for you probably. But I do theology classes with my dad every wednesday.
It's amazing how learning about spirituality makes me see things I didn't notice before but were right under my nose. It's fascinating and it makes me see myself with more loving and caring eyes, which centers me inside my world and clears my path from distractions.

For sure, the exact sort of solution is specific to the person, like I said, was just kinda curious. Spiritual values and teachings are definitely good for fostering those aspects of your self-image, though. I think I'm kinda seeking something similar out of philosophy and psychology-type stuff at the moment, but I think I've been treating it a bit too much like casual reading instead of something to actually improve the mind.

I want to have sex and get a gf, but I have professionally diagnosed ptsd related from past sexual assaults and harassment during my childhood and adolescence that gets in the way of both. Do you have any ideas?

Do have a look at Buddhist teaching on energies and chakras.
They look like religious mambo jambo at first glance, but look at it like medical mambo jambo and nothing of value is lost.
This is where I got the energy thing from actually. Can really solve a whole lot of things.

The YT channel Spirit Science has a good series explaining the basics of chakra and meditation. If interested, give it a try.

I've dabbled in things like meditation before, but never really much into Buddhist teachings. I'll take a look at that YT channel though, and I suppose any decent reading I can get my hands on for free.

Think I'm honestly gonna try and sleep at this point, but it's been good talking to you man. Been on this board a bit but I havent seen this thread before, but if I catch it again I'll probably pop in, if for no other reason than to shoot the shit while I'm drinking again