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I think she knows it's bothering me - she mentioned it last week saying that she hopes 'it'll come back soon'.
I don't even know how I'd bring it up myself without it sounding like pressure on her.

*combination of words that solves all my problems*

I'm so fucking blown. Today was supposed to be good for me, I was going to bike to a fair with my girlfriend and have a great time. Instead because people don't know how to fucking walk when bikes are around, I ended up eating shit and getting fucked up badly enough to need to go to urgent care. Now both my hands are lacerated as fuck and my right wrist is badly sprained, and my gf's already got plans for tonight so now I'm just lying in bed alone feeling miserable for the next several hours.

This shit makes me feel like hurting myself or something. I'm so angry at myself and those idiots on the sidewalk. What a pointless event, there's no reason that I should be fucked up like this right now. And not even having a chance to see my girl is just fucking salt in the wound, we'd missed every chance to be together for the past week and a half because of uni and this was finally going to be something we could do. And who fucking knows how long it'll be before we're intimate again, I'm not about to try grabbing tits with scraped up, scarring palms. And when/how am I going to finish the paper that's due Friday? And hwo am I going to take notes when I literally can't write with my right hand? The more I think about this the more fucking depressed I get, fuck everything. I'm completely fucking alone and in pain and it's not going to get better for so fucking long to come

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I wish I was able to maintain friendships. I feel like I'm going to break before this semester ends. I miss my dad and wish I could talk to him, but he's gone.

I just want to wake up and feel ok.

You’re a terrible liar you know... Guess I’ll just keep playing along. Who knows maybe one day you’ll have the guts to just turn me down truthfully.

I’m just posting in this thread out of frustration because I was being prescribed and taking an antipsychotic (Abilify) and two antidepressants (Remeron and Wellbutrin) for over a year and I was taken off of Abilify nearly a month ago and so now my brain feels like mush and I’m having incredible difficulty writing out coherent posts and now I waste most of my days too tired to get out of bed fiddling around with my cell phone bored out of my goddamn mind.

what's crazy is that means Hisoka could've easily single-handedly pulled it off
he only took it easy to humour Gon
now that's a good villain, he's actually evil and actually strong

>anti-depressants for 2-3 months

i know how this one ends! all the anti-depressants that "work" for her also kill her sex drive and deaden her emotionally, so not only did she lose a parent, now shes on meds that make you effectively repulsive to her, she'll show less empathy toward you, and her doctor will not consider a change to her medications simply so she can have more sex. I'd say find out if her doctor is done changing the anti-depressant regimen. If they're both satisfied with the meds, knowing this cuts you out of her life sexually, cut her out of your life legally.

Fuck dancing.

I started taking classes 2 years ago. Women are damned fiends.
>have sex
No, no, no, you know what? Fuck you. I went to dance competitions in latin ballroom dancing and in my school alone out of about 10 couples, 3 of them have women where they treat their partners like crap. We're talking about actually shouting, dissing the men, getting frustrated and take it on the men. Fuck, one of the little "princesses" already had 8 partners and she proudly says that they can't handle her.

The hobby itself is lackluster. It feels like I'm playing a fighting game and I'm in the trainning mode grinding 30 hit combo string with varying timings and buttons. Dancing with very beautiful women gets old because they get swarmed but other fellow guys so you're left dancing with newbies or old women. That's another thing, I'm 32 and I'm almost always the youngest in the class. Why the fuck women in their fucking 60s or even in their 70s decides it is a good time to learn kizomba, a fucking sensual dance. Don't they realize how silly they look like wiggling their disgusting, fat, wrickling butt in a sensual way?

And then during class I've come across other """teachers""", i.e: women that like dancing in X way and tell every men that they know that they have less experience that they should do X. After dancing in lots of classes, I've picked this. And my teachers won't do ANYTHING about it, lest they lose customers.

If you have "learn dancing" in your bucket lists, go take classes, you'll have most of interesting experiences in one year, then drop out of the classes the moment you start feeling. If you want something more technical go ballroom dancing. If you want something more casual, go bachata since I doubt kizomba is popular in other parts of the country. Keep in mind that women will judge you and talk about you with each other. We men don't judge women with each other. I keep these thoughts for myself.

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>be me
>starting to feel lonely
>getting older too
>decide to give dating a try again
>online dating has me at a 2% reply rate, every other women ignores me and of those 2% that reply only 10% will be interested in conversation
>real life dating has women afraid to outright reject me so they instead lead me on or try to be my friend
>no issues making friends whatsoever
>only desperate slutty fatgirls are willing to go on a date with me but theyre only interested in getting dicked

I get this "nobody is entitled to love" bullshit but its also fucking retarded
Im great at making friends, and even keeping friends but nobody is interested in me romantically
I dont like this at all, Im turning bitter towards women

Tell her you miss her. You miss feeling her. You miss tasting her. Talk with her. Not with the intent that it'll end in sex, with the intent that she knows you desire and long for her. You're waiting for her. You want her.

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It's so fucking funny. Sometimes I can't stand it. I can't be serious.

Thanks for mocking my retarded dancing. :/

I thought it was just creative but I know it looks like I'm in special ed.

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Bow now.

You might rule science and tech but...

Muses rule all the arts.

I wish my fucking retard parents had taught me about money, careers, and the world. Now in my late twenties and still figuring things out for myself. So many missed opportunities and years and years of life wasted. Fuck my parents, I hate them so fucking much. I don't even feel guilty for making them pay for my shit, they should have taught me something. They never said a god damned word to me about anything growing up, not a thing. I can't remember EVER having a single conversation with them about how to survive as an adult in this world. Had to visit the school of hard knocks, been homeless or borderline homeless, been in dire poverty losing weight from not being able to afford enough food. And on my own effort to educate myself now, after it would have been useful to know, NOW I learn about all these amazing opportunities in life, all the things I could have done that I'm too old for now. Just fuck them. Fuck you.
My parents did nothing for me. Barely fed (cheap ass garbage, probably nutritional deficiencies that I'll find out fucked me for life come soon) and clothed (rags, literal rags that didn't fit me properly and were full of holes and dirty hand-me-downs) me. My childhood was sitting in a fucking room staring at a wall, literally.

How do I not kill myself thinking about this shit? It drives me crazy. The only thing I can say as a positive about my desolate hellscape of a childhood is that at least I wasn't raped.

Why the fuck would you even have a kid if you wanted nothing to do with it and weren't willing to raise it?

I can't stop blaming everyone else for my loneliness. Even while typing this my mind keeps telling me it's all their fault and not mine.
I know the real reason I'm alone is because I rarely socialize, and on the rare occasions that I do I just act like some tag along who doesn't belong. This has been going on since I was a teenager and after all these years nothing has changed. Not one bit.

Not to mention they forbade me from having friends as a kid (not even joking) because paying me enough mind to remember where I was or pick me up from a friend's house would have been too much bother for them. Between that and having zero conversation or emotional connection to them I grew up severely socially stunted, which I had to hammer out on my own, too. Now I can finally talk to people but it's always pulling teeth to overcome the underlying social anxiety I have to work around and pretend doesn't exist.

They used me as an emotional punching bag on top of it. The only time they spoke to me was to scream at me and relieve their own troubles by taking it out on me. There wouldn't even be a reason, they'd just pound on the walls and doors and break stuff and scream at me for hours every fucking day and night.

I think that's the only reason they had a kid--to have someone who HAD to take their shit.

God I hate them so much. I won't even go to their funerals, I swear to god. A lawyer can cut me a check if there's anything to inherit, which I doubt.

>I like small goverments, I like small goverments so much that I want them to prosecute labour unioners and deny freedom of speech and the right to strike to those who do not agree with me

...

Must suck to be a psychopathic narcissist, doesn't it?
No fucking wonder you are alone, you don't understand the basic fundamentals of human relationships.
If you are hostile towards others, others will be hostile towards you, as simple as that you retard.
No fucking wonder you are alone, dude.

It's funny how he's trying to make it seem like he was so good and innocent and faithful. He can easily convince the trailor trash crowd but he can't convince the judge.

>religious crap

How is that religious? You're on hard drugs.

It's a Zionist that doesn't want people to discover the truth. Pay no mind.

Went to sleep at noon, it's now 8. Wanna die

The beauty is you fucking lying asshole can't control the fucking tsunami that is going to drown you. How dare you keep the truth locked away.

Sometimes I am so furious that I have no compassion. I want to kill them all. Then I know those zionists are just God's little assholes. I must have compassion.

Shut up goy, it is time for your kin to your rediscover your role as our vermin and as our slaves.

Please beloved citizen, stand still, we are sending a mobile unit to your current localization.

I'm the girl of your dreams...

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Are you Taylor Swift?

what the fuck

It really sucks having feelings for a friend whom will never see you in that light.
I need to meet someone new again

>we know your time is valuable, and will be with you as soon as possible

20 minutes later...

She's gonna get tired of me really soon, but I doubt she's gonna admit it. Even if we last man, I'm not actually worth it

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I admit my flaws and reach out and try to get help and advice from others. That's about as far from retarded as one could get. How many people do you know who'd admit their own flaws? Not many, right?

I'm even better.

Don't ever forget how much I love you. I will die for your love.

Why do incels think like this

You aren't me. That's impossible.

I will forever be a queen of the people.

For nothing is secret, that shall not be made manifest; neither any thing hid, that shall not be known and come abroad.

A - you are stupid, selfish piece of shit cunt. You ruined my fucking hair charging me whatever you felt like depending on your mood (I know because you told me you do this to other clients). Whenever we made plans, I always came to your apartment. Never did you come meet half way or go out and do something that didn't include drinking. You try too hard to make people like you because you are scared that if they saw how you really are, they would all disappear. You are obsessed with your dogs because they are the only meaningful things in your life. And quite frankly I do not give a fuck when you tell me about some imagine ailments you think they possess because 9/10 there is nothing wrong with them. Whenever you ask me for a favour I come and do it but when I am in need you are nowhere to be seen. You are a terrible fucking friend and I hope life fucks you hard. And when it does and you come running to me I won't be there anymore. Peace out you fat dumbass bitch.

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I will give them what they need, you only gave them what they think they wanted.

hate me all you want, I earned your hate and I earned your love

I'm not here to interfere with anyone's destiny.

I welcome any improvement. There is always an evolution and revolution.

>Not many, right?
Actually. Most of them do, one way or the other, I personally think you may be way too retarded to realise so.

Nah, you're the retard

If you want the world to crumble, you support hatred. You can't win with your way, with nationalism, with seeing only a limited view of reality. Hatred supports killing and wars....that is the bottom line. If you hate you are as an individual, a murderer. Think of all the children you murder with your view of life. It is truth, you actually murder innocent children as you support war.

I love you, V... always.

I think you are beautiful inside and out, I hope you live a good life with many successes.
I just wish that I could play a larger role in your life

I am agoraphobic now after getting injured during an epileptic seizure. After months of staying inside and with the help of meds n therapy I was able to get back to work, but I still feel afraid when I'm on my own. I spend all my time at work or in bed. I feel lonely, and like all this work I'm doing is pointless. I'm glad I can reach out here though. Hi

Since the world runs by hatred, I don't see how anything should be different.
I am working out with hatred, I am eating with hatred, anything I do has a fume of it bursting out.

The more I put out, the more the lesser hatreds back off.
I will keep pursuing until everyone pays for what they did to me.

Sure living a good life is good too, but since I run off this fuel, I can do both.

Hello user. Why do you feel your work is pointless

I don't have an asd diagnosis, it would explain a lot and make sense. One day I will get tested and if it comes back that I don't have it it will be a bit disappointing. It would be like "wow I am not actually retarded, but just an idiot?". "I acted like that on my own? wow.".

I wish you would just make it clear what you want from me. The avoidant behavior whenever feelings get brought up is killing me. You said you love me so what the fuck is the deal... I don’t know how much longer I can do this, even though I’ve already waited this long. Im getting close to just moving on. I really don’t want to, please don’t push me to it.

No, you rule by being a role-model of what you want to bring into this world.

Y?

There are only some that wanted me before they knew who I was.

I hate where I come from in life. I hate the fact that I won't ever feel like I accomplished anything in life on my own because my father is extremely affluent. Whatever opportunities I have in the future won't be from my own success but built off of my father's connections while he pats my back and says "good job son". I wish I was born in a shittier position in life so I didn't become the complacent doomer I am today and could have gone to a better college than a shittier version of USC in Texas.

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They really don’t want us to get closer, do they? I want to know why.

Our union would mean peace but they think you are below me.

There is your answer.

I just went back and read a post of mine from a month ago and wow I was delusionally heads over heels. Indeed a month later and I don't feel as strongly as I did. It's better that way.

right in the middle

After 11 years I sent you a message on Facebook asking to apologise for my behaviour and when you said I have nothing to be worried about you made me feel so much lighter. It was so nice of you to accept my invite to go out to a fun place I've never been to. You haven't aged a day since I saw you in highschool. You've got a good boyfriend who didn't hesitate to call you Babe loudly for me to hear. He also didn't chase me away and I wouldn't want to get I between that. You've found a good man who is not controlling. But my feelings are so strong for you. I regret not making a final kissing move on you. I should never have said no to you when you asked me put 10 years ago, but I hope to be able to go out with you again and at least be a good friend. We have much in common and it would be sad if I could not meet you again.

That fucking sucks man. I'm sorry that granted how hard it was to meet with her some caused you to eat shit on a bike. The universe gave you a shit hand that day.

>And when/how am I going to finish the paper that's due Friday?
Talk to your professors. Most in college won't deal with bullshit but when you have an injury like that I guarantee they will respect it and give you extra time. You can obviously type but if it's difficult use a good text to speech software.

Why would they think that?

So their little party can be over? Lol you bet your beautiful ass they don't :)

Hi user. I struggled to find happiness before this period in my life, and I feel like I'm in a hole at the bottom of another. And at the end it feels like no matter what my illness will prevent me from doing the things that used to make me happy. Time and effort will tell though and I'm focusing more on my treatment, but when I'm alone it's too easy to fall in to that head space. And I spend a lot of time alone these days. Thanks for asking me. I posted this on Jow Forums because I'm looking for places to chat when I'm stuck here.

He is narcissistic and feels the world revolves around him. That feminism is evil. That he is out to show the world this horrible truth.

She is a victim of his hatred. All of it stabs her to her core and they see this. They fight for her because they see him hurting her. They tried in various ways to show him but he refused to see it.

There will be no peace.

I've never had sexual desires. If I ever liked a girl at school or found an actress beautiful, I exclusively fantasized about kissing/touching/cuddling them. The sight of breasts or nudity of any sort gets under my skin, and porn gives me genuine anxiety. For many years I thought something was wrong with me but I've come to realize it probably stems from my dad sexually abusing well into my teenage years. I'm still cripplingly terrified of talking to women and I still have the same juvenile fantasies, but at least I'm working on it.

Ok I got a bit emotional and impulsive there with that first response, I don't handle insults very well.
I'm a reasonable and intelligent guy once you get to know me.
I'm just dealing with a little bit of frustration right now and I'm admittedly not very good at being social.
The whole "not many people admit their flaws" bit was out of pure frustration, I don't actually think like that, I promise.
I genuinely want to become a better person.
Just wanted to get that out before I go to bed.

I really, really wish I could have sex, even with this stupid ptsd in the way. I wish I could go ahead and have my dumb little freakouts in the moments the might lead in that direction without it terminating the chances of things going farther. I wish I was free to both feel the trauma and move on

No

I want to see you
I already can't handle not being able to talk to you

I'm going to try and fix that soon, by the way.
Are you ready?

Ready or not here I come!

You dont even know her

I'm going to develop a barrier so that I don't feel anything. I'll just be mild friends with everyone and I'll feel not much else.
I guess I might sacrifice some tools to keep friendships by doing that and maybe I won't feel as strongly about them, but I will be happy and then when something stupid happens, I'll just ignore it. I just won't let it happen. Then I don't have to be hard on myself and I won't be depressed or worried about my age or anything, I can just focus on reinforcing the barrier.
I've done some improv, so I know I can enact emotions without feeling them once I get off the stage. So I'll just do that when I'm around people, but when it gets too strong and when I leave I'll just shut it off.

>and when I leave
*or when I leave

Lucky guy

so like....... its really frustrating that you care so much about your skin buying all these cleansing and moisturizing products when you're out snorting coke with your friends and you smoke cigarettes on top of it all. im older than you and my skin looks way nicer than yours. your skin was looking really nice lately then you went on a coke binge and now it looks like shit.

you also talk about how youre not feeling so well today and how you felt so cold last morning even though it was 60 degrees out. maybe cause you did a bunch of coke the night before????

youre not fucking stupid. i hate seeing you abuse your body like this. youre such a beautiful fucking human being, inside and out and im so in love with you it brings me tears. yet i dont have the courage to tell you this because i think it's enough to break us apart. im so fucking sure youre on the path to becoming a full-fledged cocaine addict and im scared you will choose the drugs over me.

The truth is, they will never let us be together. We are from completely different worlds. They spare no expense in sharing my story. To them, bigger is better. The most popular artists will live throughout time. They literally won't let me talk to you.

so like....... its really frustrating that you care so much about your skin buying all these cleansing and moisturizing products when you're out snorting coke with your friends and you smoke cigarettes on top of it all. im older than you and my skin looks way nicer than yours. your skin was looking really nice lately then you went on a coke binge and now it looks like shit.

you also talk about how youre not feeling so well today and how you felt so cold last morning even though it was 60 degrees out. maybe cause you did a bunch of coke the night before????

youre not fucking stupid. i hate seeing you abuse your body like this. youre such a beautiful fucking human being, inside and out and im so in love with you it brings me tears. yet i dont have the courage to tell you this because i think it's enough to break us apart. im so fucking sure youre on the path to becoming a full-fledged cocaine addict and im scared you will choose the drugs over me.

Is this something a person can actually do? Maybe I could do it too...

is it possible for someone who is socially retarded to get in a relationship with a social butterfly