Lost youth

There are other fun things besides drugs, sex, and alcohol. Did you do anything fun throughout your high school years? I remember I was always doing some kind of stupid thing in the woods or on the boat with my friends, and it was the best thing ever.

Are you me user?

I'm about to graduate and I feel almost exactly the same way. I don't feel as if the teenage years are the "golden years" for anyone, that's still coming up, but I personally still feel anxious that I would similarly ruin my chance at that and continue to have a boring and lonely life.

I recently found out that I am HFA, which has explained a lot thus far; never was able to fit in with any group of people, therefore only did social things very rarely. I've never had an emotional connection or any kind of intimacy with anyone in my entire life. I used to look around at all of my peers that were having fun, drinking, getting laid and bonding with others and wondering what was up. Most of them were less or about as attractive as I was, most of them weren't vastly more intelligent than I was, and they all liked the same things, but now I realize that they have something that I can never have.

Probably the worst thing about being truly lonely is that it makes you look like an absolutely inferior loser. If you tell someone that you got broken up with or if you're depressed, they feel sympathy for you and in addition your problems have been romanticized in the broader culture. If you tell someone you have no friends, that you're lonely and all you do is stay in your room, they look at you like you're a weirdo and as if there's something wrong with you. Which is probably true.

These feelings + depression have made it really hard for me this past year, and I fear that I won't be able to make any friends next year once I go off to college. The possibility of spreading my wings in college has kept me from being legitimately suicidal, but if the time comes and I fail then I will probably try to kill myself.

Sorry for the rant, but I feel as if its best to talk about these things

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>'golden years'
Total horseshit fed to you by actual Jews who want you to buy into the weird ass youth culture. Objectively speaking getting old and being young are just different stages of life. Anyone or anything selling you anything else is doing just that, trying to get your money.

I missed out on my late teens/early 20s due to medical issues
It never gets better and my life has steadily deteriorated. You fucked up and it will never improve.

I'm 19, about to finish my first year of uni and the high school years are shit. I was recently thinking that I'm hardly the same person I was when I turned 18. I was the same as you then, and that's fine. Now I have a ton of friends, I go out a lot more, etc. Just wait until you move out/go to uni/whatever.

It doesnt matter how old or young you are. The important part is, that you dont stand still and try to solve the problems with improving yourself and your skills. Also you dont need to fit in. Of course itshard to see most other peopleto seem happy with all that dump shit they do. Those are all sheeps that were born lucky or dont think 1 foot ahead. If you think outside of the box and cant identify yourself with those sheep and dont even feel the need to be a part of them, you can someday be a leader that makes money of those worker ants. But for that you need to grab all 4 of your balls anddo some shit. Get confident, build a business. Yes an own business is ahigher risk. But if you are already suicidal, you dont have to lose anything, so dont be afraind and try anything before you kill yourself. If you fail at business you can still kill yourself, but you can also win. Instead of doing nothing you already made your own hell

if you really, really try, you can be happier in one year than most people did from 14-18

this is good advice

i didn't have a social life until i was 22, that was when i started to improve (mentally and physically). now i am 25 years old and in a much better position.
the years in between have been very hard, because there were many downfalls and shortcomings, and twice or thrice i was basically back to square one, having lost friends or girls or whatever. but there were also many wins that i had never had or felt ever before.
i don't have the feeling that i've lost my 'golden years', in fact, i think that life just really starts in your early 20s, because before that people are still basically children.
because i missed out before, i never stop improving now and it shows. i am slowly getting ahead of all the people who were so far above me years ago. their lives basically stagnate while i keep on improving. they think their life is going just fine as everyone expects them to, but because they don't improve, they'll get a little worse every day. as they'll get older they will look back at their 'golden years' with nostalgia, while i'll think of them as the start of my life.

Thats not true. I had my first girlfriend at my 20 so you still have some time lad. Also when I was 21 cured my depression.

Besides that i have to say, as long as you live something can happen. I survived an suicide attempt and month ago i had a really serious car accident. Life sometimes is a struggle but at least you can make it funny.

I'm going to give you some real straight up advice, OP, so pay attention to this even if you don't pay attention to any other reply in this thread.

I was like you when I was your age and felt the exact same way. When I got to college, I felt like I had to make up for lost time doing all the shit I thought I was missing out on. The result was I partied way too hard, had a terrible and volatile relationship with my first gf that I jumped into way too quickly before I was ready, and generally did a bunch of stupid shit. The result was I got shitty grades in school, spent nearly all of my money I saved up on stupid and frivolous shit, and nearly destroyed my relationship with my parents who didn't understand why I was suddenly doing all this reckless and irresponsible stuff.

If I could take it all back and be a boring ass nerd student who was a virgin and never drank but got good grades, like I was in high school, I would. I wasted so much time and didn't give a fuck about my future because I was living only for the present and chasing some stupid idea I had in my head of what youth is supposed to be like. I'm not saying you can never enjoy yourself, but don't do what I did. The fleeting pleasures of sex and alcohol are not worth throwing away your opportunities. Now that I have been through that phase of my life, I appreciate solitude and sobriety. I don't worry about what the cool thing to do is - or if I'm missing out by staying in my room. Because I know that the idyllic image of being one of the cool kids, going out, having fun - is just something that existed in my head. I look at people who party all the time now and can see so many of them for what they are - they are losers who are going nowhere in life and spinning their fucking wheels, just like I was not so long ago.

Well done friend. Those around you may appear as if they have the whole world in their hands, but deep down are swallowed by an emptiness caused by self-indulgence and lack of a higher-purpose. You may not see it, but there are many people your age like you who purposely reject the partying youth culture because they see it for what it really is, or can’t quite put their finger on it. You will probably come to your own conclusion whiteout being force fed what to believe, but know that if anyone is wasting their youth, it’s not you. Youth is about developing an understanding of the world and what it’s really like in prep for adult life, and ironically, Jow Forums is better for that than school (apart from grades).

21 year old man here and this is inspiring. One love, user.

Your "golden years" don't have to be your teenage memories or childhood, OP. Plenty of people have a rough start, and if you work towards it, you can make sure that your golden years are in the future. Find what makes you happy and the rest of your life can be your golden years.