GIOYC - Get It Off Your Chest

I want out of this rat race, grinding away working for someone else, trying to afford the freedom to breathe easy about how im going to afford this room i sleep in, how im going to pay for this car I drive to work, and where my next meal is coming from.
Im one flu away from choosing to have any of these things or dying. If I meet one (1) singular cop whos having a bad day and he decides he doesnt like my face he can irrevocably fuck me up financially for a moving violation or some random shit. If some asshole in a lifted truck he bought with daddy's money who has no idea what a savings account is hits me and I miss a couple days of work im FUCKED. I understand why people are blowing each other away in schools and shooting up heroin. How does anyone cope in this gay earth?

I wish I was someone that deserved nice things. I miss being a good person

Don't stalk me bro

>tfw i read this
>tfw i have no face

Even so, you are still worthy of nice things. If you want to try, you can still go back. I believe in you user.

I want to take every thought about her and rip it out and away from my being

Are you a brit and is he some american slav or some shit? I might know you guys and holy shit you two had a baby together lmao
>A 30+ yo manslut is not a good father
Lmao

I wish I never met you, fucking rekt the shit out of me for no reason.

Anxiety is back, I don't talk to you guys because of anything you did, I'm just not in the right frame of mind, I ignored you for 2 months because I was afraid to face my feelings. I hate that I care so much about you, my friends. I know I'm hard being friends with but god damn I love you all. I'm just broken, so I try to improve slowly to be better, get rid of social media apps, get rid of internet apps, go outside once in a fucking while and just breathe. And have a singal goal in mind. Calling one of you, weather it be **** or ******* or *********, i just want to call you, talk to you, hear your voice, what are you doing? Are you still on that goal? You got sick? When? Don't worry too much, it's gonna be fine, and hey you got me right? Brittle me......

I want to be stronger so I can catch any and all of you, if you fall.

I hope you burn in hell for what you did to my family. I will take solace in the hell you will inevitably create for yourself here on Earth.

>tfw posted a shitpost on a different board while really tired and barely functioning
>woke up and now it's a meme

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I really don't need this shit. Take care.

Congratz user. Enjoy you hours of fame

I wish i could die. You’ll never like me. I want to give up on everything. I love you but who cares.

You all don't know how much you hurt me, and I know you're tired of guessing, but you've proven to me in the past that you would never be open to how i really feel so fuck you, and fuck what we had.

No that's not us but yeah, he trapped me with a baby.

His mother hated his father for being abusive to her and then leaving the family back to home country. The dad died and literally the next time I ovulated he knocked me up because he didn't want his mom to leave the country because she was planning on going. (Mind you we were casual fwb for almost 5 years before that)

So glad I don't have to deal with any of them again. Him, I only have to deal with through court and if and when we ever reach a coparenting point, I'll only deal with him through mediators and court approved apps for communication.

The guy actually is in a fantasy that I want him or to be with him or to hurt him. He's clueless on reality because he's seeing things through a narcissistic lens and his mother yapping and barking in the background doesn't help.

He doesn't comprehend that I've drawn clear and specific boundaries. Never did with him before so now he thinks this is revenge.

He doesn't have a clue what he'd be into right now if I wanted to seek revenge.

I just want to get this over with but his lawyer keeps dragging it out. Not to mention he didn't do what he was supposed to but then runs around blaming me for it.

Thankfully the people in my life now see and know what's up. Those who believe him don't know me or are in my life and I prefer that way because they are extremely low frequency people.

Misery loves company is the truest statement ever.

No YOU stop stalking me, bro.

Stop pretending you are ME bro! He's not your stalker.

What's even the point of being alive when you have to do stuff to be happy, but if you don't for a while you end up so sad. momentum I guess

Therapy to keep yourself o the floating line

I'm sorry...I don't know how to do this.
It's kind of overwhelming and I'm still wondering...do you feel the same? I don't know, but I guess I just want to know if I occupy your thoughts as much as you do mine.

You know, I really want to tell you.

nah nigga i aint got time for that shit lmfao gotta get that bread

Please do. I'm waiting for your move.

I wish I could forget about some of the things I love and have interest in so I may have some temporary pleasure of learning it all again. I've been educated about & trained to understand all of the things I have ever aspired to know above all else. Thanks to such guidance I have the capacity to navigate these and enrich and refresh myself on these topics on my own. Even the things I never thought I'd find an answer yet highly desired to have been revealed to me. I have been privileged to receive this fortune I desired.

That's the problem now. There is nothing commensurable left that I truly desire to understand. I keep expanding my horizons further and further and yet I find nothing new left I find of pure interest. It's been many years now. The fortune I desired and received brought me contentment. My desires and sensibilities are met and I take solace in that but my heart is dead. No passion, no intrigue, no mystery left in the confines of reality wanted to be solved. I just exist now. My physical life is ideal but I can't feel happy about it. I want to be sad that I perceive nothing to pursue but I can't even sigh.
Achieving my ideal only led me to stop being a normal functioning human being.

So take it away and make me learn it again. Striving to a goal seems so much more invigorating than already being there. I'd prefer that over the long time I have left.

But I'm a finite thing that already has all the finite knowledge they strived to have and possess. But I don't believe in Weltsmertz so I stay in the world seeking out that new interested passion still. Now that's sounds pretty ironic.

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Yes Alex, all the time. I remain agnostic about it so that I don’t lose my marbles while overthinking it all so often.

>inb4 not Alex

I'm in pain.

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I don't even know anymore about anything. All I know is I have this pain in my heart that never goes away no matter what I do.

Live for your wife, if not for yourself. That always forces me to work hard for my family.

It's impossible to know what's right in your world. I don't see truth or justice there, only suffering. It is not my world, it never will be.

I think I’m just gonna go away. I feel like I have to. I’m suffering. You don’t care and it hurts. I want to never care about anyone ever again. I hate feelings.

Any love I felt was imaginary.

I try so hard not to upset you, but i live with chronic pain and my mood is all over the place when I’m dealing with my cancer. I want to be better for you, I want to stop making you cry when I’m not doing well. I feel selfish for loving you, when caring for me on my hard days hurts your feelings so much. I want to be open and honest but I have to censor my words because you have trust issues like I use to. I don’t want anyone else, but I do want to get healthy so we can cut that drama out of our lives.

You know where I'll be. I'll be ready this time.

Why the fuck does my stupid fucking shitty heart ache like it is being stabbed.

Who cares man, you have what you need in life on your own. You will be fine just accept that you gave it a shot, you're supossed to be alone to become great so just suck it up and go!!

How do they take care of you? Are you married?

Why do fat women act like babies? Are they being brainwashed by bad food to become babies?

I was at that point 2 years ago, take care of yourself and to hell with the world including strangers like me.

It's all lies. You're just demons that line your own pockets. I hate you all and I hope you all die.

I will never help you again.

Fast food chemicals are a contributing factor unironically.

I can't go anywhere or do anything without something triggering my BDD. I've been sitting here for an hour doing nothing because all I can think about is my obsessions. My face. Where I compare to every ex. A feeling of disgust that squeezes out of every pore and bites like fire ants. My face again. My fucking face.
But you got your precious fucking tv shows, so that's all that matters.

I want to kill myself every day but I can't because it would break my grandparents heart. I had absent and abusive parents who made me a pathetic loser with an unattractive personality in an even more unattractive body. My prom date cancelled on me last week after pursuing me for months and told mutual friends I was ugly anyway and lied that I was "obsessed" with him. I thought that as I got older things would get better but they've just gotten worse.

I go to university in the fall but I'm scared that I'll struggle to make friends there and I'll feel even more alone in a new city.

My prom is this weekend and I honestly can't even look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. I'm the type of girl that old ladies and girls always say is "beautiful" but all I can see in myself is some fat loser and everyones in on this cruel joke to make me believe In something I'm not.

I'm just tired

We want to get married, we live in different countries and even though we visit it’s never enough time. She’s dealing with getting ready to immigrate to the USA and I’m helping her. She wants to help me and I want to make her happy, but the distance has been a huge problem. I rejected her at first because I knew how hard it would be for her, but I changed my mind and said I’ll take her anyway I can get her.

You will be sued for every penny you have. Karma is a bitch.

They own every platform, they have all the information and they will take you down. They were just waiting for enough evidence to incriminate you. They've had it for a while.

I don’t trust people who haven’t had suicidal thoughts at least once in their lives. I think anyone who can be so stoked about their own life didn’t earn what they have. “Normies” are all a bunch of idiots that follow people who hate themselves so much they changed the world to feel better.

I gave it my absolute very best. I just want you to know that

Deep down, I know.

Its been too long, there is no going back now. Some things can't be repaired. Best of luck with the cause, I hope its the right one for you. Goodbye.

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I tried, I really did. My anxiety got the best of me and I threw everyone away. I'm a failure in every sense of the word. It won't ever get better. I'll give it till midnight to see if I really want out of all this.

>Texts me that she misses me
>Goes out of her way to show me a drawing she made of me a long time ago
>Conversation is good for about a day
>Resumes ghosting me
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YOU goddamn

Good luck with that.

how do i get a goth bf pls

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I want to know more about life and know what I am going to do with it also I need to figure out a way to get money and find out new stuff

lmao this was how my ex bf was except instead of drawings, it was video game levels.

Also I would like someone to explain the deep web to me more I don’t know much about it but would like to know more

Yeah, but I feel so empty because I've been depressed for so long that even when I'm at my lowest I seem really happy and "smiley" as one of my teachers referred to me as.

I can just brush everything off as a joke in public so none of my friends know when I'm upset. I'm incapable of being emotionally vulnerable now even though I just want someone to understand.

I don't want to have to keep being tough by myself all the time

I still don't know who drew me and wrote a poem. I lost it and I can't even remember what it said. It had a tree, or branches and vines. The poem was beautiful. Whoever that was, thank you, you made me fall in love with a ghost and it was a real gift, unlike my fake internet gift. I wish I knew. I will never know. I still don't know how you saw me.

And now you realize that it is the only post out of the thread you've replied to.

Deep web is just a place you wouldnt find on google

This includes onion sites

What, like
>This video game level reminds me of you

Yeah. Think something similar to what people do in gmod together.

Don't do it. Just don't. Trust me.

Nope.

Cute. Did it work out in the end?

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TWO YEARS

You were always following me, right from the very start.

>this was how my ex bf
>ex
No. Ghosting is gay and he wasn't my type tbf.

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I think the kittychannel has been open now for at least 20 years.

fuck you for doing this to me

If I die under suspicious circumstances or if I go missing, immediately look at my girlfriend as the number one suspect.

But I have an alibi! I've been hanging out with my friends :)

You have to find someone worth trusting or eventually they’ll find you, when you do I’d suggest trying to make it work.

She'd automatically be high on the list but you should make a kind of note about this irl for people to find that if you genuinely believe it. Actually more than one note and tell your friends. You presumably deserve to be avenged.

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I signed up for a martial arts class in an attempt to forget about you. I have to figure out a way to live without you. I'm so god damned sad.

Is someone still considered an incel even if they aren't angry and bitter, and don't show any signs of being bothered by it?

Nope. Means that person is a virgin.

Incels are furious manchildren and are bitter about everything just because they can't get laid.

What about if girls approach you for sex but you don't fuck them because you want a meaningful relationship? I'm so tired of all this meaningless tail.

That's a relief, thanks user. It doesn't really change anything, but at least I know people won't hate me as long as I keep it too myself

Maybe there is something wrong with me.

I know I have other, more important goals but right now I'm just going to gain as much weight as possible.

Amen brotha, gotta make chedda to make it betta.

That guy's making...improperly fermented apple juice.

Why do bad things always happen to me? Oh God.

Yes, you were asking for way too much money. And meals. Hell, the sex wasn't even that good in retrospect.

Fine, tell you what, let's go to fucking Denny's at like 2 am, then we get back in the car and get our 'feelings' out of the way.

You get closure, I get a quick fix, and we'll be done.
I'll forget you after like a few months, you forget me quicker, and we both go back to our lives.

You'll never read this or reply, so I'm just gonna giggle my ass off while I go watch my shows.

I bought a web cam for skype interviews and I look hideous in it. Fuck I didn't know I was ugly bros.

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>Skype
You gotta have a good webcam, like aside from your crummy laptop's.
Second off Skype is laggier than hell.

A really cute girl checked me out as I was entering the grocery store and I did the same, this has been the first time I’ve felt sexual validation in a while and it felt amazing.
Some day I’ll get to a point where I can turn around and start a conversation in order to actually make something of it all, this was still a small victory and thank you grocerystore lady for eyefucking me and giving me the boost of confidence I was sorely lacking

I think part of it is that I'm pale as hell. Makes me look sickly.

Lighting is everything, man. Adjusting the lighting in your room, especially what's on your face, will help.