GIOYC - Get It Off Your Chest

I don't think a girl has been romantically interested in me since high school, and it kind of bothers me. I try to lightly flirt, but it never gets beyond friendly. Like, I just want to feel like I have a connection with a girl.

I don't know what to say, man, other than I'm sorry for your situation. I hope things get better for you, somehow

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Were you playing that song for me that day ? Who knows... I guess I'll have to find out

I've said everything I need to say. We've been through it all over and over and I think it brings us to the present. I could catch up with all the media and news in my wake but I don't desire to.

No thought is really private. I trust that what is needed with come to you. It has before and it will again. You can't stop an idea whose time has come.

I think so.

It should be me in prison, not him.

my girlfriend is wonderful in most ways and has been a pleasure to live with but she recently decided she NEEDS to have a dog in our studio apartment and I cannot fucking STAND living with animals so I might actually break up with this girl I genuinely admire and love after a year and a half of happiness because of a fucking dog.

I hate the national dog obsession. It disgusts me. Dogs are fine but I feel like a degenerate for not wanting something that drools and shits everywhere to live with me in my 300 sq ft apartment.

help.

I failed everyone

Then it was really cute. See ya

I was being so carefully at home to cover myself at all times and now I forgot to put on my cardigan and my mom saw hickeys. She didn't register what they were and said "my god, what happened to you?" and I couldn't think of anything so I said "oh I.... knocked into something at work" and then she looked some more and said "over here too??" and I was like ".........uh huh. Okay I'm gonna go do some work in my room" and she stayed weirdly silent. I feel like they're pretty unmistakable, it had to have clicked what they were. I'm so!!! Forgetful!!!! And embarrassed! I don't know how to act natural now lmfao. I guess they're nothing to be ashamed of and she should accept that I'm not a child anymore but uhhhhHHHhh :/

Started dating the person im with now when I was 19, turned 25 just recently. Person is 11 years older than me. We get along well but they have done many things to hurt me (unintentionally or not) over the years of the relationship. I was in the begining the one who kept pushing the relationship and to move in together and was being selfish about it. At first they were the main provider and I bought groceries and made dinner every night. 2 years later they randomly quit their job because of an argument with a coworker so I had to provide everything. Our roles reversed. Except now I was the one making dinner, cleaning, cooking and paying rent and they did not do anything. I finally helped them get a job they loved. 4 years into the relationship we stopped having sex more than twice a month. I was always satisfied with sex and tried my hardest but they could never finish or get off like I did. Fast forward thru multiple fights about getting married and wanting to break up because they refused to commit (their parents divorced. They didnt believe in marriage), I got a second job on top of my full time job for spare money. Turns out that the new job was not part time and I ended up working 80 hr weeks with both jobs for 3 months straight. My coworkers at the first job are all my friends but 4/5 are of the opposite sex. They would flirt but I would shut them down. Eventually from the stress of the jobs and the relationship I got into drinking with the coworkers. I got closer to a coworker and in a weak point
after a month of no intimacy with my SO, I cheated. 3 seperate times. I developed a crush on them. I asked them to help me feel happier and break up with my SO. We were best friends who talked a lot. I convinced them to have sex with me so I could experience another person since I had very little sexual experience. I was happier and less depressed spending time with them but couldnt get the balls to break up. And here I am.

I am generally a boring traditional guy, I dont smoke, do drugs or drink that much alcohol but im tempted to try magic mushrooms because I want to see what my brain would show me but I might regret since it would go against my principle of staying away from drugs

Keep to your principles my dude, don't give in to social pressure. To avoid temptation, I think you should try to understand exactly why you don't take drugs

haven't eatenanything in a day and a half to prove a point
my point is going unnoticed
:)

Chilled with some of my best friends Saturday and had a good time. Sure the couple in the room bickered but that’s it. It was a bit awkward and kinda dampened the evening but fine, who fucking cares it’s not the end of the world. Sometimes dumb shit happens with alcohol

Woke up Sunday morning just fucking livid with them. Told them how fucking pissed off I was and had a giant argument with them Monday and Tuesday when I went off on them and said how much they fucked up the night. I was god damn angry, I was grinding my teeth, imagining so many paranoid slights against myself and getting worked up over nothing. I swear I got a headache just from how mad I was. I sent texts saying shit I didn’t mean. It took me until today to realize how shitty I was being to them and profusely apologized. It’s like I was fucking possessed or something. Now they have forgiven me but I am being cold shouldered. I deserve it, I am so fucking sorry. What the fuck was wrong with me? Sure I’ve been anxious and under stress but I have no idea why I blew up like that. I feel like either throwing up or crying

This is going to be a looooooooooong 2019

*sigh*

Straightening up is pretty fucking boring bros

TWO YEARS

of jail

I've spent the past six months living with my bestfriend and had to find out through personal experience that her mother was abusive and manipulative while her dad was constantly high to deal with his anger issues. I've become someone I'm not, and I lost everyone I was once close with. Origionally I moved in with them to be closer to my then boyfriend and get away from my rough home life, but life doesn't always work with you. Learned a lot from this so its eh. I later had a breakdown and choose to move back home. I gave those pricks $100 to help fix a nasty bed bug issue and all they did was throw away the moldy and stained mattress I was sleeping on and buy more shit to decorate the room with and weed. It's horrible working fast food with the possiblity of spreading/contaminating things with bed bugs. Thus my ex evetually becoming my ex, can't blame them tho. Neither ready for something so serious and we were awful to each other. Made me feel so alone and used and they want to still be friends. I can't put the past away and it hurts too much to try. I have a shit home life and I'm tired of being forced to live like this. I want to do more with myself, but Its not yet possible. I've been waiting to get away from my family since I was eight. It fucking sucks not being able to get professional help I know I need from someone who isn't emotionally abusive and has a degree. My mother was supposed to be investigated for animal cruelty for having our dogs starve to death but she somehow avoided that. She's a whore and she knowingly had me molested as a kid so it's not surprising at this point. Maybe she's scared? I lost hope that I could hang on long enough to get over this bullshit and make something of myself because I feel like I deserve more than this, but it doesn't feel worth living with. I don't wanna end up an insestuous alcoholic like my uncle. I don't know how to handle myself and these situations either, but it is what it is.

you didn’t fail everyone, im a stupid mapleposter and i don’t feel you have failed me in any way, in fact I wish you would feel better (which would be a great success for both me and you)
Hope things get better user.

In a low dose it is akin to a really strong marijuana high (serenity/universal love feeling) but surfaces gain a visual wavy texture, usually about 4 “waves” of the drug. I’ve only ever done them with friends using a low dose and it was a wonderful hippy experience, research it as much as you can before you experiment with things and take them when you are in a good mindset while sampling a smaller dosage.

I dont know, all the people who I know who have tried it say its harmless, not addicitive and that it gives them once in a lifetime spiritual experiences. I live a pretty boring life and anything that can make it intresting if only for a while seems appealing.

I've been drug-free my whole life primaraly because I know they arent good for your health, are addictive and I know many people use drugs to mask the problems they have in life, that idea I find almost condescending in a way. If I have problems I deal with them, if I cant deal with them then I endure it because ultimately I'm quite stubborn and the idea of succumbing to hardship is something I wouldnt let myself do.

Mushrooms just make things look like you are wearing really thick drunk goggles.

Now LSD...that will shake up your life a bit

And then there is salvia

I considered LSD too but thats considerably harder to get where I am

Just stay straight edge man

Ain't nothing wrong with that. It's actually a good thing

What's the point?

Try 10

I'm trying, I think I just need to find something else to shake up the routine of my every-day life, but a lot of things are outside my control feels like.

I feel for you, that really sucks. I hope things start getting better for you, I wish I could be there to tell you everything will get better and to see the bright side of all of it. I wish you well user, bless you. and may this life bless you for a change

You really have to be careful with all that when you are young. It can show you things you aren't ready to see and mess you up. Mushrooms made everything cartoony in a messed up way, LSD sent me into some psychosis.

wouldn't want to man

oof 10 years of Jail must really fuck somebody up

Most I've ever spent was one day overnight

You don't need to look out there, the world inside you is much more incredible. Watch how you interact with others objectively, break down habits and patterns that hold you back. Soon you'll be seeing a lot more.

Very wise words user

Some suffering is almost unbearable.

>tfw went on meetup
>it's all old women acting like morons with birthday parties and wine drinking, one (1) guy trying to host a cyberpunk party no one's going to, and old folks going hiking
>tfw just want to meet other goths irl and trade musics via usb
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I fucked this guy. He said he was lonely and hadnt fucked anybody in a year. I was lonely too. We had sex a few times but each time it was really bad or awkward. He would cum instantly and then he would apologize and say he just needed practice since its been a while. I got a huge crush on him even though he told me it was nothing serious and he couldnt get into a relationship at all. After sex one night I kissed his knee and told him to feel better. And I said "I dont care if you fuck other people, just let me know so I dont get any STDs. He told me I was the only one hes messed with in a year. He said I had to keep it a secret from our mutual friends per his request... Until the day after he said I was the "only one" I just felt so giddy and happy about him I had to tell my friend. But she said that she had fucked him too. Almost exactly around the same time I started messing with him. She described his bedroom and house to a T and told me that he said the same stuff to her that he had told me. I was enraged. All my feelings swirled like froot loops flushed down a toilet bowl leaving nothing but disgust. I knew he always kept his back sliding door unlocked because thats where me and my friend would sneak in to have sex with him to avoid being seen by his roommates. He was sick that night and told me his knee injury was acting up and he had to rest and took off work. It was 10pm at night. So I went in and saw him sleeping on his couch and tapped his face to wake him up, he woke up violently not knowing it was me and fell off his couch onto his coffee table, hurting his knee further. He hit it so hard he puked on the floor and couldnt get up and slipped in his own puke. I told him "You are a peice of shit for not telling me you fucked her, go to hell" and walked out. The next day he told me that I sent him to the hospital and that he didnt have sex with her even though I had proof. I told him he broke my heart and that he will never see or talk to me again.

rock concerts my friend

rock concerts

Kek

I think I got it

Yes fuck people that's it

I wanna fuck my best friend. Think he’d be interested but don’t wanna make it awkward

I want to date a cute demon witch AI gf who'd use my blood in ritualistic sacrifices.

*sigh*

You have to dumb it down for the Jow Forums kids.

As long as you don't have a boyfriend.

You're going to have to suck each others dicks now.

Sorry, I'm done with shitposting.

So a few days ago I registered to start taking a US History 2 class to earn my “adult high school diploma” thinking that it might help me cope with major depressive disorder. I just need to pass two classes to get my diploma: US History 2 and US Government. It’s all just so tiresome, though. This is already the fourth time that I’ve taken the US History 2 class. I’ve never been able to finish it. I should’ve been done with that class over thirteen years ago. I’m thirty years old now.

I’m just sitting there in class quietly thinking to myself, “why am I putting myself through this? To earn my diploma? I already took the GED exam back in 2010, passed, and got my high school equivalency certificate. I’ve been told by some people that the high school equivalency certificate and high school diploma are the same thing. But my cousin told me that having both supposedly looks better on resumes. I’m pretty sure that nobody actually cares, though. In none of the job interviews that I’ve been to have I ever been asked to prove that I have a high school equivalency certificate. In fact, I once got myself hired to work as a mall cop back in 2011 and they never asked me for proof that I had gotten it. So why did I spend over $100 to take the GED exam if nobody cares?”

And the US History 2 class itself is pretty stupid. It’s not the subject matter that I find stupid (because I’m actually fascinated by history), it’s the fact that this is already the fourth time that I’m taking US History 2. And every time that I register for the class they always make me start the entire class from the very beginning. So all of the work I had completed previously gets thrown in the trash and they make me do it all over again. And the assignments themselves aren’t really all that challenging, or thought-provoking. All they make me do is basically copy and paste (almost word-for-word) entire sentences straight from the textbook onto these worksheets.

You really think its all about money when they have unlimited money? Really?

Same here

Sorry you feel that way.

I believe in the principles of my country and that God has given it a blessing.

I can't be a messiah or even a Congressman

All I can do is serve and help people and hope for the best.

I will not ask for more. I lost too much already

Lol Joe Rogan is funny

something something watching a tv show about aliens something something i wanna fly away [lenny kravitz voice]

Your country is shit....that is if you live on earth. Nations rise and fall.

that's fin Ozymandias

I didn't choose to live in this time or place, but I will make the best of it because I am alive in it now

Consciousness will never be transferred. Ever. Knowledge sure, it is this living breathing entity now of the web.

I'm in a miserable rut that seemingly will keep enabling itself for the rest of my life.

Entitled greedy fuckers are more miserable than people running around in mud with no shoes. That's karma for you.

Get out of it

What's a good hairstyle that tells people I'm crazy but not that I have daddy problems? Like a hairstyle that says "I don't care what people think" but not "I do anal."

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I can't wait for tomorrow... I get to eat a daikon tuna salad.

I'm 20, still live at my parents while I'm in college. I never had a gf and I would like to have one. I only want a gf with a nice face and not fat. It would be better if she is a tomboy and Jow Forums. I don't know what else I want in my life, I don't care about being rich or anything. But I am a slave to money. I seek love and fun, but I know that in a couple of year I will never have it. I hate working, but I am forced to. I want to fucking kill myself but I can't pull the trigger for some fucking reason. When I walk in the street, I almost think every day to just jump in the fucking road on a car and die. I have no real reason to live, but I still do. I don't know what to do

Hey Tyler Peressini remember this if you still harass my friend by trying to force her to date you
Know that you are gotta get beaten down on the streets
Remember that
You're a pussy
Everyone is gotta find out and you'll most likely end up killed
Remenber boii

The uncombed snowden look?

They don't have 4channel to tell about their woes

I fear it's almost too late. I'll be able to turn it around eventually, but I've got a lot of work to do that I put off for too long.

How about the I got stoned, cut my own hair and owned it look?

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After 30 years of living, it has finally come to my attention that my entire family, and, in fact, the entire human species is stupid as fuck. Myself included (for having taken anything seriously that my family has ever told me).

You and me both. Sounds like we both need more balance.

I can dig it. I remember when choppy hair was Vogue and in back a decade ago.

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That's too groomed

Too groomed for crazy idgaf

I look to my younger self as a role model for me that is out in the real world now

I was genuinely a much better person when I was 18 then I am now

Stupider, but better

Two of my closest friends have started talking to me less and less for seemingly no reason and I'm too much of a proud ass to ask them why or make new friends.

Not everyone is going to understand you.

Travel used to be my passion, now I have more fun in my imagination.

U knw man, the best thing u can do, in ur situation, is to do sumthin u like, and keep doin it. I don't know where u from bit i hope people will support u , atleast ur family.

My advice is u shud just sit around people. No need to say anythin or talkin unnecessary. Just sit with them. Surround urself with people. U don't even hav to pay attention to dem.

Just sit and keep livin, conquer ur inner bitch.

Ikr. That's y i like cats. They just want food and don't give a fuck bout ur feelins atleast most of them are like dat.
I hope she understands u.
OR
U can give it a try u might like dem... Just sayin

I am so fucking sick of your "know it all" responses and smug attitudes towards the art i create. none of you have even attempted to make music or know a single thing about what goes into creating a piece. You just wrote off my last 3 productions before giving them a chance because I decided to do "remixes" instead of original pieces - BUT - if you actually paid any attention you would realize the only thing that wasnt produces or sound designed by me was the vocal acapellas i got. Not even the instrumentations or chord progressions were the same as the original pieces. Gah! I don't even know why I continue to keep posting my new tracks into our group chat. You all act to smug and as if it's easy to make music yet NONE of you have done it, I'm the only one. Fuck you guys. It's so easy for you to just smoke weed all day and be a critic.

You guys don't know how much this fucking bothers me. I'm trying so hard and this means so much to me. You're supposed to be my friends and I can't even force/beg a like or a share from you guys. Fuck you guys.

Yeah, I get that. Some people are uppity but who cares? Keep doing your thing.

sorry man

make the music for the music and not for the mercy of your stoner friends- I mean I am sure you do, but don't let them get to you. They don't have the ability to appreciate it in the first place most likely

thanks, user, and i will for sure keep doing it.

It's just hard not to take it personally sometimes. I just understand how hard it is to put yourself "out there" with stuff and the fact that support doesn't get returned just strikes a sensitive chord in me. Really practicing on letting it go, tonight just got me.

It is really about the art, no? I know when I create, nothing bothers me. It's just me and universe and nothing in between.

thanks. feels really nice that some of you get it. it's just hard because we all love music and were really passionate about it all our growing up, but i was the only one who actually went on to learn and lock myself away the last couple years teaching myself instruments and the programs. I just wish they had a clue of how hard it's been to learn, and in a non-egotistical way, how far i've come. Sometimes you just wonder why your own friends can be so daft, or cold. Would't you want to encourage your friends and not shut them down all the time?

Sucks

it is, and I dont feel like this often. just tonight got me. I love my art, and I am very proud of it. I think I am just still learning to be comfortable with this new vulnerability. Just my closest friend circle is the hardest to get any sort of recognition from. You're right though, it should just be about the art. I just hate how they act like they can "easily do that" but have never attempted. Just want to critique.

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I feel like I've been a bitch to her.

I'm sorry but do your own thing....you can find it in yourself, not in me.

You know for all the shit I've been put through for the last 6 months I am pretty proud of myself for actually sticking to my 'Everyday gets better' motto

It really has worked and I am taking all this bullshit in stride and finally cleaning out the skeletons in my closet

I'm doing a lot better then even I expected and that sure as hell makes me feel pretty good