Any advice on how to overcome feeling of worthlessness ?

Hi, i havent been on 4 chan quite some time but i know some of you people are actually smart. So I would appreciate any kind of advice you can give me.

Im 22m fullstack web developer but i feel wothless. like mcdonald cashier worthless. I live in a country where fuckery with employees is very common, and wages arent that great. For imagination, my salary is mcdonald tier. I always thought that if i work hard on myself i will live a good life, but i feel i couldnt be more wrong. Even these self proclaimed important and irreplaceable girls at customer support get 2x better wages than me. I work 10-12 h/day, weekends too because i still hope it will change. These girls i work with are even getting compliments on their job. Like wtf they are just writing emails and forwarding customer problems and requests to us, then spending half the day on fb, ig and other social platforms. Im not saying that i need a constant praise, but at least dont look at me like "im just doing my job". Oh and the shitty paycheck doesnt help at all. It has gotten so far that the only social interaction i can get is if people (outside my job) asking me if i can make some web based application for them. Dont get me wrong, i like when people specifically request my help, but its pathetic on my part that this is the only interaction i can get.

Sorry for complaining, i needed to get this off of my chest. By any means i dont want to sound like i dont value other peoples jobs, its just that im constantly stressed by deadlines, even went through burnout (confirmed by my psychiatrist) even had erectile dysfunction AT TWENTY FUCKING TWO because of it. I feel that i have no value in current society. Any kind of advice on how to overcome this will be highly appreciated (wont take pills - already did and it was shit).

Inb4 "just ask for raise", i did, it was forwarded to HR and she told me im too young to ask for this kind of stuff

And since I remember my days on Jow Forums: Inb4 "haha kys"

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I suggest you find a better job, while you are working there look for another job that pays well, because it could be a possibility that this job is as high as it’s gonna get for a while

OP here, i have to leave for an hour, so i will not respond, but please leave me some feedback

thtats a good suggestion, thank you

Find a new company to work for. I was at a couple places like that in the past, it's amateur trash culture.

Yeah, also perhaps i should learn how to haggle myself worthy salary.

Never stop fighting, it can only get better

Grow a vag fagger

Very honest and structured advice, thank you

op if you have some spare money, quit, seriously quit. do some projects on your own, and let yourself be flooded with HR kitties on linkedin. i mean if you are fullstack dev, what does it matter. skilled people are wanted everywhere

Yeah, thats also a posibility, but these "kitties" work for agencies that profit from high salaries and as i Said, i cant haggle a good price for myself, i usually want at least 1.5 k euros/m and that is apparently low profit for them. Im not making excuses its just that i need to learn how to sell myself better. But i dont lie like these self proclaimed important people Who just write mails and have a degree

improve your skills further in your free time.
Learn new frameworks and tools and overall give better use to your free time (workout, learn new skills and so on)
also start looking for better paying jobs.

Yep, Will start with quitting because after 10-12 h/day i have no energy for self improvement anymore, and unfortunately im not a bot

i wouldn't advice on quitting before you get another offer tho.

I already did. Mentally. Its going to be ok. I can get by, by just making some occasional work for People around. Plus i Will finally have time to learn modern technologies that im interested in and which are better paid

that is the bright side of being a dev - freedom

>I live in a country where fuckery with employees is very common, and wages arent that great

I also live in Canada. Struggle is real.

We need assisted suicide for regular people like us at the hospitals already

Find something else where you can build confidence, something where you can win.

I am getting a lot from Runtastic's premium subscription's 5k run - the recorded trainer really focuses on making you feel like a winner for simply running. Plus people around me (here in CZ) tend to really like running for some reason. Still fat as fuck but helps. In the same note, going slow-carb is doing wonders for my mental health.

Try improv classes. It's very focused on "failing is OK" mentality, and does wonders for conversational abilities. Plus many pretty girls. It's a cool challenge to get you out of your comfort zone and be OK with talking to people.

I'm reading Tim Robbins's "Awaken the giant within". It's self help crap, yes, but it does make a lot of sense for people who haven't been taught essential beliefs by parents (e.g. me).

Working 12 hrs / 7 days a week is idiotic. At some point the money becomes less important than the free time, during which you can chill, build relationships, or self-improve.

Lastly, as everyone here is saying - find a different job. As for the praise, I've often seen idiots being praised because people were hoping they would be less idiotic. Them being pretty girls and people hitting on them (and women being nice to them to avoid bad relationship in workplace) further enforces this behavior. People won't compliment you on your work if they don't know what are you doing. Plus, you know... at the end of the day, you may simply be doing a shitty job :(.

Still, good luck and GJ for reaching out for help!

Just out of curiosity: What is this shitty country you are speaking of? 1.5k Euro for full stack dev is really little :(

OP here, its actually fucking CZ, i wanted to get into running for some time to clear my head, i heard its very good for that

Op here again, i like this whole "failing is okay", because it has been the only thing i ever knew. But we need to keep going. You cant expect to win without fighting. This is how i keep myself going, but i started to notice its Getting much harder and harder to get up. Still. Thank Czech bro for encouragement

ask for raise genius

Read again, i already did

as everyone here said, find different job, maybe some warm place in corpo enviroment

Thats what im thinking! I already have one on my mind. What i like About this one Corp, is that only thing that matters to them is my code, not my appearance, not my personality, just the code, which is very appealing to me. But i still have so much shit to learn. Wish me luck!