Need Relationship advice

I need advice, anons.
I'll greentext my story for you
>be me
>be december 2018
>meet girl through friends
>Shy, cute, small girl, into witchery and shit (Though the cute witch stuff, not the crazy stuff)
>hit it off spectacularly
>We are together, but she's torn apart between me and another guy that she met this summer
>Everyone here thinks we're the perfect couple
>while time passes we become a proper couple, and we go official on valentine's day
>Never been happier
>We fuck, we love each other, do couple stuff
>Feel like a normie, but i've never been happier
>She's sometimes distant, rarely tells me any compliment, keeps teasing me about her leaving for that guy
>She knows i am insecure about my relationship, because of a previous relationship that destroyed my faith in people
>Only had 2 big fights, and both of them were because she behaved like shit, and i was the one to mak the first step to reconciliate (she took the full blame for those)
>The last one was on the 15th of march

>be me
>Yesterday
>She's showering
>Was looking for something in her bedroom
>Found her diary (She still keeps it, but she told me she never usually writes in it)
>Look last entry
>16 march
>tldr; she'd leave me in a drop of a hat if the other guy ever asked her to be together
>feel my heart skip 2 beats
>Die inside, litterally feel my heart stop beating
>Realize my whole relationship is based on me being a placeholder
>Cry
>Put back everything as it was supposed to be, wipe my tears and put on a fake smile
>She comes back
>Without saying anything else she says "I love you"
>Few seconds of silence
>"Sorry, i needed to tell you that"
>Realize that maybe her feelings have changed
>Fully aware that it's not like that, and i'm a fucking loser to think so

>Don't know what to do

At this point i still haven't told anyhting to her, i for now i don't plan to.

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If you're seriously sure about what she said (exact wording can make all the difference) then dump her ass NOW. If what you're saying is accurate, then you are being sorely disrespected by this girlfriend of yours. Be a man: either have a girl all to yourself or none at all. Respect yourself bro

Dude, just dump her. But remember, women are incapable of love.

>She's sometimes distant, rarely tells me any compliment, keeps teasing me about her leaving for that guy
>She knows i am insecure about my relationship, because of a previous relationship that destroyed my faith in people

Don't get me wrong, the rest is absolutely pathetic too. But this is all I needed to read.

What the fuuuuuck.

Why are you doing this OP?

Get the fuck out, ASAP, yesterday, now, immediately.

literally just talk to her and tell her exactly how you feel. if you can't trust her after talking then dump her.

why not assess the situation and make it your gain. since you know that she's not too loyal to you as 2nd hand good.
Few suggestion:

*slowly and gradually treat her like she's useless without u.. indirect manipulation.
*fuk her and pleasure her the best of her sex life, improvise, u don't need to even penetrate, finger, touch, chain her, blindfold.. the point here is make her feel that no other boys can match your sex life that drive her so wild
*b flirty with all sexy fun cute girl around her, make her jealous. then play the hooky game on your gf. say she pretty then give her cold shoulder. then surprise her with kinky kisses. drive her to need u more.

if u manage to do just a few above, many girls easily still with you even if they have bf. why worry?

Op Here

I'm pretty sure about how it was worded and all, the meaning was what I wrote
The thing that keeps me hoping is the fact that she wrote that almost two months ago, and now she's more affectionate (I don't know if that's the right term)
Either way, thank you for your suggestion

She doesn't feel love, I do though

It's not as bad as I make it to be, I purposely didn't write anything good about our relationship, but thank you regardless for your suggestion

The thing that stops me is that I wasn't supposed to read that shit, bringing it up in an argument if she doesn't feel that way anymore will be a stupid move, in any case, if I decide i'll talk to her, I'll probably make her read it to me, so that I'll have an excuse to talk about it.

What are you, Indian?
I don't know about the girls you know, but she isn't that stupid to fall for these tricks
Thank you anyway for your suggestion, indianon

u worry yourself better since you are desperately easily triggered. By no means I'm Indian, but since you mentioned it you might be Indian. No wonder you have plenty of drama.

As from where I'm from from a well developed country, the ladies knows what they want and I provide them with my services. Since you have tried and failed, based on my assumption you are not an alpha based character.

As you are stuck up with one girl, you may as well be happy to be chain to her and suffer while she plays u out eventually, since you are just admittedly stated you are just a placeholder.

Sure buddy, I am "desperately easily triggered"
Fuck off with your fedora LARP, at least the other anons have provided decent advice

oh well, innocent boy losses it trying to beg for advice and unable to accept clear signs of failures.

another thought, innocent boy could not handle criticism well.

boy will always be boy that never experience the reality of life. Life is not always like chocolate.

look man the indian guy might be onto something you need to make yourself essential in her life otherwise she WILL leave.
but what im worried the most is that she is playing with your feelings and manipulating you.also she said that if the other guy "asked to be together" so you can assume they 100% fucked but the other guy just pumped and dumped her thats why she became more affectionate to you the other guy is not in her life anymore.
but dont get happy cause as soon as another guy she thinks its better than you she is going to pull the same shit.
if i were you i would start emotionally distancing myself from her just pretend she broke up with you so when she actually does it wont hurt as bad . also start looking for girls that way you have some lined up when the break up happens.
also get the idea she is not a good girl and will keep on playing.

user, I'd say that there's a very simple solution but it's requires some balls.

Say that you found a book the other day and opened it up. After reading it you realized you'd found a personal diary. You read something that was very concerning and don't want to make a big deal about it other than just asking for the truth. Does she feel that way? If yes, tell her that you are grateful for her honesty. If no ask her why she wrote it. If she says it was a joke then say alright, wait a day or two and then bite the bullet and end it. God speed, OP.

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Thing is I can't tell her I've "found it" because she knows I know that's her diary.
I'm also scared to know the answer.

I'd bite the bullet, but I prefer keeping her as a fuckbuddy than ending my shitty life

You're only living a shitty life if you let it be shitty. You're a good lad who is doing his best and you've put up with being the consolation prize for long enough. I understand you want it to work. The only other option is to make yourself irreplaceable.

Look at all these low level crooks posting in this thread...shameful.

Get her to make a porno with you THEN dump her.

t. lvl 100 boss

p.s. This answer also applies to 98% of the posts on Jow Forums. You're welcome.

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That's incredible. Holy fuck the genius of it all. They fuck with you, you leak the sex tape. Brilliant. Thanks boss.

Thanks for the words, I really appreciate it, and before knowing her I was actually improving myself through studies and gym, but I dropped gym after meeting her to go to her house.
How should I make myself irreplaceable? I'm not so much into manipulation, and she's not dumb enough to get manipulated

don't forget to cum lots inside her to ensure that if you leak the tape, you also reap the seed that you planted. godspeed

Honestly bro stop being a loser and hurting yourself for the sake of someone who doesn't love you enough to respect you. Get back in the gym. Be desirable. Be the coolest nigga ever.

Thanks for the advice, sincerely.
I'll start training again, and I'll look around if I see someone else, while I wait out what happens with my gf.
Thank you again.

so funny that most of the advice here is so similar, and yet you cannot see the bigger picture.

you got played and still want to be innocent.

if u can't swallow the reality and be bad, you are such a loser. Even the most holiest priest could be hiding as pedo and u trying to be good? no wonder u are not worthy. I am pretty sure if you maintain this attachment, your next gf and the next will still play u like donkey.

I am really sorry to say this op, but you seriously need to sort this out with your girlfriend by telling what's the truth or break up with her. Seriously at this point if you don't do anything and continue playing stupid then it's gonna get way harder. You gotta learn how to be a man, and tell her everything what's wrong because at this point what's the point in loving someone who might played you off like a fool. You don't have to argue with her, but just opened up to her about all of these. tell her what's the truth, or break up with her. It's now or never.

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