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They got defeated by the colonist for more than one reason.

Huh?

Sounds like what a rich gap year student would do.

Unfortunately it’s Just one of those things you either gotta deal with or find another job. People are people, you’ll find similar annoying people anywhere you go.

I’m 29, been here 11 years.

Recently I reconnected with a girl I used to know. We’ve gone out on a few dates. First time I’ve dated in years. Seems to be going well, she definitely shows interest but randomly pulls herself back a bit. Maybe afraid of rushing things? I dunno. I guess I’ll find out after a few more dates wether to pursue it or not.

>People are people, you’ll find similar annoying people anywhere you go.
I don't know, it only feels like the last 5 years or so that wageslave level jobs have been filling up with old people, people who are dead inside and morons.

I'm sorry, user. Rejection sucks and writing's a hard craft to master. I hope you get back into the swing of things soon! Also it's really hard finding a place on the web where you can find other adults.
It's really weird working with people who don't share any of the same interests or drive for knowledge that you do. Learning about random shit is, like, my main hobby, but it's also very hard to communicate that enthusiasm without putting people off.

>It's really weird working with people who don't share any of the same interests or drive for knowledge that you do.
I think some user in the last thread mentioned that zoomers these days have no incentive to work part-time while at uni (for some reason I can't remember) which would explain why there are fewer and fewer young people and people in education working in wageslave jobs.

i turned 29 a week ago
i got a dui last october and as of 2 days ago im finally done with all the diversion bullshit that i had to do, feel really good about that
i met a girl around the same time as the dui and weve been seeing eachother casually since then. shes consistently horny and loves to fuck, so thats been good
i just started a new job last week, its a dead end job but im getting paid more here than i was before and i like it better
ive been doing music since i was 14, now im working on a new album, im working with a label out of ohio on a cassette release of my last album for this summer, also beginning working with a legendary logo designer to get some awesome shirts made hopefully soon
i was bored with playing guitar for the last couple years but ive started learning some new things and my interest in it has been reinvigorated
also went fishing for the first time a couple weeks ago. i went fishing for the second time last weekend and i caught a little trout
things are going pretty good right now, thank you for reading my blog

I seem to be hellbent on saying/doing things that I come to regret after a few hours. I feel legitimately retarded and almost disgusted with myself.

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Whoops forgot to filter your crybaby thread again.

Well, to anybody here who happens to give a fuck: today I turned in the last two essays for my US History 2 adult high school class. After I’m done with this class I still have US Government to finish. That will probably take me another month to do. I probably won’t be able to finish US Government this semester because the semester is almost over. So I’ll have to go back in August when the school opens up again for me to continue taking US Government. Luckily they give me a whole year to finish the class so I won’t have to start the entire class from the very beginning every semester. After I finish US Government I’ll be able to get my adult high school diploma.

It’s all so damn pointless, though. I mean, I had already taken the GED exam back in 2010, passed, and gotten my high school equivalency certificate. I’ve already been told by a few people that the high school equivalency certificate and adult high school diploma are the exact same thing. But one of my cousins had told me that it supposedly looks better to have both on resumes. But I’m pretty sure that nobody cares, though. I’ve already been to several job interviews over the years and in none of them did they ever ask me for proof that I had gotten the high school equivalency certificate. In fact, I had once managed to get myself hired to work as a mall cop back in 2011 and they never asked me to provide proof that I actually had the high school equivalency certificate.

Yeah it’s all just so damn meaningless. I’m not sure why I even bother. I figured that taking these classes would help me cope with major depressive disorder, but it barely does anything for me.

And I can’t even apply to a college right now because my family is currently using my name and social security number for tax purposes for the illegitimate and morally dubious business practices of my brother. So I doubt that I’ll be able to receive government aid.

>morally dubious
What things?

wanting to get back in theater but it means I have to 1 of 3 choices; 1.get a new job and lose a job that is really laid back
2. change my shift which will turn my laid back job into a hectic job
3. keep same work schedule and work around it but means I wont be able to get a lot of sleep.
Input?

It's like one thread.

Do what you enjoy.

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I've worked jobs with fucking idiots my whole life. At first I was like .. ha ha the whole world is fucking dumb except me and my friends. Later on I was like ... woah I'm also retarded sometimes. Like I have the ability to listen to a person and be all ... fuck you I'd never think like you dumb ass. Or like ... imagine having a brain where you'd think that. This person must be really suffering all the time. They do pretty well considering. Imagine the world from their perspective.

I excelled suddenly. I was on the fast track to success. My positive mental attitude and ability to think outside the box and find commonality and thus team focused solutions was valuable. Then I hit a ceiling, found myself blocked by actually obstructive, negative, destructive people who were power hungry, control obsessed, deliberately so for their own benefit.

I didn't mind. I could point that out. I could explain it in a way that even an idiot could understand. Confronted with relentless positivity with complete focus on the stated goals simply highlighted and drew attention to how much these people were working against the stated goals.

Blocked. Impatient. Slightly manic. Unable to deal with frustration. Unable or unwilling to play the political game. Denied further progression because honestly, the upper echelons are extremely traditional, classiest, elitist. Good at consolidating their control.

I moved industry. I told the director all this shit in my interview. I warned them what I was like. I told them what I intended to do and they'd either run with it and find a way to profit from me, or I'd move on to somewhere better. I need to work with passionate and driven people who want to succeed. This was a start up.

That was three years ago and I'm pretty much completely happy with what I'm doing. I have complete control over my entire department and things get better every week. But I still work with idiots. They are universal. You've got to make them assets.

Authors get rejected a hundred times before getting published. Seriously don't stop submitting your work.

29 and sick of your whining. These threads are trash, but most of all you're trash.

Don't read then, don't understand why one thread is such a bug up your ass

Basically what my brother and mother do is that they go out to these small towns looking for dopey, easily-manipulated senior citizens. Then my family asks them for their name, social security number, and Medicare cards. And then my family charges those people’s insurances for things that they may not want or even need, like: vitamins, wheelchairs, nurses, therapists, etc. In many cases these people never even get any of that stuff and they’re too old and dopey to notice. In some cases my family even forges the signatures of these people. So what ends up happening is that these people will not have any money left in their insurances for more important things, like paying for life-saving heart surgery.

how does one ask a fwb or whatever for that dick again without sounding like an absolute tard? we had amazing ass sex several days ago and i crave him so much sexually it sucks. i'm 28 and still feel like a 8 year old kid who's too afraid to ask for things.

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I broke up with my gf of 2 and a half years recently so I live on my own in a house. I have a cool job which although a bit stressful sometimes, is with some decent great people and that's what matters. I really like working with these guys. At the moment I'm just wondering what the hell to do about being single. I do enjoy being single having this freedom to do whatever I want, but I can't help shake this feeling of like, "now what? do i find someone now? do i wait? am i ready? and who's it gonna be? are things going to work out? will i be truly happy meeting someone, because i wasn't happy before"

like, i could try and talk to people on public transport? but no one does that really, at least from what i can tell, it's just weird. or i could go on tinder. i guess i could go on tinder. but how am i meant to find someone better for me than my prev gf, who's on my level? because my last gf wasn't on that level at all. and i know sometimes meeting friends of friends can happen, but that's such a chance thing. and most of my friends just seem to keep their same social circle.

i just don't know if i'm supposed to actively look for someone right away, or just relax and let things happen as they should do and enjoy life. yet at the same time, i don't want to feel like one of those single guys not having sex or not going on dates etc. but if i force it to happen, it's less likely to happen isn't it?

i mean, aside from this dilemma, i am pretty happy with myself as a person. although sometimes i wish i could have more meaning in what i'm doing. i was happy with who i was when i was with someone, now it feels like i need to "do more" so to speak.

and yet, i just wanna find someone who is like on the level, on the same path. and it's gonna be so hard to find someone like that. sure i can just go for second best, but why? why bother?i know it won't be worth it.

so that's where i'm at.

For the love of God please turn your family in. I know that it would be one of the hardest things for you to do, but what they’re doing is evil. And it’s also fucking you over.
You can go to community college with just a GED, and in 2 years from that get your associates degree. Think about what kind of future you want (working class vs middle/upper-middle class) and work towards that. I believe in you.
Don’t let your family stop you from having a better life.

Someone redpill me
What's a fwb

Really? It's Friends With Benefits.

Do women still find men who are 28+ attractive/cute?

Why wouldn't they? If you were ugly before 28 chances you are probably still ugly after 28.

Yes. As long as you work out, dress decently, and practice basic hygiene, you will attract someone at 28+ years old.

You're family members sound luck fucking scumbags. You need to get out on your own and cut them out of your life as soon as you can.

bro what the fuck how did you do that? i can barely get 1k words a day without the self doubt.

the fact that you have the ovaries to think about asking should be enough. i wish i could ask a girl i just want to be friends and fuck. i feel like id go to jail

sometimes i think about doing this. i want to do it so bad but i also want to finish school first

The walls are most definitely closing in around me at work

It's one thing to point out that I'm rusty or not familiar with a lot of tribal knowledge, but my team lead treats me like an idiot
like I'm not qualified to work there
like I didn't make it through their own technical screening
and beat out hundreds of other applicants
and continue to work there year after year after year

the department manager treats me even worse, I literally cannot speak to this man without blatant antagonism; I swear this man wants to physically assault me for some reason
even my office mate, who I could typically make conversation with, has become incredibly terse, either because he's fed up with me or because he can see some kind of writing on the wall I cannot

the weirdest thing is, if it's really so bad, why don't they just lay me off? why didn't they years ago? wtf are they doing? do they not want to pay into unemployment THAT much?

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So this wankstain of a human being that teaches art in my school did something that really rubbed me the wrong way.
>we were having class and we have a project as part of our exam (for our junior cert , or basically a gcse for you Brits). >This project is meant to be submitted tomorrow in a plastic envelope along with a practical exam that we do on the day.
>he asks if anyone needs to finish something up, and a few lads go to finish up their 3d project.
>I ask if I can do my lino print, which I left in the envelope with the rest of my stuff.
>he says "Your lino print?" and says nothing else so I go get the lino print shit and cut myself a piece of paper to use.
>I ask where the envelopes are so I can get my lino block to print some sheets (One of things needed for my project)
>he looks at me like an absolute idiot and says, "user, that was due last week, you missed the deadline, I've sealed the envelopes"
>no it isn't you fucking mongoloid. You're helping someone RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME WITH THEIR PROJECT.
>I would be so bothered if he just said no when I mentioned my lino, but he had waited for me to get my shit all ready for printing before telling me my shit was all sealed up (when I knew it wasn't), and I end up twiddling my thumbs for the rest of the class doing nothing
>I'm now going to loose marks for no good reason

I know when last year's junior cert students complained, he flipped shit, and I know its not just me, because all of my sisters (over a 10+ year period) said he was a wanker. Should I report him is the question though and would it be worth getting shit from him for the rest of my time in that school?

>school
>art
>gcses

...are you in the right thread?

Can you find another place to work?

probably fairly easily at this point, but I'd much rather be fired so that I could sit on unemployment, brush up, and have a bunch of free time

not only that but even if the pay is higher nothing would be as cushy

Well, after ~17 years, today I’ve finally passed US History 2 at the age of 30. Hooray for me, I guess. Not that it really matters, anyway.

One of my psychotherapists had told me back in 2016 that I should do something to celebrate whenever I finish a class, maybe reward myself by going to a movie theater or something. I suppose that I could do that... except that right now I just feel real tired and have a bit of a stomachache and backache. So I kinda’ just wanna’ get home as soon as possible.

God damn it. How is it possible that it can be so cold out but at the same time I’m sweating like a pig? It feels awful to have a strong breeze pass through my body when my clothes are completely drenched in my sweat.

>walk into a convenience store
>the store has no people aside from myself and the one employee
>I immediately start grabbing as many sweets, snacks, and soda as possible
>as soon as I start walking to the cashier to pay for my stuff, a group of about six people suddenly walk in
>four of them immediately form a line in front of the cashier
>one of them is buying lottery tickets
>another one is paying for gas
>another one is taking their time deciding which hotdog they want and what they want on their hotdog
>another one is this really cute girl
>two of the people in the store are these loudmouthed teenagers
>I have the option to either wait in the back of the store until everybody has left
>or put all the things back where they were and walk out

I swear this happens every time. I feel like I’m playing The Sims here.

younger user (21) here with a question: For people who start as angstier, depraved-hopeless types (like me), is there usually a "get your shit together" moment that washes away those younger problems, or is it just a gradual change of attitude? It's occurred to me that i always think that typical youth problems require a period of deliberate reinvention, but maybe that's not how it is. If you feel you've got a fairly decent life did you have to forcibly sort it out or did you just mellow with age? Hope I'm making sense

Go away

Lose weight

>One of my psychotherapists
Do they cost money in the UK?

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I have no idea. I live in the US.

I just realized that in less than ten years, I’ll be considered “middle-aged”. One of my doctors has even already told me that I really need to be careful with what I eat, because my cholesterol levels are high and I am at risk of having a heart attack.

Well, shit. I’m getting old.

I'm not reaching 40, these past 30 years have sucked so fucking much.

The rites of passage, what are they exactly? What did I miss?

First gf, first party, first night out, getting drunk/high etc what else?

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You can get drunk tomorrow if you want, it’s not hard. Buying alcohol is like buying anything else at a register but they might ask to see your ID

I'm muslim, so I've never done drugs or drink cos "faith" and I live at home. I've been thinking about going to amsterdam during the holidays to smoke weed and drink, maybe hire a prostitute see what all this sex fuss is all about. But it's my luck that I have a new wageslave job that I have to do a drug test for. How long does weed stay in your system?

Depends how much you smoke, I think that if you smoke a couple of days, after a week you'll be fine. BTW: I've never been to Amsterdam, but I'm quite sure that there prostitutes are just expensive and not very good to experience sex.

The condoms Amsterdam girls make you wear are so thick you can't feel a thing
Or so a friend told me, I'm in the same boat as you, only I'm not religious so I don't have any excuses

One of my cousins recommended that I watch Game of Thrones. He kept insisting for months that I watch it. So one day I gave in. I think that I’m already on the fifth season and I have absolutely no fucking clue what’s going on. I can barely remember any of the characters’ names. I couldn’t follow it at all after the first season. I leave it playing in the background while I do other things. I just know that one of these days my cousin will quiz me on the show and I won’t be able to answer any of his questions. And he’ll get mad.

>coworkers spend 90% of the time talking about netflix series, facebook tier memes, drugs, drinking and shows/parties/festivals

I do not think I am better but I am clearly different. I cannot relate to my coworkers at all and I feel like an alien.

I am virgin and work with hot newly married women around me. I am depressed as fuck. I want to leave job and get a gf but cant because i need wage money to sustain myself.

I only have Jow Forums as my recommended site on my browser. Not even google or youtube.

10 years without date.

These aren't rites of passage - these are degeneracy. People that do these things don't find happiness and fulfillment. They are vices to numb the emptiness they feel inside and one day they wake up and are 60 and have accomplished nothing in their lives just entertaining themselves with different kinds of distractions until the sun sets and they repeat the pattern. They are chasing nothing all the way into the grave.

Do something productive with your life, cultivate a group of friends, a creative hobby, a *serious* relationship, growing a family, etc.

30 is the new 20. Live your life at your own pace and stop being insecure.

Don't let yourself get caged in by boomer mentality

Man, I miss my father. I mean, I miss the way that he was 20 years ago. I remember him being much nicer and smarter. Now he’s 58 years old and he’s all weird, fat, moody, mildly crazy, and pretty dumb. Maybe it’s because of his epilepsy. Must have done something to his brain because he seems like a completely different person now. I can’t have intelligent conversations with him at all anymore. I can barely stand to be around him anymore. Which is why I only call or visit him maybe once each year.

>only I'm not religious so I don't have any excuses
I'm not sure if I can really use it as an excuse. I found out that most people I knew who were muslim got laid anyway or found a "loophole" like anal.

(OP)
How do you deal with women at work?
Be me, web dev
>Yearly goal review at work in April because ?
>Meet with boomer boss going through menopause with a clique of other like minded cunt bosses.
>user, we like you, but you can do better than this role - you should look into trying to advance
Well, actually I've been learning python for the past two years and automating my j...
>What's python?
>Software language
>Huh?
Fast forward 2 weeks - have to email a summary of my months work.
>Hey, remember me mentioning Python? Here's an example of a program where I've scraped our website and returned all the content errors.
>Crickets
>6 days later I hear her cussing and calling people ranting and asking what scraping means
>Umm... interesting. So you find things and write it in Excel and it gets fixed?
>Sigh.
2 weeks later and I'm even worse off. I had to break down and 'demo' an Excel file, then she 'gifted' my project to another women who knows even less and can't comprehend how there isn't a GUI - yet wants complete control and customization. And that was a few days ago. Now more crickets.
I've been trying to land any other job, but this is a breaking point for me. I'm willing to toss in the towel and be a janitor.

I know what you mean.
Mine still has his health, but he's half of what he was. Cranky, depressed, and tired. Prolly a relation to how Jow Forums is with the leftist in your face politics too.

>30 is the new 20.
Who actually believes this? Sure if your life before 30 wasn't a complete nothing then yeah fine, but otherwise it's complete shite.

I think it's late bloomers. My teenager phase was more in my late teens early 20s.

Isn't bumming haram? Sounds like your other muslim friends didn't take the religion as seriously as you did

I wouldn't say I took it more "seriously" than them since more than half of them had that thin veener of...religiousness to them that I never had.

So like I said before I can't really use it as an excuse.
Also
>muslim friends
LOL no, I barely had any friends in general. I was always the odd one out.

I have no friends now except for one parasite that I keep around.

Parasite in what way?

Life ain't so bad. Turning 29 soon and all is pretty stable.

I work for a company that has me back and forth between Europe and NYC so I now have two apartments paid for and just broke $120k in salary before stock options, so pretty comfy. So at least I can save for retirement and max out my 401(k) and IRA + other savings.

The constant traveling takes a little toll on my girlfriend and I since I'm always away but it's too good of a job to pass up. At least I get 6-8 weeks of vacation so we do get to travel to some pretty awesome places.

I could lose a little weight, but only like 20 lbs to get me where I want to be.

All things considered, I can't complain. I come from a pretty poor family, worked through college and had no social life, was pretty lonely until I met the right girl for me, and still have bouts of depression here and there.

This user.
Don't be brainwashed by the Boomer NPC who want you to live like them (wife, kids, dog, big house in the suburbs).

Went my whole life without a date (29 here).
So what?

I think he's the bottom rung of the social ladder that I'm not part of, so he keeps me around to pretend to the others that he's got other people. Like he'll randomly call other people when we're "out" (literally just playing videogames in his room or just standing outside his doorstep) and exclaim that's "he's out with his pal" carefully not mentioning who he's actually with.

He's not really a good person and the only positive thing about himself is that he's inert, so nothing negative (or positive) will come from his "friendship".

Sometimes he calls me at random times and to try and make conversation with nothing to talk about (and I suspect he calls me when he's been left out of whatever his friends are doing.)

have zoomers taken over the internet? people just scream loudly and repeat themselves over and over as means of conversation anymore. attention spans are less than five seconds and no one even has knowledge about the subjects they're attempting to talk about. i think less than 10% of posters are even sentient. i can only imagine the rest shitposting furiously to try and keep the dopamine levels up between tab switching to discord and fortnight and whatever shit zoomers are into now.

I hate my fucking neighbors. They can make all the noise they want and do all the property damage on others houses they want, but if I do much as lean some lumber on the side of their house which they never see or use (our houses are literally only separated by driveways), the dickhead has the gall to come out of his fucking hole and complain to me that I'm "damaging the vinyl".

Swear to God next house I have will be far away from any kind of neighbor except for trees.

I feel you man. I've only been able to find internet camaraderie in small corners once in a blue moon. About the NPC's though, they're everywhere. Mindlessly on social media and image boards getting their fill of dopamine like the addicts they are. Slaves to their own lack of self control.

what do? i want anonymous social interaction to fulfill my needs but everyone is a retard. i'm lonely but i dislike everyone i meet. that goes irl too. people can't put their phones away, take the headphones out, and just sit still and quiet for 5 minutes. i'm pretty chill and can spend long time periods alone contemplating things, looking at scenery. the npcs can't. if they aren't posting about it, taking a picture for social media, memeing about it, listening to it, or scrolling it, they can't be bothered. i was ridiculed when younger for being a "computer addict" for lack of anything better to do. now everyone else is the addict.

they constantly have their god damned phones in their hands. 3 seconds of freetime? phone. at a redlight? phone. what is wrong with them? i've even had people do that while on a date or social outing. there's nothing more fun than waiting for someone to finish checking their fucking instagram or whatever the shit. it's an addiction no one is pointing out.

So I got badly beaten up by a guy on the street lately. The broken bones are healing well but my self esteem took a pretty huge hit and I feel like a fucking pussy, despite the fact its not the first time I got my shit kicked in in a fight
I took up a martial arts class, but I can't shake the feeling of being helpless
I never felt like this, will It go away or I'm stuck forever with disabled self worth?

Why does the age of this thread keep getting pushed?
Also aging is fucking scary. I feel so hopeless, I know I won't ever be happy but I can't accept that fate.

I hate to sound like some Boomer but you are so right. Old friends used to work out fine for me but they don't want to do anything nowadays except reminisce and talk about plans that they'll never iron out.

Of course the older it gets the harder it is to make friends. Right now I'm trying just people at my work, clubs (not night clubs), and niche groups or bars. Doing what you love doing tends to be the best way to meet people who also love to do the same thing you love doing. For me, it's astronomy
Good for you mate, well besides the broken bones part ouch. Got any context? Definitely take a martial arts course. Take it seriously. Learn a fighting style and stay in shape so next time the odds are in your favor.
We're in for it together user. The sword of time will pierce our skin.be lucky you live in the age of modern medicine, we could see some advancement that let's us live twice as long without the old man part to.

>i was ridiculed when younger for being a "computer addict" for lack of anything better to do. now everyone else is the addict.
The hypocrisy is amazing isn't it?

>got your shit kicked in
Isn't it a bit late to have this bad judgement in your strength?

"I had a really nice time with you! Would you be up for doing anything on (day of the week)?"

>I cannot relate to my coworkers at all and I feel like an alien.
As someone with a bunch of obscure/solitary hobbies, I can relate.
I worked in an office with mostly older boomer types, so I just asked one to help me get into sports. Honestly, i still find it super boring, but I forced myself to follow the city's team and learned to criticize games/plays. I wouldn't have thought so, but being able to talk to your coworkers about one dumb thing will help you feel a little better, trust me.
Humans are social creatures and spending so much time with people you don't have ANYTHING in common with will drive you insane, so sometimes you gotta extend that olive branch.
Now I'm not saying you have to go get wasted, high, watch every Netflix series, and go to shows every weekend. But I dunno dude maybe you could see if you can stomach one of the popular bands music enough and talk about it. Or see if there's a new series everyone is getting into and say you're about to watch it. Dedicate maybe one or two hours a week to it at the most. If you really, really can't find anything redeeming about it at all, try something else.
In doing this, I learned a lot of other people are doing this. It actually turned out, one of the boomers I worked with hated football too, and was essentially doing the same thing I was.

>have zoomers taken over the internet?
>i think less than 10% of posters are even sentient.
I'm probably gonna get dogpiled by that user that seems to follow me on this thread but I genuinely think that all the newfags are cut from a completely different cloth to the oldfags. Oldfags, I think, came from a certain type of background i.e. losers/loners/outcasts. The newfags these days, are here for their "meme" fix.

We were a very brief but very bright spark, that era of the internet when the corps were still figuring out how to control it.

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>meme fix
good way to put it. they aren't interested in talking about anything. everything is just an opportunity to get some (you)s from le dank memes xddd. probably the retard trash from reddit come here for internet points of a different fashion. god i hate it so much, this site is a walking corpse.

Sunmer intership or similar program. Do it as soon as you can, at least get a taste of it. During college will likely be your best opportunity.

t. Someone who didn't when he could've.

That sucks user.You just have to overcome it.

I think that I officially hate weekends now. Ever since I started taking adult high school classes a few weeks ago, the weekdays seem a lot more “fulfilling” than weekends.

I guess I just need to get a life, because there’s pretty much nothing for me to do on the weekends. I mean, yeah, sure, I might go out to a movie theater. But then the movie would be over within 2 hours, and then what? I would still have another 13 hours or so of doing basically nothing. And I hate going to eat at restaurants because I almost always end up getting an upset stomach and feeling like shit for the rest of the day. The other day I decided to go to the beach and walked around for about 2 hours and ended up feeling bored, tired, and sad. Today I went to this big park that I used to go to a lot when I was a teenager and it was the same thing. And playing video games or watching TV barely does anything for me anymore. Everything feels so unsatisfying.

Maybe I need to make friends. But I don’t even know where to begin. How the hell does a guy in his 30s go out to make guy friends without coming off gay? What would I even do if I had a friend? Go to the movies together? Seems kinda’ gay. Go to bars together to pick up chicks? So I could be like his wingman, or what? I don’t know the first thing about picking up chicks. And even if I did I don’t quite have the balls to do anything about it.