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I'm 29 and I want to have some fun while I still have some youth left. I've lived such a scared, shutdown, withdrawn life. My 20s are almost done and it was a bad time. Spent so much time trying to go out to shows and raves and clubs to desensitize myself but it never worked. Never got any better, finally gave up at 27. At this point I'll probably marry the next girl who gives me any time of day.
I'm such a miserable piece of shit.
Jace Torres
I wouldn't call you a miserable piece of shit at all. So many people are just completely resigned at this point; you, at the very least, *want* to find enjoyment.
Raves and clubs aren't for everyone; I'm similar. I'd much rather stay home, talk with friends or read a book, you know? Do you have any hobbies?
I have a friend who lives an hour and a half away from me by plane, we get along really well and it's never boring when we chat. We used to flirt a lot and still do sometimes, but know how to keep it platonic. I feel very comfortable with him and I'm pretty sure he does too with me. I'd love to have a relationship with him in the future, or to just meet him sometime and see how it goes. I'm feeling patient and impatient at the same time, but I can't act just yet since the age gap is a bit of an issue at this stage of our lives, but in a year or so that'll be resolved.
Just felt like getting this off my chest.
Jackson Rivera
I’m envious of a friend. When he showed me a goodbye letter to his school I had a panic attack because I know I can’t write as well and I know nobody here would miss me here as much as his would miss him. Other than self improve, which is what I have been trying in some form or another every damn day that always feels like a game of catch-up that I can’t win, what am I supposed to do
If you both meet the legal requirements for consent, I don't see the problem with that kind of stuff. I've never understood the stigma attached to those types of relationships.
But it sounds like you both mean quite a bit to each other. Meeting each other would definitely be a good idea; you'll get an idea how compatible you two are. Either way, it's nice to have someone like that in your life.
In my opinion? Stop playing that game. You shouldn't compare yourself to others; you can perform absolutely amazingly and negative thought patterns would always make you recognize someone who you assume is better than you. Who knows? Maybe in a lot of ways, you're far more capable than your friend and neither of you just don't know it.
He might be more successful socially, and if you want to change that you can try making more meaningful connections with others (something I'm sure you're doing.)
But what you mentioned; that you're trying to self-improve. That's good. Admirable, in fact. However, it'd be even better if you do it just to improve yourself, not comparing yourself to someone else.
No, I don't know. I want to go out, I want to be with people and enjoy it. Dance, drink, maybe even get laid. I've spent my whole life finding escape in books and hobbies and shit, and I'll have the whole rest of my life to do it, too. It wasn't a preference, it was a box I was in because of my anxiety. I want to do some young people shit while I'm still young. I've always wanted to, and I'm probably never going to. It eats away at me.
Aiden Gutierrez
Bye.
Asher Johnson
Yeah we already have the legal requirements for consent, but I think we'll both be more comfortable when meeting when the age gap is less obvious (it's only 5 years though).
Xavier Lewis
I just can’t help myself at times. Although I’m young I’m practically a Wizard-in-training and have been in SPED classes since middle school and this guy has won an athletic medal and is in a really tough school at the top of his classes. It’s hard, every day is a boring drag where I’m stuck in my own world
Austin Flores
It's understandable, wanting to do things like that. You must want some social interaction. Do you feel like making some new friends might help, or do you just want the "wild" stuff like parties, etc? You mentioned how that stuff didn't work out for you.
Hello there, fellow degenerate.
That's understandable, I suppose! Well, if that's what you'd prefer, all you can do is wait till you both are ready to meet and maintain your relationship till then. It's a special thing to have, a relationship like that, even if you guys can't be romantic yet.
It's understandable, it'll take some time to fix it. But this is something that you *should* work on adjusting, how you compare yourself to your friend. With that kind of thinking, if you were in your friends position, you'd be feeling the same way about some friend in Harvard. It goes on like that, almost like a cycle.
Yeah, it is a cycle I started playing a little guitar half a year ago, really basic stuff and then I got really tired and sad and now I’m picking myself up a little again. It’s mostly a boring drag because I’m still in highschool, although I’m leaving soon. I feel like an alien I don’t know how to when he starts talking about his life
Samuel Kelly
It's admirable that you're making effort to pick yourself up again. That's a good start. Don't worry, it'll come to you naturally, even if it's slow.
Do you have friends? Maybe you might have better luck out of school. Playing a musical instrument is always classy! You should, if you get time, try to pick that up again. It'll help your mood improve and will in turn help your self-confidence build up as well.
Don't let your self-value be dependent on others opinions. You have to learn to be proud of who you are; whether it's by being productive, self-improving, etc.
I don’t have any friends. Maybe one guy but he’s in college and hasn’t returned my texts. I’ll pick up the guitar again and try to make myself someone I can be proud of. Thank you
Making some new ones might help, too! Even if it's online. I'll be around more in the future, if you want to drop by. I'll be leaving some other methods of contact, as well, at the end of the thread.
He comes to me for advice sometimes and when he’s down, while he may send me into breakdowns sometimes I have to help him out. He’s my friend and I give a shit about him and he cares for me. So I have to think about it sometimes, even if it makes me uncomfortable
Ryder Allen
I might go to a baseball game, thanks for that. Other than that I play the flute, I work out 4 days a week, and I work. I read sometimes, I finished reading Wheel of Time a few months ago, took me about 6 months. Haven't read anything since. I'm in sales so I have to do a lot of fake socializing to meet new clients and source leads. I don't really watch anything.
William Rodriguez
Don't you see ho admirable that is? Someone who you are so impressed by, comes to you for advice.
That says a lot. I'm sure you have a lot of good qualities, and helping someone out like that even if it's difficult for you is fairly admirable.
Ok. By all means, be a friend to him. But you need to get out of the habit of comparing yourself to him.
Bentley Reyes
The embarrassing thing about all this other then the obvious part is that he is an online friend. Irl I don’t have anyone really. You could say he’s exaggerating or lying but I know that he’s not
Tyler Perez
Thank you I know. It’s the same with the college guy too, after not seeing him for a year and him having this big group of friends and being part of a band really frazzled me
Owen Kelly
Those are some respectable activities. You seem to be in a pretty respectable situation when it comes to yourself, since you work out and work. It's completely understandable that you'd want do some of the more conventionally enjoyable things in life.
I don't find that embarrassing! Online friends can be just as good, if not better, sometimes. Trust me, I know!
I’ve got nothing, honestly. Only thing that makes me feel good about myself are things like expanding my interests and cardio. When I do those I feel like I’m on my way to being normal
Jaxson Wilson
That's it for now, everybody.
Before I go, thank you all very much for reaching out and talking. I hope you keep us in your considerations for the future, as well.
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