GIOYC

Gotta make shit happen myself. I'm sick of waiting on people. But I don't even remember what I want.

I guess I could just go for the obvious and take it from there.

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It’s okay ;_; I understand.

I've never been this shy before. When you're near I feel nervous, my heart races, and my thoughts suddenly disperse. I'm confident everywhere else, though. Isn't it weird? I'm a bit nonsensical. I'm in love with you, I think. I don't know why. Help me.
You probably aren't even here. But for some reason, I feel like you are. I'm just hoping...I guess. Wishful thinking. If I never get the chance to tell you, you will have seen my thoughts here instead. But I don't want that. I want you to know. And I want to know that you know.

I think the biggest think depressing me right now is that I'm starting to think I will never revert to being my pre-misanthrope self. I am starting to realize I was happier then because I had girls and friends in my life and now they are all just alienated and meeting new people is just this awful cycle of them breaking away from you

Initials!

It's always not the right time to post something on my social media. I think too much.

I hate you so FUCKING much, I want us to be friends and never get back together, I want to fuck you lovingly for a whole week, God why did I do this to myself? Why did I go back? Is this hold you felt?
I can't stand you for a single second and I want to be around you all the time, I really fucking dislike everything about you, you're needy, you're manipulative, you guilt trip everyone around you, you lie, you're hateful, you were going to kill your own brother, you're a narcissist, you can't handle opinions even though you love to shit talk, you're difficult, you just love kicking people while they're down and judge them, for fuck sake you can't even contact a friend who's clearly in danger because you had a petty fight about a character you like and she didn't, YOU'RE AWFUL.
But I think I still love you.

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im not a sociopath

Why why why why why why why????? I don't want to see you again, I don't want to even THINK about you, you're objectively the worst person I could ever end up with, so why the fuck do I keep thinking about you?
Why do I want you to be fine? Why do I want things to be ok? Why do I keep reminding myself of your fucking retarded smile, I want to punch it right the fuck off with my mouth!
FUCK.ME.GOD.DAMN.IT
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

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How in fuck am I supposed to get help if therapists don't understand what I tell them?

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not a sociopath holy shit it is not that im aware of whats happening outside my house

My mother is retarded and ruined our families relationship with other family members so from age 10 onwards I had no cousins I could talk to.

She’s also paranoid and will start panicking over anything the toilet once overfilled and she started screaming.
Another time the police came to our door and instead of shutting the fuck up she said “YOU’RE NOT THE POLICE, user CALL 911 NOW WE’RE BEING ROBBED!!”

She would intentionally pick fights with my dad it was never quiet in my house

She caused me so much stress my entire life.

Around my teen years my mom just stopped spanking me or my siblings, but it was too fucking late she already ruined all of us.

She blames everyone else but herself for her own shortcomings, she keeps up with stupid celebrity drama and then complains she has no time to get anything done.

Every time my mom calls I intentionally respond angrily to her and hang up if she asks why am I angry, she knows what she fucking did and she’s only calling me because her paranoia causes her to never leave me alone

I just resorted to lucid dreaming and having conversations with my own subconscious. Alternatively there’s astral projection, but lucid dreaming is easier

You have to wait until people forget about you so they'll be surprised. If it's often posts they get used and bored, I guess ?
I understood that so I prefer sharing with friends instead of making everything public.

Where can I get a slutty bf? f here.

Tomorrow I turn 30 with nihilism still undefeated

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latin america, why you'd want that is beyond me but ok

People say to follow your passion but my passion is laying is bed smoking weed all day

You're too old for me, man.

What do you mean slutty? I'm slutty but I'm settled down so now I'm just looking for that one ass to clap to the stars for eternity.

Something I've realized recently is that my father's brother was more successful in life than my father, and my mother's sister was more successful in life than my mother. My parents were effectively the deadbeats of both sides of my family tree. And now I'm a deadbeat.

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You can't change your parents but you can change yourself.

I am so lonely I wish would just die.
I don't know why I feel this way, I use to love my solitude and be alone.
I have no friends and I have no girlfriend.

I need a fucking hobby and meet people.

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Try drawing, tumblr and DA with open requests worked for me

I can do if I just stay calm and give it an honest effort.

TWO YEARS

TWO BEERS

I don't know what should I do. Move on I guess.

i just want to have sex
I dont want relationschipt
I want to fuck pussy
I want to tell girls i want to fuck them
I want to stop your feelings
I just want to have one night stands
I want to fUCK
I want to start putting my self FIRST
FUCK YOU FUCK YOUR LOVE FOR ME
I want the excitement of being with girls.

Stealing these for song lyrics thanks.

Please tell me you're in California and are ok with frumpy fat girls cause I just want dick... I am single... Burnt out on relationships... I just want to fuck and watch netflix while fucking.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH EVERYTHING IS SO FUCKING CLOUDED AND SO HEAVY I CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT SO I JUST DEFAULT TO VIDYA AND LURKING HERE TO FORGET.

I feel like I want to cry...but men shouldn't cry. So here I am struggling within my flesh prison living in a constant state of uncertainty. Thinking about joining the Navy just to get some sort of fucking guidance and purpose. I don't know what to do...I feel so lost

Someone I love and one of my best friends, who has Bipolar type 1, more than a thousand miles away went completely silent. We had a argument over text that wasn’t pretty which ended with her saying “Please leave me alone, I don’t want to talk to anyone right now.”

That was over 4 weeks ago. I notice she isn’t working nearly as much, been shopping (one of her coping mechanism), visited a couple of the local doctors (I believe therapists) but not much else.

My email and number aren’t blocked, and I can actually see she’s at home right now. Gave me Find Friends access so I know she’s alright for situations like this.

But it’s the longest one ever, I haven’t heard anything, i do keep reaching out but nothing.

The logical side of me says that she’ll come back and everything said before shows I’m not blocked and we’ll be good eventually. But the emotional side wants to keep asking and texting, and even jump on a plane and fly to her even tho it’ll cause trouble. And the emotional side tends to keep winning right now.

Mental illness sucks.

I'm glad he's handling it the way he is because any slight feelings of doubt or hesitation are simply gone. He's confirmed to me to be a total narcissist and him lashing out using the legal system to try and continue to abuse me is the best confirmation ever. He's not only showing me I made the right choices but he's now publicly showing everyone else who and more to the point what he really is.
Weirdly it brings much peace=validation!

sorry I am in Europe. You should message me anyhow.

Literally anywhere.
One out of like 3 men are sluts, and half of that number are virgins.

You could solve the incel problem, but I doubt you will.

Depends, how frumpy and fat are you?

Men should cry, it helps release feels

>You could solve the incel problem
I don't want an incel though. Men who can't fuck are just as bad as chemically castrated ones. I want someone who'd be my personal incubus.

Initial?

I jumped off the DENNIS train before and I can do it again.

Some guy at work keeps telling me I should stop eating expensive food and stop eating junk food. I eat all that food because I can afford it and because I'm still healthy. He says this literally every date at lunch time and even though I respond calmly he says "hey don't get upset!". It's starting to annoy me. Should I tell him to fuck off?

I can't go back to you, A. You spread rumors about me, insulted me, tried to make me jealous. You call me a narcissist, a sociopath. I might be moody and a little crazy but that's called being human. You, on the other hand. I feel like you're just projecting a whole bunch of shit onto me from all the shit you've endured during your life, YOUR LIFE before knowing ME. I was the last straw I guess. And it was unfortunate that it had to be me. You could have solved everything just by telling me, DIRECTLY, how you felt about me.
So, just, make up any lie you have to about me, insult me all you want. Just remember, I only "met" you recently. I'm not responsible for all the shit you had to put up with before I met you, that's on YOU. I'm here to help though I don't know how much help I could be to you anymore.

A

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what the fuck are you talking about?

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sure, but are you a fatty tho?

Direct communication would be nice, it can heal and more importantly it can build a connection or a strong bond so we can all grow from it.

Trauma can hold people hostage, though it’s a thing that be shed, and overcome through renewal.
I’m an A as well. Your perceived debts, dear A, are hereby absolved! (and if not immediately, in good time any remnants will dissolve). So that we might move forward.

Fool.

Sometimes I don’t know why I’m in a relationship. It’s mainly filled with anxiety, heartache and spending a ton of money. Sex is nice I guess but I wonder if it would just easier being single.

I'm sick of wallowing in my basememt, burying myself in magic decks I'll never build and mindless YouTube videos, taking breaks only to satisfy my porn addiction. I want to break free from this horrible rut, find motivation to work, to better myself, and to actually live life how I want to.

I dont know what you're talking about all I did was ask advice from others and defended you even
the rest is just confusing, I never targeted you

No? I'm pretty underweight. I have a really restrictive diet and get sick easily so I constantly have to eat really specific foods, usually just vegetables most days and legumes every three days. No sugars, no dairy, no meat, and sparse amounts of grain. I can even wrap my index and thumb around my ankles easily. I'm also working on getting fit enough to do a transcontinental bike-ride since a lot of people in my city do that but my bike's out of service right now. I need to get its tires changed.
But what does weight have to do with me and my dreams of an incubus husband?

You're stupid and bait, just go out there and find some guy who will be that for you. It's easy you just have to go through people to find the right one for you just like everyone else. What you want from your bf in the end doesn't matter.

I feel you. Being single is easier but I guess it was for me because I didn't know what intimacy was.
I think I'd feel lonely if I broke up with my bf.
The sex I have is not that great though. Masturbating feels way better.

Mah neighbour.
That state is hard to brush off. A dream to chase, one worth chasing, usually gives me the motivation to strive. A girl, a cause, some sort of purpose, might be the key for us?

I am not happy with my life, but I don't know what to change.

>What you want from your bf in the end doesn't matter
Yes it does. I want someone who's an incubus. There's not a lot of people out there who are like that. People claim there are but a lot of guys aren't actually into sexual promiscuity, I've come to notice. They want to play things safe but I have no interest in safe and I also have no interest in marrying someone unless they have a really high sex-drive to match my own. I also want them to be an incubus so we could perform blood sacrifices while we have sex.

How many people do you know that you can have a deep or serious conversation with? Is it normal if the answer is zero? Everyone I know starts laughing or quoting pop culture shit whenever I try to get past small talk.

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So what? You have your requirement so go and find your guy? What the fuck is your point, your wants aren't special neither are you. Find your dream bf or keep shitposting on here and you'll surely find that slut-boi in this incel infested site.

Are you illiterate? I don't want an incel. Someone else answered my question and you're just shitposting now. Skidababoboobap off, cheeseskin.

Are you a woman ? I've never seen women have deep conversations. I'm a guy and I can have a serious conversation with almost everyone I know, and I have deep conversations regularly with maybe 5-10 people.

So why do you stay? Is it only so you don’t feel lonely? Thankfully I don’t have to worry about that. I never feel lonely, I like being alone. I’m sorry about the bad sex though. That’s one of the best parts of my relationship. My gf is really hot and the sex is fantastic. But even still I wonder if it’s all worth it.

Nah I'm a dude. I guess I'm just surrounded by basic people. The only person that seemed intelligent was some guy I see very rarely and randomly in college.

Same here. The only one I can talk to and have a great conversation with is my dad. He's definitely where I got my intelligence from. My mom is stupid as hell and even if she knows about a subject, she's the kind of person to always respond with "I don't know." My friends aren't necessarily dumb, they just aren't informed about topics I like discussing. They'd rather gossip about meaningless things.

I've been in love with this girl throughout my teenage years, and we even had a thing going when we were like 14, but nothing otherwise. After the fling, we kinda drifted apart on bad terms. We talked like once a year after that.

Shortly before I broke up with my ex-girlfriend when I was 18, I had a chance to talk to her again. I completely fell for her again and after I broke up with my gf I completely latched on to her and started basically orbiting her. Again, we kinda parted on bad terms.

Throughout these years she had a long time boyfriend, they even lived together abroad and probably have a lifetime worth of memories together by now. It took me a lot of time to accept that I was just in love with the "headcanon" version of her and I had to let those feelings go. I moved on, I had a couple of girlfriends since then and my life is going great.

Last year she moved to the city I live in and since then we met a couple of times. But recently, in the past months, we started going to different places, just the two of us, and mostly by her suggestion. I had a great time with her always, it just felt natural.

2 weeks ago after we went to an exhibition, we went drinking with her friends. It was pretty good, I had a great time, but by the end we were kinda drunk and she wrapped her arms around mine out of nowhere. She told me that she would like to "take our friendship to the next level" (her exact words) by going to a theater.

Since then, I've been really really confused. I genuinely enjoyed the time we spent together in the past months, but I'm afraid that I'll just push her away again if I start to develop feelings for her now. We are going to the theater in a month (due to exams coming up) and she suggested going drinking afterwards.

I don't know what to do. I'm honestly scared.

Yeah maybe I'm biased because everyone I know is either a med or engineering student. You should try to initiate those deep conversations by asking the question first and see if they're receptive. Last week a dude I know saw me and he was like ''Hey does objective good/bad exist ?'' and we talked about it for an hour

Happy mother's day Mrs. A! I love you and think about you all the time.

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Confirm they actually did that if you haven't already, I have known many awful people who have said others said things to cause suffering out of jealousy or spite.

I want to be that kind of person your picture describes..

I'm hellbent on getting better, I pitty the sorry little anons taking black pills and offing themselves, fucking wake up slap the shit out of yourself and start RUNNING YOU LITTLE SHITS.
I'm making this shit even if I have to give up everything I have.

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You have feelings for each other but clearly are not compatible. Also, she was drunk. Take drunk talk with a grain of salt.

There are two ways you can go here:

1) Move on. You are no good for each other.

2) Work to change yourselves. BOTH of you. Seek counseling. This will take a lot of humbling and effort. It's not for everyone.

You are young and in prime dating age. There's tons of options. Don't hole yourself in.

MY STOMACH HURT

You can be if you believe it. That want you’re feeling is a small step away from belief.
I belieb in you user.

you're pregnant

Alcohol is good, I feel less autistic today.

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>You have feelings for each other but clearly are not compatible
I don't know about her feelings, but compatibility might be a real issue. We need to get to know each other better since a lot of time has passed since then.

>Work to change yourselves
This is the other thing. I've changed a lot since graduating HS. Back then I had anger management issues and was frustrated all the time. I was also a lazy piece of shit and had no legitimate hobbies or anything.

Nowadays I feel great. I moved out of my parents' house, I got a pretty great job, I'm attending university, etc. I feel like I became an overall more positive person.

I wish things were different.

Fun fact.
My mother pressures me into giving her concrete answers on the starting dates of my soon-to-be-found jobs, so that she can know at what moment she can buy her plane tickets to leave on holidays.
I'll have my graduation exam for the master degree next month and my job application answers didn't arrive yet.
I am indeed stressed with those, but I can't see the link between my shitty way of trying to stand up alone and her departure for holidays.
Why mom... Why ?

>Truth.
Okay. I have been high/baked for 3 straight weeks. I'm finally got the balls to get my hair cut. I have finally got the strength to get my teeth sorted. So why do it feel fucking weird that I have some sort of peace for the moment. Not being cocky but just staying in and chilling has just helped in a strange way. I know I have a busy month ahead. But it is just nice for those 3 weeks. That I just took myself out of life. At this stage I could make it 5 weeks but we will see at this point.

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My gf just dumped me, she said that i was being possesive, and manipulative with her, ando that i don't like hermano Friends wich is kind of true , but thats because she kissed a female friend once, when we actually were together, so i think maybe she dumped me for her

>she can buy her plane tickets to leave on holidays.
Dude free house?

I'm struggling to get my life on track. I'm a fucking mess after my grandmother died two years ago. She was the only one in my family that I really cared and loved. Two years of emptiness, drug use and pain. I'm tired of all of it but I don't have the energy or the willingness to move on. I just want to end it all because everything still looks meaningless even after finally moving on after her death. If it's not that, it's just too much work to get my shit together and killing myself still seems the better option. I'm not moving back to parents and be a parasite after losing my job which I miraculously held on to but they're going to lay me off and me and my boss already had the talk. I only hope she can forgive me for my selfishness and talk to me in the afterlife.

Lol I have my own apartment I live alone in another city.
It'd be depressing to end up in her empty house after graduation.

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You're welcome kek

Spent last money on the entry fee for a kickbox tournament. End up 1st in my division. Return home proud tell my roomates. Loser roomate who still owes me 200 bucks tries to cuck me in front of other roomates by talking it down. Go to sleep now, because I've got to get up early to work at the harbour while he went out to comfort his shit by a woman 12 years younger than him. Finished my Bachelor this year and started one year after him while he hasn't even done half the courses.
Conclusion: he has become a little fuck, who is full of fucking envy and I'll kick his ass with assist of the landlord if he doesn't get his shit straight.

I have been learning so much in the last two months. I can't believe what a positive change you have had on me. Between you and your brothers my eyes are finally opening.

It's like I finally have a family. I have hope and am finding the strength to move forward when I was starting to think I was a dead duck in my 30's: hopeless, too old, ect. Nobody wants Christmas Cake... except you.

I came to you to help you. Somehow you are helping me just as hard. Nobody has ever tried to help me back before. They just said thanks for the help and walked off at best. I hope we all stand strong forever.

If I had been told last year that this would have happened I would have never believed it.

Love you guys. Seriously. I love you. Never change unless it's for the better. Please.

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I'm just friends with a former FWB who I had mutual feelings with. I'd be okay with getting together with her but she doesn't want to drag me into the uncertainty and mess her life is right now. We're very close, but she said she can't promise too much in the future. We did end up kissing after a 2 month break during a bar night this weekend.

Now a girl I've been playing vidya with tells me that if it doesn't work out she's definitely an option. A 19 year old athlete sounds damn tempting, and the ex-FWB says that I have the right to hook up with other people, but fuck me, I don't know if I want to take any chances and kinda feel like it might hurt her even if she says it's within my rights.

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Knowing that someone took a liking of me gets me acting awkwardly and I find myself forcing jokes with them which isn't my style usually and not why they liked me in the first place. I feel like a disappointment when I do that. I should learn to manage this anxiety.