What is Anons biggest regret in life?

When I was 13 I had an e-harem of wellll over 20+ year old guys I sent weird nudes to. Every time I’m doing better in life and feeling better and worthy, I remember this and cringe endlessly. I want to bury this as far as it’ll go. I feel like I’ve been marked for life ever since, that I can never truly be worthy of getting married and having a family and a nice quiet life. No one knows and I’ll take this to my grave. I didn’t even tell my therapist cause I don’t want him knowing I was disgusting like that once.

I used to regret a lot of shit until I had a mad shrooms trip and some entity explained to me it would be useless to change everything.

She said that the reason you regret is because you've mastered your mistakes and know exactly what you did wrong and learned how to handle it differently.

If you could go back in time and fix even one mistake, your entire life path will change completely presenting new situations you'll fuck up just as bad or worse, then you'll just regret all that shit all over again.

Never regret. You learned shit. Move on.

Everyone does things they feel disgusted with when they were younger but you'll learn its just your past and in time will repress and forget about it

Some thought provoking advice

I know. What's weird to me is I'm not really spiritual and definitely believe that was a hallucination.
Yet I am but an idiot and not normally capable of such profound thoughts. Gives me pause. It was very vivid.

Perhaps it was there buried all along the millions of unconscious thoughts we have but it took a substance to show you a different perspective of it

Likely.

Would you recommend doing shrooms at least once in a lifetime or are people typically prone to getting fucked up from it?

Also to add to this: what are my changes of 'meeting the devil' instead of a wise angel-like entity when i'm a rather pessimestic guy? Also my mind often plays tricks with me in my sleep by giving me nightmares on purpose because it thinks it's cool and exciting, while in reality i'll wake up with 200 beats heartbeat and wake up in sweat and be like: wtf brain?

Go on NIH and check the research on it. The FDA is trying to reverse it's legal status and use it to medicate mental illness. It's truly a miraculous drug for mental health.

There are certain people who shouldn't do it, but by and large, I would say most people really should do it at least once. It's totally non addictive (if anything it's anti addictive), non toxic and all that.

But you should research the ever living shit out of how to do it properly. Environment mood and setting are everything, and you need to be mentally prepared for a bad trip which you can get through fine if you know what to do.

If you are prone to psychotic episodes (borderline personality disorder, schizophrenia, psychosis) then you should not do it. It's a trigger for these things but only if you have them already.

Final advice, use research chemicals. Theyre safe, cheap, and depending where you live, legal. Opinions vary on this.

Tl;Dr

In long term studies on psychadelic use a lot of users rate a good trip as the single most important and transformative experience of their entire lives.

It can cause permanent positive changes to your personality. LSD cured my anxiety disorder. One damn trip.

I feel like its different for every person but usually if you got someone to trip sit you and do a recommended dose you should have a good trip

That depends so so much on so many factors, and being pessimistic is not one of them.
It's more likely to fix your pessimism desu.

i regret not taking highschool seriously
i regret giving SO MUCH of a fuck about making friends and people over all
I regret not losing my virginity in highschool
I regret not getting a girlfriend in highschool
I regret not getting my license at an early age
I wish i wasn't so socially retarded
I wish i was intelligent
i wish i wasn't fucking SHELTERED as a child ( fuck you mom)
I wish i wasn't born

was with a girl in the back of my car. we made out and everything and she was obviously throwing strong hints that she wanted me to do something to her. of course i didn't because i was withdrawing from drugs and was a shaky mess at the time. fuck me. i hope i get the chance to see her again so i can actually do something with her, but she probably thinks i'm a loser now.

staying with my ex who abused mentally and psychologically and cheated on me multiple times. he would also force me into a mommy kink and further abuse me if i wasn't comfortable with it. i get it, i was stupid but i was also young. my parents just separated then and i had no one.
wish i left him sooner before i developed PTSD because of him. but at the same time i became smarter emotionally when it comes to relationships. i rely on myself more than anything now though.

What did your mom do when you were in highschool?

Oh and I forgot to mention. The entity I was talking about, she wasn't an angel. She was a demon.
My mind made her up of course, but if that answers your question further, meeting something "evil" doesn't mean it's going to be a bad experience.

Thanks i'll look into it. I won't have anyone joining me to babysit though, but i hardly think that's neccecary. I've hallucinated slightly on high doses of mdma powder and xtc before, though i could hardly call it a trip. Three instances. First being me thinking i was in some sand pit during ww2. Was kinds freaky because we were sitting in the basement with lights off, and the phones lights looked like distant explosions and whatnot, second one was where i blacked out because i volenterely hyperventilated and blowed on my thumb to pass out what felt like 30 minutes (hearing distant huge crowds of voices, complete darkness, thinking i was dead) while i should've only passed out for 3 seconds normally. Last time i projected a figure on a curtain in the other room onto my eye socket.

I wonder if shrooms will give me a real trip experience instead of the lowsy meaningless hallucinations i got from xtc/mdma.

I imagine although traumatic its made you a stronger person and allowed you to grow from it. I'm sure you'll be better from it

Cool man.
Yeah sitters are recommended but I've always tripped alone or with other high friends. You'll be ok. Just don't skip the research on what to expect. It can turn bad without warning. You can fix it by changing the song even (you should have music. Very important), or just accepting what's happening to you.

The big danger is you can face up to all the lies you tell yourself about yourself and see yourself for what you are. It's a very important experience. I even try for it. But some people can't handle it.

I wish I wouldn't have carried around my anger so much.
I wish I would've realised sooner that my behaviour was actively contributing to my loneliness by driving people away.
That being said, I also wish I was stereotypically more masculine in my youth, but I'm pretty over it now.

Why the fuck would you feel bad over it? You was just some kid doing stuff for positive attention and didn't harm anyone.

Now the 20+ year old guys getting nudes from a kid, that's some fucked stuff.

I harmed myself in doing that. Doing all that was insanely unhealthy and idk I just feel guilt over it even tho I was the “victim” I was the one putting myself out there. I didn’t even think of the dangers either, and it fucked with my perception of my body and looks forever and of course sexual dysfunction.

Did you not graduate with a job?
Met several guys in my uni who did ee and had a job by graduation.
Didn't ask how much they'd be paid but they loved what they studied
Also, that's a pretty shitty thing to do, to go after a career for money if you don't enjoy it for the promised big bucks
I see a lot of guys from Business and Engineeeing college burning out because they don't enjoy their studies, I can't imagine doing it for the rest of your life
You should have gone with a trade instead desu

2 big things:

> Not fucking more girls
> Not picking the right career at 18

Never pass up sex. Always try before you buy when it comes to jobs. If you're interested in doing something find someone in that field and ask if you can shadow them for a week. One week will give you a lot of insight to see if you really want to do it.

Being fat.
I started eating a lot when I was 10 and my parents divorced, and as a result i'd eat my feelings away, and stayed fat through middle and high school until the year after high school when I dropped 50 lbs and now look normal, if not on the skinny side (according to friends)

Being fat as a child/teenager sucks massive dick and I'd never want to go through that shit again.

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Nobody is going to recognize you, today, the way you looked back then or that it was you. The more you think about it, the less you will cringe and laugh at it.

Same but we were 16 and now I'm 22.

Not sure if that's my biggest regret but definitely one of them.

Dropping out of high school and getting a GED, not sleeping with more women when I was younger, not saving more money, not helping my parents out more when I was a kid, being rude to my mother, pushing people away when I was younger whoch led to me being friendless now, not eating healthier when I was younger, ect.

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I wish I had squeezed the trigger when the pistol was against my head.

I regret getting addicted to video games when I could've gotten addicted to going to the gym, working, or something else productive

>tfw never ad an opportunity like this
Me and my friends were pretty much oblivious about actual real life sex at that age, I can't imagine how I would even react to that.

How do I identify these types to avoid them? would be humiliating to actually have a relationship with one.

Not dying when I had the chance suffered alot of emotional bullshit,
Everything past high school was pretty much downhill.

Doesnt look any better going forward either.

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In my high-school sociology class I gave a rant about why feminism was bad in front of a bunch of pretty liberal people, including my friend. I have a feeling that fucked up my reputation for the rest of my time there and I cringe whenever I remember it. Other than that the typical oblivious dating stuff that's common around here and some hyperactive stunts I pulled before mellowing out.

I've met a few and they all had absent fathers, not even trying to be funny. Found out after they sent me nudes (which I didn't ask for, btw) and when I chastised them they admitted to doing this to guys before me. Guess they're starved for affection. Course, who knows if other girls do it and bury it.

I didn't tell her I loved her.

Not getting into music sooner? But if i did i might be fucking crazy like my local famous friend.

Not having a solid goal I guess. I have one now - at 30. Luckily i have a home and a good degree and hopefully i get this dank job. But honestly things are how they should be and I'm at peace with it

The big one: getting married.
But others: worked late installing terminals for a mainframe back in the day. Three secretaries stayed late too. I was installing a DB-25 wall socket under one's desk, lying on the floor. They all stared in about exciting it was to have a guy at her feet. I sais "You're embarrassing me." What a spaz. They all evaporated within seconds.
Another time: was at a gathering of friends - four girls and me. They wanted me to be the toy. I chickened out.
Arrgh argh argh...hate myself.

I regret not doing better in school.
I regret not picking up digital art sooner.
I regret not moving in with my grandma.

Hard drugs are not the way to cope with stress. 0/10 experience, never again. One rehab staying in life is more than enough.

My biggest regret is not listening to a guy named James who was in a tiny Friday night college church group in the early 2010s. I had just started going and this guy in his 30s introduced himself and said God told him to put everything he could into something called Bitcoin because in 7 years the harvest would be unimaginable, and he wanted to share this opportunity with me. They were about 3 coins per dollar back then, and I spent $5k on a car that lasted 2 years instead. He moved off and I forgot all about bitcoin. 7 years later almost to the day bitcoin hit $19k each. I could have been set for life like he is had I listened to him. Instead I'm suffering with a dull throb in my left nut for over a year with a sporadic contract job, Achilles tendinitis in both feet from my last sweatshop job, some deep tooth cavities, a plethora of mental health issues, and no money or insurance to get any of it even looked at.

we should of never fucked I wish I stayed a virgin.

Biggest regret is not having more shit to regret. Looking back on all the crazy shit just makes me wish that i did more crazy shit.

Dude, if you fucked one, you fucked them all.

Meeting my gf

Not trying for so long.

Tell me about it.
I got that kind of offer a year and a half ago and I figured she had herpes.

Maybe I should've done her with a condom anyway and let her bond with me for a while, even if she thinks I'm terrible in bed because let's face it, no one wants to teach a virgin man anything.

I just think sex is a powerful bonding tool and to just abuse it would fuck with your emotions. You could be her White Knight and she could still fuck Tyrone and Esteban behind your back. That's what always worried me.

I should have transitioned ten years ago when I knew for sure that I needed to, instead of being afraid, and forcing myself to believe the lies I was told, that it was a phase, or that it would destroy my future. I've lived that future now, and It wasn't worth the price I paid.

I feel like I'm living what I regret right now but I can't pinpoint exactly what I'm doing wrong besides not being as productive as I could be.

I just want to be content in the end.

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What pushed you or what kind of epiphany did you have that helped you formulate a goal/plan??

t. Helpless goalless user

Weird story but what started me down was i liked this song that came on my YouTube mix and there was an interview with the guy. So whatever i put it on. The guy shows a tattoo on his forehead of the word "kybalion" and goes off about how that book / philosophy changed his life and empowered him to make his dreams come true and anyone can too.

I checked that out, then "the strangest secret" and after that it's like a compound effect. I still struggle but not as much as before.

But ya know what , just Check out the "strangest secret " by earl and it'll change everything.

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One of the few memories I have as a kid is sending a text message to my mum saying I want to kill myself. So despite there being moments in my life that I wish I did differently, I think I was doomed from the start.

Cute girl yelled at me from across the gym to join her club freshman year of HS, but I just shook my head and walked away.

Not doing more sports during high school. Went from decently athletic to obese NEET

stood up for myself against my step mom even if right now I still feel a bit of panic after 20 years

I was just a dumb teenager, but man do I wish I taught myself discipline earlier than I am now. Part of me resents my family not taking the extra mile to mold me into shape, but part of me knows I was a rebellious ass who made things difficult. Now? I just wish the journey to self-improvement didn't feel so lonely, I can only take pride in not giving up during set-backs.

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A few years back, I was getting pushed into studying abroad, but then I looked into it and turned it down. I even got like a 75% scholarship, however the debt would've still been overwhelming. So happy I dodged that bullet.

Should've gone for it.
>be me
>few months back
>biggest crush actually liked me back
>asked her out as soon as I found out
>went to watch a movie
>halfway through the movie, she leaned into me
>we cuddled for the rest of the movie
>near the end of the movie, I asked her if she wanted to kiss instead of just going for it
>cringe.gif
>she said not yet
>didn't ask again for the rest of the night
>left her @ her house. Nothing else happened
>~1 hour later get a text from her best friend
>told me she leaned into me bc she wanted to kiss me
>ohgodwhathaveidone
>predictably, she lost interest in me pretty quickly after that
>did end up kissing and dating some more, but nothing else

bump

I would take care of my teeth.

Sucks being 25 with a rotting mouth. Can't even smile around people.

>What is Anons biggest regret in life?
Devoting time and energy towards people who don’t reciprocate

>Is there anything you wish you could have done differently or would you keep it the same?
No regrets because it defines who I am today. Only wish I learned to cut out the toxicity sooner

My biggest regret is being pretty good at basketball and having no courage to go all in on it because i was thinking too much about what others thought about me. Now here I am being shit at life while some guys that were worse than me (I don't wanna sound braggy but they were worse technically but they had more will power and didn't care too much like I did) are still playing and earning some cash from it. I'm 23 now and ill never make it. I should let it go but it's kinda hard

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I did this same thing, but with girls. From 14 to 17 I had like 10 internet girlfriends. At one time I had 5 at the same time. When I was done talking to one I'd call / text another, until eventually I settled on one who was with me for just over a year until out of nowhere I dumped her and literally shattered her heart into 10million pieces. All because I finally had a chance at a real life gf. The girl I started dating found out about her and I came clean and told her I would end it. It was the most painful phonecall I've ever made to this day. I could feel her pain 3000miles away, after talking for hours daily and telling each other how much we loved one another I hit her with a break up like a semi truck. She begged and pleaded me not to leave her, she wrote me emails and even letters. She was truly in love with me.

Being born
Not doing a sport in HS
Going to the college I went to
Picking a stupid major non STEM
Getting fat
Drinking so often
Not selling my shares in a friend's small business at it's peak
Not smashing all the chicks I had chances with

sorry for late reply i don't really remember her working when i was a kid, she just kept living off the government, still happening today, just fucking gave up

My only big regret so far is losing her. She was something else, thought i was gonna marry her too, even gave her a promise ring. But it all fell apart because of me, i was supposed to move to texas with her when she went to college, but i didnt. And now she's gone. I wish i hadn't fucked up, i was also really arrogant. I greatly regret it.

Wish I got laid before my sex drive died. Wish I understood the value of education and the consequences I'd not valuing it in high school.

Not learning how to get good with girls back in high school. I know of a couple of very cute and pretty women who had a crush on me and i never managed to date any of them because i used to be a socially anxious idiot.

No i'm 21 y/o and yeah sure, i've somewhat cured my issues with women. I can quite effectively pick up chicks now. But the majority of girls i pick up now are club sluts that aren't worth anything more than a quick and mindless bang. I should have practiced my game back when the girls i could have dated were still cute and not completely ragged out by random dicks and alcohol.

I regret not telling my mother about what my brother did to me. I don't know if she would be able financially to get help for me, because she didn't even after catching us in the act, but at least it would be out there so someone would know. My brother molested me from a very young age, maybe 5 or 6, I don't really know since my memory of that time is a blur. I'm not a femanon by the way

>failing out of the reserves
fit related because a good part of that was being an unfit piece of fucking shit

haunted me every day without fail for a year, I missed out on a camaraderie and networking and just life fulfilling opportunity that just fucked me, then it haunted me weekly for a second year god fuck, i failed uni for 4 years and that still doesnt come close

>being in a truck crammed with 30 other dudes on a midnight ex, only a little moonlight, seeing each others camo'd up faces all here
>that fucking feeling of holy shit, i belong

i was autistic but not autistic enough to see the grace period where people are willing to accept you and saw it pass, then saw other people succeed during it and what the fuck I was a shit soldier, shit fitness, i did ok at other things but i failed horribly at the social part and never made friends, i was pitied, looked as a weird motherfucker and i fucking was

goddamit

fuck i joined the reserves instead of going full time because i had this retarded idea that i would have another chance with this girl from high school lmao jesus fuck i was retarded, maybe going full time would have slapped the retard out of me early on but regret is a vile poison it is what it is

now i am only making the first steps to making a friend again, yeah im a bit more fit now, cardio is probably shit, i literally never train core like a retard but hey i can do more pushups now and pullups are easier compared to before god fucking damn if things went to plan i would be a fucking psychologist already, pulling 100k, maybe a corporal or lance, have plenty of friends, a 3d waifu, even kids, and a happy fucking mom who had grandkids to look after

but im here motherfucker fuck and i have to make the best of it before it's too fucking late

wish i didnt fall for that acam

fuck i had a friend who wanted to join the army too, he wanted to end up as the top boss, i said id end up head of the psych corps but he made it in as an officer and im some faggot on Jow Forums

he phoned me, wanted to catch up and see how i was doing but i was doing so bad then that i pushed him away

god fuck, he was a good guy but i just felt so ashamed of myself i never followed up and that was that, had another friend who wanted to catch up but i pushed him away too, those two were true friends i guess but i was so deep in my fucking shit that i made shit decisions and i never realized they were really good people

dammit im sorry

i think if i meet them again today id just invite them to drinks and if they ask i would confess but even if they fucked off i deserve it, but i would tell them why i ignored them if they even cared

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not brushing my teeth as a child

Not experiencing love and sex during my teens, It has scarred me forever. Now I can easily date a 8/10 but Im to bitter to even try a relationship, I learned to live alone and I can't see me with another person... thing is I really know that Im missing something...

If I wasn't such a massive weeb in high school I could probably be in medical school right now and fit enough to run a marathon.

>19yo virgin
>meet random group of girls while wandering campus hammered with friends
>everyone trying to set me and another girl up because we're both virgins
>cute, short, dark hair
>nothing ends up happening because I'm too insecure
>never see her again
It was my only chance. Here I am ~1.5 years later, balding, depressed, friendless, and still a virgin. That was the first and only girl who's ever been interested. Luckily I think I can convince my dad to let me borrow his handgun once summer swings around and end it.

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I just graduated last week with a mechanical engineering degree , and 98% of my friends have had a job already signed before graduation.

I'm specializing in nuclear engineering ,nuclear engineering minor, and man it makes it even easier i do think.

I absolutely love what i'm doing now though. As with anything in life there is no point in doing it if you hate it.

I wish i never got so hell bent over making a long distance relationship work, and purposefully acting so blind to all the warning signs. Would not of wasted years of my life chasing the unobtainable.

That being said, she did take me out of my shell, she motivated me to get my dream job , and she showed me for even a small amount of time what love could feel like.

So i dont know if i regret her or not , guys. I just feel numb , and i miss her

My biggest regret? Listening to the people around me, biggest mistake I made. The decision fuc*ed me over for at least 20 years.

Jacking off so much
Not joining track earlier in high school
Not staying consistent with lifting
Being lazy in all that I did and developing all these bad habits
Wasting so much time as a music major before getting serious about learning and practicing

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Not sticking with my workout routine / getting lazy
Not figuring shit out BEFORE going to college, ah well
That's about it, everything else I screwed up on ended up working in my favor some way or other but these two are my big regrets

Not telling my dad to fuck off
Not actually telling/showing I liked her before it was too late

not giving a fuck about anything until i hit 26

Definitely would've taken college applications and my college education more seriously.
Here I am at 30 with a worthless AA. I tried to reapply last year but they didn't give me academic forgiveness.

Also like most in this thread, I missed my chance with a fair share of women who I could've easily given the dick to but failed for one reason or another.
Dalia, Paige, Anita, Elsa.. all fucked opportunities thanks to stupid mistakes

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I took 2 tabs of acid and sexually assaulted my best friends gf, her friend and a 30 year old women I'm not even a violent guy I never fantasised about hurting anyone not like that...

All my friends left me, women who know look at me in fear...

I've attempted suicide multiple times because of it my last one was the closest I got to death but I pussied out last second and phoned an ambulance, am in a hospital bed now wondering what I should with my life

None of you have fucked up as bad as I have

My dad sexually assaulted my little sisters and I was too afraid to beat his ass

same happened here user, I feel you

Man that too fucked up to be true. 2 tabs of acid? was it like 400uG per tabs jezuz

Should've studied what I actually had passion for (zoology or paleontology) instead of what promised good job prospects. Know I have a job that's easy and gives good money but I'm still unhappy because it's boring as shit. Will apply for university again in a year.