I wasted my teens and I don't want the same to happen to my twenties

I'm 19 and male. When I look to my past I realize I don't have anything memorable to think about. I don't know what happened to the last 10 years of my life, and I don't want to be in my 30's not knowing what happened to the last 20 years of my life. Did anybody here go through the same? What would you do in this situation?

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Yes. Wasted my teens inside playing video games and now I’m doing the same thing in my 20s. I really wish I could kill myself but I’m a pussy.

I would have been in the same situation if I hadn't joined the military. Shit was crazy because just after I went to basic, the U.S. invaded Iraq. You do a lot of training if you go combat arms. If you join now you might catch the next war and shit will be like a fucking college fraternity experience combined with Vietnam. Will have a lot of stories to tell.

You don't like your past, present and possible future you. What are you going to do about it. It's that fucking simple. Just fucking do something about it.

Op Here.

I've been taking meds for the last 5 years of my life. During all that time, the meds which were supposed to make me feel better just fucked me up. Could be the fact that SSRI's are fucking poison, though. Yet, when I stopped taking the meds I started feeling better, I really want to live now. Maybe you just need to give up on something you've been doing for a long time so you get out of your comfort zone. Even if it is one small step at a time. I hope things get better for you, user. I don't wish to anybody to feel like they've wasted any time of their lives.

I thought about the military, but in my country it's different from the U.S. In here, people treat the military as an one year serving time where you don't learn shit, or as complete way of life where you need to give all you got just to have the luxury of serving a country that most don't want to serve.

Yes, I understand that. Thing is, I don't know where to start. I would like to know what you guys would do. I'm not very creative.

I'm in my 18's and i feel the same thing too, man
I just got started on doing things with my life and having important improvements on it this year, we are still young dude
Do anything, literally anything to not waste time
What do you like to do?
Hobbies?
Are you studying?

Video games isn’t a waste tho

>What would you do in this situation?
Most important thing is to socialize. More important than anything else. A lot of retards will come to you saying "durr bro you gotta self improve, once you're good enough you'll get friends and a gf naturally!" Don't listen to them. The lowest of the low scumbags and trash people can get friends and gfs, obese people can, gang members and cripples can. Self improving has NOTHING to do with that stuff.

The ONLY thing that matters is getting out on the social frontlines, so to speak. Cutting your teeth going out to parties or concerts or the county fair or what the fuck ever your area has where people your age congregate. If you have ANY friends, drag them out with you as you can be morale support for each other when you're out there.

I was just feeling shitty. I feel better now. I hope things work out for you forever and enjoy the rest of our lives. Thank you for responding.

I know. At the time of writing that I felt like I needed to get energy out or whatever so I left my house and went for a walk. I’m better now and I’m feeling ok. Thanks for making me feel better because you did.

Fuck bro, that's so right. I moved to a new city and even though the people at my university are friendly I have not made a lot of friends that I can go out with. But it's also so hard to talk to new people.

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I really like synthwave, so I'm thinking about starting and make my own tracks. I know they are going to be shitty, but I think that's something I could actually enjoy.
Not studying right now, but really thinking about it. I mentioned that I took SSRI's for a long time of my life; sad thing is that SSRI's really fuck you up, it's like being dead while also wishing you were dead. Hopefully I'll get out of this and actually start living. Wasted time really makes you think, and nothing good comes with thinking.
Thanks for replying, user.

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What are your parents like OP?

I wish you the same, mate. Godspeed!

Good, I think. I was a really quiet kid and grew up to be even quieter, so they never really bothered about how I was doing with life, if that answers your question.

That's, unironically, a good advice. Thanks, man.
Funny how I got serious answers and no one told me to kms till now, lol.

I dont want to talk to most people though. I don't know what to say. All they seem to do is work and consume shitty pop culture. When they do have spare time they just seem to waste it getting fucked and fleeing. What do you do when you don't want to socialise? Isn't socialising just wasting time as well?

Isn't life just wasting time till you die frankly, and emotional pain ust comes from imagining that other people are wasting their time in a better way that you are?

Did they teach you anything, invite you to do activities with them?

No. Now I see where you're going. I actually used to resent my parents for not having taught me basic social skills. But, after all, I'm a big whining bitch. Sometimes I think how it would've been great if they had taught me how to be social at an young age. But, recently, I realized it wouldn't make a difference, I wasn't born for that.

Not him but I used to cut myself because of emotional anxiety up until I was like 26. I would get sad/upset whenever I perceived any sort of possible break up or turmoil in my relationship. I think I thought I needed them to want me and didn't know what I'd do if they weren't. I'd get mad at myself.

Luckily I've become very independent since then. Probably too independent but It's better than the opposite of me dependent.

How is that a waste? You can't "waste" a life. Even if you kill yourself you still lived to that moment. Don't let society set your standards of life.

>Don't let society set your standards of life

Not him but that's easier said than done. A lot of people don't drop religion as absolutely fucking ridiculous and psychotic as it is simply because it's been drilled into their head since birth.

And 2 less limbs too! Easy way to lose 60 pounds

Op here.
You're right, actually. It is wasting time. But, in a sense, it's a better way to waste your time. I think that because I've lost the pleasure in playing vidya, though. If you don't want to socialize, it's all good; but you don't want to have so much spare time to think about it, this would make you depressed - or even more depressed for that matter.
Talking with you guys is the most social interaction I've got in the past days. I work an 8 to 5 job and I can't stand my coworkers. Everyday at work I look at the clock and wish the time to go faster so I can go home. Wanting that is the same to wish life to go faster so you can die, but you don't perceive it that way when you just want to go home. If I was distracted by social interaction I wouldn't get to that way of thinking, a thought that just scares me and makes me sad.

Nevermind, just talked to my mother and realized that all she tells me can be taken as an euphemism to keep dying in my room looking at this screen.

>I'm 19
Fuck off