Sorry for bad english. I'm a guy, i'm 21 (next year 22). I'm so sad and depressed and i dont even know where to start. So there's a list of things that make my life horrible: - 0 self esteem/0 confidence. - university go very bad, only 2 exams in 1 year and half - porn addicted (addicted to sissy stuff in particular, if you know what that is) - virgin, never even kissed (and that's a thing that really gets worse my confidence) - live in a bad environment (i dont even have a personal bedroom) - no friends (i have friends in my own city, but not here 'cause i live very far from home for university) - a lot of pressure from my family, that makes my levels of stress go super high - i feel ugly (i dont know if i'm really ugly, but i hate my appearance) - a lot of social anxiety
i have an exam in two weeks, and i dont know if i'm able to give that (i've studied very little)... i'm having suicide thoughts,but i know that i'll never do that 'cause the only thing that keeps me in life is hope...
thank you if you'll tell me your thoughts about my situation, bye.
Anti depressants. People will talk shit about them but I started taking them a year ago and they helped me a lot. My anxiety is mostly gone and suicidal thoughts completely gone.
21 is still very young tho. You have lots of time t sort your life out.
Jayden Ward
but i dont know if i'm REALLY AND LITERALLY depressed (i'm writing here 'cause it makes impossible to answer you directly i dont know why)
Asher Brown
Maybe you will never know. But if you feel suicidal I think that is bad and its ok to try meds for a few weeks and stop if u dont like them.
Jayden Morris
i dont know if i feel suicidal,i mean i just have these thoughts it's like an istinct i dont how to to explain it well...
Joseph Foster
you do not have self-esteem You're probably afraid of changes and you resist until the last moment, when you are against the sword and the screen is really where you change, you like to be there, do something!
>i'm 21 (next year 22). ??? how is that possible????
Benjamin Lewis
dont start meds at 21. live a painful, fulfilling life.
Colton Brooks
what u mean?
Benjamin Lopez
what courses are you studying? What kind of job when you graduate?
Jaxson Cruz
literature, anyway i like what i'm studying. i wanna be a writer...
Chase Barnes
well thats good.
even if you are bad at school, you shouldn't feel so bad if you like what you are studying, and like your goal.
its like practicing on guitar; you have to work through sucking at first.
Kayden Myers
restaurantjobs.mcdonalds.com/ It will help you both for friends, virginity, self esteem, you will stop feeling ugly when customers will flirt with you and you will realize school isnt mandatory because they will pay you even without education.
i have to study and go to university, i dont have time for a job...
Nicholas Reyes
It took me a REALLY long time to learn to do this, but block some of that stuff from your mind. Like, it sounds dumb, but just don't think about it. What's going wrong in University specifically?
If all goes wrong, H E L I U M.
Joshua Butler
yeah like "dont think about a pink elephant"... easy to say, very hard to do.
what u mean for helium?
Brandon Mitchell
lmao as if there's an alternative to what's pictured there >fast food It's the only fucking food I can get if I want to keep my current office job >no social interaction BECAUSE I dont have free time and because I'm tired >pornhub literally every normal person watches porn >no excercise No time, also too tired because of depression, even if I force myself to do it, and trust me that I do force myself through the pain of depression and it just makes it impossible to keep up with the excercise >weed I don't do drugs and people who do seem happier than me anyway >goes on internet 12 hours a day My job requires the internet >videogames Non depressed people play videgames too >going to sleep late That's an actual issue called insomnia, not just "lol im such a rebel i go to sleep late"
Michael Brooks
() I'm not OP btw but sorry that picture is a piece of shit
Jacob Garcia
i'm op, and i say that play videogames it's the only thing that makes me more "happy" and motivated, 'cause i play them competitively
Lucas Smith
>i cant improve my life because i got no time Nuff said. Enjoy your misery user. Dont forget you will feel the same for the next 30 years unless you finally decide to change something.
Charles Ramirez
okay, then don't do anything.
Is that the answer you want, OP? Sit around and be unhappy the rest of your life?
Caleb Rogers
>lmao just change things idk
Connor Ward
I'm not OP but yes, that's the answer I want if it's the truth.
Nathaniel Williams
If you don't change your life your life won't change.
Samuel Rivera
Not true at all. >do nothing >family member dies and changes your life or >do nothing and have no job >suddenly someone calls you with a job opportunity or >do nothing in college >sit next to the straight A student by luck and manage to copy their exam Life is more about luck than effort.
