How do you cope with being a latent homosexual at 21 who is still attracted and aroused by women but can no longer want...

How do you cope with being a latent homosexual at 21 who is still attracted and aroused by women but can no longer want to have sex with them and instead only wants to be with men and its like all of your past heterosexuality and intense feelings for girls just got taken away from you when you self sabotaged and felt too worthless to ever think any girl would want you to the point where the ones who were interested in you thought you were gay but you didn't know it at the time and now you lost out on not only teenage love but experiencing it with your heterosexuality and now you can only think about being fucked by men and caring for them like a filthy faggot freak?

When I look at pic related I just want to have sex with men in her body.

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So wait let me get this straight you wish you were the girl in that pic and getting fucked as her. Like that residence hentai? You could either commit suicide and be reincarnated as that or you could live with it

Dude I think your trans.

Aren’t you the guy who thinks a gay dude magically made you homosexual?

No I’m bisexual I don’t give a fuck if your a girl or boy. And what?

I'm not trans I'm just fed up of being a homosexual faggot. What happened? I loved girls when I was 10-20 and always wanted to be with them
Now I just fantasize about men, I used to be ashamed of my ballbusting/CBT femdom fetish and now its the only thing I think could actually make me aroused for a girl, she'd have to be into hurting me forcing me to look her in the eyes while she does it.
It would have to go straight to that to overwhelm the cocklust and recover the last remnants of my hetereosexuality, just a cockbox, pulling my balls and dick through, her in whatever footwear she wants just stomping on them

Trans people and furries often have these feelings as well
The easiest way is to not think about yourself too much and instead what you want to do

Your fantasies of being a woman and getting your pussy rammed is making me think your a woman user? It’s not unormal for trans people have these feelings. My advice goto therapy or rehabilitation.

>Trans people and furries often have these feelings as well
What feelings? Submitting to a man even though you aren't attracted to them visually in person and only attracted to women?

You are really mentally ill. Just stick to being a faggot and leave normal women alone. You shouldn't have watched so much porn

>your a woman lol
No just less of a man/male for having these feelings along with agreeableness, high negative emotion, unassertiveness etc
I don't have any physical or social gender dysphoria

You probably messed yourself up with porn.

Before you say "oh I just masturbate once a day and watch vanilla stuff like gang bangs, dp and bukake" that is EXACTLY the issue

1. whose body is that
2. are you sure you're not bi

>Before you say "oh I just masturbate once a day and watch vanilla stuff like gang bangs, dp and bukake" that is EXACTLY the issue
Actually I watched a ballbusting joi when I was 11 and I didn't even know what masturbation was or what stroking my dick could do. Then it was femdom pov or just regular joi's, verbal degradation, SPH, etc
Then feminization at 17 and I had already crossdressed before that twice, went on omegle/chatroulette and only showed my body below my shoulders, stripped for guys but never felt attracted to them only to myself, would skip before I showed dick. Then just femdom till 19 then started self inserting as the girl in regular porn, still only attracted to the girl, then forced bi/gay encouragement femdom/pain and reward conditioning where if there's a solo girl or vagina I hit my balls or don't masturbate and if there's a guy penetrating a girl then I'd masturbate. Then I anally masturbated to the girl being fucked and developed attraction to male bodies. Then I self inserted as the trap/tranny being fucked and finally fem gay bottoms.

>2. are you sure you're not bi
If you were straight your whole life and started masturbating solely to gay porn self inserting as the bottom or women with naked men telling you to accept the fact that you're gay what would you think? If I'm bisexual then most submissive gay men must be bisexual too
I writhe around in my bed some nights just wanting to get fucked by an assertive man

what would i think? i'd think i'm gay. that said, every single one of my gay friends still wanna know what pussy tastes like.

i still dream of being a girl but it's never enough to pervade my hetero sense.

i do think sexuality doesn't operate on extremes, and even if they do, literally what the fuck's stopping you from trying things out anyway, beyond some fever dream of "oh i want him in that body bla bla bla."

you're only 21 anyway. plenty enough time for you to answer my first question

pls

Stop looking at anime and porn. Good luck on your path to mental health user

>that said, every single one of my gay friends still wanna know what pussy tastes like.
I don't get it

me neither. i don't think it's our place to make sense of it

There's only one purpose to sex. To procreate
PRO-CREATE
you shouldn't waste your creative juices for something so useless as being gay. Instead of being worthless channel that energy into creating a better you and a better life.

Steve Jobs, who explained to his wife why he stayed away from it and here was his ultimate reason:

“power and wealth by conserving one’s vital energies”.

And one of my favorites, Mark Wahlberg, on masturbation:

“I don’t get down with jerking off, dude. I lead a clean and pure life”. Haha.

These men didn't even fap user, even if you do fap on occasion and just don't engage in gay stuff you'll be able to do better for yourself but you should probably calm it down on the fapping too. There's a world full of mystery out there and it's not too late to build yourself up to the point to where you can wrestle with those mysteries. We need you to help us figure out c elegans and octonians bruh.

Get counselling - not to "cure" your homosexuality, but to help you sort out your feelings about it

sauce pls

You're overthinking about this entire situation
Try to actively still thinking about it

A combination of porn, lack of social interactions, boredom and a low self esteem fucked you up. You need to improve yourself, by that I mean love yourself user.
Alternatively, you may actually feel like a woman. Go to /lgbt/ or other queer place.

Honest thoughts?
archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/21035036/#21037005
How do I become heterosexual again? How do I replace this lust if pavlovian extinction won't work?
If I go outside I don't even feel attracted to males, I just get homosexual thoughts

The internet gave you an environment to promote and endorse your dark side and subconscious desires. And they were pushed into your subconscious for a reason. Protip, just because a minority of faggots like to explore their degeneracy doesnt mean you need to engage in it. At the very least, you possess a sense of shame, so... you've got some level of self awareness.

I suggest you stop the gay shit cold Turkey and start talking to girls. Find one that interests you and you can see yourself dating.

How much pornography and marijuana have you consumed?

I dunno user. I can only point out what I think happened to you. Change it's up to you, can't help you with that.

Trans is not having some porn pickled brain. Trans is being like 7 years old wanting to be a girl before you hit puberty

Well, holy shit, seek therapy immediately. Your parents were negligent as hell letting you user the internet unobserved at age 11, so I will assume they were drunks or drug addicts as well. You need to chill out and start a long process of rewiring your brain. You are young so u think it will be possible

No this is a straight guy so deep into femdom he can only get off on being degraded by being gay. Which says a lot about his feelings towards gays maybe... But still straight

>How much pornography
Straight porn from 11-21
Porn that qualifies as gay from 20-21
Masturbating 1-5 times a day aged 11-20
Masturbating 2-6 times a day aged 21
>marijuana
I thought it would give me dumb charisma when I needed it the most around girls, around 5g?
>Trans is being like 7 years old wanting to be a girl before you hit puberty
I had this aged 8 I think for a month or two, I kept on waking up and feeling sad that I wasn't a girl despite praying or trying to will it to happen. I wanted to ask my mother whether it was possible but it didn't seem right so I forgot about it. Like I just easily forgot about it until I was 18, I don't feel trans. If I was to ever have transitioned I'd just feel like a trender. Zero social or physical dysphoria
They're catholics and they're overly strict people, especially my mother.

I used to think this but why is it I get off to self inserting as trannies or fem gay bottoms being fucked by men? The anxiety builds over the course of the day and I find myself masturbating at least every 2 hours, I now get these thoughts and urges all by myself even after I stop for over a week. They do decrease if I spend time around people but they still come back

this

Pray the gay away

Its called autogenephilia. Ive got a buffalo bill esque variant. Its just a fetish man.

>autogenephilia
aka being a fem gay faggot who deludes himself into thinking meta attraction doesn't equal actual attraction and desire

Get a gf and get her into pegging

i've never understood how people could be confused about their sexuality, to me it's like being confused about your favorite color, it's just retarded

>i've never understood how people could be confused about their sexuality, to me it's like being confused about your favorite color, it's just retarded
Exactly what I thought aged 8-21

God damnit user that is sad, I hope you can decondition yourself. It might take going internet-free in your living space. Stories like this will save other kids, since we will become parents and our generation will be aware of the danger. I just hope the ones in our generation don't get fucked up permanently

Listen to this guy. In our society questioning or repressing your deviant sexual desires has been taught to be a bad thing, yet when people with normal sexual desires repress for a greater purpose it's seen as being honorable. What's basically happening is that some part of you likes the degeneracy, but another part is resistant, you just have to decide which side you feed.

I don't think anybody can be attracted to women and then just switch to men. You said it was a femdom thing at first and the women are calling you a gay right? Seems pretty cut and dry, you are turned on by being degraded and you see gay sex as the most immasculating thing you can imagine.

I would challenge that, not as an sjw but to help you out of your weird fetish: gay guys are just men who are attracted to men and a lot of them could beat the living shit out of you. Gay bottoms are not inherently wimpy or degraded, afaik. That's just your fetish idea of them.

Next step is figuring out why being dominated turns you on. I think the submissive mindset comes from being afraid to take action, wanting direction because you have anxiety or severely low self esteem. So instead of simply abstaining from porn you should be building up your self esteem in corny, positive ways, and treating yourself like a friend, not someone who deserves scolding. It's pretty far removed from porn fetish stuff but this book will help anyone with self esteem, anxiety, and depression issues

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no he’s a fetishist

So I can just be heterosexual? Why was I gender non conforming as a child and why did I fantasize about being an abused girl in various situations before I went to sleep aged roughly 8-9? Why do I get off to gay porn while self inserting as the bottom and feel aroused when I look at guys bodies aside from the face?

I actually think user is a HSTS rather than AGP.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homosexual_transsexual
>sexually attracted to men
>isnt attracted to women but admires how they look and the traditional role they have in het relationships

What if you're retarded serious question

Yeah but what about 1.?

My very masculine heterosexual boyfriend has the same kink. It's autogynophilia. Do you actually want to have sex with men? Or is the autogynophilia the only fetish? Like would you enjoy having sex with a man as a man? Also do mens anatomy turn you on? You're normal either way op it's really not a big deal Its just you might be bisexual.

I read the rest of the thread. You're just a bisexual fetishist. It's really not a big deal as long as you keep it in your private life. Lay off porn if you don't like how it's making you feel about women. Honestly you're fine.

Look at more titties.

you are quite literally me, we're just mentally ill. It's basically very mild and functioning schizophrenia. Read Deleuze or something. And only watch anime porn instead of 3d porn. Also watch slasher movies.
That will fix you, fixed me.

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I had this shit. It is entirely caused by depression and anxiety. You need to learn to love yourself user. Don't let the hateful voice win. Also stop putting so much weight on gayness or femininity, they are not as important as you think.

Stop your abusive ways you pig disgusting animals.

user let go of sex it is not so important. Just try to enjoy other things in life. If you want to be with a woman you can don't worry about the sex just worry about finding a wonderful woman to be with. Sex comes afterwards.

No you are an abusive voice. He is not a woman he is a man. Everyone is spiritually male and female the masculine and feminine are in us all and must be accepted however they manifest within you.

it's disgusting how you people try to pray on young mentally ill guys on the internet like you're doing.

STOP FALLING FOR THE MENTAL ILLNESS MEME YOU FUCKS. Goddamit user get a grip you are still a straight man if you want to be. It is literally whatever YOU want. Forget these FAGS do what you want it's up to you. I believe in you.